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(dramatic music starts)

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- We all have a primal
connection to the sea.

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We're drawn to it for
comfort, or out of fear.

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For Taylor, I think it's where
he went to be born again.

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I also believe that a part
of him went there to die.

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(boat starts creaking)

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(waves start to crash)

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(music fades)

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It's cold as hell.

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(coughs)

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Another storm's rolling in.

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(thunder rumbles)

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- Look at that, 12
Foot seas right now.

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It's supposed to be picking up.

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(boat continues
creaking and clattering)

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Yeah, here we are.

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Fuck it.

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(dramatic music starts)

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(thunder roars)

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(birds chirp)

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Centuries ago,

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there was a story written about
a man coming home from war.

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It's called the
Odyssey, by Homer.

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It's one of my
biggest inspirations.

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Odysseus spent 10
years at war overseas.

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And at the end of it, Odysseus
took off on a sailboat

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with a bunch of his
buds to get back home.

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There's something
to be said about man

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or woman on the water.

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(waves crash)

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Turn the engine off and
you can put up the sails

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and you're connected to it all.

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Your mind doesn't
think about anything

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other than harnessing
the power of the wind.

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- Taylor and I
met in high school

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and we became close
friends on the swim team.

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(whistle blows)

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(water splashes)

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His drive and stubbornness
was always getting us

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into trouble growing up,
but that same tenacity is

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what drove him to become Captain
of the varsity swim team,

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despite failing his
freshman year tryouts.

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Taylor came out for the team

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and he just wasn't quite
fast enough, you know?

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And I said, you're just
gonna get run over.

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It's gonna be no fun. You're
not gonna be keeping up.

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You've got the
heart, I can tell.

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There's a club team over here,
where if you go swim with

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the club, you can train with
a bunch of 11 and 12 year olds

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'cause that's about
your speed, right now.

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And so, he's like, okay.

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And he went and did that.

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And then, by his
senior year, he was

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school record holder with the
400 freestyle, all-American.

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That kid won't give up.

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(laughs)

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He won't give up on anything.

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Taylor Grieger was my
go-to motivational story

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every time I had to cut a kid.

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I'm cutting you
now, but, you know,

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put in the work, you
can be like that guy.

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And I would point to
the board and I'd go,

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see that name up
there on the board?

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That's who I'm talking about.

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And now he's a Navy
rescue swimmer.

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(war sound effects)

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- Taylor enlisted right
out of high school.

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And I went into academia.

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We lost touch for a while,

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but we reconnected about
seven years later in Guam,

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which is out in the middle
of the Pacific Ocean.

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Taylor was stationed out there

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and I went to do research for
a book that I was writing.

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Taylor was getting out in a
few months and he didn't really

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have anything lined
up for him back home,

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but he did have this wild
dream to sail 10,000 miles

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to the bottom of the
world, to around Cape Horn.

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(waves crashing)

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And Cape Horn is the
Mount Everest of sailing.

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That was going to
be his Odyssey.

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Even though I had no
sailing experience,

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Taylor asked if I
would go with him.

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And that was crazy. I had
no idea what to expect,

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but I said yes.

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This had the potential to be
the adventure of a lifetime.

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But I also knew that
Taylor needed this.

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He'd been diagnosed with PTSD
and he was having a rough time

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transitioning out
of the military.

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(radio crackles)

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Taylor needed time and distance

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to help process his
experiences in the Navy.

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(a sharp ding sounds)

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- I didn't that it was
gonna affect me that bad.

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I didn't think I was going
to have a hard time with it,

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but I did.

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I would drive around in my truck

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and my heart rate
started pumping.

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I could feel my face heat up.

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I would be shaken
and tense, you know,

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like I was about
to get in a fight.

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I'd start crying.

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My emotions flooded out.

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I wasn't in control of what
was happening to my body.

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It would just happen
and I didn't know why.

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- The way Taylor
will describe it.

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It's like driving a
truck 70 miles an hour

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and then slamming it
into a brick wall.

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(music fades to a stop)

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I heard a couple people

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talk about suicide
before, you know, and, uh.

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They're like, you know,
that's so selfish.

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How could you do
something like that?

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Everybody that cares about you,
you leave behind, you know?

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I don't think what anybody
ever says out loud is,

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I mean, those people,

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I

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was in so much pain.

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You hurt all day.

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And you see the
worst things that

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you can see in this world,
every day of every second.

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You know, everybody that
I pulled from the water,

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everybody that had
lost their home,

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and buddies that had
killed themselves.

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I see them every day.

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And when your body's run
away from you like that,

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and it's trying to adjust into
a new climate and new pace,

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and you're in that much pain.

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You don't want to live
in this world anymore.

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(waves crash)

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Drank some tequila.
Drank a lot of tequila

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and ended up driving
out to the beach.

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(dramatic music starts)

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I ended up putting
my Glock to my head

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and pulled the trigger.

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And it didn't go off.

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I took the round out.
The firing pin went off.

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There was a dent on
the back of the bullet.

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It should have exploded.

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And after that, all I
thought about was all the,

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all my buds coming home
and feeling like that.

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That's all I thought about, man.

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I don't want them to feel
that alone, you know?

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That they didn't
have another option.

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So, I wanted to find a
way to give them an option

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when they came back, you know?

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I don't know why the
round didn't go off.

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How I wasn't meant to
die then, you know? But,

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I still think about
it all the time.

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Why the fuck didn't
that bullet go off?

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What am I still
doing here? You know?

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Was it a second chance?

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- I got here with a
dream that I've had

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since I was a kid, man.

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All I wanted to do was
sail around the world,

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see everything it had to offer.

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There's something more than

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Texas. You know?
God bless Texas.

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And now it's time to
get the ball rolling.

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(mechanical grinding)

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- Personally, this trip,
I've put everything into.

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I'd put away money
for nine years,

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closed out all my credit cards.

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All of it's in the boat

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We call our boat the Old Lady.

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We named her that because we
needed her to take care of us

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in the open ocean, but
she was also really old.

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Taylor had bought her used and

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worked on her tirelessly for
the better part of the year.

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- Growing up, my grandpa, he
had a boat take me out on him.

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And so, I understood
how boats worked.

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But as far as the maintenance,
I didn't know anything.

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And I can seriously only
credit that to YouTube.

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After about 30 minutes,

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the fiberglass is hard
enough to sand smooth.

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- I went to YouTube academy,
learned it all there.

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- And in this episode,
we're going to explore

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the complexity of fuel
delivery and the Marine diesel.

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(tools grinding)

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Hours of YouTube.

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Every single nut, screw,

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bolt,

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seam,

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all of it, has
been placed by us.

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Not only builds a special
bond we have with her.

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We love this old lady.

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But we're confident in, uh,

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making sure she makes
it to keep warm.

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- Our plan is to cast off
from Pensacola, Florida,

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sail 10,000 nautical
miles, 200 days at sea,

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to reach the Southern
most tip of South America,

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the notorious Cape Horn.

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Cape Horn harbor's the
most treacherous waters

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on the planet.

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It's where the Pacific and
Atlantic Oceans collide.

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You get storms year round.

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100 foot road waves

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and Willa walls with
hurricane force winds.

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But, the journey to Cape Horn

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was going to be
the real challenge.

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(waves crash)

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(music fades to a stop)

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(club music starts)

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What's going on, bro?

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(laughing)

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Today's the day.

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It is indeed.

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(club music fades to a stop)

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(dramatic music starts)

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What's wrong with it?

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(boat engine revs)

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- We should have done more
to prepare for this journey.

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Really, we should've done
it in a million dollar yacht

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with a steel hull.
But, you know?

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I think that's one of the
things you learn sailing.

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That if you wait
until you're ready,

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your boat will never
leave the Harbor.

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I've thrown up twice, now.

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That's how nervous I am. Never
happened before in my life.

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- We recruited
Taylor's friend, Kell,

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a fellow rescue swimmer,

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to help us cross
the Gulf of Mexico.

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He'd been on
deployments with Taylor

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and they were stationed
together in Guam.

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I'm proud of you guys.

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Some people, they're like,
I have these great ideas.

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But, most of the time,
people don't follow through.

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Of course, anyone who follows
through looks crazy, man.

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- The weather looks good. We
have a cold front coming down.

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That's gonna give
us some weather,

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but nothing you can't handle.

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- I look forward to that
moment that we just set sail

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cause I know that, as
soon as we're out there,

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all the nerves are just
gonna get flushed out.

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dramatic to upbeat)

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We're doing it.

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- The opening to the Gulf
is right ahead of us.

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Once we pass that,
we're in an open water,

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heading for Mexico.

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(waves crash)

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It feels good.

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You can just stare out at
the horizon as you do it.

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I love being a sailor, man.

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(laughing)

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(music stops)

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What's going on?

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- Barometric
pressure is dropping.

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We've got two huge
cumulonimbus clouds,

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which isn't your
standard squall line.

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Expecting a pretty
good storm tonight.

254
00:14:22,462 --> 00:14:24,764
Not one of those hits
you and quits you types.

255
00:14:25,598 --> 00:14:27,600
(wind roars)

256
00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:29,102
Breaking news:

257
00:14:29,102 --> 00:14:31,471
Hurricane Harvey barreling
into the Texas coastline

258
00:14:31,471 --> 00:14:34,908
as a category four storm
with 130 mile an hour winds,

259
00:14:34,908 --> 00:14:37,810
- - The strongest Atlantic
hurricane in 10 years.

260
00:14:40,780 --> 00:14:42,849
- What's the game
plan for the storm?

261
00:14:44,817 --> 00:14:46,019
Hold on to your butts.

262
00:14:47,955 --> 00:14:49,656
- You're gonna sail
right through it?

263
00:14:49,656 --> 00:14:51,558
Heck, you can't go anywhere.

264
00:14:51,558 --> 00:14:54,361
There's nowhere to
go. Nowhere to go

265
00:14:54,361 --> 00:14:56,063
out here in the
middle of nowhere.

266
00:14:57,597 --> 00:14:58,431
We're fucked.

267
00:14:58,431 --> 00:14:59,466
(thunder crashes)

268
00:14:59,466 --> 00:15:00,700
(dramatic music starts)

269
00:15:00,700 --> 00:15:03,603
- We're 400 miles from
shore in every direction

270
00:15:03,603 --> 00:15:06,406
and we hit the
mother of all storms.

271
00:15:08,141 --> 00:15:09,642
- I was looking
out at the horizon

272
00:15:09,642 --> 00:15:12,379
and it was a wall of black,
we were going right into.

273
00:15:13,813 --> 00:15:17,050
(thunder roars)

274
00:15:17,050 --> 00:15:18,685
You're not outrunning
that storm.

275
00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:23,690
- I was at the helm when the
front of the storm hit us.

276
00:15:25,858 --> 00:15:29,562
And, immediately, the mast
was scraping the waves

277
00:15:29,562 --> 00:15:30,897
that were rolling under us.

278
00:15:32,465 --> 00:15:35,002
- There are waves
crashing all over the bow.

279
00:15:35,002 --> 00:15:36,736
Flooding the railings.

280
00:15:36,736 --> 00:15:38,738
- And there was no time to
put harnesses on or anything.

281
00:15:38,738 --> 00:15:41,774
We were gonna lose the
boat in that instant.

282
00:15:41,774 --> 00:15:43,310
I looked over at
Kell and I was like,

283
00:15:43,310 --> 00:15:45,412
we gotta get that main down.

284
00:15:45,412 --> 00:15:46,613
Put her into the wind!

285
00:15:47,480 --> 00:15:48,781
Let's go!

286
00:15:48,781 --> 00:15:50,817
(groans out of strain)

287
00:15:50,817 --> 00:15:53,420
- In order to physically
pull the sail down,

288
00:15:53,420 --> 00:15:55,788
I had to turn the
boat into the wind,

289
00:15:55,788 --> 00:15:58,258
which was also into the swells.

290
00:15:58,258 --> 00:15:59,526
And, right as I did that,

291
00:15:59,526 --> 00:16:02,495
we went over the crest
of this massive wave.

292
00:16:05,298 --> 00:16:07,500
The entire bow of
the boat submerged,

293
00:16:07,500 --> 00:16:09,369
as we kind of crashed over it.

294
00:16:10,603 --> 00:16:12,905
(waves crash)

295
00:16:12,905 --> 00:16:14,274
We got hit by that wall
of water and it was like

296
00:16:14,274 --> 00:16:15,608
getting punched in the gut.

297
00:16:16,776 --> 00:16:19,779
- Water flooded over
the entire diping end.

298
00:16:24,651 --> 00:16:26,519
And, when everything
kind of settled,

299
00:16:27,520 --> 00:16:28,955
Taylor and Kell were gone.

300
00:16:32,359 --> 00:16:34,627
I thought they'd just
been washed out to sea.

301
00:16:36,096 --> 00:16:38,598
In a moment like that,
time just freezes

302
00:16:38,598 --> 00:16:40,633
and your mind is
working so fast.

303
00:16:41,934 --> 00:16:44,771
I thought I was just
completely alone on the boat,

304
00:16:46,506 --> 00:16:48,841
but, by some miracle,

305
00:16:48,841 --> 00:16:51,544
they had both managed to grab
a hold of lifelines as they

306
00:16:51,544 --> 00:16:53,546
were being flung off the boat.

307
00:16:53,546 --> 00:16:56,149
And just kind of like,
this intense moment,

308
00:16:56,149 --> 00:16:59,652
they both rose up at
the exact same time.

309
00:16:59,652 --> 00:17:02,089
(waves crash)

310
00:17:03,556 --> 00:17:07,260
And then just continued
hammering away at that mainsail.

311
00:17:08,361 --> 00:17:09,962
- It was a survival
storm, for us.

312
00:17:11,364 --> 00:17:12,999
I really thought
we were gonna die.

313
00:17:17,704 --> 00:17:20,273
- We battled storms on and
off for another three days,

314
00:17:20,273 --> 00:17:23,643
after that one. I guess,
that's what is to be expected

315
00:17:23,643 --> 00:17:25,912
if you're crossing
the Gulf of Mexico

316
00:17:25,912 --> 00:17:27,547
in the middle of
hurricane season.

317
00:17:27,547 --> 00:17:28,781
(music stops)

318
00:17:28,781 --> 00:17:30,783
And we just kinda had
to push for Mexico.

319
00:17:32,585 --> 00:17:33,820
- You're not prepared
for everything.

320
00:17:33,820 --> 00:17:35,822
All you can do is
just take the storm

321
00:17:35,822 --> 00:17:37,390
and keep on pushing through it.

322
00:17:39,092 --> 00:17:40,727
The guys that come
home from overseas

323
00:17:40,727 --> 00:17:42,895
face much larger
storms than we did.

324
00:17:44,531 --> 00:17:46,633
They're going into a storm.
They're not prepared at all.

325
00:17:46,633 --> 00:17:48,401
They have no idea what's coming.

326
00:17:48,401 --> 00:17:51,738
(dramatic music starts)

327
00:17:53,240 --> 00:17:54,741
When I was in,

328
00:17:54,741 --> 00:17:56,075
I saw a lot of my buddies
getting out of military

329
00:17:56,075 --> 00:17:58,111
and they were killing
themselves, you know?

330
00:17:58,111 --> 00:18:00,012
And it was always like, why?

331
00:18:01,781 --> 00:18:04,284
(waves crash)

332
00:18:08,588 --> 00:18:12,492
- Sick and tired of seeing
all our friends die.

333
00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:15,828
- While Taylor was
in the military,

334
00:18:15,828 --> 00:18:18,431
I had been interviewing
combat veterans for my book.

335
00:18:19,599 --> 00:18:21,401
I wanted to know why
more soldiers are

336
00:18:21,401 --> 00:18:23,936
dying by suicide than in combat.

337
00:18:23,936 --> 00:18:26,806
(helicopter whirring)

338
00:18:26,806 --> 00:18:30,210
And what I discovered is that
most veterans are not prepared

339
00:18:30,210 --> 00:18:32,245
for their transition
out of the military.

340
00:18:33,880 --> 00:18:36,082
We spend a months,
sometimes years,

341
00:18:36,082 --> 00:18:38,685
training these men and women
to protect our country.

342
00:18:40,086 --> 00:18:42,489
And at the end of their service,

343
00:18:42,489 --> 00:18:44,991
all they really get to
help them transition out

344
00:18:44,991 --> 00:18:47,260
is a five day
course called TAPs.

345
00:18:47,260 --> 00:18:50,463
And that's clearly not enough
to help prepare veterans

346
00:18:50,463 --> 00:18:53,466
emotionally or physically
for when they return home.

347
00:18:53,466 --> 00:18:56,936
Their mind and their
body need time to adjust.

348
00:18:56,936 --> 00:18:59,839
- The horrible thing about
it is it's not intellectual.

349
00:18:59,839 --> 00:19:01,140
It's purely physical.

350
00:19:02,275 --> 00:19:04,076
I suspect it probably
just is endorphins

351
00:19:04,076 --> 00:19:06,546
and adrenaline that
you don't have anymore.

352
00:19:06,546 --> 00:19:08,648
It's like trying
to get off alcohol.

353
00:19:08,648 --> 00:19:11,150
Your body wants it, even
though you know it's bad.

354
00:19:12,319 --> 00:19:14,221
- I have to try every
day to remind myself

355
00:19:14,221 --> 00:19:16,456
that I'm not a monster.

356
00:19:16,456 --> 00:19:18,491
I did what I was trained to do.

357
00:19:18,491 --> 00:19:20,126
I did everything right.

358
00:19:20,126 --> 00:19:24,264
But, just the fact that I did
it, is haunting in of itself.

359
00:19:25,565 --> 00:19:28,435
- I get stressed out. I
can feel it coming on.

360
00:19:29,836 --> 00:19:33,573
I had one that, I got so
stressed, it's just instant.

361
00:19:34,974 --> 00:19:38,511
And I woke up in my bathroom
covered in my own blood.

362
00:19:41,381 --> 00:19:44,217
I've lost seven of the
boys I deployed with.

363
00:19:45,385 --> 00:19:46,653
I miss those guys, man.

364
00:19:48,054 --> 00:19:49,589
The funniest guys you
always wanted to be around

365
00:19:49,589 --> 00:19:50,423
in the room.

366
00:19:51,658 --> 00:19:54,527
They were infectious
and intelligent.

367
00:19:55,995 --> 00:19:57,997
Guys that could have been
great for the States,

368
00:19:57,997 --> 00:19:59,666
could have been
assets, you know?

369
00:20:01,000 --> 00:20:04,337
This world is less than
without people like that in it.

370
00:20:04,337 --> 00:20:06,873
And people like that are
dropping out of this world

371
00:20:06,873 --> 00:20:08,007
every single day, dude.

372
00:20:10,076 --> 00:20:12,111
And I'm never going to
stop thinking about 'em.

373
00:20:12,111 --> 00:20:13,346
(music fades to a stop)

374
00:20:13,346 --> 00:20:15,482
- That kid loves
with a huge heart.

375
00:20:15,482 --> 00:20:17,850
Once you're in his family,

376
00:20:17,850 --> 00:20:20,820
that guy will literally
lay down his life for you.

377
00:20:20,820 --> 00:20:22,422
And, to him,

378
00:20:22,422 --> 00:20:23,923
(dramatic music starts)

379
00:20:23,923 --> 00:20:25,792
all the military
guys are his family.

380
00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:29,195
I wanted to sail,

381
00:20:30,897 --> 00:20:33,500
but more so, I wanted to make
sure that none of my buddies

382
00:20:33,500 --> 00:20:35,502
getting out after me
killed themselves.

383
00:20:36,869 --> 00:20:38,305
We'd decided, let's try

384
00:20:38,305 --> 00:20:40,106
and make this bigger
than just ourselves.

385
00:20:40,106 --> 00:20:43,175
How can we do this in
a way that can help

386
00:20:43,175 --> 00:20:44,844
more people than just us?

387
00:20:46,245 --> 00:20:49,482
So from day one, we to
kind of document this trip.

388
00:20:52,018 --> 00:20:54,387
- To raise awareness,
to build a community,

389
00:20:54,387 --> 00:20:55,888
to show other guys

390
00:20:55,888 --> 00:20:57,957
that they're not the only
ones going through it.

391
00:21:00,092 --> 00:21:02,495
- We set up a website and
social media pages for

392
00:21:02,495 --> 00:21:06,466
Skeleton Crew Sailing,
so that friends, family,

393
00:21:06,466 --> 00:21:08,568
and most importantly,
veterans, could follow along

394
00:21:08,568 --> 00:21:11,170
with our journey and see
how Taylor was progressing.

395
00:21:27,387 --> 00:21:29,155
- It's not the answer, but
it's a start, you know?

396
00:21:29,155 --> 00:21:32,325
The start of a conversation
to say, you know?

397
00:21:32,325 --> 00:21:34,226
We can fix this.

398
00:21:34,226 --> 00:21:35,528
This kid pulls this off,

399
00:21:37,129 --> 00:21:39,366
he's gonna change lives.
He's gonna change lives.

400
00:21:39,366 --> 00:21:40,667
Not just his, but others'.

401
00:21:44,771 --> 00:21:46,606
(music fades to a stop)

402
00:21:46,606 --> 00:21:48,475
- How are you feeling
there, Taylor?

403
00:21:48,475 --> 00:21:50,276
Alright, I see land.

404
00:21:52,211 --> 00:21:55,348
(indistinct shouting)

405
00:21:57,850 --> 00:21:59,852
(upbeat music starts)

406
00:21:59,852 --> 00:22:02,188
- Look at that
beautiful sight, dude!

407
00:22:03,122 --> 00:22:05,892
(water splashes)

408
00:22:15,535 --> 00:22:19,672
- Arriving in Cancun, and
seeing land for the first time,

409
00:22:19,672 --> 00:22:21,207
that was unlike anything.

410
00:22:22,141 --> 00:22:23,843
We were alive.

411
00:22:23,843 --> 00:22:26,813
We had undergone
a baptism by fire

412
00:22:26,813 --> 00:22:28,615
and we had come out
stronger for it.

413
00:22:33,486 --> 00:22:35,254
It was hard saying
goodbye to Kell.

414
00:22:36,989 --> 00:22:38,658
He had helped to
train Taylor to become

415
00:22:38,658 --> 00:22:42,228
a helicopter crew chief, but
when Kell's contract ended,

416
00:22:42,228 --> 00:22:44,497
he chose to stay
in the military.

417
00:22:44,497 --> 00:22:47,467
Kell saw a lot of the same
problems as Taylor in Guam,

418
00:22:47,467 --> 00:22:49,402
but the military worked for him.

419
00:22:50,870 --> 00:22:52,605
He only had a few weeks
leave for the whole year,

420
00:22:52,605 --> 00:22:54,741
but he still flew down to
help us cross the Gulf.

421
00:22:54,741 --> 00:22:58,177
- Seeing Kell leave, after
everything we'd been through,

422
00:22:58,177 --> 00:22:59,779
that was rough.

423
00:22:59,779 --> 00:23:02,081
It was awesome, having him
out here, having my back,

424
00:23:02,081 --> 00:23:04,150
you know? Transitioning
into the civilian world.

425
00:23:04,150 --> 00:23:05,885
He flew out here to
help us with this cause.

426
00:23:05,885 --> 00:23:07,286
There we go.

427
00:23:07,286 --> 00:23:08,721
- Then, watching
him get on a plane

428
00:23:08,721 --> 00:23:11,491
and leave back into the
military, left Stephen and I,

429
00:23:11,491 --> 00:23:15,027
true Skeleton Crew, out
here to battle the seas.

430
00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:18,197
Yeah.

431
00:23:27,474 --> 00:23:30,309
- We are currently rolling
into Belize City, right now,

432
00:23:30,309 --> 00:23:31,644
at the sunrise.

433
00:23:31,644 --> 00:23:32,712
That's pretty cool.

434
00:23:33,546 --> 00:23:36,148
(birds chirping)

435
00:23:36,148 --> 00:23:39,986
- You're the prettiest with
smelling pity in all the land.

436
00:23:41,087 --> 00:23:42,354
This is how we live.

437
00:23:42,354 --> 00:23:44,090
We don't want nothing
to be too extravagant.

438
00:23:44,090 --> 00:23:45,892
We just want to live comfortably

439
00:23:45,892 --> 00:23:48,227
and be free in what we're doing.

440
00:23:50,497 --> 00:23:53,232
(water splashes)

441
00:23:55,001 --> 00:23:57,504
- We really started to hit
our stride after Belize.

442
00:23:58,771 --> 00:24:01,508
Taylor was at his
best, behind the helm.

443
00:24:01,508 --> 00:24:02,875
And this trip, you know?

444
00:24:02,875 --> 00:24:05,778
As a form of decompression
or transition,

445
00:24:05,778 --> 00:24:06,979
it seemed to be working.

446
00:24:09,081 --> 00:24:10,517
Even when storms hit,

447
00:24:10,517 --> 00:24:13,185
which was pretty much every
single day down there,

448
00:24:13,185 --> 00:24:14,487
Taylor would deal with it.

449
00:24:16,689 --> 00:24:19,025
- There's a 50%
chance of rain today.

450
00:24:19,025 --> 00:24:20,292
(laughing)

451
00:24:20,292 --> 00:24:21,961
Might be a thunder
storm, might not.

452
00:24:21,961 --> 00:24:24,631
(thunder roars)

453
00:24:33,606 --> 00:24:36,643
- Navigating, we're about to
leave Belize City, right now.

454
00:24:36,643 --> 00:24:40,713
We figured we deserve the
chance to anchor more off of

455
00:24:40,713 --> 00:24:43,115
the Great Blue Hole. That's
where we're headed, right now.

456
00:24:43,115 --> 00:24:44,350
It's awesome. You know?

457
00:24:44,350 --> 00:24:46,619
It's on the top things
to do in the world.

458
00:24:46,619 --> 00:24:48,921
- The Great Blue Hole
is this massive sinkhole

459
00:24:48,921 --> 00:24:50,456
off the coast of Belize.

460
00:24:50,456 --> 00:24:53,626
It's famous for having just
crystalline waters that plummet

461
00:24:53,626 --> 00:24:57,296
into the deep, with amazing
fish and spectacular coral.

462
00:24:57,296 --> 00:24:58,798
(music fades to a stop)

463
00:24:58,798 --> 00:25:00,032
I'm pretty excited about it.

464
00:25:00,032 --> 00:25:01,200
Stephen's pretty
excited about it.

465
00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:03,302
We'll be there probably
tomorrow morning.

466
00:25:03,302 --> 00:25:07,506
Right now, we're trying to
navigate these coral reefs.

467
00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:11,077
It's a little dicey, but nothing
the Old Lady can't handle.

468
00:25:15,648 --> 00:25:18,985
(boat creaks and beeps)

469
00:25:28,327 --> 00:25:29,161
Oh, man.

470
00:25:31,297 --> 00:25:33,132
Old Lady's pretty banged up.

471
00:25:35,001 --> 00:25:38,037
And it all started
with us crashing into

472
00:25:40,239 --> 00:25:42,274
some coral reef.

473
00:25:43,776 --> 00:25:46,545
I was at the bow, supposed
to be guiding the boat,

474
00:25:47,647 --> 00:25:48,881
we were riding the sun.

475
00:25:50,617 --> 00:25:54,320
Just, all of a sudden, we were
in five foot water. You know?

476
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:56,055
We're sailing across
open ocean, you know?

477
00:25:56,055 --> 00:25:57,657
And we've got holes in the boat.

478
00:25:59,859 --> 00:26:01,093
Hi, man. How's it going?

479
00:26:04,631 --> 00:26:06,799
Doing alright.

480
00:26:06,799 --> 00:26:08,534
- Taylor's just kind of
been giving me, you know?

481
00:26:08,534 --> 00:26:09,936
One word responses,

482
00:26:09,936 --> 00:26:12,772
I feel kinda guilty for
fucking up the boat.

483
00:26:14,173 --> 00:26:15,341
You know?

484
00:26:15,341 --> 00:26:16,342
You holding up okay?

485
00:26:23,315 --> 00:26:24,150
Yeah.

486
00:26:28,788 --> 00:26:30,489
I mean, I'm just asking, dude.

487
00:26:30,489 --> 00:26:32,124
You've been kinda quiet
the past few days.

488
00:26:32,124 --> 00:26:33,926
So, I don't know, like?

489
00:26:33,926 --> 00:26:35,762
Miss my dogs, dude,

490
00:26:35,762 --> 00:26:37,596
out here in the middle
of these Goddamn storms.

491
00:26:37,596 --> 00:26:40,933
(dramatic music starts)

492
00:26:46,272 --> 00:26:48,775
- Here we are. Ocean
is unforgiving.

493
00:26:51,911 --> 00:26:55,447
I think Stephen's definitely
starting to figure out that,

494
00:26:55,447 --> 00:26:58,017
you make a mistake
out here, you die.

495
00:26:58,017 --> 00:27:00,486
(waves crash)

496
00:27:05,491 --> 00:27:06,759
While we were in Honduras,

497
00:27:06,759 --> 00:27:08,695
we got bogged down on
the island of Roatán,

498
00:27:10,129 --> 00:27:12,899
as two back-to-back tropical
depressions struck the island.

499
00:27:17,069 --> 00:27:20,339
We'd been on shore that
night, drinking a little bit.

500
00:27:20,339 --> 00:27:22,108
(chatter)

501
00:27:22,108 --> 00:27:24,076
- I think Taylor just
lost his patience

502
00:27:24,076 --> 00:27:27,213
with the whole scenario, but
it kind of got directed at me,

503
00:27:27,213 --> 00:27:31,083
in that moment. And Taylor
said, if you don't stop talking,

504
00:27:31,083 --> 00:27:32,952
I'm gonna punch you in the face.

505
00:27:32,952 --> 00:27:34,453
But I had a point to make,

506
00:27:34,453 --> 00:27:37,857
so I kept talking and, sure
enough, Taylor came at me.

507
00:27:39,191 --> 00:27:40,492
(scuffling)

508
00:27:40,492 --> 00:27:41,928
We scuffled a little bit.

509
00:27:41,928 --> 00:27:44,163
And, I think, in
all of the storms

510
00:27:44,163 --> 00:27:46,332
and everything
we'd been through,

511
00:27:46,332 --> 00:27:48,701
that was one of the
scariest moments.

512
00:27:48,701 --> 00:27:50,569
In that moment, when
you have somebody

513
00:27:50,569 --> 00:27:52,604
who's been in the military
for the past six years

514
00:27:52,604 --> 00:27:54,640
come at you, like?

515
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:55,908
What am I supposed to do?

516
00:27:59,245 --> 00:28:01,080
(music fades to a stop)

517
00:28:01,080 --> 00:28:03,649
After the fight, we went
back to the Old Lady

518
00:28:03,649 --> 00:28:05,885
and we sat down and
we talked about it.

519
00:28:07,153 --> 00:28:08,855
And I said, if
either of us swings

520
00:28:08,855 --> 00:28:11,190
at each other again on
this voyage, it is over.

521
00:28:12,424 --> 00:28:14,460
We're not gonna make
it around Cape Horn,

522
00:28:14,460 --> 00:28:16,763
if we can't even
get along at shore.

523
00:28:16,763 --> 00:28:17,663
And Taylor agreed.

524
00:28:19,732 --> 00:28:23,535
My best friend in the world
punched me in the face

525
00:28:24,570 --> 00:28:25,571
and that's alright.

526
00:28:26,973 --> 00:28:31,143
What it comes down to is
when you make a bad call

527
00:28:31,143 --> 00:28:36,082
or you say a bad thing
and uh, your true friends,

528
00:28:36,082 --> 00:28:38,550
they'll always punch
you in the face,

529
00:28:38,550 --> 00:28:40,787
whenever you say
something stupid.

530
00:28:40,787 --> 00:28:43,655
And you can count on 'em for it.

531
00:28:43,655 --> 00:28:45,157
Now, we're good, man.

532
00:28:45,157 --> 00:28:47,559
(upbeat music starts)

533
00:28:47,559 --> 00:28:50,329
(water splashes)

534
00:28:56,002 --> 00:28:58,304
(birds chirp)

535
00:28:58,304 --> 00:29:01,173
- We put the fight behind us
and continued on to Panama.

536
00:29:02,975 --> 00:29:05,744
But, I don't think we
really grasped the extent

537
00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:08,347
of the damage those storms
had done to the Old Lady.

538
00:29:09,782 --> 00:29:13,585
Our engine seized about a
hundred miles off the coast of

539
00:29:13,585 --> 00:29:15,121
Honduras and Nicaragua.

540
00:29:17,323 --> 00:29:20,026
And there was nothing we
could do to fix it out there.

541
00:29:22,494 --> 00:29:26,232
So we had to sail 600
miles straight to Panama,

542
00:29:27,366 --> 00:29:29,268
which had the only
real repair facilities

543
00:29:29,268 --> 00:29:30,870
on that side of Central America.

544
00:29:32,238 --> 00:29:34,706
But, the thing about
sailing without an engine,

545
00:29:34,706 --> 00:29:36,742
(music fades to a stop)

546
00:29:36,742 --> 00:29:37,643
is you need wind.

547
00:29:38,610 --> 00:29:41,380
(water splashes)

548
00:29:45,818 --> 00:29:49,555
We hit a doldrums area,
where we went about a week,

549
00:29:49,555 --> 00:29:52,158
where the only wind we
got was from squall lines.

550
00:29:52,158 --> 00:29:54,927
And they'd push us maybe
like five or 10 miles,

551
00:29:54,927 --> 00:29:56,662
and then the winds
would die again.

552
00:29:58,965 --> 00:30:03,302
And we'd be left there rocking
for, usually, 12 hours.

553
00:30:03,302 --> 00:30:06,538
(waves splash quietly)

554
00:30:15,948 --> 00:30:16,782
Hello?

555
00:30:18,317 --> 00:30:19,585
Where's your morale at?

556
00:30:20,619 --> 00:30:21,553
Comes and goes.

557
00:30:23,055 --> 00:30:25,591
Usually, it depends on
how caffeinated I am

558
00:30:25,591 --> 00:30:26,993
and how much sleep I've had.

559
00:30:28,460 --> 00:30:29,896
But, right now,
I'm going on about,

560
00:30:29,896 --> 00:30:34,000
I had, three hours,
last night, and then,

561
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:36,768
I had maybe an hour and a
half, today, during the day.

562
00:30:38,370 --> 00:30:39,171
But, still.

563
00:30:40,106 --> 00:30:41,373
I'm pretty exhausted, man.

564
00:30:43,042 --> 00:30:46,812
- Turned south and
seeing Panama, right now, at two hundred

565
00:30:46,812 --> 00:30:48,380
and 60 miles to go.

566
00:30:49,481 --> 00:30:51,250
No engine,

567
00:30:51,250 --> 00:30:53,052
all sails,

568
00:30:53,052 --> 00:30:55,521
all the power's out on the boat.

569
00:30:55,521 --> 00:30:58,958
We use these lights to see at
night, if the moon's not out.

570
00:31:04,897 --> 00:31:06,899
And our boats falling apart.

571
00:31:06,899 --> 00:31:08,000
(laughs)

572
00:31:08,000 --> 00:31:08,867
So, there's that.

573
00:31:10,669 --> 00:31:12,939
(waves crash)

574
00:31:12,939 --> 00:31:16,608
What saved us was a single
night of very light winds,

575
00:31:16,608 --> 00:31:18,844
that pushed us, just enough,

576
00:31:18,844 --> 00:31:23,782
to get us within shouting
distance of the coast of Panama.

577
00:31:23,782 --> 00:31:27,053
(horn blares)

578
00:31:27,053 --> 00:31:29,788
(water splashes)

579
00:31:32,524 --> 00:31:36,162
And then we got towed in
by Shelter Bay Marina.

580
00:31:36,162 --> 00:31:39,331
(upbeat music starts)

581
00:31:43,369 --> 00:31:45,972
We hunkered down in Panama
to make some repairs.

582
00:31:46,973 --> 00:31:50,109
(mechanical grinding)

583
00:31:54,546 --> 00:31:59,518
And to ready the Old Lady for
the rough seas that lay ahead.

584
00:32:04,223 --> 00:32:06,225
- The boat's not in
perfect shape, right now.

585
00:32:06,225 --> 00:32:08,560
(mechanical grinding)

586
00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:11,363
- We're going through the
Canal, here, tomorrow.

587
00:32:15,401 --> 00:32:17,669
- Crossing the Panama Canal,
was something that Taylor

588
00:32:17,669 --> 00:32:19,805
and I were both
really excited about.

589
00:32:21,273 --> 00:32:23,875
It's one of the seven
wonders of the modern world.

590
00:32:25,311 --> 00:32:27,713
And the Canal is a kind of
rite of passage for sailors.

591
00:32:28,847 --> 00:32:32,218
But, for us, it was
our point of no return.

592
00:32:35,887 --> 00:32:38,157
- Sailing this Old
Lady, you know?

593
00:32:38,157 --> 00:32:40,892
Into the Flats, right now.

594
00:32:40,892 --> 00:32:43,996
- Hello there, Old Lady, you
may proceed to the Flats.

595
00:32:43,996 --> 00:32:46,732
(water splashes)

596
00:33:04,350 --> 00:33:07,253
(indistinct chatter)

597
00:33:07,253 --> 00:33:08,754
(laughing)

598
00:33:08,754 --> 00:33:12,591
- We actually rafted-up next
to the British army's boat

599
00:33:12,591 --> 00:33:15,994
and it's completely run by
active duty, British military.

600
00:33:17,196 --> 00:33:18,664
Is it okay to come on board?

601
00:33:20,999 --> 00:33:22,201
They welcomed us on their boat

602
00:33:22,201 --> 00:33:23,669
and we immediately hit it off.

603
00:33:23,669 --> 00:33:25,071
Had that connection.

604
00:33:25,071 --> 00:33:26,505
(happy chatter and laughter)

605
00:33:26,505 --> 00:33:27,739
The question came up:

606
00:33:27,739 --> 00:33:28,974
what the hell are you
guys doing out here?

607
00:33:28,974 --> 00:33:30,809
What are you? You know?
What are y'all about?

608
00:33:30,809 --> 00:33:33,945
It was eye-opening
to hear their story.

609
00:33:35,147 --> 00:33:37,349
They're required to send
a third of their unit on

610
00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:40,652
an expedition: sailing,
hiking, camping, kayaking,

611
00:33:40,652 --> 00:33:42,254
you know, you name it.

612
00:33:42,254 --> 00:33:44,223
And one of the guys
was like, look, man,

613
00:33:44,223 --> 00:33:45,791
the biggest deal is like, hey,

614
00:33:45,791 --> 00:33:47,126
you gotta take care of
your guys physically,

615
00:33:47,126 --> 00:33:49,928
but you gotta make sure
they're mentally stable

616
00:33:49,928 --> 00:33:51,697
and they care about that
and that's a big deal.

617
00:33:51,697 --> 00:33:52,831
And it's talked about

618
00:33:54,300 --> 00:33:55,634
and they breed that
culture, you know?

619
00:33:55,634 --> 00:33:58,137
You wanna be
healthy, in and out.

620
00:33:58,137 --> 00:33:59,271
Four,

621
00:33:59,271 --> 00:34:00,139
five,

622
00:34:00,139 --> 00:34:01,140
six,

623
00:34:01,140 --> 00:34:02,608
seven...

624
00:34:02,608 --> 00:34:03,609
- - The whole time I was
talking to them, I was like,

625
00:34:03,609 --> 00:34:04,910
what? Are you serious?

626
00:34:04,910 --> 00:34:06,578
Like, this is real thing?

627
00:34:06,578 --> 00:34:09,781
The United States doesn't
have any program like that.

628
00:34:09,781 --> 00:34:12,784
Dealing with veteran's
suicides and homelessness

629
00:34:12,784 --> 00:34:15,787
and alcoholic problems
is very reactionary.

630
00:34:15,787 --> 00:34:17,123
You know? We react to it.

631
00:34:17,123 --> 00:34:18,657
So, veterans are
killing themselves.

632
00:34:18,657 --> 00:34:21,360
Okay. Well, maybe we need to
give 'em counseling, you know?

633
00:34:21,360 --> 00:34:22,594
Veterans are homeless.

634
00:34:22,594 --> 00:34:23,862
Well, maybe we need
to build them a home.

635
00:34:23,862 --> 00:34:25,731
But, what happens
if you prevented it?

636
00:34:25,731 --> 00:34:26,965
(dramatic music starts)

637
00:34:26,965 --> 00:34:28,200
What happens if you
took care of guys

638
00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:30,436
before they even
got to that point?

639
00:34:30,436 --> 00:34:32,438
- You guys have a safe
journey, look after yourselves,

640
00:34:32,438 --> 00:34:33,772
and congratulations again.

641
00:34:33,772 --> 00:34:35,040
(indistinct chatter)

642
00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:36,542
- I don't regret
serving this country.

643
00:34:36,542 --> 00:34:39,077
I think everybody in some
capacity should work for the

644
00:34:39,077 --> 00:34:40,379
country that they live in.

645
00:34:43,882 --> 00:34:47,085
(indistinct chatter)

646
00:34:47,085 --> 00:34:49,421
- So, being able to offer
myself for the country

647
00:34:49,421 --> 00:34:51,190
that I grew up in,

648
00:34:51,190 --> 00:34:52,891
I will always be
proud of. Always.

649
00:34:58,697 --> 00:35:01,467
- Joined when I was 18
to be a rescue swimmer.

650
00:35:03,535 --> 00:35:06,071
And the marketing campaign by
the military is so awesome,

651
00:35:06,071 --> 00:35:08,707
you don't think about anything,
but actually saving people,

652
00:35:08,707 --> 00:35:10,242
which is what I wanted to do.

653
00:35:12,144 --> 00:35:13,412
Thought it would be pretty easy.

654
00:35:13,412 --> 00:35:14,680
You'd be jumping in the water

655
00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:15,881
and saving people
and call it a day.

656
00:35:15,881 --> 00:35:18,384
But it's a lot
nastier than that.

657
00:35:19,785 --> 00:35:23,255
80% of the calls that I got,
you didn't find anybody.

658
00:35:23,255 --> 00:35:25,991
There wasn't anybody
left to bring home.

659
00:35:27,559 --> 00:35:30,796
It wasn't out of the
ordinary to fly 13 hour days,

660
00:35:30,796 --> 00:35:32,231
every day.

661
00:35:32,231 --> 00:35:34,099
I mean, you're popping caffeine
pills just to stay awake.

662
00:35:34,099 --> 00:35:36,602
So you can look at the water
and you're looking for a little

663
00:35:36,602 --> 00:35:39,070
speck from the sky, you know?
And if you start dozing off,

664
00:35:39,070 --> 00:35:40,506
you're not gonna see anything.

665
00:35:42,608 --> 00:35:46,044
Couple months after I had
gotten out and settled back into

666
00:35:46,044 --> 00:35:47,213
civilian society,

667
00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:50,882
I didn't know how to handle
living at that slower pace.

668
00:35:55,921 --> 00:35:58,424
(waves crash)

669
00:36:00,492 --> 00:36:03,729
Yeah. The scariest moments
were whenever I was

670
00:36:03,729 --> 00:36:06,632
in air conditioning, house,
with a roof over my head,

671
00:36:06,632 --> 00:36:08,200
on a soft couch,

672
00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:11,737
I was just sitting there and
adrenaline just started pumping

673
00:36:11,737 --> 00:36:13,038
through my body
for no reason, man.

674
00:36:13,038 --> 00:36:14,540
And I didn't know why.

675
00:36:14,540 --> 00:36:17,709
And my body just ran away
uncontrollably from me.

676
00:36:18,777 --> 00:36:21,480
- PTSD is post traumatic
stress disorder.

677
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:23,649
The kind of controversy
today is that

678
00:36:23,649 --> 00:36:25,183
PTSD is not a disorder.

679
00:36:25,183 --> 00:36:28,487
It's kind of a natural
reaction to being put

680
00:36:28,487 --> 00:36:32,023
under loads of stress
over long periods of time.

681
00:36:33,492 --> 00:36:38,063
So it has physical changes
on the brain and the body.

682
00:36:38,063 --> 00:36:42,401
Chronic stress is when
more cortisol is released

683
00:36:42,401 --> 00:36:44,236
to the body, than
can be absorbed.

684
00:36:44,236 --> 00:36:47,105
Cortisol has been shown
to kill brain cells

685
00:36:47,105 --> 00:36:49,641
and to reduce the volume
of areas of the brain,

686
00:36:49,641 --> 00:36:52,911
like the prefrontal cortex
and the hippocampus.

687
00:36:52,911 --> 00:36:55,881
And the hippocampus
deals with the emotions

688
00:36:55,881 --> 00:36:57,449
like anger and fear.

689
00:36:57,449 --> 00:37:02,053
And as the hippocampus shrinks,
your ability to overcome

690
00:37:02,053 --> 00:37:04,423
the fight or flight
reaction dissolves.

691
00:37:06,057 --> 00:37:09,227
I've been spending the
past five years of my life

692
00:37:09,227 --> 00:37:12,398
interviewing and
researching combat veterans.

693
00:37:12,398 --> 00:37:16,435
But something I didn't really
anticipate was Taylor's story,

694
00:37:16,435 --> 00:37:19,271
really kind of grabbing me
by the throat a little bit,

695
00:37:19,271 --> 00:37:23,275
because here was somebody
who was displaying a similar

696
00:37:23,275 --> 00:37:26,211
kind of trauma in response
to some of his experiences.

697
00:37:26,211 --> 00:37:28,013
And Taylor had never
been to combat.

698
00:37:29,615 --> 00:37:31,317
- Out of my entire
out-processing or adjustment back into

699
00:37:31,317 --> 00:37:33,619
the civilian world, he was
the first one that said,

700
00:37:33,619 --> 00:37:35,153
this is what you can expect.

701
00:37:35,153 --> 00:37:39,190
- He got out of the military
and nobody even mentioned PTSD.

702
00:37:39,190 --> 00:37:42,794
His transition program, TAPs,
had nothing to do with that,

703
00:37:42,794 --> 00:37:45,564
'cause he never was,
technically, in a combat zone despite,

704
00:37:45,564 --> 00:37:48,133
Despite, you know, pulling
dead bodies out of the water.

705
00:37:48,133 --> 00:37:50,969
Despite serving in
disaster relief missions.

706
00:37:50,969 --> 00:37:54,573
And it was concerning to him
because he didn't know if

707
00:37:54,573 --> 00:37:56,808
he was the strange one.

708
00:37:56,808 --> 00:38:00,211
In a recent study that involved
over a million veterans,

709
00:38:00,211 --> 00:38:03,281
so this is the height of the
Iraq and Afghanistan wars,

710
00:38:03,281 --> 00:38:05,150
non-combat veterans
were more likely

711
00:38:05,150 --> 00:38:07,419
to commit suicide
than combat veterans.

712
00:38:09,521 --> 00:38:12,257
(water splashes)

713
00:38:23,369 --> 00:38:25,971
Alright. Just crossed over.

714
00:38:26,872 --> 00:38:29,074
Over from Panama to Columbia.

715
00:38:29,074 --> 00:38:31,377
So, we're officially
in South America.

716
00:38:32,811 --> 00:38:36,014
- After weeks of storms and
doldrums in the Caribbean,

717
00:38:36,014 --> 00:38:38,116
it was nice to have
some steady sailing.

718
00:38:42,921 --> 00:38:45,657
(water splashes)

719
00:38:47,493 --> 00:38:50,228
- The change of pace from
what we were sailing through

720
00:38:50,228 --> 00:38:53,264
two weeks ago to now, is unreal.

721
00:38:53,264 --> 00:38:55,133
Now, we're out
here in dry weather

722
00:38:55,133 --> 00:38:57,403
and the sun's always shining.
Neither of us could really

723
00:38:57,403 --> 00:38:58,837
(laughs)

724
00:38:58,837 --> 00:39:00,406
make anything of this.

725
00:39:00,406 --> 00:39:02,841
We're not gonna question it.
You know what I'm saying?

726
00:39:12,551 --> 00:39:15,120
- Alright. So, we are
currently in Columbia.

727
00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:16,054
Taylor, say hi!

728
00:39:17,556 --> 00:39:18,857
Yo, yo, yo!

729
00:39:18,857 --> 00:39:19,691
(laughing)

730
00:39:19,691 --> 00:39:21,627
Columbia is beautiful.

731
00:39:21,627 --> 00:39:22,728
Shame people avoid it.

732
00:39:26,498 --> 00:39:28,767
(rattling)

733
00:39:31,202 --> 00:39:33,171
(indistinct mumbling)

734
00:39:33,171 --> 00:39:34,773
- The Guard at the Coast
that's here told us that

735
00:39:34,773 --> 00:39:39,010
only 10 sail boats arrived
in all of the year 2017.

736
00:39:39,010 --> 00:39:40,145
Thank you so much, sir.

737
00:39:40,145 --> 00:39:40,979
Bye.

738
00:39:40,979 --> 00:39:42,080
Have a nice trip.

739
00:39:42,080 --> 00:39:43,882
Thank you very much, man.

740
00:39:43,882 --> 00:39:46,351
- Sailing the Colombian
coast took us longer

741
00:39:46,351 --> 00:39:51,222
than we expected. The humbled
current was especially strong

742
00:39:51,222 --> 00:39:52,924
and the headwinds
coming up from Ecuador

743
00:39:52,924 --> 00:39:54,225
spun us around in circles.

744
00:39:55,661 --> 00:39:58,564
- The wind's died on us a
lot, the water's like glass,

745
00:39:58,564 --> 00:40:01,332
but Stephen and I are just

746
00:40:01,332 --> 00:40:02,734
happy as can be.

747
00:40:02,734 --> 00:40:05,170
We're going to keep moseying
along the coastline.

748
00:40:06,304 --> 00:40:09,074
- We really didn't
mind the slower pace.

749
00:40:09,074 --> 00:40:11,543
It was a great break
from the storms

750
00:40:11,543 --> 00:40:13,712
and we did our best to enjoy it.

751
00:40:13,712 --> 00:40:14,546
Yum!

752
00:40:17,949 --> 00:40:18,950
Oh my God.

753
00:40:20,218 --> 00:40:21,820
That's decent, dude.

754
00:40:21,820 --> 00:40:22,921
Well done, sir.

755
00:40:24,590 --> 00:40:25,591
Merry Christmas, dude.

756
00:40:25,591 --> 00:40:27,593
Yeah, Merry Christmas.

757
00:40:29,194 --> 00:40:30,896
- But as beautiful and pristine
as our experience of the

758
00:40:30,896 --> 00:40:35,634
Columbian Coast was, it
came to us at a price.

759
00:40:35,634 --> 00:40:39,437
(music becomes dramatic again)

760
00:40:39,437 --> 00:40:41,907
(waves crash)

761
00:40:50,816 --> 00:40:52,618
- The past couple nights,
we've had boats run up on us

762
00:40:52,618 --> 00:40:53,952
in the middle of the night.

763
00:40:57,455 --> 00:40:58,890
You can hear it coming
from miles away,

764
00:40:58,890 --> 00:41:00,158
beating through the waves.

765
00:41:01,292 --> 00:41:03,328
They come around and
they start circling you.

766
00:41:03,328 --> 00:41:04,530
That's some scary stuff.

767
00:41:06,865 --> 00:41:08,600
- I'd dealt with a lot
of pirates overseas

768
00:41:08,600 --> 00:41:11,102
and I knew pirates
were in these waters.

769
00:41:14,706 --> 00:41:16,241
They hit us after sunset.

770
00:41:20,912 --> 00:41:24,182
- We saw the bow light of,
I presume, their mothership.

771
00:41:26,051 --> 00:41:28,286
Saw a second light,
kinda come on

772
00:41:28,286 --> 00:41:30,722
and realized it was a
spotlight, as you just get

773
00:41:30,722 --> 00:41:33,491
this kind of beam sweeping
over the waterline.

774
00:41:35,426 --> 00:41:38,463
When you're out on the water,
you see light like a needle.

775
00:41:38,463 --> 00:41:42,233
And the most eerie
thing that happened was:

776
00:41:42,233 --> 00:41:44,936
the spotlight went out and
then the bow-light went out,

777
00:41:44,936 --> 00:41:46,437
back-to-back.

778
00:41:46,437 --> 00:41:48,640
And then you just heard an
outboard engine roar to life.

779
00:41:48,640 --> 00:41:50,542
(engine roars)

780
00:41:50,542 --> 00:41:54,713
At that point, they sent out
a skiff to come chase us down.

781
00:41:56,615 --> 00:41:58,183
We're just sitting ducks
at this point, right?

782
00:41:58,183 --> 00:42:00,986
'Cause it was clear
skies, the moon was full.

783
00:42:00,986 --> 00:42:03,789
So, our sails are glowing
like a beacon of light

784
00:42:03,789 --> 00:42:04,856
for these pirates.

785
00:42:06,592 --> 00:42:08,159
We're hearing them come.
We're hearing them come.

786
00:42:08,159 --> 00:42:11,563
And I changed my direction,
maybe like 90 degrees

787
00:42:11,563 --> 00:42:13,899
and it wasn't catching
the light as much.

788
00:42:13,899 --> 00:42:16,534
The moon was bright
enough to see the glint of

789
00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:18,536
the metal machetes
on their boat.

790
00:42:20,005 --> 00:42:22,307
- As soon as the skiff was
getting right next to us,

791
00:42:23,709 --> 00:42:26,411
the first, like, line of cloud
covers went over the moon

792
00:42:26,411 --> 00:42:29,014
and it just got dark, and I
immediately changed course,

793
00:42:29,014 --> 00:42:31,516
you know? And heard the
boat kind of zoom past us.

794
00:42:31,516 --> 00:42:32,784
And then I heard it doing, like,

795
00:42:32,784 --> 00:42:35,420
a spiraling search
pattern behind us.

796
00:42:37,689 --> 00:42:40,225
And that's when the rain
just started pouring down.

797
00:42:42,127 --> 00:42:43,795
And the wind picked up,
so we started, like,

798
00:42:43,795 --> 00:42:47,232
really cruising. And it
was the happiest I think

799
00:42:47,232 --> 00:42:49,534
I've ever been in my
life to be in a storm.

800
00:42:49,534 --> 00:42:51,569
(laughs)

801
00:42:54,539 --> 00:42:57,008
(waves crash)

802
00:42:58,243 --> 00:43:00,178
- Seas are getting
bigger, steadily.

803
00:43:00,178 --> 00:43:02,147
And we're holding about
7.4 knots, which is

804
00:43:02,147 --> 00:43:05,183
one of the fastest speeds
we've done this entire trip.

805
00:43:05,183 --> 00:43:07,819
So, to actually have the
Old Lady flying again is

806
00:43:08,920 --> 00:43:09,921
it's a good feeling.

807
00:43:13,591 --> 00:43:16,294
- With the pirates behind
us and wind in our sails,

808
00:43:16,294 --> 00:43:18,630
we were finally able
to point our bow south.

809
00:43:19,865 --> 00:43:22,701
And reaching the equator
was another milestone,

810
00:43:22,701 --> 00:43:25,170
but we were still less
than halfway to Cape Horn.

811
00:43:26,404 --> 00:43:30,341
- Woo! Just like that.
The Southern Hemisphere.

812
00:43:32,510 --> 00:43:34,412
Make our way to Ecuador
which we're really

813
00:43:34,412 --> 00:43:36,281
looking forward to
'cause there are

814
00:43:36,281 --> 00:43:38,383
a couple repairs
we need to make.

815
00:43:38,383 --> 00:43:40,285
- Our starter at burnt-out,
back in the Caribbean,

816
00:43:40,285 --> 00:43:42,954
but we had a replacement
shipped to us in Panama.

817
00:43:42,954 --> 00:43:44,422
We were excited
about not having to

818
00:43:44,422 --> 00:43:47,225
hot-wire our engine anymore.
Especially if we're going to be

819
00:43:47,225 --> 00:43:49,360
battling the waves
around Cape Horn.

820
00:43:49,360 --> 00:43:52,297
Key is: don't shock yourself.

821
00:43:52,297 --> 00:43:56,134
(engine sputters and revs up)

822
00:43:58,503 --> 00:43:59,705
Every time!

823
00:43:59,705 --> 00:44:02,073
(laughing)

824
00:44:02,073 --> 00:44:05,476
- So, now we're in Bahia
de Caraquez, in Ecuador.

825
00:44:06,712 --> 00:44:08,646
Gonna be here for a week.

826
00:44:08,646 --> 00:44:11,049
We gotta put the starter
we got from Panama in.

827
00:44:12,250 --> 00:44:14,052
And then provision
for our next leg,

828
00:44:14,052 --> 00:44:15,120
probably through Peru

829
00:44:16,587 --> 00:44:17,823
and then down to Chile.

830
00:44:17,823 --> 00:44:19,457
So, should be a
quick little stop

831
00:44:19,457 --> 00:44:21,259
and, we're up outta here.

832
00:44:26,131 --> 00:44:28,900
(tools clicking)

833
00:44:33,071 --> 00:44:35,073
What a pain in my ass.

834
00:44:37,375 --> 00:44:38,543
(sighs of frustration)

835
00:44:38,543 --> 00:44:40,712
I don't know what
we're going to do, now.

836
00:44:41,980 --> 00:44:44,482
(music stops)

837
00:44:48,987 --> 00:44:51,422
Been putting on and taking
off the wrong starter.

838
00:44:53,024 --> 00:44:55,126
We ordered the right one,
had the right ones shipped,

839
00:44:55,126 --> 00:44:59,264
but somehow the wrong model
got put into this box.

840
00:45:00,799 --> 00:45:02,467
700 bucks down the drain.

841
00:45:03,468 --> 00:45:04,669
(dramatic music starts)

842
00:45:04,669 --> 00:45:07,338
So, that's that, we're
stuck in Ecuador.

843
00:45:12,277 --> 00:45:13,611
We reordered the starter,

844
00:45:16,281 --> 00:45:19,217
but it took over a
month to clear customs.

845
00:45:20,685 --> 00:45:23,521
And I was worried about Taylor
being landlocked and stuck at

846
00:45:23,521 --> 00:45:25,156
that slower pace for weeks

847
00:45:26,591 --> 00:45:28,827
being holed up tended to
make things worse for him.

848
00:45:30,829 --> 00:45:33,765
Thankfully, there's always work
to be done on the Old Lady.

849
00:45:38,436 --> 00:45:42,841
(spray paint can
rattles and hisses)

850
00:45:44,709 --> 00:45:49,380
- It's a fight. It's stressful
to try and stay positive.

851
00:45:52,017 --> 00:45:55,186
You know? Some days really
hard to believe that

852
00:45:55,186 --> 00:45:56,321
what you're doing
is the right thing.

853
00:45:56,321 --> 00:45:57,856
I question myself all the time.

854
00:45:58,990 --> 00:46:00,658
Am I actually doing
something here?

855
00:46:03,028 --> 00:46:07,665
Is everything that I've
given, gonna change anything?

856
00:46:12,871 --> 00:46:16,474
(notification alerts beep)

857
00:46:39,831 --> 00:46:41,399
- We were always
grateful when we could

858
00:46:41,399 --> 00:46:42,600
connect to the internet.

859
00:46:44,069 --> 00:46:47,238
It made us feel useful to the
people we were trying to help.

860
00:46:47,238 --> 00:46:49,274
You know? One minute it
would bring us stories of

861
00:46:49,274 --> 00:46:52,177
their struggle and pain
that we could relate to.

862
00:46:53,211 --> 00:46:54,679
And, then the next,

863
00:46:54,679 --> 00:46:57,215
it was delivering us
some really great news.

864
00:46:57,215 --> 00:47:00,751
(notification alerts beep)

865
00:47:17,635 --> 00:47:20,071
(clattering)

866
00:47:21,472 --> 00:47:24,275
Yeah, boy! It's Old Lady.

867
00:47:24,275 --> 00:47:27,078
- We knew that we could
never ask anyone to join us.

868
00:47:27,078 --> 00:47:30,415
The risks were far too
great, but John offered.

869
00:47:31,549 --> 00:47:34,852
- So, here you are,
man, Bahia de Caraquez.

870
00:47:34,852 --> 00:47:37,022
What do you think
of the Old Lady?

871
00:47:37,022 --> 00:47:38,423
It's kinda

872
00:47:38,423 --> 00:47:39,490
not what I expected.

873
00:47:39,490 --> 00:47:41,259
Why? In what sense?

874
00:47:41,259 --> 00:47:42,193
It's smaller.

875
00:47:42,193 --> 00:47:44,562
(laughing)

876
00:47:44,562 --> 00:47:46,797
- John was a friend of
Taylor's from the Navy.

877
00:47:46,797 --> 00:47:49,334
He wanted to help us in our
final push for Cape Horn

878
00:47:49,334 --> 00:47:50,936
and he'd just left the military.

879
00:47:50,936 --> 00:47:53,638
He'd only been on terminal
leave for two weeks.

880
00:47:53,638 --> 00:47:56,074
- It's gonna make cruising
a night and day difference

881
00:47:56,074 --> 00:47:58,843
for us. Here, having
John, you know?

882
00:47:58,843 --> 00:48:00,745
- I hope so. 'Cause all
I wanna do is help out.

883
00:48:00,745 --> 00:48:02,047
- - Yeah.

884
00:48:02,047 --> 00:48:04,349
- John's help was going
to be huge for us in the

885
00:48:04,349 --> 00:48:08,086
South Pacific. But, we
also knew that John was

886
00:48:08,086 --> 00:48:10,455
having a tough time
adjusting to civilian life.

887
00:48:10,455 --> 00:48:12,323
(water splashes)

888
00:48:12,323 --> 00:48:14,926
He's experiencing the same
challenges that Taylor did upon

889
00:48:14,926 --> 00:48:15,793
leaving the Navy.

890
00:48:17,195 --> 00:48:19,297
And, so we really hope this
trip would help him too.

891
00:48:22,500 --> 00:48:23,334
Woo!

892
00:48:26,871 --> 00:48:28,339
- So you kinda
sent us a message,

893
00:48:28,339 --> 00:48:30,408
but why don't you
kinda explain, like,

894
00:48:30,408 --> 00:48:32,310
why did you want to
come on this trip?

895
00:48:32,310 --> 00:48:33,144
Uh.

896
00:48:35,913 --> 00:48:39,350
See, towards the end, I was
in a pretty rough place, so.

897
00:48:39,350 --> 00:48:40,851
Two and a half weeks before
I started terminal leave,

898
00:48:40,851 --> 00:48:43,354
before where I'm at
now. Before I went home.

899
00:48:43,354 --> 00:48:44,322
Uh, yeah. I,

900
00:48:46,524 --> 00:48:47,925
I, uh,

901
00:48:47,925 --> 00:48:49,294
I had a nervous breakdown.

902
00:48:51,896 --> 00:48:52,763
Sorry, guys.

903
00:48:53,831 --> 00:48:54,665
You're good, man.

904
00:48:54,665 --> 00:48:55,600
- - It's all good.

905
00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:56,367
- - Take your time. Yeah.

906
00:48:59,770 --> 00:49:00,905
I was suicidal, um.

907
00:49:03,841 --> 00:49:04,642
And I,

908
00:49:09,480 --> 00:49:11,782
I went to Medical the next day.

909
00:49:13,618 --> 00:49:14,819
Excuse me.

910
00:49:14,819 --> 00:49:16,954
Walked into the
mental health clinic

911
00:49:16,954 --> 00:49:18,589
and they sat me down,

912
00:49:18,589 --> 00:49:21,059
gave me this huge questionnaire,
turned it in, and,

913
00:49:21,059 --> 00:49:24,362
you know, an hour passed
by, two hours passed by.

914
00:49:24,362 --> 00:49:27,332
Commander's in now, she's
gonna see you in a little bit.

915
00:49:27,332 --> 00:49:28,933
Hey, no worries. Just
tryna talk to someone.

916
00:49:28,933 --> 00:49:30,401
Just trying to get, you know?

917
00:49:30,401 --> 00:49:32,770
The right steps, the
right tools to fix myself.

918
00:49:32,770 --> 00:49:35,040
It came about five
o'clock in the evening

919
00:49:35,040 --> 00:49:37,242
and a Corpsman came back down
and said, hey, I'm sorry.

920
00:49:37,242 --> 00:49:38,543
She doesn't wanna see you.

921
00:49:39,744 --> 00:49:41,479
You need to go somewhere
else. I was like, where?

922
00:49:41,479 --> 00:49:42,480
Fleet and Family?

923
00:49:43,414 --> 00:49:45,383
Where? She was like, no.

924
00:49:45,383 --> 00:49:47,518
She said for you
to wait for the VA.

925
00:49:47,518 --> 00:49:49,987
I said, I'm still active duty.
I don't need to go to the VA.

926
00:49:49,987 --> 00:49:51,689
I'm still active duty for
another two and a half months

927
00:49:51,689 --> 00:49:53,158
from now.

928
00:49:53,158 --> 00:49:54,325
And she said, well you
only have a few weeks left

929
00:49:54,325 --> 00:49:56,761
until you're on terminal
leave. And then,

930
00:49:56,761 --> 00:50:00,231
you're pretty much
the VA's problem.

931
00:50:00,231 --> 00:50:01,966
So, I just laughed.
I just laughed.

932
00:50:01,966 --> 00:50:04,535
I just said, that's,
alright, well,

933
00:50:04,535 --> 00:50:06,371
my life's falling apart now, so.

934
00:50:07,505 --> 00:50:09,607
You know? What can you do?

935
00:50:09,607 --> 00:50:12,643
- Yeah, that's some
fucking bullshit, dude.

936
00:50:15,713 --> 00:50:18,316
- I'm glad that
you're here with us

937
00:50:18,316 --> 00:50:20,785
because doing that shit alone,

938
00:50:22,787 --> 00:50:24,289
that hurts. You know?

939
00:50:24,289 --> 00:50:25,390
Yeah, it does.

940
00:50:29,026 --> 00:50:30,361
- So, we've been
here for two months.

941
00:50:30,361 --> 00:50:32,363
Were planning on
being here for a week

942
00:50:32,363 --> 00:50:34,799
and then today's the
day she's going in.

943
00:50:35,666 --> 00:50:36,901
Freaking pumped. I'm excited.

944
00:50:36,901 --> 00:50:38,436
I'm trying to make
myself calm right now.

945
00:50:38,436 --> 00:50:41,539
So I don't mess this up and
break this brand new one.

946
00:50:41,539 --> 00:50:43,541
- Don't mess this up.
Don't mess this up.

947
00:50:43,541 --> 00:50:46,311
(tools clatter)

948
00:50:46,311 --> 00:50:48,446
(machinery clicks)

949
00:50:48,446 --> 00:50:49,680
Alright, give it.

950
00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:53,251
(engine roars and rattles)

951
00:50:54,485 --> 00:50:56,721
Oh, man. She sounds good.

952
00:50:58,723 --> 00:50:59,957
That's awesome.

953
00:51:02,660 --> 00:51:04,162
Alright, cast off.

954
00:51:10,735 --> 00:51:12,203
We're going!

955
00:51:12,203 --> 00:51:14,339
- John brought a much needed
second wind to our crew.

956
00:51:17,007 --> 00:51:18,576
Hi.

957
00:51:18,576 --> 00:51:21,379
Living in close quarters,
John, is nothing new to you.

958
00:51:21,379 --> 00:51:25,550
Just a refresher: keep all
your shit in your space.

959
00:51:25,550 --> 00:51:27,985
If not, it's going overboard.

960
00:51:27,985 --> 00:51:32,022
- The plan was to sail 200
miles off shore to skip Peru

961
00:51:32,022 --> 00:51:33,424
and to avoid
getting caught up in

962
00:51:33,424 --> 00:51:34,759
the Humboldt Current again.

963
00:51:36,161 --> 00:51:38,129
Taylor predicted we'd
reached Valparaiso, Chile,

964
00:51:38,129 --> 00:51:39,730
after about three weeks at sea.

965
00:51:41,132 --> 00:51:43,868
That would make this our longest
stretch of sailing to date.

966
00:51:53,478 --> 00:51:55,580
- We have a long
leg ahead of us.

967
00:51:55,580 --> 00:51:58,816
Right now is all about
managing the nerves. Pumped.

968
00:51:58,816 --> 00:52:00,285
I'm just worried about the boat.

969
00:52:00,285 --> 00:52:02,220
I hope nothing breaks on
her, while we're out there.

970
00:52:07,758 --> 00:52:11,262
- We're out here in
the middle of nowhere.

971
00:52:14,265 --> 00:52:16,301
You feel like a civilian?

972
00:52:16,301 --> 00:52:17,968
Oh, yeah. I guess so.

973
00:52:17,968 --> 00:52:21,339
It's kinda a really
weird period for me...

974
00:52:21,339 --> 00:52:23,007
- - The longer we were at sea,

975
00:52:23,007 --> 00:52:25,376
the more I'd find Taylor
and John at the helm,

976
00:52:25,376 --> 00:52:27,312
swapping stories from
their deployments

977
00:52:27,312 --> 00:52:28,746
(music stops)

978
00:52:28,746 --> 00:52:30,481
and sharing their experiences
of leaving the military.

979
00:52:30,481 --> 00:52:31,716
- - Sailor for life.

980
00:52:31,716 --> 00:52:34,252
- Six years and nine
months of my life.

981
00:52:34,252 --> 00:52:36,187
Proud of it and why I did it.

982
00:52:36,187 --> 00:52:37,922
I wouldn't have
Taylor, or my buds.

983
00:52:38,889 --> 00:52:40,157
It's definitely been weird.

984
00:52:40,157 --> 00:52:41,559
Yesterday was my last
day of terminal leave.

985
00:52:41,559 --> 00:52:44,161
So, technically out of
the Navy, April 5th.

986
00:52:44,161 --> 00:52:46,997
That first week seemed
like it was never ending.

987
00:52:46,997 --> 00:52:48,433
- - Yeah. You're running
on. You're running on.

988
00:52:48,433 --> 00:52:49,834
Go, go, go, go,
go, go, go, go, go.

989
00:52:49,834 --> 00:52:50,668
- - Yeah.

990
00:52:50,668 --> 00:52:52,203
- - And then you're out.

991
00:52:52,203 --> 00:52:53,604
And then you driving around
getting pissed off in traffic,

992
00:52:53,604 --> 00:52:56,907
like, what the hell
is going on right now?

993
00:52:56,907 --> 00:52:59,410
- Getting to talk
with him and tell him

994
00:52:59,410 --> 00:53:01,746
what it was like for me when
I was going out, you know?

995
00:53:01,746 --> 00:53:03,814
And we'd compare
stories. I'm like, dude,

996
00:53:03,814 --> 00:53:07,585
I've had the same feeling. You
know? That was really cool.

997
00:53:07,585 --> 00:53:11,456
I wish I could have that
talk with all the guys.

998
00:53:13,224 --> 00:53:14,959
- And I know that
this isn't who I am.

999
00:53:14,959 --> 00:53:17,728
And I'm trying to get
back to, I want to,

1000
00:53:17,728 --> 00:53:19,530
I want so badly to
be that person again,

1001
00:53:19,530 --> 00:53:22,733
you know, be happy, or
be better than I was.

1002
00:53:22,733 --> 00:53:23,768
Yeah. Yeah.

1003
00:53:27,104 --> 00:53:28,373
- That's what the last
two and a half weeks

1004
00:53:28,373 --> 00:53:29,807
have been for me.

1005
00:53:32,176 --> 00:53:34,379
Every night, every day,
it gets a little easier.

1006
00:53:36,714 --> 00:53:38,583
- It's definitely
looking up for you.

1007
00:53:39,684 --> 00:53:43,220
(engine rattling)

1008
00:53:43,220 --> 00:53:46,557
(dramatic music starts)

1009
00:53:47,758 --> 00:53:50,928
(mechanical whirring)

1010
00:53:53,698 --> 00:53:55,933
The engine broke down.

1011
00:53:58,068 --> 00:53:59,970
We opened up the transmission.

1012
00:53:59,970 --> 00:54:02,106
Found the flywheel
completely dissembled.

1013
00:54:04,309 --> 00:54:05,810
Oh, man. Here we are,

1014
00:54:05,810 --> 00:54:07,712
a little over a hundred
nautical miles off shore.

1015
00:54:07,712 --> 00:54:10,981
Transmission decided to take
a little walk about on us.

1016
00:54:10,981 --> 00:54:13,818
We're sailing now.
How's it feel?

1017
00:54:13,818 --> 00:54:16,086
(laughing)

1018
00:54:19,590 --> 00:54:22,593
So, right now, we're about 120
miles, 130 miles from shore,

1019
00:54:22,593 --> 00:54:24,795
according to the chart.

1020
00:54:24,795 --> 00:54:28,299
We'll push for a week because
we have the stores to do that.

1021
00:54:28,299 --> 00:54:29,500
And then that gives
us three weeks

1022
00:54:29,500 --> 00:54:30,835
to make it back in to land.

1023
00:54:33,704 --> 00:54:35,172
(waves crash)

1024
00:54:35,172 --> 00:54:36,206
How's the day been?

1025
00:54:37,375 --> 00:54:39,544
- Pretty rough,
pretty heavy seas,

1026
00:54:41,379 --> 00:54:42,880
swells are pretty big.

1027
00:54:46,517 --> 00:54:48,853
I don't think anybody's
really gotten any sleep.

1028
00:54:50,254 --> 00:54:53,223
- To top it all off, we are
currently being swept out to sea

1029
00:54:53,223 --> 00:54:54,425
by the Humboldt Current.

1030
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:57,261
We're about 500
miles off the coast.

1031
00:55:02,567 --> 00:55:05,470
30 minutes, we'll be
crossing into Chilean waters.

1032
00:55:05,470 --> 00:55:06,471
And we are

1033
00:55:08,272 --> 00:55:11,075
670 nautical miles
off shore, right now.

1034
00:55:12,410 --> 00:55:13,978
A little over two weeks at sea.

1035
00:55:15,145 --> 00:55:17,314
Days have definitely
all blended together.

1036
00:55:23,020 --> 00:55:24,288
- Every time the
wind dies, you know?

1037
00:55:24,288 --> 00:55:27,358
You have no idea how
long it's gonna last.

1038
00:55:29,093 --> 00:55:31,429
Is it gonna be an hour?
Is it gonna be a day?

1039
00:55:31,429 --> 00:55:32,262
Or a week?

1040
00:55:35,533 --> 00:55:38,636
Your mind wants to go
places that aren't,

1041
00:55:38,636 --> 00:55:41,271
necessarily, helpful to anybody.

1042
00:55:42,306 --> 00:55:44,108
All we can do is wait. You know?

1043
00:55:46,210 --> 00:55:48,178
- Spirits aren't as
high as they usually are

1044
00:55:48,178 --> 00:55:49,046
on the Old Lady.

1045
00:55:52,417 --> 00:55:54,852
The water tanks are deplete.

1046
00:55:54,852 --> 00:55:57,955
So, we run off of
five gallon jugs.

1047
00:55:57,955 --> 00:55:59,990
- We're pretty low
on food right now.

1048
00:56:01,158 --> 00:56:02,827
We're down to just
a few cans left.

1049
00:56:03,861 --> 00:56:04,662
Going through,

1050
00:56:06,997 --> 00:56:08,899
We're going through
some hunger pains.

1051
00:56:11,802 --> 00:56:13,671
- We didn't know how long
we were gonna be out there.

1052
00:56:13,671 --> 00:56:15,372
And we were just watching
everything rot out on the boat.

1053
00:56:15,372 --> 00:56:18,643
So, we were really
just wondering if we were gonna make it.

1054
00:56:26,183 --> 00:56:27,785
(whooshing)

1055
00:56:27,785 --> 00:56:29,887
Fire, fire, fire, fire!

1056
00:56:32,490 --> 00:56:33,591
(fire extinguisher hisses)

1057
00:56:33,591 --> 00:56:35,626
(fire crackles)

1058
00:56:35,626 --> 00:56:36,861
(music fades to a stop)

1059
00:56:36,861 --> 00:56:39,296
(waves roll)

1060
00:56:40,698 --> 00:56:41,566
Boat's leaking,

1061
00:56:43,133 --> 00:56:46,637
transmissions out, caught
on fire last night.

1062
00:56:48,873 --> 00:56:50,441
It's time to call it.

1063
00:56:51,976 --> 00:56:54,378
We're pushing our luck. This
boat's not gonna make it.

1064
00:56:57,147 --> 00:57:00,150
We can go to Valapariso to
make repairs on the boat.

1065
00:57:00,150 --> 00:57:01,786
See if we can sell
her down there.

1066
00:57:03,387 --> 00:57:04,855
I mean? Last night,

1067
00:57:04,855 --> 00:57:09,426
all I saw was the sparks
catching all our diesel,

1068
00:57:09,426 --> 00:57:10,895
and then us blowing up.

1069
00:57:10,895 --> 00:57:12,730
We coulda had us die, and
that was my fault, so.

1070
00:57:14,164 --> 00:57:16,701
We're not doing that anymore.
It's time to go home.

1071
00:57:25,643 --> 00:57:28,145
(winds rages)

1072
00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:37,187
(birds chirping)

1073
00:57:55,272 --> 00:57:56,774
Here we are. We're off.

1074
00:57:56,774 --> 00:57:59,644
- Alright. Get on the helm.
Let's get the hell outta here.

1075
00:58:04,381 --> 00:58:07,417
- Taylor shouldn't have
sailed for Valdivia.

1076
00:58:08,586 --> 00:58:10,755
The Old Lady was
falling to pieces

1077
00:58:11,889 --> 00:58:13,658
and in no state to
be on the open ocean.

1078
00:58:14,859 --> 00:58:16,561
He had kicked John
and I off the boat

1079
00:58:16,561 --> 00:58:17,695
because it wasn't safe.

1080
00:58:20,064 --> 00:58:21,532
But, you know?

1081
00:58:21,532 --> 00:58:24,735
Taylor was in a really
rough place at that time.

1082
00:58:24,735 --> 00:58:26,637
Another one of his
buddies back home

1083
00:58:26,637 --> 00:58:27,838
had just killed himself.

1084
00:58:29,039 --> 00:58:31,208
And on top of that, we
were completely broke

1085
00:58:31,208 --> 00:58:33,544
and nothing seemed to
be getting any better.

1086
00:58:35,445 --> 00:58:38,916
But I think Taylor kept
going because he had to.

1087
00:58:40,084 --> 00:58:42,086
There we go. Woo!

1088
00:58:42,086 --> 00:58:43,654
I'm nervous as hell, right now.

1089
00:58:44,722 --> 00:58:46,591
I feel so damn sick, right now.

1090
00:58:46,591 --> 00:58:48,292
My God, I might
actually throw up.

1091
00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:51,328
Body's shaking.

1092
00:58:54,398 --> 00:58:55,966
Oh, fuck me.

1093
00:58:58,703 --> 00:58:59,503
See how it goes.

1094
00:58:59,503 --> 00:59:02,673
(dramatic music starts)

1095
00:59:13,250 --> 00:59:14,451
First full day at sea.

1096
00:59:15,720 --> 00:59:17,321
Check that in the box.

1097
00:59:18,823 --> 00:59:21,792
These seas are rough,
very rough, right now.

1098
00:59:22,993 --> 00:59:24,629
All the nerves from
yesterday are gone.

1099
00:59:25,495 --> 00:59:26,631
I love being out here.

1100
00:59:27,698 --> 00:59:30,100
(winds roar)

1101
00:59:33,470 --> 00:59:34,972
Yeah, here we are.

1102
00:59:40,845 --> 00:59:42,012
It's cold as hell.

1103
00:59:47,017 --> 00:59:49,286
(coughing)

1104
00:59:52,189 --> 00:59:54,424
Another storm's rolling in.

1105
00:59:57,027 --> 00:59:58,629
I'm looking at 12
foot seas right now.

1106
00:59:58,629 --> 01:00:03,634
It's supposed to be picking up.

1107
01:00:06,503 --> 01:00:07,337
Fuck it.

1108
01:00:10,908 --> 01:00:13,878
It's beautiful morning
out here, my God.

1109
01:00:13,878 --> 01:00:16,881
I've got hundreds of these birds
flying all around the boat.

1110
01:00:20,951 --> 01:00:21,786
Coo! Coo!

1111
01:00:23,553 --> 01:00:25,155
I'm a bird too!

1112
01:00:25,155 --> 01:00:26,724
(cheering)

1113
01:00:26,724 --> 01:00:29,293
The cold just eats at
your soul out here.

1114
01:00:32,296 --> 01:00:35,232
Part of me wants to keep on
going to Cape Horn right now.

1115
01:00:35,232 --> 01:00:36,834
You know?

1116
01:00:36,834 --> 01:00:39,804
Every inch of me wants to
just not go in to Valdivia

1117
01:00:39,804 --> 01:00:41,538
and go on to Cape
Horn right now.

1118
01:00:43,007 --> 01:00:45,375
I just keep thinking about
how all the boys are tired.

1119
01:00:50,881 --> 01:00:52,316
I'm gonna find a pot of gold!

1120
01:00:53,718 --> 01:00:55,686
Have you ever sailed
through a rainbow before?

1121
01:00:55,686 --> 01:00:57,087
(cheering)

1122
01:00:57,087 --> 01:00:59,790
(wind roars)

1123
01:00:59,790 --> 01:01:02,159
The anchor fell
off the bowsprit.

1124
01:01:02,159 --> 01:01:04,995
I was up there bent over the
bow, hanging off the edge,

1125
01:01:04,995 --> 01:01:06,897
trying to get the
anchor back on deck.

1126
01:01:08,298 --> 01:01:10,968
The boat took a nose dive
right in the bottom of a wave.

1127
01:01:12,302 --> 01:01:13,103
Ate it.

1128
01:01:13,103 --> 01:01:14,872
It completely sucked.

1129
01:01:14,872 --> 01:01:16,440
Thought I was going overboard.

1130
01:01:16,440 --> 01:01:18,608
(horn blares)

1131
01:01:18,608 --> 01:01:23,613
- Alas! You have crossed into
King Neptune's territory!

1132
01:01:25,682 --> 01:01:26,516
(horn blares)

1133
01:01:26,516 --> 01:01:30,487
(music becomes upbeat)

1134
01:01:30,487 --> 01:01:32,256
What can you do?

1135
01:01:32,256 --> 01:01:34,358
Damn, I hate that
saying: what can you do?

1136
01:01:35,559 --> 01:01:37,061
You can get off
your ass and you can

1137
01:01:37,061 --> 01:01:41,365
fucking do something about
it. That's what you can do.

1138
01:01:41,365 --> 01:01:44,969
If I go home and another one
of my friends kills himself

1139
01:01:44,969 --> 01:01:49,373
while I'm not out here
doing something about it,

1140
01:01:49,373 --> 01:01:50,374
it's gonna eat me up.

1141
01:01:55,813 --> 01:01:57,347
Made it.

1142
01:01:57,347 --> 01:01:58,382
Land's in sight.

1143
01:01:59,884 --> 01:02:02,286
Last time I got some sleep
was about two nights ago.

1144
01:02:02,286 --> 01:02:04,688
I can't stop smiling.
It's cool to see land.

1145
01:02:06,123 --> 01:02:08,225
With everything me and the
Old Lady have been through,

1146
01:02:08,225 --> 01:02:09,726
it's time for a break.

1147
01:02:20,004 --> 01:02:20,838
Alright.

1148
01:02:23,007 --> 01:02:23,808
So.

1149
01:02:25,609 --> 01:02:27,577
It doesn't make
me feel any better

1150
01:02:27,577 --> 01:02:29,179
about leaving the Old Lady here,

1151
01:02:30,580 --> 01:02:33,350
but when you're all at
options, it's all folks.

1152
01:02:44,261 --> 01:02:47,031
- A mutual love for water that
started on their high school

1153
01:02:47,031 --> 01:02:50,400
swim team, has taken two
college station men on a sailing

1154
01:02:50,400 --> 01:02:52,602
mission halfway
around the world.

1155
01:02:54,972 --> 01:02:57,774
- We're excited right now to
talk a little sailing with

1156
01:02:57,774 --> 01:03:01,778
Stephen O'Shay and
Taylor Grieger in the middle of one heck

1157
01:03:01,778 --> 01:03:04,681
of an adventure and a
story worth sharing.

1158
01:03:04,681 --> 01:03:07,517
- Their journey doubled
as a mission for veterans.

1159
01:03:07,517 --> 01:03:09,319
- Too many veterans
have taken their lives.

1160
01:03:09,319 --> 01:03:10,787
We're sailing the most
dangerous waters in the world

1161
01:03:10,787 --> 01:03:13,090
to bring awareness to what's
going on in the States.

1162
01:03:13,090 --> 01:03:15,592
- You wanted to do this
adventure and then come back

1163
01:03:15,592 --> 01:03:18,495
and then tell the story. But,
that's not what happened.

1164
01:03:18,495 --> 01:03:19,997
- The boat needs
some major repairs.

1165
01:03:19,997 --> 01:03:23,167
- We've finished, basically,
90% of the journey so far.

1166
01:03:23,167 --> 01:03:24,768
And, so we're trying
to raise money just to

1167
01:03:24,768 --> 01:03:26,303
finish this last bit.

1168
01:03:26,303 --> 01:03:28,605
And that's why we started
our Kickstarter campaign.

1169
01:03:28,605 --> 01:03:31,041
- So, you're raising awareness
and people can help you out.

1170
01:03:31,041 --> 01:03:33,944
They can go to your website
and help donate and learn more

1171
01:03:33,944 --> 01:03:35,145
and get involved.

1172
01:03:35,145 --> 01:03:36,914
- We're tryna make this
as big as possible.

1173
01:03:39,183 --> 01:03:40,417
We can sit here all day

1174
01:03:40,417 --> 01:03:41,685
and talk about what's
being done for veterans,

1175
01:03:41,685 --> 01:03:43,120
but we can talk
so much more about

1176
01:03:43,120 --> 01:03:45,022
what isn't being
done for veterans.

1177
01:03:45,022 --> 01:03:47,091
- Every day, suicide
claims the lives of

1178
01:03:47,091 --> 01:03:48,492
more than 20 veterans.

1179
01:03:48,492 --> 01:03:51,695
- What do you want our
listeners to move forward in,

1180
01:03:51,695 --> 01:03:54,264
if they are really feeling
compelled by this cause?

1181
01:03:54,264 --> 01:03:55,832
- I think policy change
is a big one, you know?

1182
01:03:55,832 --> 01:03:57,301
And there needs to be programs

1183
01:03:57,301 --> 01:03:59,369
to let veterans decompress
when they get back.

1184
01:04:00,837 --> 01:04:02,572
We're gonna make sure nobody
getting out of the military

1185
01:04:02,572 --> 01:04:04,041
is wondering what's
going on with his body.

1186
01:04:04,041 --> 01:04:07,377
- If you're so moved, support
what they have going on.

1187
01:04:07,377 --> 01:04:10,547
- And raise awareness for
what millions of Americans

1188
01:04:10,547 --> 01:04:13,984
deal with having gone and
fought for our country.

1189
01:04:13,984 --> 01:04:16,386
- There's an end to the
storm that you're doing.

1190
01:04:30,000 --> 01:04:32,269
(rattling)

1191
01:04:40,544 --> 01:04:41,778
Just like we left her.

1192
01:04:41,778 --> 01:04:44,081
(laughing)

1193
01:04:44,081 --> 01:04:46,016
There's no mold.

1194
01:04:46,016 --> 01:04:46,850
Alright!

1195
01:04:46,850 --> 01:04:47,684
So, that's good

1196
01:04:47,684 --> 01:04:48,919
- - That's a start.

1197
01:04:48,919 --> 01:04:51,188
- - Fricking pumped.
I'm freaking excited.

1198
01:04:53,290 --> 01:04:55,759
- Yeah. Still
cleaning up the ashes.

1199
01:04:57,594 --> 01:04:59,863
(rumbling)

1200
01:05:03,733 --> 01:05:07,004
- The attitude that we have
now, as opposed to when we left,

1201
01:05:07,004 --> 01:05:08,538
is night and day difference.

1202
01:05:08,538 --> 01:05:10,074
We're holed up.

1203
01:05:10,074 --> 01:05:11,942
- We're so stoked, I even
bought little hand towels.

1204
01:05:11,942 --> 01:05:14,211
(laughing)

1205
01:05:15,779 --> 01:05:16,981
It's gonna look good.

1206
01:05:19,049 --> 01:05:20,784
Johnny boy made it.

1207
01:05:20,784 --> 01:05:25,789
- So, John just got in, today.
After 59 hours of travel.

1208
01:05:26,523 --> 01:05:27,224
Excited to be back,

1209
01:05:28,292 --> 01:05:29,393
I missed the old girl.

1210
01:05:34,131 --> 01:05:35,532
So, this is where
we'll be coming in.

1211
01:05:35,532 --> 01:05:37,901
Uh huh. That's the goal.

1212
01:05:37,901 --> 01:05:39,669
It's what we've been working
on for two years, now.

1213
01:05:39,669 --> 01:05:43,073
Here we are. At the doorstep.

1214
01:05:46,443 --> 01:05:49,846
(indistinct chatter)

1215
01:05:49,846 --> 01:05:53,017
- It's kinda surreal,
still, you know?

1216
01:05:56,420 --> 01:05:58,155
Feels fricking good, man.

1217
01:05:58,155 --> 01:06:00,924
The salt running
on your skin again?

1218
01:06:00,924 --> 01:06:02,459
Salty sailors, again?

1219
01:06:02,459 --> 01:06:03,760
God, all of it, man.

1220
01:06:13,303 --> 01:06:14,171
Whenever I left,

1221
01:06:15,639 --> 01:06:17,741
I was scared there wouldn't
be a chance we'd come back.

1222
01:06:17,741 --> 01:06:19,009
You know? We didn't
have a dime to our name

1223
01:06:19,009 --> 01:06:20,244
or any way to keep
this thing going,

1224
01:06:20,244 --> 01:06:22,612
but to be motoring
out of the same river

1225
01:06:22,612 --> 01:06:25,382
that I motored up
defeated, feels awesome.

1226
01:06:36,993 --> 01:06:39,763
(waves crash)

1227
01:06:39,763 --> 01:06:42,699
(music stops)

1228
01:06:42,699 --> 01:06:44,934
(coughing)

1229
01:06:45,869 --> 01:06:47,437
Goddamn! Goddamn!

1230
01:06:52,309 --> 01:06:54,844
First time being
seasick in my life.

1231
01:06:54,844 --> 01:06:57,181
Pray to the big man, hopefully
it's gonna happen again.

1232
01:06:57,181 --> 01:06:58,148
Yeah.

1233
01:06:58,148 --> 01:06:59,649
It's just the beginning, so.

1234
01:07:01,585 --> 01:07:03,320
Nice set of swells, right now.

1235
01:07:05,055 --> 01:07:06,756
About 20 foot seas,
on average, right now.

1236
01:07:06,756 --> 01:07:09,793
They're about 15, 20
feet, 30, 40 last wind.

1237
01:07:09,793 --> 01:07:10,927
It's been pretty crazy.

1238
01:07:11,895 --> 01:07:15,065
(indistinct shouting)

1239
01:07:16,066 --> 01:07:17,301
I was done last night.

1240
01:07:17,301 --> 01:07:18,568
It might have been
the seas we were in,

1241
01:07:18,568 --> 01:07:21,871
my body just was like,
alright, I'm resting.

1242
01:07:21,871 --> 01:07:23,873
I feel it today, for sure.

1243
01:07:23,873 --> 01:07:25,375
That's what I tell
everybody on land.

1244
01:07:25,375 --> 01:07:26,843
They're like, what's
the hardest thing?

1245
01:07:26,843 --> 01:07:28,078
I was like, dude, the
hardest thing is stopping

1246
01:07:28,078 --> 01:07:31,581
and starting. Is going
on land for three weeks

1247
01:07:31,581 --> 01:07:33,917
and then you come back and
your hands are just soft

1248
01:07:33,917 --> 01:07:37,221
and the muscles just,
you know, deep linked

1249
01:07:37,221 --> 01:07:39,623
from pulling lines and
holding on to the boat

1250
01:07:39,623 --> 01:07:43,827
'cause all your stabilizer
muscles work all day long.

1251
01:07:43,827 --> 01:07:48,565
So, for those not to be
worked for three months,

1252
01:07:48,565 --> 01:07:50,100
we're all feeling it right now.

1253
01:07:51,135 --> 01:07:52,636
It's pretty chilly out here.

1254
01:07:53,803 --> 01:07:56,706
Where it's pretty
big seas, right now.

1255
01:07:56,706 --> 01:07:59,743
It's really cold on the
water, out in the Pacific.

1256
01:07:59,743 --> 01:08:01,378
All that water is coming
up from Antarctica

1257
01:08:01,378 --> 01:08:04,314
and then all the winds
as well, so it's chilly.

1258
01:08:07,851 --> 01:08:09,953
- You know, I was always
kind of uncomfortable,

1259
01:08:09,953 --> 01:08:11,555
but it becomes the new normal.

1260
01:08:12,756 --> 01:08:14,758
Right now, it's not too bad.

1261
01:08:14,758 --> 01:08:16,160
We've her, like, up to here.

1262
01:08:20,930 --> 01:08:22,966
Whew! The Old
Lady, she's a tank,

1263
01:08:22,966 --> 01:08:25,702
but she's not known for her,

1264
01:08:25,702 --> 01:08:26,536
- - Her elegance.

1265
01:08:26,536 --> 01:08:27,371
Her elegance. Yeah.

1266
01:08:27,371 --> 01:08:29,173
(laughing)

1267
01:08:29,173 --> 01:08:31,741
- It's good to be back in it.
It's what I came out here for.

1268
01:08:31,741 --> 01:08:33,377
To kick ass.

1269
01:08:33,377 --> 01:08:35,945
Now, we're gonna
get a little wet.

1270
01:08:35,945 --> 01:08:39,716
We're gonna have some
fun, while we're at it.

1271
01:08:42,686 --> 01:08:46,022
(dramatic music starts)

1272
01:08:49,659 --> 01:08:52,829
- We've been out on the
water for three days, now.

1273
01:08:52,829 --> 01:08:54,798
And it's been intense.

1274
01:08:54,798 --> 01:08:56,333
It's pretty much
what we expected.

1275
01:08:56,333 --> 01:08:59,102
Just that for me personally,
I'm just trying to be here.

1276
01:08:59,102 --> 01:09:03,307
You know? Not trying to let
my mind go off anywhere else.

1277
01:09:13,417 --> 01:09:16,420
- The swells were rolling in
behind us and breaking over us.

1278
01:09:17,587 --> 01:09:19,122
When the wind is that
strong, you know?

1279
01:09:19,122 --> 01:09:23,460
It's just like PHEW!
Just blowing everything to smithereens.

1280
01:09:23,460 --> 01:09:26,162
We were kinda sitting ducks
for these waves that were just,

1281
01:09:26,162 --> 01:09:27,764
like, plowing into the boat.

1282
01:09:31,401 --> 01:09:33,403
It was a roller coaster.

1283
01:09:40,977 --> 01:09:43,413
(wind roars)

1284
01:09:48,552 --> 01:09:49,953
(waves crash)

1285
01:09:49,953 --> 01:09:52,289
The wind was so strong
that the block holding

1286
01:09:52,289 --> 01:09:53,723
our spinnaker pole shattered.

1287
01:09:56,226 --> 01:09:58,061
And the pole started
slamming round

1288
01:09:58,061 --> 01:09:59,596
and we needed to
fix it right away,

1289
01:09:59,596 --> 01:10:01,231
or we'd risk losing
our headsail.

1290
01:10:02,732 --> 01:10:05,669
And being in those seas without
a headsail, hey, I mean?

1291
01:10:06,870 --> 01:10:09,172
That would've been
a death sentence.

1292
01:10:09,172 --> 01:10:11,174
- We gotta take care
of the Old Lady.

1293
01:10:11,174 --> 01:10:14,378
She takes care of us, the
world keeps going 'round.

1294
01:10:14,378 --> 01:10:15,612
What's gonna have to happen is:

1295
01:10:15,612 --> 01:10:17,013
we're gonna have
to go up the mast,

1296
01:10:17,013 --> 01:10:18,815
secure the spinnaker pole.

1297
01:10:18,815 --> 01:10:21,117
It's only gonna get
worse from here, so

1298
01:10:21,117 --> 01:10:23,820
we're gonna do it, gonna do
it right, gotta do it now.

1299
01:10:26,323 --> 01:10:30,159
(intensity of music picks up)

1300
01:10:31,461 --> 01:10:33,963
(waves crash)

1301
01:10:35,599 --> 01:10:38,768
(indistinct shouting)

1302
01:10:42,339 --> 01:10:44,874
Oh! Big wave! Hang up, buddy!

1303
01:10:45,909 --> 01:10:47,143
(crashing and clattering)

1304
01:10:47,143 --> 01:10:48,044
Oh! Fuck!

1305
01:10:49,413 --> 01:10:51,881
(waves crash)

1306
01:11:07,196 --> 01:11:08,031
Okay!

1307
01:11:12,802 --> 01:11:14,270
Holy shit, we're alive.

1308
01:11:14,270 --> 01:11:18,308
(cheering and laughing)

1309
01:11:18,308 --> 01:11:20,944
- We close our eyes
and pray and Taylor

1310
01:11:20,944 --> 01:11:22,779
pulls off some kind of miracle.

1311
01:11:22,779 --> 01:11:24,881
I'm not doing it again!

1312
01:11:29,486 --> 01:11:32,822
(laughter and cheering)

1313
01:11:35,892 --> 01:11:39,763
I can't believe that happened!

1314
01:11:39,763 --> 01:11:43,933
(laughter and
cheering continues)

1315
01:11:47,170 --> 01:11:50,239
- You know? there have been
these terrifying moments.

1316
01:11:50,239 --> 01:11:53,477
But, not only do you
feel completely alive,

1317
01:11:53,477 --> 01:11:56,880
but you also feel more
competent, like, you've pushed

1318
01:11:56,880 --> 01:11:59,549
beyond the limits of what
you thought you could handle

1319
01:12:02,318 --> 01:12:04,053
and you came out
on the other side.

1320
01:12:07,156 --> 01:12:09,393
(laughing)

1321
01:12:09,393 --> 01:12:10,727
(music stops)

1322
01:12:10,727 --> 01:12:12,662
The last three or four days,

1323
01:12:12,662 --> 01:12:14,898
I have had a smile
on my face, nonstop.

1324
01:12:14,898 --> 01:12:16,666
You guys have seen it, eh?

1325
01:12:16,666 --> 01:12:18,134
Once in a lifetime.

1326
01:12:18,134 --> 01:12:18,968
It's so cool.

1327
01:12:20,336 --> 01:12:22,806
- Dude. We went through
hell getting here.

1328
01:12:22,806 --> 01:12:24,273
Like, we earned it.

1329
01:12:24,273 --> 01:12:25,675
And I don't think I'd be able
to appreciate this moment,

1330
01:12:25,675 --> 01:12:28,011
if it was smooth sailing
all the way down here.

1331
01:12:30,013 --> 01:12:31,347
It's just been a

1332
01:12:32,682 --> 01:12:35,251
progressive year for me,
and for all of us, man.

1333
01:12:37,454 --> 01:12:40,156
Started off really fucking
alone. Come a long way.

1334
01:12:48,297 --> 01:12:50,834
- We didn't plan on sailing
into the Magellan Strait.

1335
01:12:50,834 --> 01:12:53,937
It's about 200 miles from
Cape Horn and the canals

1336
01:12:53,937 --> 01:12:57,306
and waterways pointing south
from there can be treacherous.

1337
01:12:57,306 --> 01:12:59,275
But, once we saw the raw

1338
01:12:59,275 --> 01:13:01,578
and unbelievable
beauty of Patagonia,

1339
01:13:02,746 --> 01:13:04,247
we couldn't turn away.

1340
01:13:05,449 --> 01:13:09,185
(upbeat gospel music starts)

1341
01:13:35,612 --> 01:13:38,014
One hell of a view.

1342
01:13:38,014 --> 01:13:41,851
(music becomes more dramatic)

1343
01:14:27,764 --> 01:14:29,599
What is going on right now?

1344
01:14:32,101 --> 01:14:33,903
Man, we're sailed into glaciers.

1345
01:14:40,877 --> 01:14:42,378
It's incredible. It's amazing.

1346
01:14:43,547 --> 01:14:45,481
Sights that a handful
of people have ever seen

1347
01:14:45,481 --> 01:14:46,315
in this world.

1348
01:15:17,847 --> 01:15:19,448
I feel like a kid.

1349
01:15:20,817 --> 01:15:24,153
(laughing and cheering)

1350
01:15:39,002 --> 01:15:40,704
I wouldn't be here
if it wasn't for

1351
01:15:40,704 --> 01:15:43,139
that lowest moment in my life,

1352
01:15:43,139 --> 01:15:46,309
I wouldn't be chasing these
things because you really

1353
01:15:46,309 --> 01:15:48,878
realize how fragile
this world is.

1354
01:15:50,346 --> 01:15:52,616
And, so when you come back
from something like that,

1355
01:15:52,616 --> 01:15:54,217
you don't let anything stop you.

1356
01:15:56,686 --> 01:15:59,055
And you chase everything
you can in this world

1357
01:15:59,923 --> 01:16:01,290
because you're alive in it.

1358
01:16:32,255 --> 01:16:33,189
(music fades to a stop)

1359
01:16:33,189 --> 01:16:34,991
Merry Christmas, homies.

1360
01:16:34,991 --> 01:16:36,626
(cheering)

1361
01:16:36,626 --> 01:16:39,996
- We reached Puerto
Williams! Merry Christmas.

1362
01:16:47,570 --> 01:16:50,306
(engine rumbles)

1363
01:16:57,113 --> 01:16:59,315
Feels unreal being down here.

1364
01:16:59,315 --> 01:17:02,285
Everything we've been
through, where we left from.

1365
01:17:02,285 --> 01:17:06,055
Now we're sitting at the
doorway, you know? Right there.

1366
01:17:09,525 --> 01:17:12,295
- Alright. We just got
to Puerto Williams,

1367
01:17:12,295 --> 01:17:14,363
but it looks like we've got
a weather window to shoot

1368
01:17:14,363 --> 01:17:16,866
around Cape Hore. So, we're
gonna try and take it.

1369
01:17:20,003 --> 01:17:20,837
It's on, baby.

1370
01:17:24,040 --> 01:17:24,874
It's Cape Horn day, man.

1371
01:17:24,874 --> 01:17:26,209
It's Cape Horn day.

1372
01:17:27,711 --> 01:17:28,611
Oh, boy.

1373
01:17:29,779 --> 01:17:31,180
- How's that water
look for Cape Horn?

1374
01:17:31,180 --> 01:17:34,017
- It's looks good. It
really does look good.

1375
01:17:34,918 --> 01:17:37,420
(horn blares)

1376
01:17:40,890 --> 01:17:43,292
- Haven't had water this
flat since we got here.

1377
01:17:47,997 --> 01:17:51,267
- Makes me nervous. It's
too good to be true.

1378
01:17:53,502 --> 01:17:55,504
Much to good to be true.

1379
01:17:59,976 --> 01:18:03,079
(upbeat music starts)

1380
01:18:04,147 --> 01:18:05,114
Port, stern's up.

1381
01:18:06,649 --> 01:18:07,784
All bow lines are up.

1382
01:18:09,252 --> 01:18:10,820
The Old Lady's ready to rip.

1383
01:18:12,155 --> 01:18:12,989
Have a good trip there.

1384
01:18:12,989 --> 01:18:14,057
Alright, guys.

1385
01:18:14,057 --> 01:18:14,891
Bye.

1386
01:18:16,025 --> 01:18:17,961
Thanks. Safe travels, guys.

1387
01:18:19,495 --> 01:18:20,663
My hands are shaking.

1388
01:18:21,898 --> 01:18:22,899
My heart's racing.

1389
01:18:27,904 --> 01:18:30,840
- How often does the weather
window like this come down?

1390
01:18:30,840 --> 01:18:32,575
- Maybe twice a
season, twice a season,

1391
01:18:32,575 --> 01:18:34,744
we get a weather
window like this.

1392
01:18:34,744 --> 01:18:35,979
- At the end of the
day, it's Cape Horn.

1393
01:18:35,979 --> 01:18:38,314
So, the weather is
very unpredictable.

1394
01:18:38,314 --> 01:18:40,249
It's anybody's guess, what
mother nature throws at us,

1395
01:18:40,249 --> 01:18:41,550
once we get out there.

1396
01:18:42,819 --> 01:18:43,887
Say a prayer, John?

1397
01:18:45,554 --> 01:18:46,422
God be with us.

1398
01:19:06,709 --> 01:19:08,544
- We're between South America
and Antarctica, right now.

1399
01:19:08,544 --> 01:19:09,512
(laughs)

1400
01:19:09,512 --> 01:19:11,247
Which is pretty sweet.

1401
01:19:12,849 --> 01:19:15,184
This was a huge moment.

1402
01:19:15,184 --> 01:19:18,087
I'm not letting myself run
away until we get to Cape Horn.

1403
01:19:19,488 --> 01:19:21,157
(music stops)

1404
01:19:21,157 --> 01:19:22,792
- The wind's picking
up a little bit, so

1405
01:19:25,161 --> 01:19:25,962
choppy seas.

1406
01:19:35,972 --> 01:19:38,975
- This weather's
all over the place.

1407
01:19:41,644 --> 01:19:44,313
(thunder roars)

1408
01:19:56,659 --> 01:19:58,161
Damn, man.

1409
01:19:58,161 --> 01:20:02,365
I was fucking hoping for
sunny skies and calm seas.

1410
01:20:04,467 --> 01:20:06,502
Was looking like that all day.

1411
01:20:06,502 --> 01:20:10,573
- Now we're healing over 50
degrees, 35 knots of wind.

1412
01:20:12,308 --> 01:20:13,576
10 foot seas,

1413
01:20:13,576 --> 01:20:14,610
- - and rising.

1414
01:20:16,512 --> 01:20:18,581
All in a matter of 10 minutes.

1415
01:20:18,581 --> 01:20:21,550
- Exactly what we were
trying to avoid. You know?

1416
01:20:21,550 --> 01:20:23,086
You look at all the
weather windows,

1417
01:20:23,086 --> 01:20:25,521
you talk to all
the other cruisers.

1418
01:20:25,521 --> 01:20:28,024
We might not even be able
to see it now, you know?

1419
01:20:30,093 --> 01:20:31,427
Cape Horn is right there.

1420
01:20:47,043 --> 01:20:49,845
They can't even see us yet.

1421
01:20:49,845 --> 01:20:52,348
(indistinct mumbling)

1422
01:20:52,348 --> 01:20:53,482
One fucking break.

1423
01:20:57,853 --> 01:21:00,623
- It's our entire
expedition trip.

1424
01:21:04,393 --> 01:21:06,129
Every time we've
been on the water.

1425
01:21:08,764 --> 01:21:09,966
I don't know, you cranky?

1426
01:21:12,468 --> 01:21:14,103
- Yes, you do
everything you can.

1427
01:21:16,639 --> 01:21:17,941
And you get fucked.

1428
01:21:17,941 --> 01:21:19,008
Every fucking time.

1429
01:21:23,146 --> 01:21:26,649
I wanted this day to be for
all those dudes who came back,

1430
01:21:26,649 --> 01:21:29,885
fought every fucking day,
fucking hurt every fucking day.

1431
01:21:31,354 --> 01:21:33,522
Maybe they could see that
we'd get a fucking break.

1432
01:21:38,594 --> 01:21:39,996
Fucking broke my heart, man.

1433
01:21:41,164 --> 01:21:42,365
My career is dead, dude.

1434
01:21:52,041 --> 01:21:55,178
Ugh! I fucked up.
It's my fault, man.

1435
01:22:26,742 --> 01:22:28,477
Oh, you can almost.

1436
01:22:28,477 --> 01:22:30,213
Oh! You can see her!

1437
01:22:34,350 --> 01:22:36,785
Man, you can see Cape Horn!

1438
01:22:40,123 --> 01:22:42,625
(horn blares)

1439
01:22:44,027 --> 01:22:47,196
(upbeat music starts)

1440
01:22:47,196 --> 01:22:50,966
- It's clearing up. This
must be clearing up.

1441
01:22:54,437 --> 01:22:56,439
(cheering)

1442
01:22:56,439 --> 01:22:58,074
Cape fucking Horn.

1443
01:22:58,974 --> 01:23:01,377
(horn blares)

1444
01:23:11,954 --> 01:23:13,156
(laughing)

1445
01:23:13,156 --> 01:23:15,258
Oh! Fuck, yes, you can.

1446
01:23:27,336 --> 01:23:32,341
- Well, boys. This is when
Captain Grieg eats his words.

1447
01:23:33,476 --> 01:23:35,044
It's like God gave
us a break after all.

1448
01:23:35,044 --> 01:23:37,313
(laughing)

1449
01:23:43,586 --> 01:23:46,622
Alright, so. The flag here,

1450
01:23:46,622 --> 01:23:48,524
it's a thoughts forever flag.

1451
01:23:52,628 --> 01:23:55,098
Oh, man. In the heart quick.

1452
01:23:55,098 --> 01:23:58,134
- This flag was given to Taylor
by his friend, Mac, a doctor

1453
01:23:58,134 --> 01:24:01,237
who did critical care medical
transports in the air force.

1454
01:24:01,237 --> 01:24:04,173
Mac carried this flag on a
mission out of Afghanistan on

1455
01:24:04,173 --> 01:24:05,874
veterans day in 2007,

1456
01:24:05,874 --> 01:24:07,610
with three critically
wounded soldiers

1457
01:24:07,610 --> 01:24:09,712
and seven flag draped caskets.

1458
01:24:09,712 --> 01:24:11,414
I want us fly this flag,

1459
01:24:11,414 --> 01:24:12,248
it's to honor a

1460
01:24:14,583 --> 01:24:16,352
good friend Master
Sergeant Beret,

1461
01:24:17,253 --> 01:24:20,489
who committed suicide, so.

1462
01:24:20,489 --> 01:24:21,724
We're gonna fly his flag.

1463
01:24:35,037 --> 01:24:37,373
Yup, we're gonna fly
his flag on Cape Horn.

1464
01:24:38,707 --> 01:24:39,542
Hopefully to

1465
01:24:41,244 --> 01:24:42,478
do our part and to

1466
01:24:44,780 --> 01:24:47,683
show honor to our members,
for all their closest

1467
01:24:47,683 --> 01:24:49,285
that were stripped.

1468
01:24:50,386 --> 01:24:53,489
(indistinct chatter)

1469
01:25:03,599 --> 01:25:07,636
- It's about his
family, given family,

1470
01:25:07,636 --> 01:25:10,873
(indistinct muttering)

1471
01:25:17,946 --> 01:25:20,249
Everything we've been
through the past three years,

1472
01:25:24,019 --> 01:25:25,354
we did for them.

1473
01:26:14,770 --> 01:26:15,971
So, what am I up to now?

1474
01:26:17,740 --> 01:26:20,175
I'm really enjoying spending
time with my family.

1475
01:26:21,744 --> 01:26:24,613
I have a really great
relationship with my bride, Samantha,

1476
01:26:25,748 --> 01:26:27,483
and we've got a baby
girl on the way.

1477
01:26:28,351 --> 01:26:29,752
So, that's really cool.

1478
01:26:29,752 --> 01:26:31,554
She's going to be
an awesome sailor.

1479
01:26:33,021 --> 01:26:35,391
I use the old GI bill to pay
the bills for the apartment,

1480
01:26:35,391 --> 01:26:36,925
which is nice.

1481
01:26:36,925 --> 01:26:38,927
It's a good way to get on
your feet by figuring out,

1482
01:26:38,927 --> 01:26:41,730
you know, what you want to do.

1483
01:26:41,730 --> 01:26:44,533
I do currently go to
Tech St in Galveston

1484
01:26:45,934 --> 01:26:49,104
and I've started a new business
to fund veteran expeditions.

1485
01:26:49,104 --> 01:26:51,073
I think there's two things
I'm great at in this world

1486
01:26:51,073 --> 01:26:52,608
and that's sailing and tequila.

1487
01:26:53,776 --> 01:26:56,912
So, how do we use that
for sailing expeditions?

1488
01:26:56,912 --> 01:27:00,115
You create the best keel on
the world to ultimately fund

1489
01:27:00,115 --> 01:27:01,016
these expeditions.

1490
01:27:09,392 --> 01:27:12,928
I have a fleet of boats
with licensed captains,

1491
01:27:13,929 --> 01:27:15,431
you take 15 guys on the boat

1492
01:27:15,431 --> 01:27:17,500
and you take mental
health professionals.

1493
01:27:20,336 --> 01:27:22,938
You create a life-changing
experience for everybody.

1494
01:27:30,679 --> 01:27:32,981
If I could get those
guys on the water,

1495
01:27:32,981 --> 01:27:35,284
I think it gives them a
different perspective.

1496
01:27:37,386 --> 01:27:38,821
(waves crash)

1497
01:27:38,821 --> 01:27:41,724
(cheering)

1498
01:27:41,724 --> 01:27:44,092
You feel alive, out here
on the water. You know?

1499
01:27:44,092 --> 01:27:46,228
You're a part of it all.
You're working with the winds,

1500
01:27:46,228 --> 01:27:48,564
you're working with
water, you know?

1501
01:27:48,564 --> 01:27:50,333
She beats you down,
but, at the same time,

1502
01:27:50,333 --> 01:27:52,067
she rewards you, when
the sun comes out.

1503
01:27:52,067 --> 01:27:55,103
And it's just a ray of sunlight
coming out over a glacier.

1504
01:28:02,745 --> 01:28:04,179
This is my next Cape Horn.

1505
01:28:06,349 --> 01:28:09,184
(music continues)

1506
01:30:35,564 --> 01:30:37,900
(music fades)