1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:36,304 --> 00:00:38,539 Ladies and gentlemen, 4 00:00:38,539 --> 00:00:40,774 due to unexpected weather conditions, 5 00:00:40,774 --> 00:00:45,279 all flights domestic and international have been canceled. 6 00:00:45,279 --> 00:00:46,947 Until further announcement. 7 00:00:46,947 --> 00:00:50,484 Again, all flights both domestic and international 8 00:00:50,484 --> 00:00:52,753 have been canceled or delayed. 9 00:00:52,753 --> 00:00:54,888 We ask all passengers to check with your airlines 10 00:00:54,888 --> 00:00:57,158 in order to relocate your flight. 11 00:00:57,158 --> 00:00:59,127 We apologize for the inconvenience, 12 00:00:59,127 --> 00:01:01,362 and we wish you a safe trip. 13 00:01:47,074 --> 00:01:49,710 All flights both domestic and international 14 00:01:49,710 --> 00:01:51,979 have been canceled or delayed. 15 00:01:51,979 --> 00:01:54,248 We ask all passengers to check with your airlines 16 00:01:54,248 --> 00:01:56,950 in order to relocate your flight. 17 00:02:01,655 --> 00:02:02,690 Yeah. 18 00:02:02,690 --> 00:02:04,858 I'm writing all this down. 19 00:02:04,858 --> 00:02:07,395 I don't think I can ask them now because it's Friday, 20 00:02:07,395 --> 00:02:10,331 and they don't work on weekends. 21 00:02:10,331 --> 00:02:11,799 Right. 22 00:02:11,799 --> 00:02:13,267 Yeah. 23 00:02:13,267 --> 00:02:16,370 Well, you know, actually, I know some Photoshop. 24 00:02:16,370 --> 00:02:17,505 Let me see if I can- 25 00:02:19,540 --> 00:02:22,276 Yeah, maybe I can cut the logos at the end. 26 00:02:22,276 --> 00:02:23,544 I'm so sorry, I have another call. 27 00:02:23,544 --> 00:02:24,778 Can I, 28 00:02:24,778 --> 00:02:25,646 yeah, I'll keep you updated with this. 29 00:02:25,646 --> 00:02:26,480 Thanks. 30 00:02:29,583 --> 00:02:30,418 Hey! 31 00:02:31,419 --> 00:02:32,420 How's Miami? 32 00:02:32,420 --> 00:02:34,688 Did you give your talk yet? 33 00:02:35,856 --> 00:02:37,090 Yeah, I'm home. 34 00:02:39,126 --> 00:02:40,228 Yeah, I know. 35 00:02:41,595 --> 00:02:44,498 They said it's gonna be pretty bad, I'm kinda scared. 36 00:02:44,498 --> 00:02:48,569 I guess it's gonna be one of those summer storms. 37 00:02:50,037 --> 00:02:50,838 Who? 38 00:02:52,806 --> 00:02:56,344 Yeah, you might've mentioned him. 39 00:02:56,344 --> 00:02:59,647 Wait, is this the guy that makes gay porn? 40 00:03:01,148 --> 00:03:02,316 Right, sorry. 41 00:03:02,316 --> 00:03:03,651 Cinema verite. 42 00:03:03,651 --> 00:03:06,554 I'm not making fun of him, I swear. 43 00:03:08,989 --> 00:03:10,324 Wait, he's here? 44 00:03:14,027 --> 00:03:14,862 Yeah. 45 00:03:16,096 --> 00:03:18,198 Yeah, sure, he can stay in your room. 46 00:03:18,198 --> 00:03:20,000 I mean, I'm practically chained to my desk 47 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:23,604 doing work anyway, so, I'll be here. 48 00:03:23,604 --> 00:03:25,005 Sure. 49 00:03:25,005 --> 00:03:26,440 Yeah, no worries. 50 00:03:28,442 --> 00:03:29,943 It'll be fun. 51 00:04:47,755 --> 00:04:48,589 Marcos? 52 00:04:48,589 --> 00:04:49,423 Hi. 53 00:04:49,423 --> 00:04:50,358 Hi, hola. 54 00:04:51,625 --> 00:04:52,860 Hey. 55 00:04:52,860 --> 00:04:54,261 I'm Alan. 56 00:04:54,261 --> 00:04:56,397 I'm Marcos, hi. 57 00:04:56,397 --> 00:04:58,466 That's a Spanish thing we do, we- 58 00:04:58,466 --> 00:04:59,800 Two kisses, right. 59 00:05:01,234 --> 00:05:02,269 Come on in. 60 00:05:02,269 --> 00:05:03,270 Thank you. 61 00:05:12,380 --> 00:05:14,081 Can I get you anything? 62 00:05:14,081 --> 00:05:15,449 Um, water. 63 00:05:15,449 --> 00:05:17,718 - Sure. - Please, thank you. 64 00:05:35,135 --> 00:05:36,404 Here you go. 65 00:05:36,404 --> 00:05:37,237 Thanks. 66 00:05:37,237 --> 00:05:39,339 Did you paint these? 67 00:05:39,339 --> 00:05:40,674 Yeah, sort of. 68 00:05:42,175 --> 00:05:43,977 Did you paint them or not? 69 00:05:43,977 --> 00:05:45,045 Yes, I did. 70 00:05:46,013 --> 00:05:46,880 They're really cool. 71 00:05:46,880 --> 00:05:47,715 Thank you. 72 00:05:47,715 --> 00:05:48,549 I like Annie Hall. 73 00:05:48,549 --> 00:05:49,917 Annie Hull? 74 00:05:49,917 --> 00:05:50,851 Annie Hall. 75 00:05:50,851 --> 00:05:52,720 My accent's funny, sorry. 76 00:05:52,720 --> 00:05:55,489 I kinda like Annie Hull. 77 00:05:56,356 --> 00:05:58,792 I like this one. 78 00:05:58,792 --> 00:05:59,960 Oh, yeah. 79 00:05:59,960 --> 00:06:01,429 - That's hot. - Thanks. 80 00:06:01,429 --> 00:06:03,030 Yeah, it's great. 81 00:06:04,598 --> 00:06:07,100 Claire says you guys know each other from college? 82 00:06:07,100 --> 00:06:08,368 College, yeah, yeah. 83 00:06:08,368 --> 00:06:09,603 She always got super drunk, 84 00:06:09,603 --> 00:06:12,305 and I used to hold her head while she vomited. 85 00:06:12,305 --> 00:06:14,041 It was really funny, and then she'd let me borrow the notes. 86 00:06:14,041 --> 00:06:15,275 That was really cool. 87 00:06:15,275 --> 00:06:16,744 You know, we should call her at some point. 88 00:06:16,744 --> 00:06:18,612 She seemed really excited about this. 89 00:06:18,612 --> 00:06:19,947 I mean not in a weird way, 90 00:06:19,947 --> 00:06:23,250 just two gay guys in one house. 91 00:06:23,250 --> 00:06:24,384 Probably thinks we're gonna have 92 00:06:24,384 --> 00:06:27,320 a "Queer Eye" marathon or something. 93 00:06:28,889 --> 00:06:31,859 Unless, of course, you're not gay. 94 00:06:31,859 --> 00:06:33,494 Why would I not be gay? 95 00:06:33,494 --> 00:06:34,928 Well, you never said you were, so. 96 00:06:34,928 --> 00:06:36,063 Clara told you that I was gay? 97 00:06:36,063 --> 00:06:36,897 No. 98 00:06:38,398 --> 00:06:41,401 Yeah, she did, but she didn't say much else. 99 00:06:41,401 --> 00:06:42,803 She said you make movies. 100 00:06:42,803 --> 00:06:44,237 Yeah, it's a doc. 101 00:06:44,237 --> 00:06:45,439 A documentary. 102 00:06:45,439 --> 00:06:46,940 The one you're shooting, or sorry, 103 00:06:46,940 --> 00:06:48,408 the one you're screening rather, in San Francisco? 104 00:06:48,408 --> 00:06:50,277 The one that I'm screening in San Francisco, yeah. 105 00:06:50,277 --> 00:06:51,111 Yeah. 106 00:06:51,111 --> 00:06:52,045 What's it about? 107 00:06:52,045 --> 00:06:53,614 It's about gay sex and dicks. 108 00:06:53,614 --> 00:06:55,215 - Oh, okay. - Yeah. 109 00:06:55,215 --> 00:06:56,450 And you shot it yourself with a camera and all? 110 00:06:56,450 --> 00:06:57,718 Big dicks. 111 00:06:57,718 --> 00:07:00,153 No, no, we used the shoot for this one. 112 00:07:00,153 --> 00:07:00,954 Duh. 113 00:07:03,657 --> 00:07:05,926 Yeah, no, it's about, 114 00:07:05,926 --> 00:07:08,261 I dated a few men, and then I shot some stuff 115 00:07:08,261 --> 00:07:10,831 and cut it all together, and now it's a doc. 116 00:07:10,831 --> 00:07:12,566 It sounds intense. 117 00:07:12,566 --> 00:07:14,001 It's all right. 118 00:07:15,803 --> 00:07:18,405 What did they think? 119 00:07:18,405 --> 00:07:20,007 Who? 120 00:07:20,007 --> 00:07:20,908 These men. 121 00:07:20,908 --> 00:07:22,710 Have they seen it? 122 00:07:22,710 --> 00:07:23,544 Um, no. 123 00:07:24,745 --> 00:07:26,413 But they will see it at some point. 124 00:07:26,413 --> 00:07:28,015 Like at the movies, in theaters? 125 00:07:28,015 --> 00:07:29,449 Yeah, like at the movies in theaters. 126 00:07:29,449 --> 00:07:30,718 Like now we play at a festival, 127 00:07:30,718 --> 00:07:31,819 and then you play at another one, 128 00:07:31,819 --> 00:07:33,954 and eventually they'll see it. 129 00:07:33,954 --> 00:07:35,856 Yeah, they will see it. 130 00:07:37,658 --> 00:07:40,060 I've never been in a movie. 131 00:07:44,464 --> 00:07:45,699 Claire wants me to tell you 132 00:07:45,699 --> 00:07:47,801 that she left in a bit of a hurry, 133 00:07:47,801 --> 00:07:50,804 so her room might be a little messy. 134 00:07:53,607 --> 00:07:54,608 There it is. 135 00:08:02,583 --> 00:08:04,184 So this storm, huh? 136 00:08:06,019 --> 00:08:07,988 I'm a little worried. 137 00:08:07,988 --> 00:08:09,489 Are you scared? 138 00:08:09,489 --> 00:08:12,025 Not really, I mean it's sunny now, so it'll be fine. 139 00:08:12,025 --> 00:08:13,561 I kinda really want to take a nap, 140 00:08:13,561 --> 00:08:14,461 if you don't mind. 141 00:08:14,461 --> 00:08:15,729 Sure. 142 00:08:15,729 --> 00:08:16,797 It must be siesta time there, right? 143 00:08:16,797 --> 00:08:18,031 Yeah. 144 00:08:18,031 --> 00:08:19,667 And can I get the Wi-Fi password? 145 00:08:19,667 --> 00:08:21,434 Of course, I'll grab it for you. 146 00:08:21,434 --> 00:08:23,036 It's on the router, 147 00:08:25,639 --> 00:08:26,540 downstairs. 148 00:09:32,973 --> 00:09:36,443 Violent winds, driving rain, killer waves. 149 00:09:36,443 --> 00:09:38,879 These are the hallmarks of a hurricane. 150 00:09:38,879 --> 00:09:41,148 Also called cyclones or typhoons, 151 00:09:41,148 --> 00:09:43,016 hurricanes are giant storms 152 00:09:43,016 --> 00:09:45,218 prowling the world's tropical seas. 153 00:09:45,218 --> 00:09:47,888 Hurricanes are the most violent- 154 00:10:13,914 --> 00:10:14,748 Shit. 155 00:11:33,526 --> 00:11:35,028 Well, yeah, we could make them smaller, 156 00:11:35,028 --> 00:11:36,463 but I just don't know how to make them transparent 157 00:11:36,463 --> 00:11:37,931 in over image. 158 00:11:37,931 --> 00:11:41,168 We'd need the guys who edited the video for that. 159 00:11:41,168 --> 00:11:42,936 Well, yeah, I can also do that, 160 00:11:42,936 --> 00:11:46,239 but it's already the end of the day and, 161 00:11:46,239 --> 00:11:47,908 yeah, I know. 162 00:11:47,908 --> 00:11:49,609 I know, and the video did make the deadline, 163 00:11:49,609 --> 00:11:54,214 I just wasn't expecting we'd have problems with this. 164 00:11:54,214 --> 00:11:55,783 Yeah, no, I'll send him an email now, 165 00:11:55,783 --> 00:11:57,284 maybe they haven't left the office, 166 00:11:57,284 --> 00:12:02,089 but I don't know that they're gonna work on the weekend. 167 00:12:02,823 --> 00:12:03,757 Sure, I'll solve this. 168 00:12:03,757 --> 00:12:05,458 Yep, somehow. 169 00:12:05,458 --> 00:12:06,293 Okay. 170 00:13:32,545 --> 00:13:34,414 Morning. 171 00:13:34,414 --> 00:13:35,248 Hi. 172 00:13:38,151 --> 00:13:39,419 How much did I sleep? 173 00:13:39,419 --> 00:13:40,687 Not too much. 174 00:13:42,155 --> 00:13:43,423 I'm so jet-lagged. 175 00:13:43,423 --> 00:13:45,025 Yeah, I can tell. 176 00:13:47,660 --> 00:13:49,629 Where were you doing? 177 00:13:49,629 --> 00:13:51,498 Oh, working. 178 00:13:51,498 --> 00:13:52,866 What's work? 179 00:13:52,866 --> 00:13:56,203 I work at a startup, it's an app. 180 00:13:56,203 --> 00:13:57,704 An app for... 181 00:13:57,704 --> 00:14:00,373 It's a dating app, for gay men. 182 00:14:02,442 --> 00:14:03,776 Is that Grindr? 183 00:14:04,912 --> 00:14:05,979 No, I wish. 184 00:14:07,580 --> 00:14:09,649 It's called WeTopia. 185 00:14:09,649 --> 00:14:12,719 It's a whole different concept for... 186 00:14:14,287 --> 00:14:15,956 Here, I'll show you. 187 00:14:20,460 --> 00:14:23,396 Okay, so, let's say you're at home wondering 188 00:14:23,396 --> 00:14:25,065 what to do, a Friday night. 189 00:14:25,065 --> 00:14:27,200 Well, not this Friday night 'cause of the storm, 190 00:14:27,200 --> 00:14:29,903 you know, but any other Friday night. 191 00:14:29,903 --> 00:14:32,906 And let's say you decide to go here. 192 00:14:34,174 --> 00:14:35,708 That's the Met? 193 00:14:35,708 --> 00:14:38,078 Actually, it's the MoMA, but yeah, the Met would work too. 194 00:14:38,078 --> 00:14:41,181 So you go, and you place a pin there. 195 00:14:42,349 --> 00:14:43,616 The next version of the app will allow you 196 00:14:43,616 --> 00:14:46,819 to just geotag you, but in this version 197 00:14:46,819 --> 00:14:48,421 you're just gonna place a pin. 198 00:14:48,421 --> 00:14:53,393 And there, in a flash, you can see where the gays are. 199 00:14:53,393 --> 00:14:54,494 And they know who you are or- 200 00:14:54,494 --> 00:14:55,695 Nope. 201 00:14:55,695 --> 00:14:57,164 That's the cool thing about the app. 202 00:14:57,164 --> 00:14:59,199 It's color blind, age blind, anything else blind 203 00:14:59,199 --> 00:15:01,634 because it doesn't really matter. 204 00:15:01,634 --> 00:15:02,469 Hm. 205 00:15:03,670 --> 00:15:05,405 Gay people have to leave the house 206 00:15:05,405 --> 00:15:08,241 living with the burden of a heteronormative world, 207 00:15:08,241 --> 00:15:10,743 but with this app, WeTopia, 208 00:15:10,743 --> 00:15:12,579 you can choose to hang in spaces 209 00:15:12,579 --> 00:15:14,314 where you become the norm. 210 00:15:14,314 --> 00:15:17,050 Well, not you, but your identity. 211 00:15:17,917 --> 00:15:19,086 That's cool. 212 00:15:20,220 --> 00:15:23,056 I'm sorry that you're having a bad day. 213 00:15:23,056 --> 00:15:24,391 You know what? 214 00:15:24,391 --> 00:15:25,225 Fuck them. 215 00:15:28,261 --> 00:15:31,631 You know, you should take a break. 216 00:15:31,631 --> 00:15:35,969 Like stalk someone on Instagram maybe, or something. 217 00:15:38,805 --> 00:15:40,807 I need to take a shower. 218 00:15:41,641 --> 00:15:42,475 Sure. 219 00:15:46,913 --> 00:15:50,483 Okay, so, there should be soap in here, 220 00:15:50,483 --> 00:15:51,684 use whatever you need, 221 00:15:51,684 --> 00:15:54,454 and you got your towel, that's good. 222 00:15:57,257 --> 00:15:58,758 The water pressure is weird, 223 00:15:58,758 --> 00:16:01,861 so you'll have to let it run smoothly at first 224 00:16:01,861 --> 00:16:03,496 and then it'll be interrupted, 225 00:16:03,496 --> 00:16:05,798 and then it'll flow smoothly again, 226 00:16:05,798 --> 00:16:09,169 and then you can take your shower. 227 00:16:09,169 --> 00:16:10,003 Okay. 228 00:16:14,841 --> 00:16:15,675 Sorry. 229 00:16:17,410 --> 00:16:19,079 I'll let you shower. 230 00:16:24,517 --> 00:16:26,853 Shit, sorry, I did it again. 231 00:16:27,920 --> 00:16:29,456 I'm just gonna leave you. 232 00:16:29,456 --> 00:16:30,290 Here. 233 00:18:35,648 --> 00:18:37,317 Hey. - Hi. 234 00:18:37,317 --> 00:18:38,985 How was the shower? 235 00:18:38,985 --> 00:18:40,153 It was good. 236 00:18:44,224 --> 00:18:45,458 Look. 237 00:18:45,458 --> 00:18:46,559 About before, 238 00:18:47,860 --> 00:18:49,629 I'm so, so, so sorry. 239 00:18:50,797 --> 00:18:53,099 I just don't know what happened. 240 00:18:53,099 --> 00:18:55,668 I think you kissed me. 241 00:18:55,668 --> 00:18:56,503 I did. 242 00:18:57,637 --> 00:18:58,871 I did. 243 00:18:58,871 --> 00:19:01,541 And I'm so sorry that I did. 244 00:19:01,541 --> 00:19:03,743 I think I'm just a little stressed. 245 00:19:03,743 --> 00:19:05,345 Tense. 246 00:19:05,345 --> 00:19:06,179 Anxious. 247 00:19:08,881 --> 00:19:10,049 Is that Zizek? 248 00:19:10,950 --> 00:19:12,452 Oh, this? 249 00:19:12,452 --> 00:19:14,053 Yeah, that's Zizek. 250 00:19:16,823 --> 00:19:18,491 That's kinda cool. 251 00:19:21,027 --> 00:19:21,861 Thanks. 252 00:19:25,131 --> 00:19:26,132 I'm sorry. 253 00:19:28,468 --> 00:19:30,870 You don't have to be sorry, it's all good. 254 00:19:30,870 --> 00:19:33,840 And you're a really good kisser. 255 00:19:33,840 --> 00:19:36,243 Okay, well, thank you. 256 00:19:36,243 --> 00:19:40,046 But see, the thing is, that's just not like me, okay? 257 00:19:40,046 --> 00:19:41,714 That's not who I am. 258 00:19:43,950 --> 00:19:47,186 - Look, it's all good. - Yeah, for you. 259 00:19:48,455 --> 00:19:49,289 I mean, 260 00:19:50,757 --> 00:19:53,393 maybe it is good for you, it clearly is all good for you. 261 00:19:53,393 --> 00:19:54,561 Right. 262 00:19:54,561 --> 00:19:55,795 Yeah, I get it, 'cause I'm from Spain, 263 00:19:55,795 --> 00:19:57,564 I'm a Spaniard, that's what Spaniards do. 264 00:19:57,564 --> 00:20:00,333 One does not simply go and kiss a stranger like that. 265 00:20:00,333 --> 00:20:02,001 Oh, you guys wait until the third date. 266 00:20:02,001 --> 00:20:03,470 Okay, you can stop humiliating me, 267 00:20:03,470 --> 00:20:04,504 I already feel ashamed enough. 268 00:20:06,606 --> 00:20:07,774 Look, it's good, seriously. 269 00:20:07,774 --> 00:20:10,076 Don't worry about it. 270 00:20:10,076 --> 00:20:12,279 You should just- 271 00:20:12,279 --> 00:20:13,613 Open the door. 272 00:20:25,124 --> 00:20:26,526 Hi, honey. 273 00:20:26,526 --> 00:20:27,360 Hi! 274 00:20:28,595 --> 00:20:29,796 I thought you said you weren't coming. 275 00:20:29,796 --> 00:20:31,298 Oh, I wasn't, because I thought the storm 276 00:20:31,298 --> 00:20:33,633 was gonna hit way sooner, but then, I don't know, 277 00:20:33,633 --> 00:20:35,167 I thought maybe it's a sign. 278 00:20:35,167 --> 00:20:37,270 And after all, it's her 80th birthday, 279 00:20:37,270 --> 00:20:39,572 so I have to have this time. 280 00:20:41,374 --> 00:20:42,241 Is he here? 281 00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:43,209 Yeah. 282 00:20:43,209 --> 00:20:44,511 The guy that makes gay porn? 283 00:20:44,511 --> 00:20:46,379 It's a doc, actually. 284 00:20:48,348 --> 00:20:49,816 - Hey. - Hi! 285 00:20:49,816 --> 00:20:50,950 Hi. 286 00:20:50,950 --> 00:20:52,251 - I'm Tristan. - Marcos. 287 00:20:52,251 --> 00:20:53,386 Hi, how are you? 288 00:20:53,386 --> 00:20:54,421 Hi, Mark. 289 00:20:54,421 --> 00:20:55,221 - Marcos. - Marcos. 290 00:20:55,221 --> 00:20:56,556 Oh. 291 00:20:56,556 --> 00:20:58,024 I feel bad. 292 00:20:58,024 --> 00:21:00,860 I felt bad leaving this little nugget here all alone. 293 00:21:00,860 --> 00:21:03,029 But, you know, hey, I think it's kind of exciting. 294 00:21:03,029 --> 00:21:06,065 It's like a big storm to clean New York. 295 00:21:06,065 --> 00:21:07,600 And after this it's autumn, and I don't know, 296 00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:10,102 I feel like there's something kinda cosmic about this rain. 297 00:21:10,102 --> 00:21:11,438 Yeah, totally. 298 00:21:13,072 --> 00:21:15,742 The tie's in my room, upstairs. 299 00:21:15,742 --> 00:21:17,477 Oh, I'll wait here. 300 00:21:19,412 --> 00:21:20,480 Thanks, babe. 301 00:21:22,649 --> 00:21:23,483 So, 302 00:21:24,617 --> 00:21:27,354 Alan says you make movies. 303 00:21:27,354 --> 00:21:29,422 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I do. 304 00:21:30,390 --> 00:21:31,591 Yeah. 305 00:21:31,591 --> 00:21:32,392 I'm going to this family dinner 306 00:21:32,392 --> 00:21:33,593 and I needed this tie, 307 00:21:33,593 --> 00:21:36,996 but the last time I wore it I slept here, so. 308 00:21:38,665 --> 00:21:41,233 So you guys are together, yeah? 309 00:21:41,233 --> 00:21:42,869 Uh, two years now. 310 00:21:44,103 --> 00:21:45,605 Shocking, I know. 311 00:21:45,605 --> 00:21:46,939 Yeah. 312 00:21:46,939 --> 00:21:49,141 I kind of love him a lot. 313 00:21:53,279 --> 00:21:54,514 Are you hungry? 314 00:21:55,748 --> 00:21:57,350 You know, 315 00:21:57,350 --> 00:22:00,086 yeah, actually, yeah, I'm really hungry. 316 00:22:00,086 --> 00:22:01,153 Say no more. 317 00:22:20,540 --> 00:22:21,774 Where is he? 318 00:22:21,774 --> 00:22:23,342 Do you like butter, Marcos? 319 00:22:23,342 --> 00:22:24,711 I love butter, yeah. 320 00:22:24,711 --> 00:22:27,547 Babe, do you want a toast? 321 00:22:27,547 --> 00:22:29,215 Yeah, sure. 322 00:22:29,215 --> 00:22:32,151 Buttering for everyone! 323 00:22:34,521 --> 00:22:37,524 So, Mark, tell us about your movies. 324 00:22:39,258 --> 00:22:40,727 My movie, one. 325 00:22:40,727 --> 00:22:41,761 It's only one movie. 326 00:22:41,761 --> 00:22:44,764 It's a documentary, actually. 327 00:22:44,764 --> 00:22:47,567 And yeah, that's the one that I'm screening 328 00:22:47,567 --> 00:22:49,101 in San Francisco. 329 00:22:49,101 --> 00:22:52,371 Is there gonna be like a red carpet? 330 00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:54,674 No, I don't think, 331 00:22:54,674 --> 00:22:57,577 actually, yeah, maybe there is a red carpet, yeah. 332 00:22:57,577 --> 00:22:59,946 Are you gonna be famous? 333 00:22:59,946 --> 00:23:01,180 I don't think so, no. 334 00:23:01,180 --> 00:23:02,114 Oh my God, I can't believe 335 00:23:02,114 --> 00:23:03,716 I'm buttering toast for someone 336 00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:06,653 who is about to become famous. 337 00:23:29,742 --> 00:23:30,743 Thank you. 338 00:23:32,078 --> 00:23:33,646 Thanks. 339 00:23:43,490 --> 00:23:44,323 Mm. 340 00:23:50,963 --> 00:23:51,931 It's good. 341 00:23:51,931 --> 00:23:52,765 Thanks. 342 00:24:05,044 --> 00:24:06,846 Have so much fun tonight, okay? 343 00:24:06,846 --> 00:24:10,282 I will be thinking of you all the time. 344 00:24:11,818 --> 00:24:12,819 You be safe tonight, okay? 345 00:24:12,819 --> 00:24:15,922 Get there before the storm hits. 346 00:24:15,922 --> 00:24:16,989 Bye, Marcos! 347 00:24:16,989 --> 00:24:18,825 It was so nice to meet you! 348 00:24:18,825 --> 00:24:20,359 Bye! 349 00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:21,193 Love you. 350 00:24:21,193 --> 00:24:22,428 Love you too. 351 00:24:40,179 --> 00:24:41,080 He's hot. 352 00:24:42,214 --> 00:24:44,183 I'm really sorry. 353 00:24:44,183 --> 00:24:45,017 Don't be. 354 00:24:45,017 --> 00:24:46,919 I should've, 355 00:24:46,919 --> 00:24:48,187 I should've said something, 356 00:24:48,187 --> 00:24:49,889 or I shouldn't have done what I did before. 357 00:24:49,889 --> 00:24:51,490 I feel like I led you into something. 358 00:24:51,490 --> 00:24:53,325 No, it's all good. 359 00:24:53,325 --> 00:24:54,460 You didn't lead me into anything. 360 00:24:54,460 --> 00:24:55,528 Are you mad? 361 00:24:55,528 --> 00:24:57,964 - I'm not mad. - You're mad. 362 00:24:57,964 --> 00:24:59,365 I'm not mad. 363 00:24:59,365 --> 00:25:00,499 But if you want someone to be mad, 364 00:25:00,499 --> 00:25:02,635 maybe you should tell him. 365 00:25:04,571 --> 00:25:05,404 Oh boy. 366 00:25:08,407 --> 00:25:10,276 So, you've never cheated on him? 367 00:25:10,276 --> 00:25:11,878 No, never. 368 00:25:16,549 --> 00:25:17,383 Thanks. 369 00:25:23,155 --> 00:25:25,692 Once, maybe. 370 00:25:25,692 --> 00:25:27,794 What do you mean maybe? 371 00:25:28,695 --> 00:25:29,929 Well, it was way back before 372 00:25:29,929 --> 00:25:31,263 we were really dating or anything, 373 00:25:31,263 --> 00:25:34,500 except it had been about four months. 374 00:25:34,500 --> 00:25:38,137 I was at some party and I was talking to some guy, 375 00:25:38,137 --> 00:25:39,739 and I didn't sleep with him or anything, 376 00:25:39,739 --> 00:25:43,475 but all of a sudden we weren't talking anymore, 377 00:25:43,475 --> 00:25:44,644 and I was drunk, so. 378 00:25:44,644 --> 00:25:45,477 You blew him. 379 00:25:45,477 --> 00:25:46,312 No. 380 00:25:46,312 --> 00:25:47,146 You kissed him. 381 00:25:47,146 --> 00:25:48,414 No. 382 00:25:48,414 --> 00:25:50,983 But it did feel a lot like cheating. 383 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:54,153 Are you a virgin? 384 00:25:55,121 --> 00:25:55,955 Sorry. 385 00:25:57,423 --> 00:25:58,257 Sorry. 386 00:25:59,258 --> 00:26:00,727 You wouldn't get it. 387 00:26:00,727 --> 00:26:01,761 Why wouldn't I get it? 388 00:26:01,761 --> 00:26:04,163 Well, you clearly don't. 389 00:26:04,163 --> 00:26:05,632 Why wouldn't I get it? 390 00:26:05,632 --> 00:26:09,268 I'm just saying that this is what it felt like. 391 00:26:13,539 --> 00:26:15,341 What about you? 392 00:26:15,341 --> 00:26:16,542 What about me? 393 00:26:16,542 --> 00:26:19,511 You know, have you ever cheated on anyone? 394 00:26:19,511 --> 00:26:21,047 No, not really. 395 00:26:21,047 --> 00:26:23,049 I mean, I don't really believe in cheating, so. 396 00:26:23,049 --> 00:26:25,517 What does that mean? 397 00:26:25,517 --> 00:26:27,053 Well, I don't believe in monogamy, 398 00:26:27,053 --> 00:26:28,855 so cheating makes no sense. 399 00:26:28,855 --> 00:26:31,057 You never been in a relationship? 400 00:26:31,057 --> 00:26:32,558 Yeah. 401 00:26:32,558 --> 00:26:36,629 I mean, I've been with men for long periods of time, but... 402 00:26:36,629 --> 00:26:38,030 Like, how long? 403 00:26:39,565 --> 00:26:42,001 The last one, like seven months. 404 00:26:42,001 --> 00:26:42,902 What happened? 405 00:26:42,902 --> 00:26:44,603 I made a movie. 406 00:26:44,603 --> 00:26:46,338 Right, no spoilers. 407 00:26:49,475 --> 00:26:50,342 I don't know. 408 00:26:50,342 --> 00:26:51,543 Monogamy. 409 00:26:51,543 --> 00:26:53,512 I feel like I've yet to meet someone 410 00:26:53,512 --> 00:26:58,517 that can look me in the eyes and say "Monogamy makes sense." 411 00:27:00,987 --> 00:27:03,189 So, how did you guys meet? 412 00:27:03,189 --> 00:27:04,623 Oh, you know... 413 00:27:07,426 --> 00:27:08,260 Dancing. 414 00:27:09,461 --> 00:27:10,797 We met and danced- 415 00:27:10,797 --> 00:27:12,498 Dancing, where? 416 00:27:12,498 --> 00:27:13,700 At a bar. 417 00:27:13,700 --> 00:27:15,101 What bar? 418 00:27:15,101 --> 00:27:15,935 Grindr. 419 00:27:18,370 --> 00:27:19,171 Classy. 420 00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:24,310 The truth is, I was going through a harsh breakup, 421 00:27:24,310 --> 00:27:27,313 and that night I felt sort of needy, 422 00:27:29,648 --> 00:27:30,883 like I needed to be- 423 00:27:30,883 --> 00:27:32,084 To be fucked. 424 00:27:32,084 --> 00:27:33,085 Validated. 425 00:27:35,822 --> 00:27:40,827 So I went on Grindr and I met this cute little torso, 426 00:27:41,961 --> 00:27:43,195 and it belonged to this cute little face, 427 00:27:43,195 --> 00:27:46,198 which belonged to cute little Tristan. 428 00:27:47,366 --> 00:27:48,801 And I left the house without douching, 429 00:27:48,801 --> 00:27:50,602 so I didn't end up sleeping with him, 430 00:27:50,602 --> 00:27:52,338 but I did meet up with him the next morning. 431 00:27:52,338 --> 00:27:53,740 Wait, what? 432 00:27:53,740 --> 00:27:55,374 The next morning? 433 00:27:55,374 --> 00:27:58,410 You didn't sleep with him because of what? 434 00:27:58,410 --> 00:28:00,012 Oh, I hadn't douched. 435 00:28:00,012 --> 00:28:01,247 You hadn't douched? 436 00:28:01,247 --> 00:28:04,216 Well, couldn't you like not have sex with him, 437 00:28:04,216 --> 00:28:06,786 or could you just blow him, or I don't know, 438 00:28:06,786 --> 00:28:08,020 can you top him? 439 00:28:08,020 --> 00:28:09,922 Oh, I don't top. 440 00:28:09,922 --> 00:28:11,157 You don't top? 441 00:28:11,157 --> 00:28:13,425 No, I tried, it didn't work out. 442 00:28:13,425 --> 00:28:15,161 Well yeah, you try it once and it doesn't work out, 443 00:28:15,161 --> 00:28:16,963 and then you do it more and then it's great. 444 00:28:16,963 --> 00:28:19,799 It's just not my thing, I guess. 445 00:28:23,803 --> 00:28:27,139 Is your movie about the seven month one? 446 00:28:29,776 --> 00:28:32,178 Yeah, amongst many others. 447 00:28:32,178 --> 00:28:33,780 Has he seen it? 448 00:28:33,780 --> 00:28:35,214 No. 449 00:28:35,214 --> 00:28:36,816 You don't want him to or- 450 00:28:36,816 --> 00:28:39,318 No, it just hasn't happened. 451 00:28:40,787 --> 00:28:42,454 You miss that guy. 452 00:28:43,389 --> 00:28:44,556 No, I don't miss that guy. 453 00:28:44,556 --> 00:28:46,959 "No, I don't miss that guy." 454 00:28:55,367 --> 00:28:58,905 So, how come you're not at the party? 455 00:28:58,905 --> 00:29:01,173 At Tristan's grandma's party? 456 00:29:01,173 --> 00:29:02,341 Yeah. 457 00:29:02,341 --> 00:29:03,943 Oh, he's not out. 458 00:29:05,644 --> 00:29:07,413 He's not out? 459 00:29:07,413 --> 00:29:08,247 No. 460 00:29:10,950 --> 00:29:11,784 What? 461 00:29:13,252 --> 00:29:16,488 Nothing. 462 00:29:16,488 --> 00:29:17,924 Shit! 463 00:29:17,924 --> 00:29:18,858 Fuck. 464 00:29:18,858 --> 00:29:19,826 What? 465 00:29:19,826 --> 00:29:20,860 It didn't render. 466 00:29:20,860 --> 00:29:22,094 What didn't render? 467 00:29:22,094 --> 00:29:24,230 The thing I'm working on, it didn't render. 468 00:29:24,230 --> 00:29:25,697 Well, what happened? 469 00:29:25,697 --> 00:29:27,399 A glitch with the files, I guess. 470 00:29:27,399 --> 00:29:30,302 Shit, see, and this is why I shouldn't be doing this. 471 00:29:30,302 --> 00:29:31,470 Well, why are you doing it? 472 00:29:31,470 --> 00:29:33,005 Because the people that do this 473 00:29:33,005 --> 00:29:35,407 don't work on weekends, and neither should I, honestly. 474 00:29:35,407 --> 00:29:36,943 Then just don't do it. 475 00:29:36,943 --> 00:29:39,111 Yeah right, and then next Monday I'm basically fired. 476 00:29:39,111 --> 00:29:40,446 I don't think you would be fired. 477 00:29:40,446 --> 00:29:41,613 If you tell them- 478 00:29:41,613 --> 00:29:42,915 Okay, I just need a minute here. 479 00:31:19,912 --> 00:31:21,147 Hi. 480 00:31:21,147 --> 00:31:23,815 Listen, I'm really sorry about before. 481 00:31:23,815 --> 00:31:24,783 That was rude of me. 482 00:31:24,783 --> 00:31:25,817 It's good, it's good. 483 00:31:25,817 --> 00:31:27,019 It's all good. 484 00:31:27,019 --> 00:31:28,354 I just think I'm a little tense, you know, 485 00:31:28,354 --> 00:31:30,789 because of the whole rain thing. 486 00:31:30,789 --> 00:31:32,824 Yeah, it's all good. 487 00:31:32,824 --> 00:31:33,659 I know. 488 00:31:35,027 --> 00:31:36,862 I know, it's all good. 489 00:31:38,397 --> 00:31:40,799 I just shouldn't be working on a Friday night, you know? 490 00:31:40,799 --> 00:31:41,833 Right. 491 00:31:41,833 --> 00:31:43,269 But it pays the bills. 492 00:31:43,269 --> 00:31:44,803 Yeah. 493 00:31:44,803 --> 00:31:47,606 And you can very easily say "Quit this shit, Alan." 494 00:31:47,606 --> 00:31:49,575 And believe me, I think about it all the time. 495 00:31:49,575 --> 00:31:50,409 Right. 496 00:31:50,409 --> 00:31:52,578 But then again, 497 00:31:52,578 --> 00:31:54,746 I've gotten used to living in this house and- 498 00:31:54,746 --> 00:31:56,215 Totally. 499 00:31:56,215 --> 00:31:57,449 I don't know if I could live anywhere else. 500 00:31:57,449 --> 00:31:58,951 Like, where do you live in Spain? 501 00:31:58,951 --> 00:32:00,252 Me? 502 00:32:00,252 --> 00:32:01,853 I live in a house with five people. 503 00:32:01,853 --> 00:32:02,854 Holy shit. 504 00:32:05,157 --> 00:32:06,292 Anyway, sorry. 505 00:32:06,292 --> 00:32:08,560 That was rude of me. 506 00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:10,629 It's all good. 507 00:32:13,099 --> 00:32:16,168 Were you about to jerk off? 508 00:32:16,168 --> 00:32:17,336 No. 509 00:32:45,464 --> 00:32:47,433 So, what do you think? 510 00:32:47,433 --> 00:32:48,934 It's good, yeah. 511 00:32:49,868 --> 00:32:50,836 It's good. 512 00:32:50,836 --> 00:32:52,104 I think it's a little cheesy, 513 00:32:52,104 --> 00:32:55,407 but it kind of works for this stuff, yeah. 514 00:32:56,608 --> 00:32:57,409 Like? 515 00:32:59,578 --> 00:33:01,680 I just feel like I don't get the point. 516 00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:02,714 The point of- 517 00:33:02,714 --> 00:33:04,616 The point of the app. 518 00:33:06,352 --> 00:33:08,987 Well, gay people constantly have to live 519 00:33:08,987 --> 00:33:10,722 in a world where they're not the norm. 520 00:33:10,722 --> 00:33:13,259 And with this, they get to choose to live 521 00:33:13,259 --> 00:33:14,660 in a less heteronormative world. 522 00:33:14,660 --> 00:33:16,895 I get that part, but then, 523 00:33:16,895 --> 00:33:19,231 I think it's all about changing the conversation, right? 524 00:33:19,231 --> 00:33:20,399 So how do we change the conversation 525 00:33:20,399 --> 00:33:21,767 if we're all having the same one? 526 00:33:21,767 --> 00:33:23,369 You don't. 527 00:33:23,369 --> 00:33:25,504 You can't, we've tried. 528 00:33:25,504 --> 00:33:27,739 As gay people, we constantly have to try, 529 00:33:27,739 --> 00:33:29,341 it's a struggle. 530 00:33:29,341 --> 00:33:31,743 We're doing it all the time with or without an app. 531 00:33:31,743 --> 00:33:33,545 But with this... 532 00:33:33,545 --> 00:33:38,550 Okay, think of it as nuns that live together in a convent. 533 00:33:39,285 --> 00:33:40,786 They find their temple, 534 00:33:40,786 --> 00:33:43,055 and they decide to segregate from the rest of society. 535 00:33:43,055 --> 00:33:45,891 Yeah, but how do you compare a group of nuns 536 00:33:45,891 --> 00:33:47,593 with a group of horny huns? 537 00:33:47,593 --> 00:33:49,061 It's not just about that. 538 00:33:49,061 --> 00:33:50,829 Not to mention that this excludes everyone else 539 00:33:50,829 --> 00:33:52,364 in the LGBTQ community. 540 00:33:52,364 --> 00:33:54,233 The trans community, asexual community. 541 00:33:54,233 --> 00:33:55,801 It's just an app. 542 00:33:55,801 --> 00:33:57,169 Yeah, it's just an app, but in the meantime, 543 00:33:57,169 --> 00:33:58,637 your boyfriend's having a birthday party 544 00:33:58,637 --> 00:33:59,971 that you can't even go. 545 00:33:59,971 --> 00:34:01,173 Why are you so bothered about that? 546 00:34:01,173 --> 00:34:02,741 You don't even do boyfriends. 547 00:34:02,741 --> 00:34:05,611 Because it's just not fair. 548 00:34:05,611 --> 00:34:08,013 It's just not fair, you know? 549 00:34:10,349 --> 00:34:11,883 Okay, sorry. 550 00:34:11,883 --> 00:34:16,622 It's a little hard to take you seriously with that shirt on. 551 00:34:18,190 --> 00:34:19,525 Stop doing that. 552 00:34:26,732 --> 00:34:28,767 Okay, play it again. 553 00:34:32,804 --> 00:34:35,807 God, this kitchen is depressing. 554 00:34:35,807 --> 00:34:38,444 I really never have the time to cook. 555 00:34:38,444 --> 00:34:40,846 I mean, I don't cook, and Claire's a medical student, 556 00:34:40,846 --> 00:34:44,350 so she barely has time to eat anything at all. 557 00:34:44,350 --> 00:34:46,818 I really should've bought something. 558 00:34:46,818 --> 00:34:48,954 Oh, we have this. 559 00:34:48,954 --> 00:34:49,888 What's this? 560 00:34:49,888 --> 00:34:50,989 Noodles. 561 00:34:50,989 --> 00:34:53,225 Instant noodles, like soup. 562 00:34:54,092 --> 00:34:56,061 Do you have potatoes and egg? 563 00:34:56,061 --> 00:34:57,563 We do have eggs. 564 00:34:59,131 --> 00:35:00,632 Uh, 565 00:35:00,632 --> 00:35:02,000 yeah, a couple potatoes. 566 00:35:02,000 --> 00:35:03,302 Gosh, this fridge is empty. 567 00:35:03,302 --> 00:35:04,903 I told you, I never have time to cook. 568 00:35:04,903 --> 00:35:06,572 Well, what do you eat? 569 00:35:06,572 --> 00:35:09,275 I don't know, I guess noodles. 570 00:35:11,177 --> 00:35:14,646 Have you ever had a Spanish omelet? 571 00:35:24,423 --> 00:35:25,624 So, you want to have kids? 572 00:35:25,624 --> 00:35:26,758 Mm-hm. 573 00:35:26,758 --> 00:35:27,693 Two, three maybe. 574 00:35:30,296 --> 00:35:31,563 Except I don't really want to have them 575 00:35:31,563 --> 00:35:32,931 if I can't give them the same privileges 576 00:35:32,931 --> 00:35:34,266 I had growing up. 577 00:35:34,266 --> 00:35:35,334 The same privileges? 578 00:35:35,334 --> 00:35:36,768 Like what? 579 00:35:36,768 --> 00:35:39,805 Well, education, traveling, you know, a stable life. 580 00:35:39,805 --> 00:35:40,839 A stable life? 581 00:35:40,839 --> 00:35:42,608 Yeah, like a house. 582 00:35:42,608 --> 00:35:45,211 That's funny that you call those, like, privileges, 583 00:35:45,211 --> 00:35:46,712 as if they were something extraordinary. 584 00:35:46,712 --> 00:35:48,647 Well they are, kind of. 585 00:35:48,647 --> 00:35:50,115 See, that's one thing I like about Spain, 586 00:35:50,115 --> 00:35:51,850 is that everyone gets public healthcare 587 00:35:51,850 --> 00:35:53,185 and public education. 588 00:35:53,185 --> 00:35:55,621 What's one thing you don't like? 589 00:35:55,621 --> 00:35:56,855 Well, many things. 590 00:35:56,855 --> 00:35:58,089 But that's another cool thing, 591 00:35:58,089 --> 00:35:59,691 that we like to demonstrate a lot 592 00:35:59,691 --> 00:36:03,195 and go to the streets, and that's how we feel heard. 593 00:36:03,195 --> 00:36:05,397 But that doesn't make a difference, does it? 594 00:36:05,397 --> 00:36:07,032 A real difference, I mean? 595 00:36:07,032 --> 00:36:09,000 Yeah, it does. 596 00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,102 Yeah, even if it's just to feel heard. 597 00:36:11,102 --> 00:36:13,739 But that's what therapy is for. 598 00:36:13,739 --> 00:36:15,774 You do therapy, right? 599 00:36:15,774 --> 00:36:17,309 No. 600 00:36:17,309 --> 00:36:19,010 Well, what do you do when you're feeling overwhelmed? 601 00:36:19,010 --> 00:36:21,547 I cook, and I fuck. 602 00:36:21,547 --> 00:36:23,382 And sometimes I cook while I fuck. 603 00:36:23,382 --> 00:36:24,783 Well, you seem pretty great at it. 604 00:36:24,783 --> 00:36:25,617 At fuck- 605 00:36:25,617 --> 00:36:26,685 At cooking. 606 00:36:29,120 --> 00:36:30,422 So, what's next? 607 00:36:30,422 --> 00:36:31,257 Next, 608 00:36:33,925 --> 00:36:34,860 Meaning? 609 00:36:34,860 --> 00:36:35,894 Well, that's the Spanish name, 610 00:36:35,894 --> 00:36:37,363 we say it all the time. 611 00:36:37,363 --> 00:36:40,098 It means that you take a plate, and then you put it, 612 00:36:40,098 --> 00:36:42,434 and then the idea is that you spin the omelet 613 00:36:42,434 --> 00:36:43,535 with the plate. 614 00:36:43,535 --> 00:36:45,103 So in a conversation, for example, 615 00:36:45,103 --> 00:36:47,439 when you're in a topic and you change the subject 616 00:36:47,439 --> 00:36:48,540 to your own benefit. 617 00:36:48,540 --> 00:36:49,641 Then you say, hey, 618 00:36:51,042 --> 00:36:52,143 Give me it. 619 00:36:53,144 --> 00:36:54,145 What, you want to do it? 620 00:36:54,145 --> 00:36:55,080 Yeah. 621 00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:56,014 What, you think I can't do, 622 00:36:58,717 --> 00:37:01,520 Yeah, no, I think you're perfectly capable of, 623 00:37:04,756 --> 00:37:08,360 You just have to do it confidently. 624 00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:09,695 Yeah? - I got it. 625 00:37:12,731 --> 00:37:13,565 Like pressing- 626 00:37:13,565 --> 00:37:14,400 I'm gonna do it. 627 00:37:14,400 --> 00:37:15,233 Okay. 628 00:37:29,881 --> 00:37:30,816 What? 629 00:37:30,816 --> 00:37:31,783 I've had cup noodles before. 630 00:37:33,485 --> 00:37:34,320 Shit. 631 00:37:35,721 --> 00:37:36,622 Shit, fuck. 632 00:37:37,989 --> 00:37:38,824 What? 633 00:37:41,159 --> 00:37:45,163 Fuck, I thought I lost it again. 634 00:37:45,163 --> 00:37:46,231 Oh, I'm good. 635 00:37:48,367 --> 00:37:49,501 Hey, you know what we could do? 636 00:37:49,501 --> 00:37:50,836 Let's call Clara. 637 00:37:50,836 --> 00:37:52,604 How about that, yeah? 638 00:38:10,689 --> 00:38:13,158 Hey, do you have an adapter for this? 639 00:38:13,158 --> 00:38:15,527 I don't, but Claire does. 640 00:38:15,527 --> 00:38:16,928 Hold on a minute. 641 00:38:29,441 --> 00:38:31,577 Sorry, she must've taken it with her to Miami. 642 00:38:31,577 --> 00:38:32,411 Are you sure? 643 00:38:32,411 --> 00:38:33,345 Yeah. 644 00:38:33,345 --> 00:38:34,279 Do you want to use my phone? 645 00:38:34,279 --> 00:38:35,714 No, where can I get one? 646 00:38:35,714 --> 00:38:38,216 The deli, probably. 647 00:38:38,216 --> 00:38:39,385 I'll go get my jacket. 648 00:38:39,385 --> 00:38:40,552 Wait, what? 649 00:38:40,552 --> 00:38:41,987 I'll go get my jacket, I'll be fine. 650 00:38:41,987 --> 00:38:44,956 You can't leave now, the storm is insane, it's dangerous. 651 00:38:44,956 --> 00:38:45,991 You can't leave now. 652 00:38:45,991 --> 00:38:47,225 Just tell me where to go and- 653 00:38:47,225 --> 00:38:49,060 You can't leave now, not like this. 654 00:38:49,060 --> 00:38:50,328 You'll break your umbrella. 655 00:38:50,328 --> 00:38:51,363 I don't have an umbrella, so- 656 00:38:51,363 --> 00:38:52,364 It's dangerous! 657 00:38:52,364 --> 00:38:54,600 Are you always like this? 658 00:39:08,747 --> 00:39:10,782 If the wind blows too hard, close it. 659 00:39:10,782 --> 00:39:12,951 I don't want to lose my umbrella. 660 00:39:12,951 --> 00:39:14,386 The deli's two blocks that way, 661 00:39:14,386 --> 00:39:15,320 and if they don't have it, 662 00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:18,289 maybe the Food Town is open too. 663 00:39:18,289 --> 00:39:19,124 Thanks. 664 00:39:57,162 --> 00:39:58,329 Can I come in? 665 00:39:59,631 --> 00:40:00,966 You're insane! 666 00:40:02,133 --> 00:40:04,970 Just so you know, you're now my responsibility. 667 00:40:04,970 --> 00:40:06,438 Yeah, I can hear myself, 668 00:40:06,438 --> 00:40:08,273 I know I sound like some sort of tutor or something, 669 00:40:08,273 --> 00:40:11,176 but, fuck, you can't just disappear like that. 670 00:40:11,176 --> 00:40:12,310 I mean, I don't even know what I would do 671 00:40:12,310 --> 00:40:13,545 if something happened to you. 672 00:40:13,545 --> 00:40:14,713 I mean, do you even have insurance while- 673 00:40:14,713 --> 00:40:16,648 Can you please shut up for a second? 674 00:40:16,648 --> 00:40:17,483 Please? 675 00:40:26,091 --> 00:40:29,995 You want me to shut up, I'll fuckin' shut up. 676 00:40:41,707 --> 00:40:43,341 The thing is that, 677 00:40:45,143 --> 00:40:48,780 the thing is that he doesn't want to see it. 678 00:40:50,816 --> 00:40:51,617 What? 679 00:40:54,953 --> 00:40:56,622 The guy that I dated for seven months, 680 00:40:56,622 --> 00:40:58,289 he doesn't want to see the movie, 681 00:40:58,289 --> 00:41:01,860 and he's in it, and I don't know what to do. 682 00:41:03,895 --> 00:41:05,130 And I think I fucked everything up 683 00:41:05,130 --> 00:41:07,365 when I left from Spain without saying goodbye. 684 00:41:07,365 --> 00:41:09,467 You didn't say goodbye? 685 00:41:17,809 --> 00:41:18,644 Okay. 686 00:41:25,717 --> 00:41:28,086 Who broke up with who? 687 00:41:28,086 --> 00:41:30,021 After I told him that I couldn't do monogamy, 688 00:41:30,021 --> 00:41:32,558 then he broke up with me. 689 00:41:32,558 --> 00:41:34,159 I think we just wanted very different things, 690 00:41:34,159 --> 00:41:36,762 so no one broke up with anyone. 691 00:41:38,029 --> 00:41:39,130 It was a mutual agreement. 692 00:41:39,130 --> 00:41:41,667 I'm sorry, I'm lost. 693 00:41:41,667 --> 00:41:42,500 So, 694 00:41:43,735 --> 00:41:45,971 this guy tells you he wants a relationship, 695 00:41:45,971 --> 00:41:49,174 you tell him you don't want one, 696 00:41:49,174 --> 00:41:52,143 put him in your movie, then leave, 697 00:41:52,143 --> 00:41:54,345 and then he refuses to talk to you, 698 00:41:54,345 --> 00:41:56,748 but it all started because of a mutual agreement? 699 00:41:56,748 --> 00:41:59,885 I'm sorry, I'm missing something here. 700 00:42:02,020 --> 00:42:04,556 What's so bad about having a relationship? 701 00:42:04,556 --> 00:42:05,490 Nothing. 702 00:42:05,490 --> 00:42:06,725 There's nothing bad about- 703 00:42:06,725 --> 00:42:08,026 Then what was so bad about him? 704 00:42:08,026 --> 00:42:09,060 That he wanted to commit. 705 00:42:09,060 --> 00:42:10,061 Did he say that? 706 00:42:10,061 --> 00:42:11,296 Yeah. 707 00:42:11,296 --> 00:42:12,530 What if he hadn't said it? 708 00:42:12,530 --> 00:42:13,699 Then he would've been deeply unhappy. 709 00:42:13,699 --> 00:42:14,532 How do you know? 710 00:42:14,532 --> 00:42:16,434 Because he said that. 711 00:42:18,904 --> 00:42:19,738 Okay. 712 00:42:21,172 --> 00:42:23,474 Let's say he didn't say that. 713 00:42:23,474 --> 00:42:26,978 Let's say you never had this conversation. 714 00:42:28,914 --> 00:42:32,818 Let's say you just start being with someone else. 715 00:42:32,818 --> 00:42:37,422 You start spending more and more time with this person. 716 00:42:38,590 --> 00:42:40,792 You start understanding this person's scars, 717 00:42:40,792 --> 00:42:43,261 and fears, and life goals, 718 00:42:43,261 --> 00:42:48,033 you might even share a few life goals with this person. 719 00:42:48,033 --> 00:42:51,002 Let's say you start a journey with this person. 720 00:42:51,002 --> 00:42:52,938 You find inside jokes, 721 00:42:52,938 --> 00:42:56,742 so now you have a lot of fun with this person. 722 00:42:58,476 --> 00:43:01,947 Let's say that you get used to this person's cock, 723 00:43:01,947 --> 00:43:04,616 and you find out that you can get his dick 724 00:43:04,616 --> 00:43:05,851 an inch deeper in your ass 725 00:43:05,851 --> 00:43:09,254 than you ever could get with anyone else. 726 00:43:10,756 --> 00:43:13,725 Or maybe you start opening up, 727 00:43:13,725 --> 00:43:15,360 and start trusting this person in a way 728 00:43:15,360 --> 00:43:17,362 that you've never trusted anyone else, 729 00:43:17,362 --> 00:43:19,264 you let that person in. 730 00:43:20,398 --> 00:43:24,469 And in that process, you start opening doors 731 00:43:24,469 --> 00:43:25,971 to certain parts of yourself, 732 00:43:25,971 --> 00:43:29,540 doors that lead to scarier parts of yourself, 733 00:43:29,540 --> 00:43:32,711 or funny, sadder versions of yourself. 734 00:43:38,249 --> 00:43:41,086 And let's say you wake up, 735 00:43:41,086 --> 00:43:44,089 and it's suddenly three years later, 736 00:43:46,024 --> 00:43:47,592 but you realize you want to spend 737 00:43:47,592 --> 00:43:50,762 many, many more years with the person. 738 00:43:54,065 --> 00:43:57,703 I don't understand, is it so scary or so not cool 739 00:43:57,703 --> 00:44:01,272 to risk your pride, your integrity for that? 740 00:44:08,613 --> 00:44:09,447 Yeah. 741 00:44:13,051 --> 00:44:14,285 You just forgot the part 742 00:44:14,285 --> 00:44:17,522 where you try to sleep with a stranger. 743 00:44:18,623 --> 00:44:20,125 That's not fair. 744 00:44:24,062 --> 00:44:25,396 It's not fair. 745 00:44:29,735 --> 00:44:32,137 Most days I don't even notice it, 746 00:44:32,137 --> 00:44:34,873 and some days I feel crazy for even thinking about it, 747 00:44:34,873 --> 00:44:37,608 and some days I just have doubts. 748 00:44:42,447 --> 00:44:43,448 I'm sorry. 749 00:44:45,751 --> 00:44:47,052 It's kind of a thing, you know? 750 00:44:47,052 --> 00:44:48,720 When you choose to commit to something, 751 00:44:48,720 --> 00:44:52,490 it usually comes with some sort of sacrifice. 752 00:44:54,325 --> 00:44:55,560 Yeah, I know. 753 00:44:59,264 --> 00:45:00,498 What? 754 00:45:00,498 --> 00:45:01,299 I know, I know, I'm not in a relationship, 755 00:45:01,299 --> 00:45:02,433 but I understand that- 756 00:45:02,433 --> 00:45:05,837 What are you actually committed to? 757 00:45:05,837 --> 00:45:06,838 My job, to begin with. 758 00:45:06,838 --> 00:45:08,439 Your job? 759 00:45:08,439 --> 00:45:13,311 You mean making movies with footage of other men? 760 00:45:13,311 --> 00:45:14,245 Forget it, you just don't get it- 761 00:45:14,245 --> 00:45:15,814 No, no, I really want to know. 762 00:45:15,814 --> 00:45:17,015 Is that what you're committed to 763 00:45:17,015 --> 00:45:19,050 for the rest of your life? 764 00:45:19,050 --> 00:45:20,585 What, you think that working for a startup 765 00:45:20,585 --> 00:45:22,353 that exploits its workers is remotely better? 766 00:45:22,353 --> 00:45:24,022 It pays the bills. 767 00:45:25,723 --> 00:45:28,126 Well, good for you! 768 00:45:28,126 --> 00:45:29,294 Trust me, I'd be doing the same 769 00:45:29,294 --> 00:45:30,762 if I had found an easier job. 770 00:45:30,762 --> 00:45:33,398 I didn't say it was easy, it is realistic though. 771 00:45:33,398 --> 00:45:35,033 Some of us actually have to pay bills. 772 00:45:35,033 --> 00:45:36,234 What's that supposed to mean? 773 00:45:36,234 --> 00:45:38,103 Well, look at you! 774 00:45:38,103 --> 00:45:40,205 You're traveling around the world with a backpack 775 00:45:40,205 --> 00:45:41,973 and playing the part of a cool hippie, 776 00:45:41,973 --> 00:45:43,374 and meanwhile your parents are probably 777 00:45:43,374 --> 00:45:44,910 paying for your film school 778 00:45:44,910 --> 00:45:47,478 and you get to walk around lecturing people about privilege. 779 00:45:47,478 --> 00:45:50,115 Dude, you have no idea. 780 00:45:50,115 --> 00:45:51,682 I live in an apartment with five people, 781 00:45:51,682 --> 00:45:54,019 I've been eating rice for the past five months. 782 00:45:54,019 --> 00:45:55,686 I've been using all of my credit cards and the bal- 783 00:45:55,686 --> 00:45:57,255 God, you're doing it again! 784 00:45:57,255 --> 00:46:00,325 You're playing the system's victim. 785 00:46:00,325 --> 00:46:04,262 I bet your parents probably paid for your plane ticket. 786 00:46:04,262 --> 00:46:05,897 My parents don't even know that I'm here. 787 00:46:05,897 --> 00:46:07,866 Yeah, great, you didn't even have to ask for extra money. 788 00:46:07,866 --> 00:46:09,467 My parents don't know that I'm here 789 00:46:09,467 --> 00:46:11,136 'cause they don't know that I made this movie 790 00:46:11,136 --> 00:46:15,373 because they don't know that I'm gay to begin with. 791 00:46:17,042 --> 00:46:19,777 Yeah, talk about commitment, huh? 792 00:46:23,081 --> 00:46:23,915 Well, 793 00:46:27,385 --> 00:46:28,286 why don't you tell them? 794 00:46:28,286 --> 00:46:29,187 Great idea. 795 00:46:29,187 --> 00:46:30,956 Do you want to do it? 796 00:46:39,931 --> 00:46:42,167 Mine kind of always knew. 797 00:46:44,269 --> 00:46:46,905 I mean, I think they all kind of always know, 798 00:46:46,905 --> 00:46:48,106 and then it's just about the lies 799 00:46:48,106 --> 00:46:51,309 and the secrets they tell themselves. 800 00:46:51,309 --> 00:46:54,745 That's sort of out of our control, right? 801 00:46:58,783 --> 00:47:00,318 And they know Tristan? 802 00:47:00,318 --> 00:47:01,619 Yeah. 803 00:47:01,619 --> 00:47:03,221 My mother loves him. 804 00:47:03,221 --> 00:47:04,722 How could you not? 805 00:47:06,224 --> 00:47:09,560 You have to think in a mother's mindset. 806 00:47:11,329 --> 00:47:12,763 Yeah, I get it. 807 00:47:15,266 --> 00:47:18,536 You never thought about telling them? 808 00:47:20,071 --> 00:47:22,840 Yeah, I thought about it. 809 00:47:22,840 --> 00:47:24,275 I think about it. 810 00:47:25,143 --> 00:47:27,112 And I've tried, right? 811 00:47:27,112 --> 00:47:30,348 You try to open certain conversations, 812 00:47:30,348 --> 00:47:33,851 and you show them certain kinds of movies, 813 00:47:37,722 --> 00:47:39,891 and then you just give up. 814 00:47:40,791 --> 00:47:41,993 Have you ever thought of 815 00:47:41,993 --> 00:47:44,662 just ripping it off like a bandaid? 816 00:47:46,331 --> 00:47:47,165 Yeah. 817 00:47:48,066 --> 00:47:49,534 Yeah, I've thought about it, 818 00:47:49,534 --> 00:47:53,671 but you know, it's not just a bandaid, it's a scar. 819 00:47:53,671 --> 00:47:54,940 Right. 820 00:47:54,940 --> 00:47:56,007 And then what do you do with the actual bandaid 821 00:47:56,007 --> 00:47:57,742 after you rip it off? 822 00:48:00,946 --> 00:48:01,779 Yeah. 823 00:48:06,751 --> 00:48:09,120 I had this dream the other night 824 00:48:09,120 --> 00:48:10,956 that I was on a boat, 825 00:48:10,956 --> 00:48:15,560 and at first I didn't know who was on the boat with me. 826 00:48:17,328 --> 00:48:19,630 And at some point a captain comes, 827 00:48:19,630 --> 00:48:24,302 and he says, "Marcos, your aunt just fell off the boat." 828 00:48:26,504 --> 00:48:28,573 And I say, "Well, what do we do now?" 829 00:48:28,573 --> 00:48:30,575 And he says, "Well, we have two options, 830 00:48:30,575 --> 00:48:32,944 we either stop or we keep moving." 831 00:48:32,944 --> 00:48:34,345 And I say, "Well, 832 00:48:38,316 --> 00:48:40,418 we just gotta keep moving, I guess." 833 00:48:40,418 --> 00:48:44,255 And after a while he comes again, and he says, 834 00:48:45,723 --> 00:48:48,559 "Your dad just fell off the boat." 835 00:48:50,996 --> 00:48:54,765 And I say, "Well, we just gotta keep moving." 836 00:48:57,368 --> 00:48:58,669 And then some time passed, 837 00:48:58,669 --> 00:49:00,771 and I could feel the breeze in my face, 838 00:49:00,771 --> 00:49:03,241 and he comes back and he says, 839 00:49:05,610 --> 00:49:09,114 "Marcos, your mom just fell off the boat." 840 00:49:12,250 --> 00:49:15,486 And I say, "Well, we gotta keep moving, 841 00:49:17,122 --> 00:49:19,057 because we can't stop." 842 00:49:26,731 --> 00:49:30,035 I think you're more worried than what you think you are. 843 00:49:30,035 --> 00:49:31,436 Yeah, about the boat stopping. 844 00:49:31,436 --> 00:49:33,704 About the people falling. 845 00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:37,342 Well, 846 00:49:37,342 --> 00:49:39,077 yeah, that too maybe. 847 00:49:40,078 --> 00:49:41,512 Yeah. 848 00:49:41,512 --> 00:49:45,016 But it's not like I'm gonna stop the boat, right? 849 00:49:50,521 --> 00:49:52,423 - I don't know. - What? 850 00:49:55,993 --> 00:49:57,995 I feel you, and I understand, 851 00:49:57,995 --> 00:50:01,766 but I just don't think I could live like this. 852 00:50:01,766 --> 00:50:04,602 It's just been kind of exhausting. 853 00:50:06,237 --> 00:50:07,738 What has been exhausting? 854 00:50:07,738 --> 00:50:11,676 Hearing about this over and over and over again. 855 00:50:11,676 --> 00:50:13,311 I'm kind of fed up with it. 856 00:50:13,311 --> 00:50:15,012 Men and trauma, trauma and men. 857 00:50:15,012 --> 00:50:16,747 Well, I'm sorry that you had it all figured out. 858 00:50:16,747 --> 00:50:19,084 See, that's the thing though, I didn't. 859 00:50:19,084 --> 00:50:20,285 I came out too. 860 00:50:20,285 --> 00:50:21,386 Your parents already knew you were gay. 861 00:50:21,386 --> 00:50:22,587 And you know what? 862 00:50:22,587 --> 00:50:23,288 It's not even really about being gay. 863 00:50:23,288 --> 00:50:24,122 Yes, it is. 864 00:50:24,122 --> 00:50:25,356 No, it's not. 865 00:50:25,356 --> 00:50:26,824 It's about living in the present, 866 00:50:26,824 --> 00:50:29,860 and how you decide you want to live in the present. 867 00:50:29,860 --> 00:50:31,396 Yeah, when you've had the privilege- 868 00:50:31,396 --> 00:50:33,464 Sorry, see, I call bullshit on that. 869 00:50:33,464 --> 00:50:34,465 That's easy for you to say. 870 00:50:34,465 --> 00:50:36,033 So what? 871 00:50:36,033 --> 00:50:37,302 You've just decided you're gonna drive the boat alone 872 00:50:37,302 --> 00:50:39,304 and fuck anyone else for trying to get in? 873 00:50:39,304 --> 00:50:40,671 That's fucked up. 874 00:50:44,709 --> 00:50:47,145 You know what the problem is? 875 00:50:47,145 --> 00:50:49,147 The problem is that while men like me 876 00:50:49,147 --> 00:50:51,216 keep putting up with bullshit like this, 877 00:50:51,216 --> 00:50:53,151 there will always be another group of men 878 00:50:53,151 --> 00:50:56,020 who are always willing to abuse it. 879 00:51:00,891 --> 00:51:02,160 Not you, but... 880 00:51:05,863 --> 00:51:07,365 No, that's fine. 881 00:51:09,200 --> 00:51:11,702 Look, I clearly have no idea what I'm talking about, 882 00:51:11,702 --> 00:51:12,970 so, um- - Yeah. 883 00:51:14,305 --> 00:51:15,973 I think I'm just exhausted. 884 00:51:15,973 --> 00:51:16,807 You know? 885 00:51:16,807 --> 00:51:17,808 It's been a long day. 886 00:51:17,808 --> 00:51:18,643 Yeah. 887 00:51:22,012 --> 00:51:23,814 I think I'm gonna go to bed, actually. 888 00:51:23,814 --> 00:51:24,649 Okay. 889 00:51:26,851 --> 00:51:28,819 It's been nice, this. 890 00:51:28,819 --> 00:51:29,654 And, 891 00:51:33,791 --> 00:51:36,427 it's been wild today, the rain and everything, 892 00:51:36,427 --> 00:51:40,097 and I just feel like we've said some things, 893 00:51:43,801 --> 00:51:46,437 and I didn't mean to be so mean. 894 00:51:54,812 --> 00:51:56,614 My plane leaves at 12, 895 00:51:57,982 --> 00:51:59,484 but I'll be up at nine. 896 00:51:59,484 --> 00:52:01,051 I'll be up. 897 00:52:01,051 --> 00:52:02,253 You don't have to be- 898 00:52:02,253 --> 00:52:04,555 No, I'll be up, I'll make us breakfast. 899 00:52:04,555 --> 00:52:05,490 No noodles. 900 00:52:06,891 --> 00:52:07,825 Right. 901 00:52:07,825 --> 00:52:10,861 We can have bread and butter. 902 00:52:10,861 --> 00:52:12,663 I'll take a shower. 903 00:52:12,663 --> 00:52:16,234 I'll try not to get in your way, promise. 904 00:52:20,905 --> 00:52:21,739 Well, 905 00:52:27,745 --> 00:52:28,579 bye. 906 00:55:03,734 --> 00:55:04,569 Fuck. 907 00:55:09,173 --> 00:55:10,307 The power went out. 908 00:55:10,307 --> 00:55:11,241 Yeah, I can tell. 909 00:55:11,241 --> 00:55:12,610 The Wi-Fi's not working. 910 00:55:12,610 --> 00:55:13,444 Well, yeah. 911 00:55:13,444 --> 00:55:14,745 I don't have a signal. 912 00:55:14,745 --> 00:55:16,313 Yeah, the whole city is shut down. 913 00:55:16,313 --> 00:55:18,082 I can't call anyone. 914 00:55:18,082 --> 00:55:19,316 Are you okay? 915 00:55:19,316 --> 00:55:20,317 What do you mean the whole city's shut down? 916 00:55:20,317 --> 00:55:21,151 Well, I, 917 00:55:22,286 --> 00:55:23,087 what's happening? 918 00:55:23,087 --> 00:55:24,355 Come here. 919 00:55:24,355 --> 00:55:26,123 I'm just feeling a little nervous. 920 00:55:26,123 --> 00:55:27,392 Alan, come here, sit down. 921 00:55:27,392 --> 00:55:29,059 We have candles. 922 00:55:29,059 --> 00:55:30,260 You're shaking. 923 00:55:30,260 --> 00:55:31,796 Well, what if I need to call someone? 924 00:55:31,796 --> 00:55:32,630 I can't really call anyway. 925 00:55:32,630 --> 00:55:33,731 Hey! 926 00:55:33,731 --> 00:55:34,565 Alan. 927 00:55:41,472 --> 00:55:44,409 You're gonna breathe with me, okay? 928 00:55:51,549 --> 00:55:53,551 Let your shoulders fall. 929 00:55:54,919 --> 00:55:57,422 Just keep breathing, don't worry too much about the tempo, 930 00:55:57,422 --> 00:55:59,089 just keep breathing. 931 00:56:02,159 --> 00:56:04,328 Feel your shoulders relax. 932 00:56:07,498 --> 00:56:08,332 Good. 933 00:56:10,935 --> 00:56:13,771 You're gonna get your arms relaxed now, yeah? 934 00:56:13,771 --> 00:56:15,339 Just let them fall. 935 00:56:16,373 --> 00:56:17,207 Yeah. 936 00:56:19,109 --> 00:56:20,878 Feel your chest moving up and down, 937 00:56:20,878 --> 00:56:22,980 just let it fall as well. 938 00:56:30,254 --> 00:56:34,358 You feel your pelvis relax, just let it fall. 939 00:56:34,358 --> 00:56:38,195 You're sitting already, you're not gonna fall. 940 00:56:39,063 --> 00:56:39,897 Yeah. 941 00:56:44,569 --> 00:56:46,236 Just keep breathing. 942 00:56:55,480 --> 00:57:01,652 Just keep breathing. 943 00:57:13,498 --> 00:57:15,332 Let's try again, yeah? 944 00:57:16,433 --> 00:57:17,935 We're gonna go in. 945 00:57:25,476 --> 00:57:26,977 We're gonna go in. 946 00:57:34,952 --> 00:57:35,786 Now go in. 947 00:57:53,804 --> 00:57:55,606 So, when did it start? 948 00:57:58,709 --> 00:57:59,944 I don't know. 949 00:58:02,246 --> 00:58:03,480 You get used to something, 950 00:58:03,480 --> 00:58:06,250 you forget how it started or when. 951 00:58:09,587 --> 00:58:13,190 When did you learn how to guide meditation? 952 00:58:15,492 --> 00:58:20,297 I dated a guy once that was really into mindfulness, 953 00:58:20,297 --> 00:58:23,000 so he taught me to guide meditation. 954 00:58:23,000 --> 00:58:24,902 What happened to him? 955 00:58:27,304 --> 00:58:30,407 He was very present the whole time, 956 00:58:31,576 --> 00:58:34,645 and then he started being too present. 957 00:58:36,681 --> 00:58:39,383 I dated someone like that. 958 00:58:39,383 --> 00:58:43,721 He was always, "I'm feeling this, I'm feeling that." 959 00:58:45,255 --> 00:58:46,657 How about you shut the fuck up 960 00:58:46,657 --> 00:58:48,826 and feel my cock for once? 961 00:58:56,233 --> 00:58:59,704 I don't think it's all that tragic, really. 962 00:58:59,704 --> 00:59:04,241 Having no arms and no legs, that would be tragic. 963 00:59:04,241 --> 00:59:06,476 This is just some bad days. 964 00:59:09,980 --> 00:59:13,317 And then some very, very, very bad days. 965 00:59:23,594 --> 00:59:25,963 Are you depressed? 966 00:59:25,963 --> 00:59:26,797 God, no. 967 00:59:29,499 --> 00:59:30,334 No. 968 00:59:38,442 --> 00:59:39,376 I hope not. 969 00:59:42,446 --> 00:59:43,280 Am I? 970 00:59:47,151 --> 00:59:48,385 I don't know. 971 00:59:49,854 --> 00:59:54,024 I spent a lot of time not knowing what depression was, 972 00:59:54,024 --> 00:59:55,660 and then I read somewhere that 973 00:59:55,660 --> 00:59:57,061 there's actually a connection between 974 00:59:57,061 --> 00:59:59,396 having a panic disorder and being depressed, 975 00:59:59,396 --> 01:00:01,298 so I started wondering. 976 01:00:06,704 --> 01:00:10,875 Well, what makes you think you're not depressed? 977 01:00:12,042 --> 01:00:15,012 The idea that I still have doubts about it, 978 01:00:15,012 --> 01:00:17,281 or that I don't want to be. 979 01:00:18,916 --> 01:00:22,853 And then of course, therapy changed everything. 980 01:00:25,122 --> 01:00:25,956 Hm. 981 01:00:36,033 --> 01:00:38,535 So you love that guy, yeah? 982 01:00:38,535 --> 01:00:39,336 I do. 983 01:00:42,472 --> 01:00:43,540 Or maybe not. 984 01:00:46,744 --> 01:00:48,478 I want to think I do. 985 01:00:54,985 --> 01:00:59,957 You know, I was thinking about what you said before, 986 01:01:01,125 --> 01:01:02,993 about wanting someone to look you in the eyes 987 01:01:02,993 --> 01:01:07,064 and tell you that monogamy makes sense. 988 01:01:07,064 --> 01:01:07,932 I'm sorry. 989 01:01:07,932 --> 01:01:09,033 It doesn't. 990 01:01:12,636 --> 01:01:14,471 It doesn't make sense. 991 01:01:17,942 --> 01:01:22,112 That's the secret, you can stop your research now. 992 01:01:25,916 --> 01:01:27,051 That's smart. 993 01:01:27,051 --> 01:01:28,052 It's true. 994 01:01:30,821 --> 01:01:32,923 It makes no sense at all. 995 01:01:41,465 --> 01:01:45,035 You know, I think I was actually jealous. 996 01:01:51,575 --> 01:01:54,544 I never really had that with anyone, 997 01:01:55,545 --> 01:01:57,181 and I could feel it. 998 01:01:59,183 --> 01:02:01,418 I could see it in your eyes. 999 01:02:03,587 --> 01:02:05,255 It's not about love. 1000 01:02:07,257 --> 01:02:12,096 It's not about a cute face or a cute ass, it's the horror. 1001 01:02:16,333 --> 01:02:18,568 It's the horror of feeling that you could hurt someone 1002 01:02:18,568 --> 01:02:20,570 you actually care about. 1003 01:02:21,738 --> 01:02:22,572 Still. 1004 01:02:28,312 --> 01:02:30,614 I guess it makes no sense the other way either. 1005 01:02:30,614 --> 01:02:31,715 It doesn't. 1006 01:02:55,105 --> 01:02:57,641 My plane leaves in six hours. 1007 01:02:59,944 --> 01:03:02,279 I should get back to my room. 1008 01:03:10,420 --> 01:03:11,355 Could you 1009 01:03:14,091 --> 01:03:14,925 maybe not? 1010 01:03:52,362 --> 01:03:54,865 Do you think you'll come back? 1011 01:03:56,333 --> 01:03:57,234 Come visit? 1012 01:03:59,469 --> 01:04:00,270 Mm-hm. 1013 01:04:04,274 --> 01:04:06,743 I'll put a purple pin in Europe, 1014 01:04:06,743 --> 01:04:08,512 don't worry about it. 1015 01:05:38,302 --> 01:05:39,903 I found it. 1016 01:05:39,903 --> 01:05:41,138 Yeah, thanks. 1017 01:06:00,157 --> 01:06:00,957 Morning. 1018 01:06:02,692 --> 01:06:03,527 Hi. 1019 01:06:08,298 --> 01:06:09,133 So? 1020 01:06:13,570 --> 01:06:16,206 He left a voice message. 1021 01:06:16,206 --> 01:06:17,541 Well, play it. 1022 01:06:23,580 --> 01:06:24,814 Hey, Marcos. 1023 01:06:33,523 --> 01:06:35,359 What does that mean? 1024 01:06:36,593 --> 01:06:37,427 Um, 1025 01:06:39,629 --> 01:06:41,531 yeah, he's seen it. 1026 01:06:41,531 --> 01:06:42,366 And? 1027 01:06:45,302 --> 01:06:46,970 He says it's cool. 1028 01:06:50,807 --> 01:06:53,043 I have something for you. 1029 01:07:15,799 --> 01:07:16,733 This is Cleo. 1030 01:07:16,733 --> 01:07:18,935 Cleo from five to seven, yeah. 1031 01:07:18,935 --> 01:07:20,437 I made it for you. 1032 01:07:24,074 --> 01:07:25,742 I love it, thanks. 1033 01:07:26,910 --> 01:07:28,078 Agnes Varda. 1034 01:07:29,479 --> 01:07:33,117 You know, not another straight, white, old dude. 1035 01:07:40,457 --> 01:07:41,291 Yeah. 1036 01:07:45,695 --> 01:07:48,598 How do you know about this movie? 1037 01:07:48,598 --> 01:07:49,933 I love movies. 1038 01:07:51,901 --> 01:07:53,970 You have time for coffee? 1039 01:08:01,378 --> 01:08:04,047 Yeah, I could use some coffee. 1040 01:08:35,679 --> 01:08:38,682 So, who's your favorite porn star? 1041 01:08:44,988 --> 01:08:45,989 It's Claire! 1042 01:08:49,859 --> 01:08:50,794 Hi, Claire! 1043 01:08:51,695 --> 01:08:52,796 Hi! 1044 01:08:52,796 --> 01:08:54,464 Are you alive or what? 1045 01:08:54,464 --> 01:08:55,699 Yeah, we're alive. 1046 01:08:55,699 --> 01:08:58,635 It was a pretty bad storm though. 1047 01:08:58,635 --> 01:08:59,569 Are you kidding me? 1048 01:08:59,569 --> 01:09:00,770 Have you seen the pictures? 1049 01:09:00,770 --> 01:09:01,738 Oh my God. 1050 01:09:01,738 --> 01:09:03,207 And the city shut down, right? 1051 01:09:03,207 --> 01:09:06,410 Yeah, the power just came back on this morning. 1052 01:09:06,410 --> 01:09:07,344 Wow. 1053 01:09:07,344 --> 01:09:08,312 And did you guys get along? 1054 01:09:08,312 --> 01:09:09,679 How is Marcos? 1055 01:09:09,679 --> 01:09:11,881 He's right here actually, you're on speaker. 1056 01:09:37,541 --> 01:09:38,708 Bye, Claire! 1057 01:09:39,809 --> 01:09:41,811 Bye, fuckers! 1058 01:09:46,983 --> 01:09:48,552 She's crazy, huh? 1059 01:09:49,853 --> 01:09:50,687 Mm-hm. 1060 01:09:55,659 --> 01:09:57,694 Are you sure you don't want anything to eat? 1061 01:09:57,694 --> 01:09:59,396 Maybe for your trip to the airport? 1062 01:09:59,396 --> 01:10:01,231 I'm good, thank you. 1063 01:10:02,399 --> 01:10:03,500 Tristan will be here any minute 1064 01:10:03,500 --> 01:10:05,402 if you want to say bye. 1065 01:10:06,336 --> 01:10:08,672 I really should get going. 1066 01:10:12,542 --> 01:10:14,244 Okay then. 1067 01:10:19,983 --> 01:10:21,385 I'll see you again. 1068 01:10:21,385 --> 01:10:22,886 Yeah. 1069 01:10:22,886 --> 01:10:24,053 You'll come visit, or maybe I can come to Spain. 1070 01:10:24,053 --> 01:10:25,255 Yeah, yeah. 1071 01:10:25,255 --> 01:10:26,556 You should totally come to Spain, 1072 01:10:26,556 --> 01:10:29,593 you should come visit, yeah. 1073 01:10:29,593 --> 01:10:31,528 I will see you again. 1074 01:10:33,096 --> 01:10:33,930 Yeah. 1075 01:10:34,998 --> 01:10:37,901 Will you have douched next time or, 1076 01:10:40,970 --> 01:10:41,771 um, okay. 1077 01:10:43,239 --> 01:10:44,274 Be safe, yeah? 1078 01:10:44,274 --> 01:10:45,609 You too. 1079 01:10:50,847 --> 01:10:53,216 Bye. 1080 01:11:48,838 --> 01:11:50,707 Hi, babe. 1081 01:11:50,707 --> 01:11:53,309 Hi. 1082 01:11:53,309 --> 01:11:54,310 I just saw Mark. 1083 01:11:54,310 --> 01:11:56,112 Marcos. 1084 01:11:56,112 --> 01:11:57,080 Yeah, he just left. 1085 01:11:57,080 --> 01:11:59,349 He's kinda hot. 1086 01:11:59,349 --> 01:12:00,550 He is. 1087 01:12:01,451 --> 01:12:03,119 He is, yeah. 1088 01:12:03,119 --> 01:12:05,355 How was the party? 1089 01:12:05,355 --> 01:12:06,623 It was really good. 1090 01:12:06,623 --> 01:12:08,224 It was really good, she was really happy 1091 01:12:08,224 --> 01:12:10,860 that everyone was there. 1092 01:12:10,860 --> 01:12:13,663 We were kind of stuck inside for like five hours 1093 01:12:13,663 --> 01:12:14,998 just waiting for it to pass, 1094 01:12:14,998 --> 01:12:17,701 so we just had to keep drinking 1095 01:12:17,701 --> 01:12:20,704 and be with each other, which I don't know, 1096 01:12:20,704 --> 01:12:21,971 sounds maybe like a nightmare, 1097 01:12:21,971 --> 01:12:25,174 but was actually really nice. 1098 01:12:25,174 --> 01:12:27,176 She told me all these stories about grandpa 1099 01:12:27,176 --> 01:12:30,680 and when they met, and it was really nice. 1100 01:12:32,315 --> 01:12:35,118 I don't know, it's strange for people to get old, 1101 01:12:35,118 --> 01:12:37,086 but I'm glad we did it for her. 1102 01:12:42,225 --> 01:12:43,059 How are you, honey? 1103 01:12:43,059 --> 01:12:43,993 How was it? 1104 01:12:45,929 --> 01:12:47,096 You know, I'm good. 1105 01:12:47,096 --> 01:12:49,933 I'm actually really good. 1106 01:12:49,933 --> 01:12:52,602 I'm starving, do you want a toast? 1107 01:12:52,602 --> 01:12:54,137 Yeah. 1108 01:12:54,137 --> 01:12:55,672 Butter? 1109 01:12:59,042 --> 01:12:59,843 Yes.