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(soft, tense orchestral music)
(woman sniffles)
(door closes)
(woman sniffling) (melancholy music)
(woman sobbing) (melancholy music)
- [Roslyn] I'm so tired of being someone's punching bag.
How can love hurt like this?
When did I get to this place,
thinking it's okay for a man to beat on me?
Is it because I grew up being abused?
Looking at myself in the mirror
made me think back to my childhood struggles
while growing up in Florida.
(melancholy music)
(soft, upbeat jazzy music)
- Get out. - I'm sorry I've been bad.
I promise I'll be good from now on.
- Get out.
(car starts up)
(melancholy music)
- [Roslyn] Even though it was only five minutes,
it seemed more like eternity.
All I kept asking myself is how can someone be so mean?
How can you be so cruel?
How can you just drive away and leave me like that?
As if I'm nothin'.
- Get your ass in this car.
- [Roslyn] My mom had gotten in the habit
of dropping me off with totally different strangers
and leaving me for days at a time.
(birds chirping)
- How are you, young lady?
(door creaks)
- Mommy!
- What's her name?
- Roslyn.
- [Roslyn] I knew my mom wasn't coming back anytime soon.
She'd done it so many times before to me,
I'd gotten used to it.
- Let's go!
Come on, girl.
Sit back.
- [Woman] What are you doing, Lois?
- Roslyn.
- [Young Roslyn] Yes, mommy?
- I'm leaving now.
So you're going to stay here with grandmother
for a few days, okay?
- Okay.
- You need to stop doing this to her.
- Doing what?
I really don't even know what you're talking about.
- You know exactly what I'm talking about.
This is your child.
- I do everything for her.
- You do everything except spend time with her.
You think that's being a good mother?
- Are you kidding me?
I don't have time for this.
- Lois.
Lois.
She needs to know that you love her.
She needs to know that you care.
- [Roslyn] My grandmother Eula
would always make excuses for my mom.
But as long as I had my grandmother Eula, I didn't care.
I didn't really know my mom, anyway.
And then the unthinkable happened.
- Thank you so much, Erma,
for coming to my mother's funeral today.
- I wouldn't have it any other way.
Your mother was like a mother to me, too.
- She was very fond of you.
- Thank you for saying that.
(Erma sighs)
- I'm so sorry. - Thank you.
Thank you so much.
(cars passing in the distance)
- [Girl] I'm so sorry.
- Well, I have to go.
But before I do, I need you to know something.
Call me if you need anything.
I mean anything, whether it's a place to stay,
food to eat- - Thank you.
- Someone to talk to, someone to pray with.
I'm here for you. - Thank you.
- Like your mother was here for me.
- [Lois] Thank you so much.
- You take care.
- You be safe out there.
- Thank you.
- [Roslyn] I was later told that my grandmother Eula
was killed in a car accident.
They say she died instantly.
My Aunt Cece was driving the car.
A lot of my family blamed her for the accident.
I can only imagine how hard that was on her.
- Roslyn. Keep still.
- [Roslyn] After grandma died, me and my mom went
to live with Aunt Cece and her family.
(Lois sighs)
- I'm going to the store. I'll be back in a bit.
- Hey girl.
Do you think you can bring me back some cigarettes
and I'll give you the money back when I get paid?
- Girl, let's go.
Come on.
- [Roslyn] One day while my mom was doing
one of her vanishing acts, my Aunt Cece dropped
me off to my grandmother on my dad's side named Beatrice.
Boy, I sure didn't know what I was gettin' myself into.
- Hey Miss Bea. - Hey sweetie.
- Woo, here she is.
- Look at my little baby.
Mm.
Rudolph tells me that your mama passed.
- Yeah.
How you holdin' up?
- As best I can, I suppose.
- Yeah, well, you and your family are in my prayers.
- Thank you. I surely appreciate that.
- Please auntie, please don't leave me here.
I promise I'll be good and clean up my mess
and won't eat your food anymore.
Please, auntie.
- You're gonna be okay, sugar.
I guess I must be goin', okay?
It'll be okay.
It'll be all right.
Well I'll see you later. Thank you.
- Tell your family I send my love.
- I sure will. - Mm-hm.
- [Roslyn] Grandmother Beatrice was
an old school southern lady with a twist of crazy.
(smacking) (Roslyn sobbing)
- [Beatrice] Shut up!
(smacking) (Roslyn sobbing)
I said shut up. (smacking)
- [Young Roslyn] Mommy!
(knocking)
- Hey there.
You okay?
Who were you talking to?
- Nobody.
- Come here.
Let me talk to you.
Right up here.
(man sighs)
You know, contrary to what you think,
your grandmother does love you.
- But she beats me all the time.
- She just...
She just has a funny way of showing it.
She's what they call a disciplinarian.
- What's that?
- Someone who believes in firm discipline, like beatings.
They do it out of love.
- I don't get it.
If you love somebody, why would you hurt them?
- You'll understand it one day, all right?
Don't worry.
Uncle Martin is here now, all right?
- [Roslyn] My Uncle Martin was my hero.
I always wished he was my dad instead of my uncle.
He's one of the few people that spent time with me.
He saved me from a lot of Beatrice's crazy.
- Lord, please help my uncle with his drinking problem.
He is such a good person, Lord, even when he drinks.
In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
- [Roslyn] I always prayed to God to help
my uncle stop drinking.
I hated when he got drunk.
(smoke alarm blaring)
(Beatrice grunts)
(hits) - What the hell
you think you doin'?
(Martin sighs)
- I was trying to make us some dinner, mama.
- You know, every night you come home drunk,
and then you try to burn the house down.
(Martin scoffs)
- I was trying to help your ass.
- How? By burning down the house?
- You know what?
You just a wicked woman.
I see why daddy left you.
Yeah, I said it.
'Cause if I was him, I would've left your ass, too.
- I don't need to take this shit.
- Whoa.
You got the gun.
(scoffs)
You ain't gonna shoot your own son now, are you?
- I'm tired of you.
(gunshot) (Martin yells)
- You shot me.
(Martin panting)
I can't believe you shot me, mama!
- And that's what you get.
Now why don't you go sit over in that chair over there
and sit still so I can wrap you up
before you bleed to death.
All right. (Martin grunts)
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
Okay.
All right.
Right over there. (Martin grunts)
(Martin panting)
Okay, get your hand over it.
Get your hand over it.
(Martin breathing heavily)
Okay.
I think that'll hold you
until we can get you to the hospital.
Don't just stand there.
Come on over here and help me get your uncle up
so I can take him into the car
and put him in the hospital.
Hey.
You better not tell nobody what happened, huh?
(tense music)
(Martin grunts)
So, how was your day?
- How was my day, mama?
I'm over here on crutches because you shot me.
- Ugh, please. That was just a little wound.
You'll get over it.
You want me to make you some hot peppermint tea?
(Martin scoffs)
(Martin grunts)
(melancholy music)
- [Roslyn] She knew she was wrong
so she was being extra nice to him.
Me? I was just happy to have him home.
(sobbing)
- No!
Not my child!
- [Roslyn] I never heard my grandmother scream
and cry like that with so much pain and anguish.
Later I found out that my uncle had died.
I lost my best friend that day.
I lost my hero.
A part of me died, too.
- Y'all get your black asses is in this house.
And don't make me repeat myself.
(tense music)
Who said you could sit your ass on that bed? Get up.
In fact, all of y'all line up right here.
- But grandma, we didn't do anything-
- Shut up!
Now I don't know which one of y'all did it,
but somebody took five dollars from my purse,
and if one of y'all don't fess up,
I'm gonna beat all of y'all.
- But grandma, we didn't do it,
I promise- - I said shut up.
- But we were all outside.
None of us could have stolen your money!
- Grandma, she's right. We wouldn't do anything like that.
- You know what?
I will shoot you one by one
until somebody tells me who took my money.
- Grandma, please do not shoot us.
- We don't have your money, grandma.
- Yeah you do. - Please!
- Y'all...
(gun cocks)
Do y'all think I'm playin'?
Do you think I'm playin'?
Do you? - No.
- Do you think I'm playin'? - No.
(tense, dramatic music)
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want, yeah *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Hey, hey, now, tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
* Tell him what you want *
* Jesus on the mainline *
(grunts) * Tell him what you want *
(Beatrice humming)
(melancholy music)
- [Roslyn] Sleeping in the woods was my safe haven.
I started running away when I was nine-years-old.
And to think my grandmother found her five dollars
and she didn't even apologize to anyone.
Sitting here watching all of my
brothers and sisters open their gifts
and I didn't get anything that year.
I was used to it though, because I was the stepchild.
I was the black sheep.
(hip hop music)
- Hey yo, Roslyn?
- Hey?
- What's up? You want a ride?
(hip hop music)
* Do it *
* Do it, do it *
* Do it *
* Do it, do it *
* Do it *
* Do it, do it * - Where are we?
- Just some special place I visit on occasion.
You look good.
- You think so? - I know so, girl.
You all that and a bag of chips.
(Roslyn chuckles)
I just wanna kiss your pink lips.
- Wait, I don't know if I'm ready for this.
- What do you mean?
I love you, I thought you loved me.
- I do, but- - But if you do,
then you'd do whatever it takes to make me happy
just like I'd do whatever it takes to make you happy.
* Do it, do it *
* Do it *
* Do it, do it *
You lookin' good today.
- You say that to every girl.
- Nah, you special. Like for real, you really special.
Only you. Wanna come inside?
- My parents were expecting you home an hour ago
to babysit my little brother.
- Oh. What's 30 minutes gonna hurt?
- Are you trying to kill me?
- No, I'll protect you, for real.
- Okay, super man. (boy sucks teeth)
- Man, I am superman.
You never knew that?
I'm that guy, for real.
Yo, what's good?
I'll be right back.
- What you mean you'll be right back?
- [Boy] Like I said, I'll be right back.
- What was that?
- Who, her?
She ain't nobody. You know Shawn, right?
Well that's his girl.
She was just out here looking for him.
- Why were you just chilling in her car?
I've been calling your house.
- Baby, baby, stop.
You know I love you, right? Only you.
- You sure have a funny way of showing it.
- Well I can show you better than I can tell you.
- Screw you!
- [Roslyn] Right after that, I found out I was pregnant.
Unfortunately, I was forced to get rid of the baby.
I broke up with my first boyfriend
and met this cute guy from Philly
and within a year of my first pregnancy,
I was pregnant again.
I started dating another guy from my job named Tee.
He accepted my first baby and treated her like his own.
He bought more stuff for her than I did.
It just seemed like we belonged together.
(television blaring)
I found a credit card and instead of me turning it in,
I took the opportunity to go on a shopping spree
that landed me with some legal issues.
(knocking)
- Babe, grab the door.
(television blaring)
- Where's Roslyn?
- Sure.
- Grandma, what you doing on this side of town?
- Last night I dreamed you were fishing.
Are you pregnant again?
- Yes ma'am.
(Beatrice scoffs)
(dramatic music) Grandma, no.
- I did not raise my granddaughter to be sitting around here
with a bunch of babies.
Now you better take care of her and treat her right.
'Cause if you don't, you gonna be meetin'
your maker real soon.
You hear me?
That's what I thought.
Well, I'd better get my collard greens
before someone gives them away.
(television blaring)
- Yo, what's up with your grandma?
She's a loose cannon.
What you want me to say?
- I can't believe you stood there while
she pulled a gun out on me like that.
Like it's cool.
- Well, it could have been a lot worse.
- [Roslyn] Not too long afterwards
I was placed on community control and violated twice.
Then I was sentenced to prison and pregnant.
My daughter's godmother, Pat, offered to take care
of my daughter while I was away.
(people chattering in the distance)
- [Tee] Hello?
- Hey, baby.
- [Tee] What's up, baby?
I miss hearing your voice.
How are you holding up?
- I'm doing okay.
I just can't believe they gave me all that time.
I miss my baby.
I miss being at home and I miss you.
- [Tee] Don't even stress it like that.
You'll be home before you know it.
- I hope so.
- [Tee] So how's my little princess doin'?
- How do you know it's a girl?
- [Tee] Because I had a dream,
like when your grandma dreamed about that fish.
- Shut up. (chuckles)
- [Tee] Yo, put my stuff down.
- Who is that?
- [Tee] A friend of mine that came over to chill.
- Well that's my time.
- [Tee] Keep your head up, baby.
I love you and I'm here for you.
- Love you, too.
(people chattering in the distance)
- [Woman Over PA] Dr. Mitchell,
please dial extension 241.
Dr. Mitchell, extension 241.
- Hey, Roslyn.
I'm Dr. Lewis and this is Nurse Thomas.
- Hi, Roslyn. - Hi.
- How are you feeling?
- I'm feeling a little better.
than I did earlier today, but I'm still in a lot of pain.
- Yeah. I heard you had a pretty bad fever.
But it seems like the medicine I prescribed
is working for you.
- Yes. - Good.
Nurse Thomas, did you take her blood pressure?
- Yes. It's 114 over 78.
All her vitals are normal.
- All right, all right, good.
All right, well, let's see what we got going on here.
Uh, Nurse Thomas, can you had me that chair over there?
- Sure. - Can you scoot this way?
And just place your knees up.
There you go.
Yeah.
All right, perfect.
All right, now I'm just going to need you
to relax, all right.
Relax and breathe.
(exhales)
Relax.
Yeah, okay.
All right, all right.
So I hear you're from Winter Park. (chuckles)
Matter of fact, I still own a house there, yeah.
Yeah, all right.
Yeah, keep breathing, okay?
- [Woman Over PA] Dr. Dominguez, please dial extension 112.
Dr. Dominguez, please dial extension 112.
- Yeah.
Um...
I'm gonna be right back, all right?
All right.
- Is everything okay?
Is my baby okay?
Why did the doctor shake his head?
- Well, he just said that you're not dilating
like you should be.
- What does that mean?
- That means that he may have to give you a caesarian.
(Roslyn sobbing)
- No.
No. (sobbing)
- [Roslyn] My second daughter was born
while I was in prison and she's okay.
(soft music)
- So I got this cute little
two piece sequin dress for tonight.
You know that club on Ninth Street?
It's going to be the jumping tonight.
- No, I am not trying to go to no club now.
I'm still trying to get on my feet.
The last thing I need is to be moving back
with my grandmother because I couldn't make it on my own.
Besides, you know, I want him to do right by Tee.
- What? You relying on Tee or something? (laughs)
- What do you mean by that, Kay?
- I'm just saying, you're crazy for thinking Tee
is ever going to get his act together.
- I mean, I just don't get it, Kay.
Like Tee...
Tee used to be so good at being supportive, you know?
And when I was with him, I used to feel like
no matter what was going on,
everything was going to be all right.
Now I don't know what happened.
- I know. - What?
- Tee is...
How can I put this?
Tee is smokin' rock.
- Huh?
- You heard me.
Tee, your man, is smoking rocks.
- Smoking rocks?
You mean, you mean crack?
- Nah, I mean Play-Doh. Yes, crack.
White, coke.
- Tee is a crack head?
Nah.
He smokes weed.
Occasionally.
I mean, I know for a fact he does not smoke crack.
- Ros, a friend of mine said they saw him
at a crack house a few weeks back.
Nobody's going to be hanging at no crack house just because.
So either he's using it or he's selling it,
and we both know he broke.
- No. - So selling is out.
Look, I'm just- - No way.
I'm telling you this because you are my girl.
You have two beautiful kids to tend to.
Be careful with Tee.
And watch your stuff.
(people chattering) (soft music)
- [Cashier] Have a good day.
(soft music)
- Hi. - Hi.
Okay, your total is $39.46.
- I'm sorry about this.
I know I have it in here somewhere.
I just have to find it.
Did I put it in my pocket?
$39.46, right? - Right.
(soft, upbeat music)
- Dammit.
Can I leave these items here on hold
and come back and get them?
- [Cashier] Yeah, sure.
I can leave them on the counter.
- Okay. - Okay.
- Thank you. I'm sorry, I think I left my money at home.
- [Cashier] No problem.
(Roslyn sighs)
(tense music)
- Kay, can you come over and watch
the girls for a few minutes?
No, I need to step out the house.
(tense music)
Is Tee here? (tense music)
(knocking)
Is Tee in there? - Who?
- Tee. - I don't know no Tee.
- I'm going to call the police and have them
clear this entire house out,
and then I will see he's in there.
- What you doin' here?
- The question is, what are you doing here?
- I'm just hanging out.
- Why did you take that money from my purse?
I couldn't pay for the girls diapers
and their food because you stole my money.
- Lower your voice. - No.
And then you went and stole all of our jewelry.
Have you lost your mind?
I've been struggling.
Struggling trying to keep this family afloat
and this is what you go do?
Go and smoke up all of my money?
You son of a bitch.
(hits) (Roslyn yells)
(Roslyn sobbing)
- Really gonna come over here with this?
Oh, you came here to play, huh?
Get up off the ground.
Get your ass the fuck up off the ground.
You trying to play?
Get your ass off the fucking ground.
- Tee, please don't. - Get the fuck up
off the ground. (Roslyn sobbing)
- I don't know what happened to us.
(Kay sighs)
- As bad as I hate to say it,
I told you so.
- A crack head though.
I can deal with a lot of things, but I can't deal with that.
- Roslyn, I told you to watch out for your stuff.
Yes he stole all your money and your jewelry first,
then it's going to be your TV and your cable box.
Then he gonna go in that room,
take that mattress and your headboard.
All your kids nice clothes, gone.
They nice Payless shoes? Buh-bye.
Oh, and those snacks in that kitchen?
Those steaks in the freezer?
They going to be gone, too.
He's going to wipe you out and hurt you bad
if you don't do something now.
- You don't think he can change?
- Change? Roslyn, think.
This is not a pair of shoes we're talking about sweetheart.
This man is a stone cold, hardcore crack head.
(Kay sighs)
Anyone can change.
I do believe that.
I mean, look at me.
You remember how I used to sell my food stamps
to pay my cable bill.
That was the old me.
You just have to make up in your mind and ask yourself,
is it really worth holding on to someone
who's going to beat you, steal from you, and smoke crack?
No.
Look, you're my girl.
Whatever you decide, I'm here for you no matter what.
Okay?
It's gonna be all right, girl.
I'll get somebody to beat him up, don't worry.
- I ain't gonna do that.
- Not one missin' a crack head.
- Dark.
Albert's room is dark.
Light.
Amy's room is light.
And they lived happily ever after.
Did you like that?
We can read another one tomorrow, okay?
Come on, let's go to bed.
All right, group hug.
Okay.
(soft music)
(Roslyn sighs)
- [Man] Hey, you know what time it is, Tee.
- [Tee] You already know.
We got the good stuff now. - Yeah.
- The good stuff.
The good stuff now, the good stuff.
What you got? Show me what you got?
- [Man] Oh Lord, I got the good stuff, baby.
I got the good stuff now.
Yeah. - Right here, man.
(men chattering indistinctly)
(knocking)
- Yeah, I like that right there.
- Yeah. - Go ahead, go ahead,
get it ready, get it ready.
- Yeah, baby, that's that what I'm talkin' about.
That's what I'm talkin' about, baby.
- I don't know what type of party
you all have going on in there.
- [Tee] Just give us a minute.
Just give us a minute, damn.
- [Roslyn] In front of my kids? Get out of my house.
- Come on, man.
She trippin' B. - We dippin' baby.
We dippin' baby. - I don't got time for this.
(sirens wailing)
- [Roslyn] Shortly afterwards,
I ended up going back to jail, still couldn't get it right.
- [Corrections Officer] Step forward.
Turn to your right.
Move out.
- [Roslyn] And I met a girl named Tammy
and we became fast friends and she introduced
me to her brother, E.
(inmates chattering indistinctly)
- [Woman] Bitch!
(inmates shouting)
(alarm blaring) (inmates shouting)
- Overtime E would accept my calls
and we would talk almost every day.
And when I was released from prison,
he was right there outside the prison gate.
* Don't no words compare, oh *
While I moved in with E and got adjusted,
my grandmother thought it was best
for my girls to stay with her
to give me a chance to really get to know E.
- You keep on cooking like that,
I mean, this food was so good,
I may end up putting the ring right there on that finger.
I ain't playing.
(E laughs)
(phone rings)
Hello?
Bitch, why the fuck is you calling here?
I told you I'd be over there later.
Look, don't call this goddamn house no more.
Bye.
- Uh, who was that?
- What are you talking about? Nobody.
- Why are you lying to me?
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold up.
Who the fuck is you talking to like that?
You just blew my whole goddamn day.
I'm getting in the shower.
- E?
- I don't have time for all this, man.
- [Roslyn] E?
- What? - Who was that on the phone?
- Listen, I got to take a shower.
We gonna talk when I come out.
- I wanna talk about this right now.
- So you're just going to watch me take a shower?
- Maybe.
- All right, suit yourself.
- So you're not going to answer my question?
- Ros, I don't know what you're talking about.
- See, I know you're lying to me
and I know it was one of those
fucking bitches calling your phone.
- Who the fuck is you talking to like that?
(hits) (grunts)
(Roslyn gasps) (whimpers)
Baby.
- [Roslyn] After that, I knew I needed
to get out of this relationship,
but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
(hip hop music)
- E, man, I been waiting on you all day, man.
Where you been, man?
- Out there. Crazy.
- Yeah? What you got man?
(hip hop music) (indistinct chattering)
- Yeah I feel you. - I waited for you.
Let me get another rock. - No.
- Come on, this time, come on man.
- Go on. - Come on, E, damn.
- [Roslyn] I was intrigued by the fast money
so it wasn't long before I started selling drugs too.
But the funny thing is I would shortstop his customers
and then he found out about I was selling drugs,
so we ended up going half on a package.
We started getting so much money,
we decided it was time for us
to hit 95 south heading to Miami.
(upbeat percussive Spanish music)
- Roslyn.
Glad you made it.
- Thank you for the invitation.
- Any time.
Girls, go.
Have a seat.
Make yourself comfortable.
Gracias.
So you're gonna taste it?
Come.
(upbeat percussive Spanish music)
- That's some grade A.
- It's good shit.
- [Roslyn] We started buying cars like they were toys.
(insects buzzing)
(E laughs)
I was so busy with my mind on my money
and my money on my mind that I wasn't even
paying attention to E cheating behind.
(Roslyn grumbles)
(banging)
You bring your tired tail out here.
What's up? - Hey, what's up, baby?
- What, you didn't think I was gonna find out about this?
- No, no, everything is cool. - Who the hell is that?
- Go get high.
- Hold on, hold on. - With you cheap ass dress.
- What the fuck is you doin'?
- What the hell is wrong with you, E?
- You're crazy.
- Go get your shit and let's go.
- I'm not coming home now. - Go get your shit.
- I'm not coming home now.
I'll see your ass later.
(Roslyn grunts)
(tense percussive music) (insects buzzing)
(car starts up)
(tense percussive music) (insects buzzing)
(knocks)
(tense percussive music)
- [Man] What are you talkin' about?
- Listen, I need a gun.
Somebody's trying to rob E. - What?
- I need a gun, quick.
(tense percussive music)
- Here.
You bring that back now!
(tense percussive music)
- Man, get your sleepy ass in the car,
take me to the liquor store.
I need to get my eat on. (car starts up)
- What's up? What are you doing?
What the fuck...
(tires skid)
(gun clicks)
This...
(tense percussive music)
(tires skid)
No wait, hold on, hold on. What are you doin', Ros?
(tense percussive music)
- Let me have that gun, Ros.
Look around.
He is not worth spending the rest
of your life in prison for.
(Roslyn sobs) (speaks indistinctly)
- I'm not taking this shit no more.
- Whoa, come on. - I don't deserve this shit.
- So what, you gonna shoot me?
Come on, think about this. Think.
Think about yourself.
Think about your girls. Think about the girls.
Huh?
How are you gonna explain this shit to them? Huh?
You really want to watch your girls
grow up from behind bars?
Come on, Ros.
Think.
(tense, melancholy music)
Let me have that gun back.
(tense, melancholy music)
- [Roslyn] He was on his best behavior
for a while after that.
I guess I showed him that I can be crazy, too.
Everything went back to normal after a while though.
* Street bounce *
* Said it's a boogie street bounce, street bounce *
* You know you've been waiting *
* For the boogie street bounce *
* Okay, okay *
* That's how we do it, how we do it like that *
- Somebody need to sign them ASAP.
Them boys no joke.
- I hope so.
You and I both know if they don't get signed,
they gonna end up doin' what we do.
- For real.
And we don't need no more competition.
(Roslyn laughs)
* I'm here to set this party *
* Set this party off *
* So let's get it started *
- More money.
What's good, man? How you?
What's going on? You coming to get that?
- Yeah, yeah.
(man mumbles)
- Oh that's, see, I told you
I'm trying to get on your level.
- [Man] Appreciate it.
- All right, take it easy.
- Aye man, hit my pager, man.
Yo, here come 5-0.
- Shit.
- Good? You got more work on you?
- I'm good now.
(police radio chatter)
- So what y'all doin' out here?
- Man, we just chillin'. - Is that right?
- Yeah. - Well we just got
a phone call that said someone out here just pulled
out a gun on someone.
Any truth to that story?
- Sounds like you have a prank caller, officer.
I think you're better off trying to find
who's wasting the city's money and resources
by sending you out here for no reason.
- I'm gonna need to see both of y'alls license.
- My license is in my purse
that's in the car you need a warrant to search for.
- Well go get it.
- Watch your mouth.
(police radio chatter)
- Whoa, whoa, whoa.
- Man, you said you need our license, right?
- Well, my license is in my wallet
and my wallet is in my back pocket.
- All right.
(police radio chatter)
Don't move.
- Can I put my wallet away?
- Roslyn Davis? - Yes.
- Go ahead and turn around,
put your hands behind your back there.
- What? - Step back, step back.
- [Man] Yo, what y'all doin'?
- Just don't move, all right?
- [Man] All right.
Ros, I'ma call E. Don't even worry.
We're gonna bond you out in a minute.
(police radio chatter)
(car starts up)
- Look at him.
He gets on my nerves.
Always chasing the skirt.
I should have called the police on him instead.
- [Roslyn] E ended up bailing me out with the quickness.
(snoring)
(keys jangle)
(soft, melancholy music)
(tense, dramatic music)
(insects buzzing)
- You're looking good today.
- Why did you bring me here?
To the swings?
- My daughter got daycare like two blocks over.
- Oh, okay.
(sighs)
You can't go down just a little bit on that
13,500 for a half a brick?
- If I gave it to you for any less than that
I would be losing money.
- You drive a hard bargain, baby.
- I want to be like you when I grow up.
(laughs)
- Girl, stop.
Anyway...
Where's your man at?
- I don't know. He's probably at some chick's house.
Typical weekday.
- Why do you keep putting up with that?
- I don't know.
- You're too beautiful to go through that.
- You'll probably be in there
flirting with the ladies that work there.
- Remember what I told you. - Cut it out.
- I'm serious.
(tense music)
- E.
- What's up? - What are you doing here?
(E chuckles)
- What you been doing all day?
- I've been making runs.
- Oh, making runs, huh?
- That's what I said.
- Why don't you do me a favor
and hop in your car and follow me?
- Fine.
(tense music) (insects buzzing)
(door slams) (Roslyn scoffs)
- You know, I ain't gonna ask you too many more questions.
What was you doing all day?
- I told you.
I was making runs.
You don't have to believe me if you don't want to.
(Roslyn gasps) - I'ma ask you one more time.
(Roslyn whimpers)
Shut up!
I'ma ask you one more time.
What was you doing all day?
- I was, I, I had to go,
I had to go out with a friend.
- And then what? - Nothing happened, I promise.
- Shut up!
- He was talking to me about his girlfriend.
He has a girlfriend. - Okay.
Okay.
Well, I'm gonna tell you like this,
I knew what you was at all day because I followed you
and I know who you was with.
And if I catch you with that bird again,
I'ma kill both of y'all, do you understand?
- Yes.
- Do you understand? - Yes, yes.
- Now, I gotta make a run.
I'll be back.
Now you get yourself in the house
and you clean yourself up.
Hurry up! (Roslyn sobbing)
- [Roslyn] Oh my god.
(tense, dramatic music)
(sniffles)
(soft, melancholy music) (Roslyn sobbing)
- I can't do this.
I can't do this no more.
I just can't do this.
(soft, melancholy music)
- You ain't gonna be able to do that, B.
Every time? Every time it's another female?
(E mumbles) - Hell no.
- Yo.
Yo.
Who you?
- What the fuck you mean, my nigga?
You was with my peoples.
- I was with a lot of people today.
- Roslyn, nigga!
- My money good.
So what's the problem?
- Stay away from my motherfuckin' girl.
(hip hop music)
Look, I know we've been through a lot.
I made a lot of mistakes and I'm sorry for that,
but I'm ready to take things to the next level.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
- [Roslyn] At one point, E even proposed to me.
- Will you marry me?
- But I was still hurt.
No.
And saying yes would only make matters worse.
One day I was called in by Maitland detectives
to do a handwriting analysis. - Ros, right?
- Is this your first day?
- I ask the questions. Ros, right?
- Roslyn Davis.
- Okay, Roslyn.
- Davis. - Davis.
(detective chuckles)
Well, I'm Detective Johnson.
- Congratulations. Why are you wasting my time?
- And this is my partner Detective Spears.
- Long time.
(Detective Johnson chuckles)
It's only been a week. - Same time.
- Same outfit.
Write.
- So listen, this is how this is going to go,
if we ask you to any questions, you answer 'em.
If we ask you to do something, you do it.
Understood?
- Okay well I'm gonna start off
writing the ethical conduct. - Write whatever you want.
- And we can go from there. - Smart mouth.
- [Detective Spears] Switch it up.
Use your right hand.
I know you've done that before.
Use your right hand. - Use my other hand?
- [Detective Spears] Yes.
- You've been to jail, right?
(Roslyn mumbles)
- [Detective Spears] Oh yeah.
- Have I been locked up before?
- That's what I said. - This is her second home.
- Is she training? - Have you been to jail?
- Still smart. - Wasting my time.
- Okay. - And my taxes.
- Okay.
- [Detective Spears] That's good.
(tense music)
- You know what? You need to stop playing games.
Everybody knows why you're here.
So just tell the truth.
- And you can stop wasting my time
and stop wasting your time.
- No, you're wasting the time.
- Stop wasting my taxes.
- You're wasting our time.
- [Roslyn] On that government funded hair.
(Detective Johnson laughs)
(tense, dramatic music)
(pad slams)
- We'll be seeing you real soon.
Real soon.
(tense music)
(knocking)
- What?
- Is Roslyn Davis home? - No.
- So you don't mind if we take a look around-
- Yeah, I do.
Okay?
- If you see her, ma'am, can you just give us a call?
- Yeah, fine. Thank you.
(inmates chattering)
- [Roslyn] After giving them a call
and agreeing to meet them at a secure location,
they arrested me and took me off to jail.
While in jail, I received a letter from an anonymous female
who was dating E telling me she's upset
because I ruined her Valentine's Day teddy bear
and how she was sleeping with him
and hanging out at our place
and wearing my clothes and jewelry
and naming all of my perfume on my dresser.
The most hurtful of all is that she was pregnant from E.
He proposed to me again after denying everything
and I said yes, thinking he would change,
but boy was I wrong.
I ended up receiving 18 months in the Feds
and was released to a halfway house.
- [Woman] What are you doing?
- [Roslyn] I came to get my food voucher.
(woman scoffs)
- It's 3:02.
You're late.
- I know.
I was on the phone with my husband.
I was checking on my girls.
- Well, I guess they're more important
than your dinner tonight.
- Ms. J, can I please have that voucher?
- Do I look like I care anything about your begging, hm?
(tense music)
- One day coming home from work,
I caught Lady J searching my room again.
Lady J, why are you searching my room again today?
- Because I can.
- But the rules say you can't
have random searches every day.
- Rules? - Yes.
(Ms. J scoffs)
- I run this place.
So you know what that means, right?
I make the rules.
Girl, I am the rules, so I can do whatever I want to do,
whenever I want to do it because I've earned
the right to do that.
- I know what it is that you're trying to do,
so you can have me arrested.
But you're not even worth it.
But in the meantime,
I will be reporting you. (Ms. Jay laughs)
- Girl go ahead, honey.
(tense music)
(knocking)
- E.
E, go get the door.
(E grumbles) Go get the door.
Please.
- No, babe.
(knocking)
(Roslyn sighs)
(knocking)
(tense, dramatic music)
- E get up.
E, get up.
My PO is here.
Get up.
- Yo, stop.
(E mumbles) - My PO is here.
(Roslyn scoffs) - E!
(tense music)
- What are you making all this noise for?
- My PO is here.
If she sees all of this, we're both going to jail.
- Aye, don't mess up my stuff.
- [Roslyn] Boy shut up and get that.
- [E] You're crazy, man.
- Roslyn Jones. How are you?
- [Roslyn] Good morning.
- May I come in?
- Um, yes, sure.
(tense music)
- What's that?
- Powdered sugar.
My husband was making coffee last night
and he forgot to clean it up.
- Powdered sugar, huh? - Yes.
(tense music)
My husband is in there sleeping.
And he likes to sleep naked.
- Well, I guess I'll have to check in there next time.
- That's probably a better idea.
- Do you have any questions for me?
- No, ma'am.
- All right, well, I guess I'll be on my way.
(PO chuckles)
I'll be seeing you on the 23rd.
- Yes.
23rd.
(Roslyn sighs)
(upbeat percussive Spanish music)
What is wrong with you?
You need to pay attention to your surroundings.
Stay out of your head.
- Girl you are trippin'.
Like you've been here a million times.
Why is this time different?
- I don't know.
Something just seems off.
- You're just mad 'cause E forgot your birthday.
- No, that's not it.
(men chattering indistinctly)
All right, don't look at nobody
and don't talk to nobody, all right?
Pay attention.
(men chattering indistinctly)
(tense, dramatic music)
(woman gasps)
- Yeah. - Want me to go get her?
- Where you goin', sis? - We're, uh-
- Where the wire? - What wire?
- You the police. - Listen to me, I don't-
- How do they know? - I don't know
what you're talking about.
I don't have a wire. - Where the money at?
- [Roslyn] Oh my god, please.
- Y'all good, y'all good.
(dramatic music)
(man speaking in foreign language)
- Excuse me.
Excuse me.
Listen.
Take my bag.
(Roslyn gasps)
- Who the fuck you playin' with?
You think I'm playin', huh?
You think you're too pretty to die?
Bathroom.
(kisses)
(man yells)
(tense music)
(upbeat Spanish music)
- I call the police.
Everything is gonna be all right.
You okay?
(man speaks in foreign language)
(sirens blaring in the distance)
- [Roslyn] That was the last day I sold drugs.
I promised God and myself that my dealing days were over.
- You mad at me?
- [Roslyn] It was at that moment that I knew
I had to turn my life around.
- And rather than owning up to what you've done as a man,
taking your medicine like a man,
you decide to be a rat.
A snitch, a stool pigeon.
I mean, it's not like it's my first time seeing it,
but this is my first time seeing someone
willing to sell out they woman to save his own hide.
It's pretty cowardly.
- Aye yo man, can we get on with this?
- Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Ain't y'all missing somethin'?
- I'll be right back.
- [Roslyn] I ended up getting custody
of my daughters again.
We moved in a really nice apartment in a nice neighborhood.
I feel so bad for what I put them through,
from the foolish and bad choices that I've made,
not being there for them as I should,
like my mom wasn't there for me,
forcing them to feel the same pain that I felt
not having a mother present.
Looking in the mirror at myself today,
it's amazing how many lessons we encounter
throughout our lifetime.
I've had my fair share of ups and downs,
even though I changed my life.
I thank God for loving me through it all
and never giving up on me,
even when I wanted to give up on myself.
Now I can stand tall. Now I can tell my story.
(soft music)
* Everything happens for reasons *
* That's why I stay filled up *
* Frustrated with the times and seasons *
* Nothing ever changes *
* Taking the proper steps *
* Trying to balance it all *
* Don't fall, don't fall, don't fall, don't fall *
* Keeping my head real high so I can still touch the sky *
* But you don't know what's inside *
* You don't really know me * * You don't know me *
* You don't know what I feel * * You don't know me *
* You don't really know I go through *
* You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't *
* You don't really know me * * You don't know me *
* You don't know what I feel * * You don't know me *
* You don't really know what I go through *
* I-I-I *
* I *
* Do I have any real friends *
* Or are they all just here for now *
* For now *
* Is there any particular reason *
* People stay when they should get out *
* Out, out *
* I'm taking the proper steps *
* Trying to balance it all *
* Don't fall, don't fall, don't fall, don't fall *