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Okay. We're gonna do this song.
Now, uh...

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Even if you don't sing,
it's okay. You're gonna sing.

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It's got three words to it

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and I'll sing the song now.
Listen, so you don't screw up.

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We're gonna do it in six parts,
but we gotta learn it first.
Ready?

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♪ Jubilate Deo ♪

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♪ Jubilate Deo ♪

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♪ Allelulia ♪

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♪ Allelulia ♪

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We're gonna take it
a little higher.

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♪ Jubilate Deo ♪

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♪ Jubilate Deo ♪

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♪ Allelulia ♪

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♪ Allelulia ♪

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You get... You're good.

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Okay. Now we're gonna do it
in six parts.

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Now, and it gets
really far out.

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All right. You ready?
One, two, three,

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four, five, six.

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Here we go.

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For 25 years now,

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I have been huffing and
puffing and trying to get enlightened as hard as I could.

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I have fasted, and prayed,

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mantra-ed, pilgrimaged,

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sat before my guru,

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done all-night thises
and thats,

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meditated with real meditators.

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I mean,
I really put my time in,
so to speak.

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And two things have been
surprising to me.

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One is, a year ago,
I met one of my old
Harvard colleagues,

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and after a few minutes
he said, "You know, Dick,

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"you haven't changed a bit."

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And the other
interesting one is that

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many of us have been through

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so many stages of this journey at this point.

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We're all still
relative beginners, but...

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And see all these lines
like we're at the beginning,

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or there's a path,

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or we're near the end.

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These are all
astral storylines.

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How do we know who we are?

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We might be one breath away
from enlightenment,

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or death, or who knows?

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The uncertainty is great.

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It just keeps it wide open.

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Twenty years ago
when I first met you,

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was a retreat in England,
in an old boarding school

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in '94.

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And I think you were interested
in why someone so young

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was on the retreat.

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And I said,
"I think I've come
all this way

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"for you to tell me
that I'm a good son."

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And you just smiled at me,
and you looked, and you went,

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"Well, are you?"

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What'd you come here for, then?

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I came here to say,
"Thank you. I love you."

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Okay.

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I told you, and to get the keys
to the executive washroom
of spirituality.

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When I was born,

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I donned a spacesuit
for living on this plane.

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It was this body,

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this is my spacesuit,

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and it had
a steering mechanism,
my prefrontal lobes,

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and all the brain motors,

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coordinating stuff.

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And just like those,

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Rusty Schweickart
and the others that
go to the moon,

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they wear their uniforms
and they learn
how to grab things,

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and lift things.

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So I did that

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and I learned
my prehensile capacity.

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And I got rewarded.
You get little stars,

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and kisses, and all kinds of
things when you learn how
to use your spacesuit.

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And you get really good at it.

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You get so good
at using your spacesuit,

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that you can't differentiate
yourself from your
spacesuit anymore.

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And everybody comes up
and says, "What a nice suit."

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And you're constantly looking
into other people's eyes

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to find out if you're really
wearing a nice spacesuit.

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It's what I call
"Somebody Training."

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When you're born, you go into Somebody Training,

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'cause your parents know
who they are

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and they're gonna
make you somebody, too.

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My parents were very intent
on making me somebody.

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And they wanted me to achieve,

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be responsible, be healthy,

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be successful,
bring pride to them,

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and if it didn't interfere
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I should be happy.

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The problem that
I experienced, though,

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was the suit
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It was like you're in
one of these suits
that doesn't quite fit,

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and you're
a little uncomfortable,

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and you're constantly trying
to readjust yourself.

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But everybody kept saying,

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"Beautiful suit.
Really impressive suit.

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"You must be very happy."

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But I wasn't.

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Now, if everybody,
you look into their eyes,

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and they tell you you're happy, and you're not,

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because the suit
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what do you conclude?

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I felt, when everybody said what a nice suit I was wearing,

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that I must be sick.

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So I went to an analyst.

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Now, he was wearing
another kind of
weird suit, see?

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And what he did was,
he said that for a pittance,

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he would teach me
how to wear his suit
instead of my suit.

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So I learned
how to wear his suit

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which had even more
status connect.

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I mean, more people said,
"Beautiful suit."

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And I really
wasn't very happy
in that suit either.

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And you walk down the street

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and you're somebody, you say.
You know who you are.

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You dress like somebody, your face looks like somebody,

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everything is somebody.

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Everybody is reinforcing their structure of the universe

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over and over again

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and they meet like
two huge things meeting.

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"This is who I am,
this is who you are."

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We enter in these conspiracies.

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I'll make believe you are
who you think you are,

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if you make believe...

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...I am who I think I am.

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We just kind of
bump against each other.

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You can see them in everybody.

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I mean, everybody's busy
being somebody.

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Now, in our culture
we've been trained

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for individual differences
to stand out.

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So you look at each person
and immediate hit is,

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brighter, dumber, older,
younger, richer, poorer,

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and we make all these
dimensional distinctions,

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put them in categories
and treat them that way.

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And we get so that
we only see others
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in the ways in which
they're separate.

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And one of
the dramatic characteristics
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is being with another person

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and suddenly seeing the ways
in which they are like you,

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not different from you.

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In the '60s...

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On March 6th, 1961,
to be exact,

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Timothy Leary
gave me psilocybin

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and it changed my life.

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It changed my life
in the sense

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that it undercut
the models I had

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of who I thought I was.

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All the socialization
and child development

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that had left me with
a very strong somebodiness,

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it cut that out.

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And, of course,
there was fear in losing
that familiar identity.

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But there was always
also wonder because
I touched a place in myself.

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It was behind
all my social roles.

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And it was...

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It was a presence.

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Instead of being good

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or this or that,
or achiever, or anything,

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I experienced a place in myself
where I just say, "I am."

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Not "I am this" or "I am that,"
just "I am."

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And I think it preoccupied me
because it felt like
it was my true being.

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And I felt like I was gypped.
I was gyping myself
not to have access to that.

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So I did
what many others of you
did and other people did

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was I tried
every chemical possibility

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to try to stabilize that state.

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I mean, if you took this
and then followed it with this

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and you did it
under these conditions
with this person,

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reading this book
from the Tibetan this...

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...you did it after fasting
for so many days

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and standing on your left foot.
It would work, see.

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And I still came down,

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and I kept coming down and
coming down and coming down
for about seven years

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through hundreds and hundreds
and hundreds of explorations.

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And then, I went to India
and I met Maharajji, my guru,

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and I met a being
who didn't come down.

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What I experienced
at that time
of meeting that man,

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in fact, within those first
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was the experience
of surrender,
which was no surrender.

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In other words,
I didn't begrudgingly
give up my ego.

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It was as if I came home
to the place where
I no longer needed it.

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They took over
my complete life
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I didn't leave
that temple again

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except to go to Delhi once
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They took over my food,
my clothing, my training,
everything.

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Never anybody asked or said.

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It was all done from then on
from inside.

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I learned about what inside education is about.

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And this man was at the place

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where there was
no other person
you were giving up to.

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And everything I did
from then on was done
with absolute joy.

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There was no thing
they could ask of me
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It was austerities
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because I was living
almost within this man.

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For the first time
I understood what the concept
of a guru was about.

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See, a guru is your doorway
to God, your doorway
to the beyond.

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A guru is
not just a groovy teacher.

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You know, it's not a pundit.

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It's not just a wise man
who can teach you things.

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A guru is a spiritual vehicle,

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an entranceway.

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He's a pure mirror.
He isn't anybody at all.

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I think that the spiritual trip
in... At this moment

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is not necessarily
a cave in the Himalayas,

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but it's in relation
to the technology
that's existing.

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It's in relation to
where we're at.

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It's in relation to
issues like pollution,

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and political interests, and
activism, and stuff like that.

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I think that's all part
of one package now.

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The game is to
be where you are,
be it honestly

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and as consciously
as you know how.

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When we were
all with Maharajji,
I decided, well...

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He keeps saying
"Tell the truth
and don't get angry,"

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but the truth is I am angry.

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And I've spent
so long being phony
like I love everyone.

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See, all the time
my heart is full of anger.

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"Oh, you're around us."
"Oh, yes, I love you."

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And all the time I'm thinking,
"Oh, I wish..."

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And that hypocrisy
was driving me up the walls.

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And I thought,
"Gee, he said to
tell the truth.

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"I think, for a change,
I'll tell the truth."

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So people would
come into my room,

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and I would say, "Get the hell
out of this room, you...

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"You're too nice.
You nauseate me."

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You said something
that I would love you to
tell me about,

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about Maharajji saying,
"Give up your anger.

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"Don't work on your anger.

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"Don't work it through
and find out the root."

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He just said, "Give it up."

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Yeah, he did say it that way.

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"Give up your anger."

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Working it through

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is making them...

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Making them something.

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-The belief that...
-Belief.

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I'm righteous. I'm...

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Like, I have a right to be mad.

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That's not good.

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I keep Maharajji

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as a constant companion,

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so I get mad

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and I check in with him.

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And he...

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Although, he doesn't
make me feel better.

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He just points it out.

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00:13:43,213 --> 00:13:46,956
My Maharajji in my head is more
like a psychiatric nurse.

246
00:13:55,225 --> 00:13:57,140
If I don't get
what I want,

247
00:13:57,184 --> 00:14:00,230
that's as interesting as if
I get it, it turns out.

248
00:14:00,274 --> 00:14:02,102
Did you ever notice that?

249
00:14:02,145 --> 00:14:04,017
All this, "I need you."

250
00:14:04,060 --> 00:14:05,801
Well, you're
not getting me.

251
00:14:05,845 --> 00:14:07,847
"Whoa! Ahhh!" You know?

252
00:14:07,890 --> 00:14:10,762
Isn't that interesting?
And then, you grow from that.

253
00:14:13,374 --> 00:14:15,724
When you begin to realize
suffering is great,

254
00:14:15,767 --> 00:14:16,986
you can't believe it.

255
00:14:17,944 --> 00:14:19,554
You think you're cheating.

256
00:14:19,597 --> 00:14:21,208
It doesn't mean
having no preferences,

257
00:14:21,251 --> 00:14:23,384
it means not being attached
to your preferences.

258
00:14:23,427 --> 00:14:25,255
That's the one.
If you don't get
what you want,

259
00:14:25,299 --> 00:14:27,518
you don't get
what you want.
How interesting.

260
00:14:27,562 --> 00:14:30,391
Because the interesting process is the transformation.

261
00:14:30,434 --> 00:14:32,306
not getting what you want
all the time.

262
00:14:38,790 --> 00:14:42,229
When I got out
of my somebodiness,
which was very cramped,

263
00:14:42,272 --> 00:14:44,144
I mean, it was
like a prison to me.

264
00:14:44,187 --> 00:14:45,754
I didn't want to
go back to prison.

265
00:14:45,797 --> 00:14:47,451
It's like you go out
and you smell the air,

266
00:14:47,495 --> 00:14:50,063
and then they say, "Okay, chemical's wearing off,

267
00:14:50,106 --> 00:14:52,500
"back into prison,"
and you don't want to go.

268
00:14:52,543 --> 00:14:55,720
You say, "No, no,"
but you go anyway.

269
00:14:55,764 --> 00:14:58,375
And you go back into your suit and you feel weird again.

270
00:14:58,419 --> 00:15:00,377
Now, 'cause you know
that isn't who you are,

271
00:15:00,421 --> 00:15:01,726
but you're caught in it.

272
00:15:01,770 --> 00:15:03,641
So that starts
quite a journey,

273
00:15:03,685 --> 00:15:07,732
because my object was
to get out of my suit.

274
00:15:07,776 --> 00:15:10,866
It was to get out
of my physical
psychological identity

275
00:15:10,910 --> 00:15:13,347
which felt extremely limited.

276
00:15:13,390 --> 00:15:18,700
And I would get incredibly
free and high and clear
and in love.

277
00:15:18,743 --> 00:15:22,878
Like, I'd go to India
and I'd sit in the temple
or in meditation,

278
00:15:22,922 --> 00:15:24,575
and I would get so high.

279
00:15:24,619 --> 00:15:27,187
Light was pouring
out of my head.

280
00:15:27,230 --> 00:15:30,625
I was some combination of
the pure mind of the Buddha
and the heart of the Christ,

281
00:15:30,668 --> 00:15:32,496
which, for a Jewish boy,
is not bad.

282
00:15:32,540 --> 00:15:35,151
You know,
and I was really like...

283
00:15:35,195 --> 00:15:38,502
I'd be out there,
you know, and I'd come
back to the States,

284
00:15:38,546 --> 00:15:40,069
and I'd go
to visit the family.

285
00:15:40,113 --> 00:15:41,984
And my father would say
a simple thing like,

286
00:15:42,028 --> 00:15:44,247
"You got a job,"
and I'd crash.

287
00:15:44,291 --> 00:15:47,903
And I'd say,
"Can't go home,
brings me down."

288
00:15:51,689 --> 00:15:55,258
I began to have
a whole list of things
that brought me down.

289
00:15:55,302 --> 00:15:56,956
Cities brought me down.

290
00:16:01,177 --> 00:16:03,310
Money brought me down.

291
00:16:03,353 --> 00:16:05,834
Politics brought me down.

292
00:16:05,877 --> 00:16:09,838
But the only thing
that brings you down
is your own mind.

293
00:16:09,881 --> 00:16:12,754
It's not the city. The city's just citying itself.

294
00:16:12,797 --> 00:16:15,278
It's being essence city.
What are you getting
so upset about?

295
00:16:15,322 --> 00:16:20,066
It's your reaction to the city that's what's doing it to you.

296
00:16:20,109 --> 00:16:23,504
And I found myself,
interestingly, wearing
a new kind of a suit.

297
00:16:23,547 --> 00:16:27,725
It was like,
"I'm very high.
Don't get near me."

298
00:16:27,769 --> 00:16:30,598
Now, because I had
felt so trapped

299
00:16:30,641 --> 00:16:35,081
by my body and my personality
and was so unhappy
in all of that,

300
00:16:35,124 --> 00:16:37,692
my job, it seemed, was to push away those things.

301
00:16:37,735 --> 00:16:40,695
And I tried
a number of techniques
like renunciation.

302
00:16:40,738 --> 00:16:43,828
I figured if I just renounced
all of it enough,

303
00:16:43,872 --> 00:16:45,265
it would go away.

304
00:16:45,308 --> 00:16:48,311
All I did was
end up a horny celibate.

305
00:16:48,355 --> 00:16:50,792
It's like giving up smoking.

306
00:16:50,835 --> 00:16:55,449
Like, "I haven't smoked
in four years, two months,
three days, and 22 minutes."

307
00:16:55,492 --> 00:16:57,581
A person'll die
from non-smoking.

308
00:16:58,104 --> 00:17:00,062
It didn't work.

309
00:17:00,106 --> 00:17:03,065
Because if you push
something away,
it's still got you.

310
00:17:03,109 --> 00:17:04,719
You're busy not doing it.

311
00:17:09,463 --> 00:17:12,074
Every time you push
anything away,
it's still there.

312
00:17:13,989 --> 00:17:16,078
The pile under the rug
gets very big.

313
00:17:19,995 --> 00:17:21,953
So, it gets so
that your downs

314
00:17:21,997 --> 00:17:24,826
are actually far out
without being masochistic.

315
00:17:24,869 --> 00:17:29,309
Your downs turn out
to be more interesting
than your highs after a while,

316
00:17:29,352 --> 00:17:31,528
because they're showing you
where you aren't.

317
00:17:33,226 --> 00:17:35,271
Like, I get into a depression,
you see.

318
00:17:35,315 --> 00:17:37,665
Well, I got angry tonight.
I was fascinated by that.

319
00:17:37,708 --> 00:17:39,232
Far out.

320
00:17:39,275 --> 00:17:42,017
Look at how I came in being
a holy man, I lost my cool.

321
00:17:42,061 --> 00:17:43,932
Far out.

322
00:17:43,975 --> 00:17:45,455
Isn't that great?

323
00:17:58,816 --> 00:18:01,080
It's fascinating.
You go out into the woods
to look at trees.

324
00:18:01,123 --> 00:18:04,039
You don't say
that pinon isn't as good

325
00:18:04,083 --> 00:18:08,217
as that redwood. You say,
"Ah, a pinon. Ah, a redwood."

326
00:18:08,261 --> 00:18:11,133
You see a gnarled tree
and you say,
"Look at the beauty of that."

327
00:18:11,177 --> 00:18:13,701
You see a straight tree
and you say,
"Look at the beauty."

328
00:18:13,744 --> 00:18:17,008
You come back with humans,
you never do that.

329
00:18:17,052 --> 00:18:19,620
"If she were only a little...
If she could only...

330
00:18:19,663 --> 00:18:21,709
"I like them best
when they're..."

331
00:18:21,752 --> 00:18:27,149
Instead of, "Look at that.
An absolute essence
slimy liar."

332
00:18:34,417 --> 00:18:36,941
Somebody says something
and it hurts you,

333
00:18:36,985 --> 00:18:39,074
and then you feel hurt.

334
00:18:39,118 --> 00:18:42,773
They did what they did
because that's what they did.

335
00:18:42,817 --> 00:18:44,471
That's their problem.

336
00:18:44,514 --> 00:18:47,126
You reacted
the way you reacted

337
00:18:47,169 --> 00:18:49,171
because that's the way
you reacted.
That's your problem.

338
00:18:49,215 --> 00:18:53,610
To interpret that your feeling is their problem

339
00:18:53,654 --> 00:18:56,439
is when you start to feel
you have to tell them

340
00:18:56,483 --> 00:18:58,267
that you were hurt
by what they said.

341
00:18:58,311 --> 00:19:01,444
The other thing is
if I'm hurt
by what you say,

342
00:19:01,488 --> 00:19:03,185
that's something
for me to work with.

343
00:19:03,229 --> 00:19:05,535
I acknowledge it
and then I work with it.

344
00:19:05,579 --> 00:19:09,104
I don't have to get them
to not do the thing,

345
00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:12,673
because they're just being
like a tree, they're just
phenomena happening.

346
00:19:16,633 --> 00:19:19,114
It is said
in the spiritual literature

347
00:19:20,333 --> 00:19:23,379
that righteousness
and being right

348
00:19:23,423 --> 00:19:28,819
is one of the last gates
to the inner temple.

349
00:19:28,863 --> 00:19:32,562
It's one of the last
obstacles to getting
in the inner temple.

350
00:19:32,606 --> 00:19:35,870
And that one of the problems
of spiritual work

351
00:19:35,913 --> 00:19:38,351
is ending up
being a good yogi.

352
00:19:38,394 --> 00:19:40,222
You are a really good yogi.

353
00:19:40,266 --> 00:19:43,007
You know all the slokas,
shlokas,

354
00:19:43,051 --> 00:19:45,009
you know all the positions.

355
00:19:45,053 --> 00:19:47,403
You do it all perfectly right.

356
00:19:47,447 --> 00:19:51,146
You are really righteous and
good, but you're not free.

357
00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:53,366
And it's called
the golden chain,

358
00:19:53,409 --> 00:19:54,671
the chain or righteousness.

359
00:19:55,629 --> 00:19:58,197
When you want to become free,

360
00:19:58,240 --> 00:20:01,548
then your righteousness
and your anger

361
00:20:01,591 --> 00:20:04,203
are much less interesting
than they used to be.

362
00:20:04,246 --> 00:20:08,076
You less feel comfortable
just sitting
in your righteousness

363
00:20:08,119 --> 00:20:12,602
than you do in throwing it
back into the pot in order to
become free.

364
00:20:16,824 --> 00:20:20,610
Years back when I started to do
this meditation 12 years ago,

365
00:20:20,654 --> 00:20:24,223
I could go off
and I could have
a six-hour fantasy,

366
00:20:24,266 --> 00:20:27,182
a six-hour sexual fantasy.

367
00:20:27,226 --> 00:20:30,794
Sitting in Burma
all by myself in a cell.

368
00:20:30,838 --> 00:20:33,623
I mean, and it was
just with great detail

369
00:20:33,667 --> 00:20:37,453
and the subtleties
of the rustle
of silk and all the...

370
00:20:37,497 --> 00:20:39,020
You know, every little thing

371
00:20:39,063 --> 00:20:41,370
and the smells,
and the images,
and the shadows,

372
00:20:41,414 --> 00:20:43,590
And I just...
What was the rush?
I wasn't going anywhere.

373
00:20:43,633 --> 00:20:45,287
You know,
I had weeks to meditate,

374
00:20:45,331 --> 00:20:47,158
and I looked like
I was meditating all the time,

375
00:20:47,202 --> 00:20:49,465
and then nobody knew,
you know.

376
00:20:49,509 --> 00:20:52,990
I would have these
six-hour things, you know.

377
00:20:53,034 --> 00:20:54,949
It was like having an orgy.

378
00:20:54,992 --> 00:20:59,258
Or I'd plan when I became
famous, you know,
I mean, I'd have those things.

379
00:20:59,301 --> 00:21:01,738
When I became
like the Buddha,
what would I do?

380
00:21:01,782 --> 00:21:06,047
I'd have long fantasies of
what I would be
and how compassionate I'd be.

381
00:21:08,179 --> 00:21:09,572
Oh, God.

382
00:21:15,491 --> 00:21:17,841
To the extent that we went
into somebody training,

383
00:21:17,885 --> 00:21:23,499
we work out of a sort of
a deprivation model,

384
00:21:23,543 --> 00:21:24,979
the feeling
like we're starving

385
00:21:25,022 --> 00:21:27,677
and we don't have enough
and we want more. All right?

386
00:21:27,721 --> 00:21:30,463
So let's take
love relationships.
That's a good one.

387
00:21:30,506 --> 00:21:32,595
You fall in love with someone.

388
00:21:33,422 --> 00:21:35,990
That person awakens in you

389
00:21:36,033 --> 00:21:40,342
or allows you to
touch the place in you
where you are love.

390
00:21:41,691 --> 00:21:44,390
So you say, "I am in love."

391
00:21:45,521 --> 00:21:47,958
And because that person
did it for you,

392
00:21:48,002 --> 00:21:51,266
you say,
"I am in love with you."

393
00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:55,836
So you say to your connection, "Let's build a nest."

394
00:21:55,879 --> 00:22:00,449
And where will you be
next Tuesday and for every
Tuesday from here on out?

395
00:22:00,493 --> 00:22:03,539
And where were you
last night and who are you
thinking about now?

396
00:22:03,583 --> 00:22:07,064
And you get terribly
frightened that you're
gonna lose your connection.

397
00:22:07,108 --> 00:22:09,284
Because if you lose
your connection,

398
00:22:09,328 --> 00:22:12,809
you won't feel that feeling
any longer, which you're
very hooked on.

399
00:22:12,853 --> 00:22:17,031
You begin to open
to that place in yourself
where you are love,

400
00:22:17,074 --> 00:22:19,033
which is the same as the one
that's called awareness.

401
00:22:19,076 --> 00:22:20,469
It's the same thing.

402
00:22:20,513 --> 00:22:22,645
It's a feeling
where you are one
with the universe

403
00:22:22,689 --> 00:22:26,301
and you're liquid and flowing
with everything around you.

404
00:22:26,345 --> 00:22:29,391
Now you are experiencing
"In love."

405
00:22:29,435 --> 00:22:31,828
And after a while you say,

406
00:22:31,872 --> 00:22:35,310
"Well, I'm going down
to the store to get some tofu
and veggie burgers..."

407
00:22:36,790 --> 00:22:38,792
...and you're
at the checkout counter.

408
00:22:38,835 --> 00:22:40,576
You're still in love, you see.

409
00:22:40,620 --> 00:22:42,578
You're in this place 'cause
you're resting in it now,

410
00:22:42,622 --> 00:22:45,407
and you look into the eyes
of the checkout person,

411
00:22:45,451 --> 00:22:47,017
and there it is again.

412
00:22:48,410 --> 00:22:49,629
Problem.

413
00:22:49,672 --> 00:22:52,545
Mmm-hmm.

414
00:22:52,588 --> 00:22:55,417
Well, now what are you
gonna do? Are you gonna
look at anybody else?

415
00:22:56,984 --> 00:22:58,681
It's gonna get complicated.

416
00:22:58,725 --> 00:23:00,988
You better start
wearing glasses
with mirrors facing inward,

417
00:23:01,031 --> 00:23:04,034
because you gotta
start a commune.

418
00:23:05,384 --> 00:23:07,821
I mean, what you're gonna do
sooner or later

419
00:23:07,864 --> 00:23:10,737
is you're going to have to
let go of the model

420
00:23:10,780 --> 00:23:13,174
of deprivation that
you've been functioning under.

421
00:23:13,217 --> 00:23:17,265
Because as you start to
rest in this other space
of your being,

422
00:23:17,308 --> 00:23:19,659
you're gonna find
this peculiar feeling

423
00:23:19,702 --> 00:23:22,705
that you're gonna start to be
in love with everybody.

424
00:23:22,749 --> 00:23:24,838
You obviously
can't collect them all.

425
00:23:26,492 --> 00:23:28,537
And you get to the point where
you can walk down the street

426
00:23:28,581 --> 00:23:32,585
and look at somebody
and love them like you've
never loved anybody before,

427
00:23:32,628 --> 00:23:35,457
and you don't have to
do a thing about it.

428
00:23:35,501 --> 00:23:37,459
At first, you can't believe it,
you see,

429
00:23:37,503 --> 00:23:39,983
and you just want to save them
in case you want them later,
so you say...

430
00:23:41,245 --> 00:23:43,552
...like, "Who are you?"
My name's Dick.

431
00:23:43,596 --> 00:23:47,730
"Hi, let's have dinner.
Well, gee, oh, God,
I hate to leave you, but I..."

432
00:23:47,774 --> 00:23:50,603
Then later you just go
and you go down the street
and you go, "Hi,"

433
00:23:50,646 --> 00:23:54,215
or "Ooh," or "Do you feel
what I feel?"

434
00:23:54,258 --> 00:23:55,521
And after a while
you just walk

435
00:23:55,564 --> 00:23:58,175
down the street
and you look at your lovers,

436
00:23:58,219 --> 00:24:01,222
and you don't have to do
anything about it 'cause
you're not gonna run out.

437
00:24:04,181 --> 00:24:08,359
I just notice in the landscape
of looking at someone,
the topography.

438
00:24:09,535 --> 00:24:12,538
The bit that I notice
is the unloved bit.

439
00:24:13,321 --> 00:24:15,105
Not the confidence.

440
00:24:15,149 --> 00:24:18,718
That's your psychological...

441
00:24:19,501 --> 00:24:21,242
I go for their soul.

442
00:24:22,678 --> 00:24:28,684
I see that unloved
and all of personality...

443
00:24:28,728 --> 00:24:32,949
I dabbled in that
once upon a time.

444
00:24:32,993 --> 00:24:36,257
People are so much more
than their personalities.

445
00:24:36,997 --> 00:24:38,694
So much more.

446
00:24:39,869 --> 00:24:41,044
So much more.

447
00:24:46,267 --> 00:24:50,619
As you extricate yourself
from your somebodiness,

448
00:24:50,663 --> 00:24:53,927
from your thoughts
which are things,

449
00:24:53,970 --> 00:24:56,843
from your body which is
things or stuff,

450
00:24:56,886 --> 00:25:01,195
who you are has no time,
has no space.

451
00:25:04,198 --> 00:25:08,419
I always think coming to Earth,
if this was one big
training simulation

452
00:25:08,463 --> 00:25:10,639
or a fairground ride
from birth to death...

453
00:25:10,683 --> 00:25:14,034
-Yes.
-You have to
take a forgetting pill

454
00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,992
that makes you think
you're an individual.

455
00:25:16,036 --> 00:25:17,994
That's right. Yes, yes.

456
00:25:18,038 --> 00:25:20,997
And it makes you
think death is probably the end

457
00:25:21,041 --> 00:25:24,087
or leaves it to
those two things.

458
00:25:24,131 --> 00:25:26,089
You've gotta live through it.

459
00:25:26,133 --> 00:25:27,700
That's the learning.

460
00:25:28,483 --> 00:25:31,094
You'll live through it.

461
00:25:31,138 --> 00:25:36,056
Somebody says,
"If you identify with a soul,

462
00:25:36,796 --> 00:25:38,885
"how can you do things?"

463
00:25:38,928 --> 00:25:40,364
And you say, "Well,

464
00:25:40,408 --> 00:25:43,629
"humans can do two planes
at once."

465
00:25:44,368 --> 00:25:46,632
And you're much more fun

466
00:25:48,198 --> 00:25:49,678
doing the things,

467
00:25:50,636 --> 00:25:53,334
watching yourself do things.

468
00:25:53,377 --> 00:25:55,423
So you're the human doing it,

469
00:25:55,466 --> 00:25:58,861
and the witness soul
watching it and not judging?

470
00:25:58,905 --> 00:26:01,168
-Yes.
-Not finding it
especially dramatic.

471
00:26:01,211 --> 00:26:02,386
Yes, yes.

472
00:26:03,605 --> 00:26:05,825
There's big drama here.

473
00:26:05,868 --> 00:26:08,218
-You watch the melodrama.
-Yeah.

474
00:26:08,262 --> 00:26:10,177
"Whoa, he's going to..."

475
00:26:11,395 --> 00:26:13,093
I watch Jamie.

476
00:26:13,136 --> 00:26:16,052
Sometimes I think I've got
charge of this human
called Jamie.

477
00:26:16,096 --> 00:26:18,402
And I watch
some of the things he says
or does it's like, "Oh!"

478
00:26:21,536 --> 00:26:25,975
There's sometimes
when even the soul has to
look away and go, "Whoa!"

479
00:26:28,499 --> 00:26:31,285
Yeah, that's what happens
with Ram Dass.

480
00:26:38,248 --> 00:26:43,340
It slowly has been
dawning on me
over the past eight, 10 years

481
00:26:43,384 --> 00:26:47,649
that the game
wasn't to be high,
the game was to be free.

482
00:26:47,693 --> 00:26:50,913
And the free meant you couldn't push anything away

483
00:26:50,957 --> 00:26:52,654
and you couldn't
grab at anything.

484
00:26:52,698 --> 00:26:55,135
There was nowhere to stand,

485
00:26:55,178 --> 00:26:57,224
and there was
nowhere not to stand.

486
00:26:57,267 --> 00:26:59,269
And that all the things
I'd pushed away,

487
00:26:59,313 --> 00:27:03,665
I was going to
have to take the curriculum
sooner or later.

488
00:27:03,709 --> 00:27:07,060
That turned around the direction of my life a lot.

489
00:27:07,103 --> 00:27:11,020
It's interesting, when you
want to get high,
suffering is a real drag,

490
00:27:11,064 --> 00:27:13,675
and you want to
avoid suffering
as hard as you can.

491
00:27:13,719 --> 00:27:15,329
When you want to be free,

492
00:27:15,372 --> 00:27:17,984
you begin to hear
the teachings of the Buddha

493
00:27:18,027 --> 00:27:21,727
about the cause of suffering being the clinging of the mind.

494
00:27:21,770 --> 00:27:25,513
And when something
creates suffering in you,
you don't go asking for it

495
00:27:25,556 --> 00:27:28,821
unless you're really advanced, I guess, but...

496
00:27:28,864 --> 00:27:31,867
When the suffering
comes down the pike,

497
00:27:31,911 --> 00:27:34,174
you don't turn away from it,

498
00:27:34,217 --> 00:27:36,829
because you know
that the only reason
you're suffering

499
00:27:36,872 --> 00:27:41,007
is it's telling you
something about the clinging
of your own mind.

500
00:27:41,050 --> 00:27:43,487
And it's being
offered to you as a gift.

501
00:27:51,844 --> 00:27:55,108
It's interesting,
but as long as you identify
with your personality,

502
00:27:55,151 --> 00:27:59,112
things that get you uptight
are your enemies.

503
00:27:59,155 --> 00:28:02,637
The minute you identify
with your awareness,

504
00:28:02,681 --> 00:28:04,465
then the things
that get you uptight

505
00:28:04,508 --> 00:28:07,555
show you where your awareness
has still sticky fingers.

506
00:28:07,598 --> 00:28:11,951
Most of us in the mind,
because your mind
deals with polarities,

507
00:28:11,994 --> 00:28:14,780
you feel that if you're happy, you're not sad.

508
00:28:14,823 --> 00:28:16,520
And you want to be happy,

509
00:28:19,132 --> 00:28:22,701
so you push away that
which makes you sad.

510
00:28:22,744 --> 00:28:25,138
But if you are
going to be free,

511
00:28:25,181 --> 00:28:28,315
there's nothing you can turn
away from or turn off.

512
00:28:32,798 --> 00:28:35,365
Like, if you live fully
in this moment,

513
00:28:35,409 --> 00:28:38,281
does this moment
include that baby

514
00:28:38,325 --> 00:28:40,849
that's taking its last breath
from starvation?

515
00:28:40,893 --> 00:28:42,155
Yeah.

516
00:28:42,198 --> 00:28:44,157
So are you sad? Yes.

517
00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:47,116
Does it include the baby
taking its first breath

518
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:49,771
as it comes out of
its mother's womb?

519
00:28:49,815 --> 00:28:52,121
And the joy of the beginning?

520
00:28:52,948 --> 00:28:55,864
Yes, so you're happy.

521
00:28:55,908 --> 00:28:58,911
If you are the fullness
of the moment,

522
00:28:58,954 --> 00:29:02,653
all of if, these are
all your voices.

523
00:29:02,697 --> 00:29:07,049
If you and I are to be free,
there is nothing
we can push away.

524
00:29:19,105 --> 00:29:20,759
I wake up in the morning,

525
00:29:20,802 --> 00:29:23,326
before I even remember
who I am,
something's wrong.

526
00:29:28,070 --> 00:29:30,072
I'm sort of feeling
that pressure on my chest,

527
00:29:30,116 --> 00:29:31,944
and I think I kind of
drop into some...

528
00:29:31,987 --> 00:29:34,424
Before I even start thinking,
I want to put my hand here,

529
00:29:34,468 --> 00:29:36,687
before I start attaching
that funny feeling

530
00:29:36,731 --> 00:29:38,037
to "Oh, no,
what's the bank balance?"

531
00:29:38,080 --> 00:29:40,517
or "Have I prepared
for Ram Dass?"

532
00:29:40,561 --> 00:29:44,304
You know, before I even let
the feeling reach a thought,

533
00:29:44,347 --> 00:29:47,655
I want to meet it
at the feeling before it can
start causing trouble.

534
00:29:48,656 --> 00:29:52,878
Your body
reacts to the thought.

535
00:29:54,140 --> 00:29:56,316
But it's happening
in a lump in my body,

536
00:29:56,359 --> 00:29:58,492
so something needs to be
dissolved there.

537
00:29:59,145 --> 00:30:00,494
I see.

538
00:30:00,537 --> 00:30:02,496
And not just by thinking,
"Oh, that's just anger."

539
00:30:02,539 --> 00:30:05,586
That doesn't stop
all the chemicals
and accumulation of blech.

540
00:30:05,629 --> 00:30:09,459
That chemical is up here.

541
00:30:09,503 --> 00:30:12,158
You don't think it's worth
dissolving in the body?

542
00:30:12,201 --> 00:30:13,942
Yeah, it's all up here.

543
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:18,077
It's not here. Not here.

544
00:30:19,469 --> 00:30:21,820
But the body holds it
as sensation, no?

545
00:30:24,257 --> 00:30:26,302
All here.

546
00:30:41,578 --> 00:30:45,669
Like, the other night
I was in Des Moines, Iowa,

547
00:30:45,713 --> 00:30:47,933
So I came to the hall
and everybody was,
"Ram Dass..."

548
00:30:47,976 --> 00:30:51,110
I was "Yes, yes,"
and I was smiling,
being Ram Dass.

549
00:30:51,153 --> 00:30:53,852
You know, that's a nice role.

550
00:30:53,895 --> 00:30:55,897
And I was being sweet
and loving,

551
00:30:55,941 --> 00:30:59,596
and every evening
I always ask for
a mini boom microphone.

552
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:01,860
That's one of these things.

553
00:31:01,903 --> 00:31:03,992
'Cause when you're
sitting cross-legged
and you have a straight mic,

554
00:31:04,036 --> 00:31:07,561
you got to spend
the whole evening
leaning forward like that.

555
00:31:07,604 --> 00:31:09,693
So I asked for this,

556
00:31:09,737 --> 00:31:11,913
and I walked into the hall
and there was
a straight microphone.

557
00:31:11,957 --> 00:31:14,785
And I was all smiling,
and I suddenly said,
"What's that?"

558
00:31:16,570 --> 00:31:18,137
And the woman, who was
the manager of the hall said,

559
00:31:18,180 --> 00:31:20,008
"Well, that's the only
microphone we had."

560
00:31:20,052 --> 00:31:21,967
And I said,
"Well, we advised you
we needed..."

561
00:31:22,010 --> 00:31:26,754
And I started to get
into this curmudgeonly...
Ooh, yuck.

562
00:31:26,797 --> 00:31:28,712
And I broke up completely.

563
00:31:28,756 --> 00:31:32,107
I mean, I just saw myself
get completely ugly,

564
00:31:32,151 --> 00:31:34,022
and I broke up, because
what I saw was

565
00:31:34,066 --> 00:31:37,112
that my guru had come in drag
as a microphone...

566
00:31:39,375 --> 00:31:41,160
...to say, "Oh, you think
you're so high and mighty,"
you know.

567
00:31:41,203 --> 00:31:42,901
"Try this one on for size."

568
00:31:52,649 --> 00:31:54,869
If this were around here
could you hear me?

569
00:31:56,436 --> 00:31:58,003
Can you hear me
better this way?

570
00:31:59,047 --> 00:32:00,570
I was afraid of that.

571
00:32:04,748 --> 00:32:05,924
Okay.

572
00:32:08,796 --> 00:32:13,540
What I usually do
when I don't assume this will
be any different is, um,

573
00:32:13,583 --> 00:32:17,892
share notes
of what's been happening.

574
00:32:17,936 --> 00:32:21,461
Um, I always talk about myself,
it turns out,

575
00:32:21,504 --> 00:32:26,988
but those of you that know,
know that it isn't really me,
it's us.

576
00:32:27,032 --> 00:32:30,731
And I just use myself
as a case study that I know
better than I know

577
00:32:30,774 --> 00:32:32,994
everybody else's case study.

578
00:32:33,038 --> 00:32:37,825
Because what awes me is how
parallel our journeys are,

579
00:32:39,131 --> 00:32:41,524
and how much when
I'm going through something,

580
00:32:41,568 --> 00:32:44,397
and I think, "Boy, this is
really leading-edge stuff..."

581
00:32:48,618 --> 00:32:51,491
...I meet somebody
and they say,

582
00:32:51,534 --> 00:32:53,406
"Gee, that's just
what's been happening to me."

583
00:32:57,758 --> 00:33:00,456
Now, let's sit up in here.
Let's all sit together.

584
00:33:01,544 --> 00:33:03,242
Now, in the course
of the years,

585
00:33:03,285 --> 00:33:05,505
I've developed a lot of
very strange friends.

586
00:33:05,548 --> 00:33:09,335
And one of them is
a being named Emmanuel.

587
00:33:09,378 --> 00:33:12,860
And Emmanuel is interesting
because Emmanuel doesn't
have a body.

588
00:33:14,470 --> 00:33:17,821
He's a being
on another plane,

589
00:33:17,865 --> 00:33:19,736
and I know
some of you here have

590
00:33:19,780 --> 00:33:23,523
a difficult time accepting
my friend Emmanuel.

591
00:33:23,566 --> 00:33:26,352
I mean, you'd accept
any of my other friends
but somehow...

592
00:33:26,395 --> 00:33:28,745
You say you have
no prejudices about color,

593
00:33:30,225 --> 00:33:32,488
sex, religion.

594
00:33:32,532 --> 00:33:34,577
But bodies...
Somehow somebody
doesn't have a body,

595
00:33:34,621 --> 00:33:36,840
you immediately don't know
that you want to accept them.

596
00:33:38,407 --> 00:33:40,496
But I feel that's your problem,
'cause he's my friend,

597
00:33:40,540 --> 00:33:42,411
and, uh...

598
00:33:42,455 --> 00:33:45,588
The way I figure it is
I'll take my teachings
anywhere I can get 'em.

599
00:33:45,632 --> 00:33:48,722
Okay? I don't care
whether you got a body
or which kind it is,

600
00:33:48,765 --> 00:33:51,246
if you got a teaching,
I want it.

601
00:33:51,290 --> 00:33:53,466
And Emmanuel said to me
when I said to Emmanuel,

602
00:33:53,509 --> 00:33:56,208
"What work do I
have to do now?"

603
00:33:56,251 --> 00:33:59,689
He said, "Ram Dass,
you're in a school. Why don't
you try taking the curriculum?"

604
00:34:04,129 --> 00:34:06,740
He said,
"You took a human birth,
you're so busy being holy.

605
00:34:09,221 --> 00:34:10,439
"Why don't you
try being human?"

606
00:34:16,358 --> 00:34:18,969
Funny, I'd never
thought of that.
Isn't that far out?

607
00:34:21,668 --> 00:34:24,366
'Cause somehow being human
was less than perfect.

608
00:34:29,197 --> 00:34:31,286
Even though
I intellectually knew

609
00:34:31,330 --> 00:34:34,289
that form is no other than
formless and formless is
no other than form,

610
00:34:34,333 --> 00:34:37,510
and I knew that
the manifestation was
God-made manifest,

611
00:34:37,553 --> 00:34:40,078
everything was perfect
out there except me.

612
00:34:42,993 --> 00:34:46,910
But original sin was gonna have
a last stronghold right here.

613
00:34:49,609 --> 00:34:53,482
I remember being drunk with
Alan Watson at a Benedictine
monastery one night.

614
00:34:53,526 --> 00:34:56,703
If you can
handle that image, and...

615
00:34:58,487 --> 00:35:00,141
Alan said,

616
00:35:00,185 --> 00:35:01,708
"You know,
the trouble with you, Dick..."

617
00:35:01,751 --> 00:35:03,144
And you know
you're gonna get real truth

618
00:35:03,188 --> 00:35:04,537
at a moment like that.

619
00:35:04,580 --> 00:35:07,192
It's like 3:00 in the morning.

620
00:35:07,235 --> 00:35:10,673
"...is you're
too attached to emptiness."

621
00:35:22,816 --> 00:35:26,254
If there's one addiction
that outlasts all the others,

622
00:35:26,298 --> 00:35:27,647
it's the addiction to be free.

623
00:35:27,690 --> 00:35:29,214
It's the addiction to
come up for air,

624
00:35:29,257 --> 00:35:31,303
to live in the light,
to live with love,

625
00:35:31,346 --> 00:35:34,480
to be spacious, to be present,
to be "Ah."

626
00:35:34,523 --> 00:35:37,570
'Cause you can see
that it could be fun,
but you're not having it.

627
00:35:39,876 --> 00:35:42,009
And you feel screwed
and why should you be screwed?

628
00:35:42,052 --> 00:35:44,142
I mean, it's just a shift of
your head you gotta go through.

629
00:35:45,708 --> 00:35:48,711
So, you get greedy,
so you start to look
for the methods,

630
00:35:48,755 --> 00:35:50,409
and you try to...

631
00:35:50,452 --> 00:35:53,107
You fit them in and take
more time to do it, see.

632
00:35:56,328 --> 00:35:59,418
When I went to
my guru in India,
and I said to him,

633
00:35:59,461 --> 00:36:03,117
"Uh, Maharajji,
how do I get free?"

634
00:36:04,031 --> 00:36:05,467
He said, "Feed people."

635
00:36:07,034 --> 00:36:08,862
I said, "Feed people?"

636
00:36:08,905 --> 00:36:12,387
I mean, you don't expect...
You go all the way
to the Himalayas.

637
00:36:12,431 --> 00:36:15,085
You know, and you sit at
the feet of the guru,

638
00:36:15,129 --> 00:36:16,652
and you expect him to say,

639
00:36:16,696 --> 00:36:18,741
"Come into this cave
and I will give you
the word..."

640
00:36:19,916 --> 00:36:21,483
You know,
and you will sit quietly

641
00:36:21,527 --> 00:36:23,920
and then you will go through
and you'll be free.

642
00:36:23,964 --> 00:36:25,792
He says, "Feed people."

643
00:36:25,835 --> 00:36:28,011
So I tried a different tact.
"Maharajji, how do you
get enlightened?"

644
00:36:29,274 --> 00:36:30,579
He said, "Serve people."

645
00:36:31,450 --> 00:36:32,668
Well, I heard him say it,

646
00:36:32,712 --> 00:36:35,323
but I figured, you know,
"What does he know?"

647
00:36:39,240 --> 00:36:42,200
He's just considering me
kind of a low-life, you know.

648
00:36:42,243 --> 00:36:45,899
I mean, he's not
taking me seriously
as a spiritual seeker,

649
00:36:45,942 --> 00:36:48,423
'cause the serious guys
meditate.

650
00:36:48,467 --> 00:36:49,555
You understand?

651
00:36:51,557 --> 00:36:58,172
I find it humorous
to see myself

652
00:36:58,216 --> 00:36:59,608
trip up or something.

653
00:37:00,870 --> 00:37:04,178
Or I see myself

654
00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:06,354
wanting something or...

655
00:37:07,399 --> 00:37:09,662
Like, some days,

656
00:37:09,705 --> 00:37:15,058
my aches and pains are
so, so gorgeous.

657
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:19,324
Then I complain.

658
00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:22,675
Then I love it.
Me complaining?

659
00:37:24,067 --> 00:37:28,289
"My God! Is that you?"
I mean, "Is that you?"

660
00:37:28,333 --> 00:37:29,638
Are you still doing that?

661
00:37:29,682 --> 00:37:31,684
-You're still here.
-Yeah, still here.

662
00:37:37,733 --> 00:37:42,477
This is where I feel
there's confusion sometimes
about this mind,

663
00:37:42,521 --> 00:37:44,479
a lot of these
spiritual paths or...

664
00:37:44,523 --> 00:37:46,699
It's all about
"We've gotta control the mind.

665
00:37:46,742 --> 00:37:49,310
"We've gotta
transcend the mind. We've gotta
unclutter the mind."

666
00:37:49,354 --> 00:37:51,007
-All kinds of the mind...
-That's true.

667
00:37:51,051 --> 00:37:52,270
Well, maybe.

668
00:37:57,318 --> 00:38:00,147
I think you'll find my theory

669
00:38:00,190 --> 00:38:02,497
a little bit
more advanced, Ram Dass,
if you just listen.

670
00:38:07,241 --> 00:38:09,678
I haven't got
just one mind in here,
I've got a committee.

671
00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:12,507
I've got numerous people
in here immediately available.

672
00:38:12,551 --> 00:38:14,944
I've got the eternal pessimist

673
00:38:14,988 --> 00:38:17,338
always ready to
paint how black
this is gonna go.

674
00:38:17,382 --> 00:38:20,080
-Yeah.
-I've got a raging sex maniac.

675
00:38:20,123 --> 00:38:22,778
I've got a vengeful murderer

676
00:38:22,822 --> 00:38:27,914
who wants to kill anybody,
I don't know, driving
too slowly in front of me.

677
00:38:27,957 --> 00:38:32,875
The victim who's constantly
looking at everything
as a persecution.

678
00:38:32,919 --> 00:38:36,531
The mind is just
thoughts and thoughts.

679
00:38:36,575 --> 00:38:38,577
The river of thoughts.

680
00:38:41,231 --> 00:38:43,669
Sex maniac, da-da-da-da-da.

681
00:38:44,713 --> 00:38:46,672
But they're still thoughts,

682
00:38:46,715 --> 00:38:53,156
and we're talking about
thoughts, not the content
of thoughts.

683
00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:57,857
You ever have an experience
where you're feeling
less than that,

684
00:38:57,900 --> 00:39:00,512
and you're like,
"Maharajji, hello?
Where are you?"

685
00:39:00,555 --> 00:39:02,078
Yes, yes.

686
00:39:03,384 --> 00:39:05,473
Yes, many times.

687
00:39:11,740 --> 00:39:15,309
Look at all the great saints,
they're all as neurotic
as anybody else.

688
00:39:17,137 --> 00:39:19,095
It's just that
it's kind of irrelevant.

689
00:39:21,097 --> 00:39:23,273
And, so, you don't have to
change your neuroses,

690
00:39:23,317 --> 00:39:24,971
you just stop
identifying with them.

691
00:39:26,755 --> 00:39:29,105
And you just make friends
with them when they
come by for tea.

692
00:39:34,023 --> 00:39:37,853
A lot of people respond to
that uncertainty and anxiety

693
00:39:37,897 --> 00:39:40,073
with fear,

694
00:39:40,116 --> 00:39:43,816
and the way they
dissipate their fear,
there's various strategies.

695
00:39:43,859 --> 00:39:46,384
One strategy is to
just buy more stuff

696
00:39:46,427 --> 00:39:50,039
to get more pleasure now
'cause it's all gonna
be gone soon.

697
00:39:50,083 --> 00:39:53,521
That's one thing.
That's the material strategy.

698
00:39:53,565 --> 00:39:55,784
There is another alternative,
which is,

699
00:39:55,828 --> 00:40:00,049
to feel that you will
reduce the fear if you
align yourself with good

700
00:40:00,093 --> 00:40:01,964
as opposed to evil.

701
00:40:02,008 --> 00:40:04,053
In other words,
it's in the world
of good and evil.

702
00:40:04,097 --> 00:40:07,230
And if you are
part of the elect
or part of the good guys,

703
00:40:07,274 --> 00:40:09,319
and you push away
the bad guys,

704
00:40:09,363 --> 00:40:13,585
somehow you will be
protected from the uncertainties of the world.

705
00:40:13,628 --> 00:40:16,588
People grab on
to a belief system,

706
00:40:16,631 --> 00:40:19,547
which makes them feel
that they are in the right,

707
00:40:19,591 --> 00:40:22,115
and it reduces
some of their anxiety.

708
00:40:22,158 --> 00:40:24,596
In order to hold onto that,

709
00:40:24,639 --> 00:40:27,033
they have got to convince
themselves that other people
are not in the right.

710
00:40:27,076 --> 00:40:28,687
They've got to
polarize the world.

711
00:40:28,730 --> 00:40:32,125
And they create a lot of
"ours is the only way,

712
00:40:32,168 --> 00:40:35,824
"and if you don't do it,
you're missing it
and you're wrong."

713
00:40:35,868 --> 00:40:39,175
What you have to have
is just a lot of compassion

714
00:40:39,219 --> 00:40:41,830
for the stages
other people are in.

715
00:40:41,874 --> 00:40:43,615
Hello.

716
00:40:43,658 --> 00:40:46,182
I've got
a great idea.

717
00:40:46,226 --> 00:40:49,925
And I would say
that souls are neither
good nor evil.

718
00:40:49,969 --> 00:40:53,320
That actions are good and evil, motivation is good and evil,

719
00:40:53,363 --> 00:40:55,931
that the personalities
can be good or evil,

720
00:40:55,975 --> 00:40:58,543
but that the essence of a being is neither good nor evil,

721
00:40:58,586 --> 00:41:00,675
it just is,

722
00:41:00,719 --> 00:41:03,939
and it has heavy stuff to
work out and good stuff
to work out.

723
00:41:03,983 --> 00:41:09,510
And you begin to look at
human beings as having
very dark karma at times,

724
00:41:09,554 --> 00:41:12,513
very heavy stuff
they're carrying with them

725
00:41:12,557 --> 00:41:14,515
that makes them project
into the world

726
00:41:14,559 --> 00:41:18,519
in a way that creates immense
suffering for other people.

727
00:41:18,563 --> 00:41:24,133
And there's a point in
your being where you feel
this incredible compassion

728
00:41:24,177 --> 00:41:27,615
for the horror of that
predicament, for that being.

729
00:41:27,659 --> 00:41:31,967
The minute you identify them
with the acts that are
creating the suffering,

730
00:41:32,011 --> 00:41:35,493
you lock them in
to continuing to be
who they are

731
00:41:35,536 --> 00:41:37,190
with your mind.

732
00:41:37,233 --> 00:41:40,628
So, the art is to see actions
as evil, but not beings.

733
00:41:55,338 --> 00:41:58,254
You climb a mountain,
you follow a path,

734
00:41:58,298 --> 00:42:01,083
you do any of the methods
that you are attracted to.

735
00:42:01,127 --> 00:42:03,608
For example,
quieting your mind,

736
00:42:04,347 --> 00:42:07,960
or opening your heart.

737
00:42:08,003 --> 00:42:11,093
Like meditating or singing
or going to church,

738
00:42:11,137 --> 00:42:13,487
or service or whatever,

739
00:42:13,531 --> 00:42:17,230
or pitting the mind
against the mind through
Zen koans, or whatever.

740
00:42:17,273 --> 00:42:19,841
All of it will push you
and push you,

741
00:42:19,885 --> 00:42:24,150
but sooner or later, you'll get
trapped by your methods,

742
00:42:24,193 --> 00:42:27,893
and they'll keep you asleep,
and you'll become
a good meditator.

743
00:42:27,936 --> 00:42:33,594
Or, you know, "I love Christ,"
but it'll be a sleep
kind of statement.

744
00:42:33,638 --> 00:42:36,858
And then you'll have to
let go of that one too.

745
00:42:36,902 --> 00:42:39,948
But all of these are useful
techniques to keep working,

746
00:42:39,992 --> 00:42:42,951
and you've got to hear
what your own technique is.

747
00:42:42,995 --> 00:42:46,781
The first thing is,
not to be bugged about
going back to sleep.

748
00:42:46,825 --> 00:42:50,263
Just to experience
that it was grace

749
00:42:50,306 --> 00:42:54,397
that that death allowed you
to waken for a moment.

750
00:42:54,441 --> 00:42:58,184
Because the minute you try to
grab on to the memory of
what it was,

751
00:42:58,227 --> 00:43:01,753
you're just holding on
to an old dead butterfly.

752
00:43:01,796 --> 00:43:04,538
So, you go back to sleep
and then you wake up again.

753
00:43:04,582 --> 00:43:07,019
The fact that you're even
asking that question,

754
00:43:07,062 --> 00:43:09,587
is the awakening process
at work.

755
00:43:09,630 --> 00:43:12,590
You have to stand back
one step further
and see your whole life,

756
00:43:12,633 --> 00:43:16,202
the awakening
and the going to sleep,
all as awakening.

757
00:43:16,245 --> 00:43:18,726
Just get into
a bigger time span,

758
00:43:18,770 --> 00:43:22,774
and you'll be able to
allow the dance to go on,
up and down, up and down.

759
00:43:24,950 --> 00:43:27,039
This idea that
there's no self,

760
00:43:27,082 --> 00:43:29,650
I just want to bust it, because

761
00:43:29,694 --> 00:43:33,219
while I'm Jamie,
there's a self.

762
00:43:33,262 --> 00:43:35,438
I mean, yes, in the great
oneness of everything,

763
00:43:35,482 --> 00:43:37,919
I'm sure there's no self,
and it evaporates.

764
00:43:37,963 --> 00:43:41,357
But just for this theme park,

765
00:43:41,401 --> 00:43:46,449
just for this 70, 80 years,
whatever, birth to death thing,

766
00:43:47,233 --> 00:43:48,364
you have to have a self.

767
00:43:48,408 --> 00:43:51,803
The whole point is to
do the self-game.

768
00:43:51,846 --> 00:43:54,457
So, to come here and have
everyone going,

769
00:43:54,501 --> 00:43:56,808
"There is no self.
It's all an illusion.
There is no self,"

770
00:43:56,851 --> 00:44:00,072
it's like paying money to
go and see a great
special effects movie,

771
00:44:00,115 --> 00:44:01,421
like Avatar,

772
00:44:01,464 --> 00:44:02,727
and someone sitting
next to you, going,

773
00:44:02,770 --> 00:44:05,033
"They're not really blue.
That's just make-up."

774
00:44:05,077 --> 00:44:07,688
It's like,
"Look, I just paid my money
to see this show,

775
00:44:07,732 --> 00:44:09,690
why are you telling me
there's no self?"

776
00:44:09,734 --> 00:44:14,086
"I know there's really no self,
but let me enjoy the self-game
as a self."

777
00:44:15,522 --> 00:44:17,350
Why come here to do a self,

778
00:44:17,393 --> 00:44:19,482
and spend the whole time saying
"I'm not a self?"

779
00:44:19,526 --> 00:44:20,788
Yeah. Yeah.

780
00:44:20,832 --> 00:44:23,312
No, there's a way
of saying that differently.

781
00:44:24,662 --> 00:44:28,230
The soul comes
to the incarnation

782
00:44:28,927 --> 00:44:30,929
to learn something,

783
00:44:30,972 --> 00:44:36,238
and you'll learn best
by involving yourself

784
00:44:36,282 --> 00:44:38,153
in the way... In the game.

785
00:44:40,155 --> 00:44:44,769
Lovingly watching oneself,

786
00:44:46,292 --> 00:44:47,380
humorously.

787
00:44:48,424 --> 00:44:49,948
Humor and love.

788
00:44:49,991 --> 00:44:51,340
Yeah.

789
00:44:51,384 --> 00:44:52,820
Humor and love.

790
00:44:59,305 --> 00:45:02,612
When I do
all the things
that I do every day,

791
00:45:02,656 --> 00:45:07,792
all of it is the stuff I use
to work on myself,

792
00:45:07,835 --> 00:45:13,623
in order to increase
the equanimity and to
increase the compassion.

793
00:45:13,667 --> 00:45:18,628
It all is exercise. Your entire life is curriculum.

794
00:45:18,672 --> 00:45:21,893
Everything you've got
right on your plate,

795
00:45:21,936 --> 00:45:24,983
is where the stuff
for your enlightenment is.

796
00:45:25,026 --> 00:45:29,204
It's breathtaking when
you stand back and see
the beauty of that design.

797
00:45:44,002 --> 00:45:49,050
And you appreciate
the perfection of
the unfolding of it all,

798
00:45:49,094 --> 00:45:51,357
including the suffering.

799
00:45:54,403 --> 00:45:58,277
But if you just do that,
which you do up here
with your third eye,

800
00:45:59,626 --> 00:46:01,715
your heart,

801
00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:05,371
which is your emotional heart,
your human,

802
00:46:07,547 --> 00:46:11,246
says, "What kind of
an insensitive, callous person
are you?"

803
00:46:11,290 --> 00:46:13,118
'Cause if you're only up here,

804
00:46:13,161 --> 00:46:15,947
somebody trips in front of you
and you say, "Karma."

805
00:46:21,517 --> 00:46:24,346
But if you're just down here,

806
00:46:24,390 --> 00:46:26,914
you look around
and the suffering stinks,

807
00:46:26,958 --> 00:46:29,612
and you try to
do something about it,

808
00:46:29,656 --> 00:46:32,311
but it is so immense,
the amount of suffering,

809
00:46:32,354 --> 00:46:34,400
that you go to
fill the dike there,
and it's leaking there,

810
00:46:34,443 --> 00:46:35,967
and you go to fill it there
and it's leaking there.

811
00:46:36,010 --> 00:46:39,535
And where are you gonna do it?
What you gonna do it?

812
00:46:39,579 --> 00:46:42,060
You're on the good guy
mailing list just like I am.
You know.

813
00:46:43,496 --> 00:46:45,411
Which one do you
write your check to?

814
00:46:49,632 --> 00:46:51,547
But when I come down
into my human heart,

815
00:46:54,289 --> 00:46:55,987
it would hurt so bad.

816
00:46:58,424 --> 00:47:02,123
Because the more you open up to
the suffering of the universe,

817
00:47:02,167 --> 00:47:05,083
the easiest way to handle it,
is to go up.

818
00:47:08,782 --> 00:47:11,567
It's much harder to stay down
and stay open.

819
00:47:12,655 --> 00:47:14,614
It's excruciatingly painful.

820
00:47:20,228 --> 00:47:24,754
And this is a kind of
a rule of the game,
of spiritual practice,

821
00:47:24,798 --> 00:47:29,281
is the learning to trust
one's own intuitive heart.

822
00:47:30,760 --> 00:47:33,938
Learning to trust
another way of knowing,

823
00:47:33,981 --> 00:47:37,855
other than the rational
analytic process,

824
00:47:40,945 --> 00:47:45,471
that you start to respond
to something in you that knows,

825
00:47:45,514 --> 00:47:49,170
even though who
you think you are
doesn't know it knows.

826
00:47:51,042 --> 00:47:56,438
It turned out
intuition is perhaps
where our salvation lies,

827
00:47:56,482 --> 00:48:00,225
where thinking is apparently
where our destruction lies.

828
00:48:00,268 --> 00:48:02,967
We've thought our way
into this peculiar situation

829
00:48:03,010 --> 00:48:06,971
where we're alienated
from the Earth
and from each other,

830
00:48:07,014 --> 00:48:11,889
and caught in greed,
which is a product of the mind.

831
00:48:11,932 --> 00:48:17,938
And each of us must be true
to ourselves to hear what is
our unique way through,

832
00:48:17,982 --> 00:48:20,158
because if you get phony holy,

833
00:48:21,246 --> 00:48:24,249
it ends up kicking you
in the butt.

834
00:48:24,292 --> 00:48:26,077
You've got to
stay true to yourself.

835
00:48:28,862 --> 00:48:32,257
And as Trungpa Rinpoche said
in his rascally way,

836
00:48:32,300 --> 00:48:36,391
he said,
"Enlightenment is the ego's
ultimate disappointment."

837
00:48:36,435 --> 00:48:37,915
And that's the predicament.

838
00:48:37,958 --> 00:48:41,440
You see the fact
that your spiritual journey

839
00:48:41,483 --> 00:48:45,096
is an entirely different
ballgame than the one
you thought you were on.

840
00:48:45,139 --> 00:48:47,489
It's a different path
than you thought you were on.

841
00:48:47,533 --> 00:48:49,796
And it's very hard
to make that transition.

842
00:48:49,839 --> 00:48:51,580
A lot of people don't want to.

843
00:48:51,624 --> 00:48:53,931
They want to take the power
from their spiritual work,

844
00:48:53,974 --> 00:48:55,280
and make their life nice.

845
00:48:57,369 --> 00:48:59,023
And there is a grief

846
00:48:59,066 --> 00:49:01,155
when who you thought you were
starts to disappear.

847
00:49:08,902 --> 00:49:11,383
You can imagine
a picture frame

848
00:49:11,426 --> 00:49:14,647
in which there is a painting
of a gray cloud.

849
00:49:17,737 --> 00:49:21,610
But the painter
made the cloud bigger
than the frame that he had.

850
00:49:21,654 --> 00:49:23,177
Or she had.

851
00:49:23,221 --> 00:49:26,615
So, what they did was they cut a little off the edge

852
00:49:26,659 --> 00:49:28,052
and they just
put it in the frame.

853
00:49:28,095 --> 00:49:30,968
And so all there is,
is gray cloudness.

854
00:49:31,011 --> 00:49:32,839
'Cause there's no edge anymore to the clouds,

855
00:49:32,882 --> 00:49:35,755
so all you have is
gray in a frame.

856
00:49:35,798 --> 00:49:37,322
And you look at it
and you say,
"What's that?"

857
00:49:43,241 --> 00:49:45,591
But if you used
either a little bigger frame

858
00:49:45,634 --> 00:49:47,810
or painted
a little smaller cloud,

859
00:49:47,854 --> 00:49:51,205
you'd see that there's
a little blue sky around
the edge of the cloud,

860
00:49:51,249 --> 00:49:54,904
and you say, "Oh, a cloud.
What do you know?

861
00:49:54,948 --> 00:49:57,342
"All the time I thought
the universe was gray."

862
00:50:06,394 --> 00:50:09,441
The cloud is the grief,
the cloud is the self-pity,

863
00:50:10,442 --> 00:50:12,139
the cloud are the models,

864
00:50:16,100 --> 00:50:18,798
and that little blue sky
becomes the space.

865
00:50:21,148 --> 00:50:25,196
And the meditative techniques
are designed to give you
that space.

866
00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:29,113
And the minute there's
that spaciousness,

867
00:50:29,156 --> 00:50:33,334
ah, it's just another cloud.

868
00:50:33,378 --> 00:50:37,860
You know what
clouds do in the sky?
They come, and they go.

869
00:50:45,781 --> 00:50:48,175
And then, there comes a period,

870
00:50:48,219 --> 00:50:50,656
where you've just
gone through enough,

871
00:50:50,699 --> 00:50:54,312
and a space starts to...
That little blue sky
starts to develop,

872
00:50:54,355 --> 00:50:57,402
and if you have
a meditative awareness,

873
00:50:57,445 --> 00:50:59,186
or just that appreciation,

874
00:50:59,230 --> 00:51:02,407
you start to identify
with the blue sky
instead of the cloud.

875
00:51:02,450 --> 00:51:03,756
You flicker, at first.

876
00:51:06,585 --> 00:51:09,457
And then you start to release.

877
00:51:10,458 --> 00:51:11,938
And then comes the time,

878
00:51:13,331 --> 00:51:15,550
when you start to realize

879
00:51:15,594 --> 00:51:18,771
you'd rather be vulnerable
and be hurt

880
00:51:18,814 --> 00:51:22,470
than be living dead,
in the "dead-dead" sense,

881
00:51:22,514 --> 00:51:23,950
not in the "living" sense.

882
00:51:24,864 --> 00:51:26,605
And you can't afford it,

883
00:51:26,648 --> 00:51:29,521
and you start to open again
and the whole cycle
starts again.

884
00:51:33,177 --> 00:51:34,482
Until finally,

885
00:51:36,397 --> 00:51:40,532
you start to fall in love
with love.

886
00:51:54,633 --> 00:51:57,114
When you take off your mask,

887
00:51:57,157 --> 00:52:01,509
it's easier for everybody else
to take off theirs.

888
00:52:01,553 --> 00:52:03,990
Yeah, I want to be
a walking permission slip...

889
00:52:04,033 --> 00:52:06,297
-Yeah.
-...of mask removal.

890
00:52:06,340 --> 00:52:08,342
Yeah.

891
00:52:08,386 --> 00:52:13,130
But our cultures are
so mask-driven.

892
00:52:13,173 --> 00:52:17,569
Imagine what an office would be
like with no masks.

893
00:52:17,612 --> 00:52:19,875
That's the irony about masks.

894
00:52:19,919 --> 00:52:21,703
I've had a fascination
with masks

895
00:52:21,747 --> 00:52:25,142
-since first hanging out
with you.
-Yeah.

896
00:52:26,273 --> 00:52:29,058
The irony is
that we wear a mask

897
00:52:29,102 --> 00:52:34,803
because the people around
will only love us
if we wear this mask.

898
00:52:34,847 --> 00:52:37,328
But the crazy thing
about that is

899
00:52:37,371 --> 00:52:39,721
we don't really wanna
hang out with people

900
00:52:39,765 --> 00:52:41,462
-that only want the masks worn.
-I know.

901
00:52:41,506 --> 00:52:43,072
So, we're exhausting ourselves,

902
00:52:43,116 --> 00:52:45,510
wearing a mask for people we
don't wanna hang out with.

903
00:52:45,553 --> 00:52:47,033
That's exactly right.

904
00:52:47,076 --> 00:52:48,426
That's exactly right.

905
00:52:48,469 --> 00:52:49,775
We take off the mask

906
00:52:49,818 --> 00:52:51,559
-and some will go...
-Yep.

907
00:52:51,603 --> 00:52:53,648
...but the people
that will be left are
the people that love us

908
00:52:53,692 --> 00:52:55,128
and really wanna
hang out with us.

909
00:52:55,172 --> 00:52:57,174
That's beautiful.
That's just right.

910
00:52:57,739 --> 00:52:59,088
Just right.

911
00:52:59,132 --> 00:53:03,223
Everybody's playing
with their stories

912
00:53:04,529 --> 00:53:06,792
of who they think they are.

913
00:53:08,402 --> 00:53:10,056
It's more fun to just

914
00:53:11,057 --> 00:53:13,712
witness it all,

915
00:53:13,755 --> 00:53:19,805
to be the environment
in which this is happening.

916
00:53:24,723 --> 00:53:27,508
We're living in a time where

917
00:53:27,552 --> 00:53:29,902
it is now beginning
to be acceptable

918
00:53:29,945 --> 00:53:32,426
to consider the possibility
that people actually die.

919
00:53:35,690 --> 00:53:41,000
Usually, in our culture,
it has been put behind doors,
behind sheets, behind...

920
00:53:41,043 --> 00:53:43,524
You don't talk to the children
about it

921
00:53:44,656 --> 00:53:46,484
you don't show anybody, um...

922
00:53:47,528 --> 00:53:50,488
We surround people
that are dying

923
00:53:50,531 --> 00:53:54,666
with a certain
kind of falseness that comes
out of our own fear.

924
00:53:54,709 --> 00:53:57,451
When my mother,
my natural mother was dying,

925
00:53:58,887 --> 00:54:01,238
and I'd watch people
come into the room,

926
00:54:01,281 --> 00:54:03,109
all the relatives and doctors
and nurses saying

927
00:54:03,152 --> 00:54:05,067
"You're looking better,
you're doing well,"

928
00:54:05,111 --> 00:54:08,941
and then they go out
of the room and say,
"She won't live the week."

929
00:54:08,984 --> 00:54:12,553
And I thought
how bizarre that
a human being's going through

930
00:54:12,597 --> 00:54:15,208
one of the most profound
transitions in their life,

931
00:54:15,252 --> 00:54:17,515
and they're surrounded
completely by deception.

932
00:54:18,516 --> 00:54:20,561
Can you hear
the pain of that?

933
00:54:20,605 --> 00:54:23,825
That nobody could be straight
with them because
everybody was too frightened.

934
00:54:23,869 --> 00:54:25,958
Even the rabbi,
all of them, everybody.

935
00:54:26,654 --> 00:54:27,916
Everybody.

936
00:54:27,960 --> 00:54:31,442
And for me, who has
grown up in that culture,

937
00:54:31,485 --> 00:54:34,662
it was quite an experience
when I started to
live in India,

938
00:54:36,098 --> 00:54:38,187
where when somebody dies,

939
00:54:38,231 --> 00:54:42,322
they are put on a pallet
and then carried
through the streets

940
00:54:43,323 --> 00:54:45,891
to the burning grounds.

941
00:54:45,934 --> 00:54:50,548
And the death is public,
for everybody to see.

942
00:54:50,591 --> 00:54:53,028
The body is right there.
It's not in a box,
it's not hidden.

943
00:54:55,030 --> 00:54:56,728
Most people are dying at home,

944
00:54:56,771 --> 00:54:59,383
so that most people,
as they grow up,

945
00:54:59,426 --> 00:55:01,559
have been in the presence
of someone dying.

946
00:55:02,995 --> 00:55:06,781
While in our culture,
an amazing number of people,

947
00:55:06,825 --> 00:55:10,132
even at middle age, have never been in the presence of someone dying.

948
00:55:11,612 --> 00:55:14,006
They have walked away from it
and hidden from it.

949
00:55:20,534 --> 00:55:23,450
"Dear friend, please know
as you pass by,

950
00:55:24,669 --> 00:55:28,063
"as you are now,
so once was I,

951
00:55:28,107 --> 00:55:31,371
"as I am now, so you will be,

952
00:55:31,415 --> 00:55:33,591
"prepare yourself
to follow me."

953
00:55:35,767 --> 00:55:37,986
And we are preparing ourselves.

954
00:55:43,122 --> 00:55:47,169
I'm one of the strange people

955
00:55:47,213 --> 00:55:51,696
that absolutely delights
and enjoys being with people
as they're dying.

956
00:55:53,306 --> 00:55:59,181
In fact, it is such
an incredible grace for me,

957
00:55:59,225 --> 00:56:02,489
that in the morning when I know
I'm going to be
with such a person,

958
00:56:02,533 --> 00:56:06,972
I get absolutely thrilled
in my body, in my being.

959
00:56:08,800 --> 00:56:11,106
Because I know I'm going to
have an opportunity

960
00:56:11,150 --> 00:56:12,978
to be in the presence of truth.

961
00:56:17,286 --> 00:56:20,420
While I wouldn't lay suffering
on anybody,

962
00:56:20,464 --> 00:56:23,554
I have sat with people
that are suffering incredibly,

963
00:56:23,597 --> 00:56:27,862
with various kinds of
cancer and other kinds of
physical conditions.

964
00:56:30,474 --> 00:56:33,215
And I will tell you that
I have watched people with egos

965
00:56:33,259 --> 00:56:34,956
that are like cinder blocks,

966
00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:37,089
they're so heavy and thick,

967
00:56:37,132 --> 00:56:39,352
and busy with themselves,

968
00:56:39,396 --> 00:56:43,312
and their self-pity
and their anger and their...

969
00:56:43,356 --> 00:56:46,620
And I have watched
the suffering eat away,
and eat away,

970
00:56:46,664 --> 00:56:49,449
and eat away, and eat away.

971
00:56:49,493 --> 00:56:52,147
And then I've watched...
It's like the shell cracks,

972
00:56:53,235 --> 00:56:54,976
and it's like
the spirit is born.

973
00:56:56,195 --> 00:56:58,327
And I see them
often very close to death

974
00:56:58,371 --> 00:57:03,245
and they are... They're like
great, wise spiritual beings.

975
00:57:03,289 --> 00:57:06,118
And I didn't think there was
a chance of a snowball in hell

976
00:57:06,161 --> 00:57:07,902
that person was ever
going to come up for air,

977
00:57:07,946 --> 00:57:09,382
spiritually, in this lifetime.

978
00:57:12,080 --> 00:57:15,475
Doctors are eager to
take away people's pain.

979
00:57:15,519 --> 00:57:17,521
But from a spiritual
point of view,

980
00:57:17,564 --> 00:57:21,046
I look and I see the way in
which pain deepens compassion
and pain awakens.

981
00:57:21,089 --> 00:57:22,526
What am I to do?

982
00:57:22,569 --> 00:57:23,875
Are doctors evil?

983
00:57:24,571 --> 00:57:25,529
Are they good?

984
00:57:26,834 --> 00:57:28,357
Don't you think they should
ask the patient,

985
00:57:28,401 --> 00:57:30,272
"Do you want to
get rid of your pain?"

986
00:57:32,057 --> 00:57:34,494
These are all
very interesting issues

987
00:57:34,538 --> 00:57:37,976
about how you help
without getting caught
in being a helper,

988
00:57:38,019 --> 00:57:40,152
and seeing the other person
as somebody that needs help,

989
00:57:41,022 --> 00:57:42,197
and still helping them.

990
00:57:44,765 --> 00:57:46,550
And when I said to Emmanuel,

991
00:57:46,593 --> 00:57:48,160
"Emmanuel, I deal a lot

992
00:57:48,203 --> 00:57:52,381
"with the fear of dying
in this culture, and death.

993
00:57:52,425 --> 00:57:53,818
"What should I tell people?"

994
00:57:55,210 --> 00:57:57,386
And he said, "Ram Dass,

995
00:57:57,430 --> 00:58:01,478
"tell them that death is
absolutely safe."

996
00:58:03,915 --> 00:58:07,832
Now, just put those two things
together and realize
what a far-out line that is.

997
00:58:07,875 --> 00:58:09,529
"Death is absolutely safe."

998
00:58:09,573 --> 00:58:11,226
And then he added
one more image.

999
00:58:11,270 --> 00:58:15,274
He said, "It's like
taking off a tight shoe."

1000
00:58:17,319 --> 00:58:18,582
Okay? Can you hear that one?

1001
00:58:18,625 --> 00:58:21,541
"Like taking off a tight shoe."

1002
00:58:21,585 --> 00:58:25,284
Now, just imagine that
you as spirit or awareness,

1003
00:58:25,327 --> 00:58:28,417
have contained yourself
in an incarnation,

1004
00:58:28,461 --> 00:58:32,030
or contained it in a conceptual
model of who you are

1005
00:58:32,073 --> 00:58:34,206
and on a storyline,

1006
00:58:34,249 --> 00:58:35,860
and then at some point,

1007
00:58:35,903 --> 00:58:38,427
you dissolve out of that,
you break out of that,

1008
00:58:38,471 --> 00:58:41,605
and there is this
incredible release quality.

1009
00:58:43,302 --> 00:58:45,043
Now, I came into the room,

1010
00:58:45,086 --> 00:58:50,701
and Jinny had cancer
of the cervix.

1011
00:58:50,744 --> 00:58:51,745
Very painful.

1012
00:58:51,789 --> 00:58:53,530
She was writhing in pain.

1013
00:58:53,573 --> 00:58:57,229
It was a collaborative process
with the doctor,
and she and Laura,

1014
00:58:57,272 --> 00:59:00,667
all deciding about
pain medicine and how long
she'd live and things...

1015
00:59:00,711 --> 00:59:02,060
And I came in and I sat down,

1016
00:59:02,103 --> 00:59:04,628
and she usually would fight me
tooth and nail,

1017
00:59:04,671 --> 00:59:07,152
'cause she was
very much of an intellectual,

1018
00:59:07,195 --> 00:59:10,895
but she was so weak this time,
she was just writhing
on the bed...

1019
00:59:10,938 --> 00:59:15,073
So, I sat down next to the bed
and I just did this meditation,

1020
00:59:15,116 --> 00:59:19,164
the Buddhist meditation
that is done in cemeteries.

1021
00:59:19,207 --> 00:59:22,210
Usually, they have
a bloated corpse
or a fly-infested corpse,

1022
00:59:22,254 --> 00:59:23,821
or a skeleton to meditate upon.

1023
00:59:25,257 --> 00:59:27,781
In this case, I just had this
decaying body before me,

1024
00:59:27,825 --> 00:59:31,959
and I just sat,
allowing it to exist.

1025
00:59:32,003 --> 00:59:34,440
Watching all my emotional
reactions to it,

1026
00:59:35,180 --> 00:59:36,573
just allowing it to exist.

1027
00:59:39,401 --> 00:59:43,405
And I became so peaceful
and the room was so clear,

1028
00:59:43,449 --> 00:59:45,712
it was a purple-ey light
in the room.

1029
00:59:45,756 --> 00:59:49,194
And she turned to me,
all the time her body is
writhing in pain,

1030
00:59:49,237 --> 00:59:51,631
and she says to me,

1031
00:59:51,675 --> 00:59:54,721
"I've never felt so much
ecstasy in my life.

1032
00:59:54,765 --> 00:59:57,332
"I wouldn't rather be anywhere
else than here at this moment."

1033
01:00:00,684 --> 01:00:02,816
And she sits up
and she is radiant.

1034
01:00:02,860 --> 01:00:06,211
And she comes over and
she starts to stroke my face,

1035
01:00:06,254 --> 01:00:08,909
as if she is looking
at a human being,

1036
01:00:09,954 --> 01:00:11,782
this phenomenon of a body,

1037
01:00:11,825 --> 01:00:14,175
and she's tenderly stroking it.

1038
01:00:14,219 --> 01:00:15,829
And I stoke her face.

1039
01:00:17,614 --> 01:00:19,311
And then she comes up
and she kisses me,

1040
01:00:20,878 --> 01:00:22,183
and I kiss her,

1041
01:00:22,227 --> 01:00:23,445
and we hold each other.

1042
01:00:26,884 --> 01:00:31,932
And it's a moment
that is absolutely perfect
in its presence.

1043
01:00:33,368 --> 01:00:36,415
I mean, even the little tiny
thought forms in my head,

1044
01:00:36,458 --> 01:00:39,505
like, "Well, this is the next
thing to necrophilia,"

1045
01:00:39,548 --> 01:00:41,028
you know.

1046
01:00:41,072 --> 01:00:43,248
And, "Do you know
her husband is downstairs?"

1047
01:00:43,291 --> 01:00:46,294
and, "Quakers,
what will they think of this?"

1048
01:00:46,338 --> 01:00:50,255
And you know,
all those little niggly-piggly
things in my head,

1049
01:00:50,298 --> 01:00:53,127
were just like little lights
around the edge.

1050
01:00:53,171 --> 01:00:55,390
They didn't have much juice
to them, you know,

1051
01:00:55,434 --> 01:00:57,654
because the whole thing
was just what it was.

1052
01:00:57,697 --> 01:00:59,003
It was absolutely perfect.

1053
01:01:00,700 --> 01:01:02,310
And then she lay back
on the pillow,

1054
01:01:02,354 --> 01:01:04,356
and we held hands
for about 10 to 15 minutes,

1055
01:01:04,399 --> 01:01:06,575
and I said, "Well, Jinny,
you understand everything I do,

1056
01:01:06,619 --> 01:01:09,230
"there's no more sense
wasting time. See you around.

1057
01:01:10,797 --> 01:01:12,494
"Namaste. Namaste."

1058
01:01:12,538 --> 01:01:13,844
And I left. And she...

1059
01:01:13,887 --> 01:01:15,584
I flew down to New York
that night.

1060
01:01:15,628 --> 01:01:17,456
The next morning at 7:00
I got a call, she died
during the night.

1061
01:01:23,157 --> 01:01:28,293
The more you are aware of
the spiritual nature of life,

1062
01:01:29,337 --> 01:01:32,166
the more you see
the moment of death

1063
01:01:33,254 --> 01:01:39,043
as a moment for release,

1064
01:01:39,086 --> 01:01:40,827
for taking off the tight shoe.

1065
01:01:42,437 --> 01:01:45,310
And the artform in dying

1066
01:01:46,703 --> 01:01:48,922
is that,
at the moment of death,

1067
01:01:48,966 --> 01:01:51,316
you are neither
grabbing at life

1068
01:01:52,099 --> 01:01:54,711
nor pushing it away.

1069
01:01:54,754 --> 01:01:56,669
You're neither
pushing nor pulling.

1070
01:01:56,713 --> 01:01:59,759
It's the attraction
and aversion

1071
01:01:59,803 --> 01:02:03,328
that keeps you
holding to form.

1072
01:02:03,371 --> 01:02:07,071
So, to prepare
for the moment of death,

1073
01:02:07,114 --> 01:02:11,597
when the processes
that go on in consciousness

1074
01:02:11,640 --> 01:02:14,469
are a dissolving of boundaries,

1075
01:02:14,513 --> 01:02:16,776
a speeding up of awareness,

1076
01:02:16,820 --> 01:02:18,735
an opening and expanding,

1077
01:02:19,692 --> 01:02:21,563
to be in that process

1078
01:02:21,607 --> 01:02:25,306
where you don't go, "No,"
and grab hold,

1079
01:02:29,484 --> 01:02:31,269
one prepares.

1080
01:02:31,312 --> 01:02:33,532
One prepares
for the moment of death.

1081
01:02:41,888 --> 01:02:45,936
Sometimes, seeking in itself
is just an expression
of "lack."

1082
01:02:46,327 --> 01:02:47,285
Yeah.

1083
01:02:48,068 --> 01:02:49,853
"Expression of lack."

1084
01:02:49,896 --> 01:02:51,637
An abundance of lack.

1085
01:02:51,680 --> 01:02:53,682
It's so abundant.

1086
01:02:53,726 --> 01:02:55,336
"Abundance of lack."

1087
01:02:58,383 --> 01:03:00,428
His Royal Majesty,
The Abundance of Lack.

1088
01:03:04,868 --> 01:03:05,912
"Abundance of lack."

1089
01:03:13,137 --> 01:03:15,922
If you had a little
television receiver channel

1090
01:03:15,966 --> 01:03:18,838
right here,
next to your eyes,

1091
01:03:18,882 --> 01:03:20,971
what you're finding,
what we're talking about,

1092
01:03:21,014 --> 01:03:23,712
is planes of consciousness,

1093
01:03:23,756 --> 01:03:26,541
or channels
on a television set.

1094
01:03:26,585 --> 01:03:31,068
And most of us,
most of the time
in this culture,

1095
01:03:31,111 --> 01:03:35,246
act as if we have
a one or two-channel set,

1096
01:03:35,899 --> 01:03:37,030
we don't have cable.

1097
01:03:38,727 --> 01:03:40,773
And today,
we're talking about cable.

1098
01:03:41,426 --> 01:03:43,471
We're talking about

1099
01:03:43,515 --> 01:03:46,300
acknowledging all these
other channels that are
floating around in the room,

1100
01:03:46,344 --> 01:03:47,649
but we're not picking them up

1101
01:03:47,693 --> 01:03:49,086
because we don't know
how to tune our receiver.

1102
01:03:49,129 --> 01:03:50,609
That's basically
what this is about.

1103
01:03:51,915 --> 01:03:53,873
So, on the first channel,

1104
01:03:53,917 --> 01:03:55,919
when you look at
another human being,

1105
01:03:55,962 --> 01:03:58,922
you see old, young,
dark, light,

1106
01:03:58,965 --> 01:04:01,228
fat, thin, et cetera.

1107
01:04:01,272 --> 01:04:03,535
You see physical body.

1108
01:04:04,884 --> 01:04:07,844
And if you're obsessed
with your physical body,

1109
01:04:07,887 --> 01:04:09,671
that's what you see
when you look in the world,

1110
01:04:09,715 --> 01:04:11,325
other people's physical bodies.

1111
01:04:11,369 --> 01:04:12,718
That's the channel you're on.

1112
01:04:14,938 --> 01:04:17,592
If you flip one channel,

1113
01:04:17,636 --> 01:04:21,161
then you're in
the psycho-social realm.

1114
01:04:21,205 --> 01:04:25,122
You see power and you see
happiness and sadness,

1115
01:04:25,165 --> 01:04:26,906
and neurosis, and...

1116
01:04:26,950 --> 01:04:29,126
It's the therapy channel.

1117
01:04:29,169 --> 01:04:32,694
It's the... And it's
the social role channel.

1118
01:04:32,738 --> 01:04:36,481
It's where there are
mothers and truck drivers,
and all lawyers,

1119
01:04:36,524 --> 01:04:38,526
and all the different roles
and identities,

1120
01:04:38,570 --> 01:04:40,311
all the social stuff.

1121
01:04:40,354 --> 01:04:42,748
That's all the channel,
and that says the world turns,

1122
01:04:42,791 --> 01:04:45,751
and it's a never-ending
source of fascination.

1123
01:04:45,794 --> 01:04:48,145
I mean, it just goes on
and on and on and on.

1124
01:04:48,188 --> 01:04:49,929
Most people are happy
with channel two.

1125
01:04:49,973 --> 01:04:51,365
That's... Yeah.

1126
01:04:52,453 --> 01:04:54,238
In channel one and two,

1127
01:04:54,281 --> 01:04:58,285
about 98% of the people
you've ever known

1128
01:04:58,329 --> 01:05:01,462
are busy with those
two channels all the time.

1129
01:05:01,506 --> 01:05:04,378
If you flip
to the next channel,

1130
01:05:04,422 --> 01:05:07,991
you go behind all those
individual differences

1131
01:05:08,034 --> 01:05:12,038
and you just see another soul
just like you,

1132
01:05:12,082 --> 01:05:14,649
that has all that packaging,

1133
01:05:14,693 --> 01:05:16,129
that's different than you,

1134
01:05:16,173 --> 01:05:18,566
but is just another being
just like you.

1135
01:05:18,610 --> 01:05:21,221
That's when you say,
"Are you in there?

1136
01:05:21,265 --> 01:05:23,832
"I'm in here.
How'd you get in that one?"

1137
01:05:23,876 --> 01:05:26,487
Now, our predicament is,

1138
01:05:26,531 --> 01:05:28,925
that as long as
you're on channel one and two,

1139
01:05:28,968 --> 01:05:30,317
you are afraid of death.

1140
01:05:31,666 --> 01:05:34,582
And as long as you identify
with that which dies,

1141
01:05:34,626 --> 01:05:37,107
there is always fear of death,

1142
01:05:37,150 --> 01:05:40,327
because it's the fear
of cessation of existence.

1143
01:05:40,371 --> 01:05:45,202
Until you are rooted in these
other levels of reality,

1144
01:05:46,986 --> 01:05:50,555
that gives you
a perspective about death

1145
01:05:50,598 --> 01:05:52,426
that allows you to see death

1146
01:05:52,470 --> 01:05:56,561
as a transformation of things
which change.

1147
01:06:01,653 --> 01:06:05,091
Is there still an excitement
about it, about death?

1148
01:06:06,919 --> 01:06:10,270
I'm excited about
what happens after death.

1149
01:06:10,314 --> 01:06:13,143
I'm not excited about death.

1150
01:06:14,579 --> 01:06:17,930
In your language,
my incarnation

1151
01:06:18,975 --> 01:06:22,108
has been using
your incarnation

1152
01:06:22,152 --> 01:06:23,327
for certain things.

1153
01:06:25,329 --> 01:06:27,722
Like, the first time I met you,

1154
01:06:27,766 --> 01:06:31,248
I had probably realized that

1155
01:06:31,291 --> 01:06:37,080
I wasn't gonna get the male
transmission from my father,

1156
01:06:37,123 --> 01:06:41,258
I realized that I didn't wanna
take my leave of you

1157
01:06:42,346 --> 01:06:43,347
so abruptly,

1158
01:06:45,436 --> 01:06:46,915
as it had been with my dad.

1159
01:06:49,440 --> 01:06:51,833
I am a projection of you.

1160
01:06:55,576 --> 01:06:59,058
And that projection
you don't wanna lose.

1161
01:06:59,102 --> 01:07:05,891
Whether it's a father figure
or a spiritual blah, blah.

1162
01:07:07,545 --> 01:07:10,548
I see you
as a spiritual entity,

1163
01:07:11,810 --> 01:07:14,334
and you, you see yourself

1164
01:07:15,161 --> 01:07:19,861
as a... Oh...

1165
01:07:22,473 --> 01:07:23,822
You're a great son.

1166
01:07:25,302 --> 01:07:26,955
I saw your soul.

1167
01:07:30,481 --> 01:07:31,656
It's beautiful.

1168
01:07:35,051 --> 01:07:37,618
The rest of you, eh, but...

1169
01:07:39,838 --> 01:07:41,144
I hang out

1170
01:07:42,058 --> 01:07:45,104
with my family,

1171
01:07:45,844 --> 01:07:49,369
the family of saints

1172
01:07:49,413 --> 01:07:52,677
and, uh, these guys

1173
01:07:53,373 --> 01:07:54,635
and girls.

1174
01:07:56,159 --> 01:07:57,812
And you're one of them.

1175
01:07:59,727 --> 01:08:01,903
You're one of them.
See, you don't see that.

1176
01:08:03,296 --> 01:08:04,428
You don't see that.

1177
01:08:12,697 --> 01:08:15,091
I'm talking about
the places you get to

1178
01:08:16,483 --> 01:08:18,616
where you start to become

1179
01:08:20,052 --> 01:08:22,837
able to live your life

1180
01:08:22,881 --> 01:08:24,404
in a way that is harmonious

1181
01:08:24,448 --> 01:08:26,624
with what you know
on all these other planes.

1182
01:08:28,191 --> 01:08:32,108
You literally die into service.

1183
01:08:32,151 --> 01:08:36,329
You die into the plane of
reality where you see

1184
01:08:36,373 --> 01:08:39,506
that a starving person,
or a dying person,

1185
01:08:39,550 --> 01:08:42,466
or a hungry person,
or a frightened person,

1186
01:08:42,509 --> 01:08:43,510
is you.

1187
01:08:45,121 --> 01:08:47,949
It's not her or him or them.

1188
01:08:51,214 --> 01:08:53,564
You die in your separateness.

1189
01:08:53,607 --> 01:08:58,134
The whole trip of
"What's good for me? What do
I want? What do I need?

1190
01:08:58,177 --> 01:08:59,352
"What do I want?"

1191
01:09:00,962 --> 01:09:02,921
just becomes less interesting.

1192
01:09:04,749 --> 01:09:08,840
And at that moment,
that's where the power is.

1193
01:09:08,883 --> 01:09:11,321
That's where the power is
that changes the universe.

1194
01:09:14,106 --> 01:09:16,195
When you can
make yourself into zero,

1195
01:09:17,936 --> 01:09:20,547
then your power
is unbelievable.

1196
01:09:20,591 --> 01:09:22,941
You are an irresistible force,

1197
01:09:25,291 --> 01:09:27,250
where there is no high
and there's no low,

1198
01:09:27,293 --> 01:09:30,557
and there's no judgments
and there's no opinions,

1199
01:09:30,601 --> 01:09:32,429
there's no good
and there's no bad,

1200
01:09:32,472 --> 01:09:34,213
you merely are part of it.

1201
01:09:41,873 --> 01:09:43,788
The signs are now here.

1202
01:09:45,920 --> 01:09:48,053
Don't get lost in the detail.

1203
01:09:51,274 --> 01:09:53,014
Let your awareness go free.

1204
01:09:55,539 --> 01:10:00,544
Just recognize
what an adventure
this transformation is.

1205
01:10:03,677 --> 01:10:08,639
The appreciation of death
and the spiritual journey
after death

1206
01:10:13,296 --> 01:10:19,040
is the prerequisite
for living life joyfully now.

1207
01:10:21,304 --> 01:10:24,437
Death does not have to be
treated as an enemy

1208
01:10:24,481 --> 01:10:26,657
for you to delight in life.

1209
01:10:28,789 --> 01:10:32,750
Keeping death present
in your consciousness,

1210
01:10:32,793 --> 01:10:35,535
as one of
the greatest mysteries,

1211
01:10:35,579 --> 01:10:38,930
and as the moment of
incredible transformation,

1212
01:10:45,632 --> 01:10:47,895
imbues this moment

1213
01:10:47,939 --> 01:10:54,206
with added richness and energy
that otherwise is used up
in denial.

1214
01:10:57,340 --> 01:10:58,819
I encourage you

1215
01:11:00,125 --> 01:11:01,822
to make peace with death,

1216
01:11:03,476 --> 01:11:07,263
to see it as
the culminating adventure

1217
01:11:08,699 --> 01:11:11,179
of this adventure called life.

1218
01:11:11,223 --> 01:11:14,661
It is not an error,
it is not a failure,

1219
01:11:19,536 --> 01:11:22,278
it is taking off
a tight shoe,

1220
01:11:24,671 --> 01:11:26,673
which you have worn well.

1221
01:11:36,640 --> 01:11:40,426
"But those that find the way
in the morning

1222
01:11:40,470 --> 01:11:43,603
"can gladly die
in the evening,"

1223
01:11:43,647 --> 01:11:46,476
it is said
in the mystical literature.

1224
01:11:48,129 --> 01:11:50,915
So, I encourage you,

1225
01:11:50,958 --> 01:11:55,746
to explore and find in
your being that part of you

1226
01:11:56,790 --> 01:11:58,879
that is on those
other channels,

1227
01:12:02,405 --> 01:12:05,277
so that when
on channels one and two,

1228
01:12:05,321 --> 01:12:09,150
the "world turn" series
comes to its final chapters,

1229
01:12:11,370 --> 01:12:15,069
you won't be caught
in feeling loss,

1230
01:12:16,070 --> 01:12:17,768
but rather, the adventure.

1231
01:12:19,073 --> 01:12:22,076
Because, from where
I'm sitting,

1232
01:12:22,120 --> 01:12:24,992
life on this plane of reality,

1233
01:12:25,036 --> 01:12:29,432
because I live in the world of
reincarnation, of karma, of...

1234
01:12:30,911 --> 01:12:32,652
Life on this plane

1235
01:12:34,088 --> 01:12:37,570
is like being
in the fourth grade.

1236
01:12:37,614 --> 01:12:41,922
You took birth here because
you had certain work to do,

1237
01:12:41,966 --> 01:12:44,403
that involves
the suffering you do,

1238
01:12:44,447 --> 01:12:47,232
the kinds of situations
you found yourself in...

1239
01:12:47,275 --> 01:12:50,540
This is your curriculum,
it's not an error.

1240
01:12:50,583 --> 01:12:53,412
Where you are now,
with all your neuroses
and your problem,

1241
01:12:53,456 --> 01:12:55,806
you're sitting in
just the right place.

1242
01:12:55,849 --> 01:12:57,242
Imagine that.

1243
01:12:57,285 --> 01:12:59,766
Imagine that.
Nobody made an error.

1244
01:12:59,810 --> 01:13:05,163
And all that stuff in you
of saying, "If only...
If only I could be..."

1245
01:13:05,206 --> 01:13:07,208
No, this is it,
including the "if only."

1246
01:13:07,905 --> 01:13:09,950
It's perfect.

1247
01:13:09,994 --> 01:13:12,475
And then, at the time
you graduate,

1248
01:13:12,518 --> 01:13:16,217
and somebody says,
"Oh, but he died so young."

1249
01:13:18,306 --> 01:13:21,309
So, if you graduate
from fourth grade early,

1250
01:13:22,876 --> 01:13:24,617
big deal, wonderful.

1251
01:13:26,837 --> 01:13:31,624
Don't get so caught
in worshipping life
that you lose the balance

1252
01:13:31,668 --> 01:13:34,975
that realizing that the spirit,
it says,

1253
01:13:35,019 --> 01:13:39,023
"Live life fully and richly
as a partner with God,"

1254
01:13:39,066 --> 01:13:40,807
and at the same moment,

1255
01:13:40,851 --> 01:13:43,331
don't be afraid
of the next thing.

1256
01:13:43,375 --> 01:13:45,986
Go towards it with openness
and with love,

1257
01:13:46,030 --> 01:13:47,379
and not with forbidding.

1258
01:13:53,298 --> 01:13:56,040
"The way that is understood
in the morning,

1259
01:13:56,083 --> 01:13:59,739
"one can gladly die
in the evening."

1260
01:14:45,263 --> 01:14:47,657
Just for a moment,
sit quietly now.

1261
01:14:52,226 --> 01:14:54,577
And just be with what is.

1262
01:14:54,620 --> 01:14:56,187
If you're hot, be hot.

1263
01:14:56,230 --> 01:14:59,495
If your behind hurts,
let it hurt.

1264
01:15:01,758 --> 01:15:05,718
If you're emotionally open, let
yourself be emotionally open.

1265
01:15:05,762 --> 01:15:07,459
If you're closed, be closed.

1266
01:15:09,200 --> 01:15:13,334
If you're bored, be bored.
If you're stimulated,
be stimulated.

1267
01:15:16,381 --> 01:15:17,774
If you're hungry, be hungry.

1268
01:15:20,037 --> 01:15:21,255
Just let it all be.

1269
01:15:30,613 --> 01:15:33,746
Ah, life. Ah, death.

1270
01:15:35,226 --> 01:15:36,706
Ah, coming,

1271
01:15:37,707 --> 01:15:38,969
ah, going.

1272
01:15:42,538 --> 01:15:44,278
Ah, joy,

1273
01:15:45,018 --> 01:15:47,064
ah, sadness.

1274
01:15:49,849 --> 01:15:50,894
All of it.

1275
01:15:51,634 --> 01:15:53,505
All of it.

1276
01:15:53,549 --> 01:15:56,856
Waves that come back
into the vast ocean.

1277
01:16:02,253 --> 01:16:04,864
When you know
that quality of your being,

1278
01:16:04,908 --> 01:16:05,996
the ocean,

1279
01:16:07,258 --> 01:16:08,955
the sky,

1280
01:16:08,999 --> 01:16:10,000
the awareness,

1281
01:16:13,177 --> 01:16:14,482
then you're free.

1282
01:16:16,702 --> 01:16:18,138
And being free,

1283
01:16:19,923 --> 01:16:22,578
you can dance
the dance of life,

1284
01:16:23,840 --> 01:16:25,145
and the dance of death.

1285
01:16:31,151 --> 01:16:34,590
May all beings
in this very life

1286
01:16:36,113 --> 01:16:37,201
be free.

1287
01:17:27,251 --> 01:17:28,905
I've got one delicious sign.

1288
01:17:28,948 --> 01:17:31,777
I tell this every lecture,
'cause it's such
a delicious image.

1289
01:17:31,821 --> 01:17:34,867
It's at a time when everybody
that came into my audience

1290
01:17:34,911 --> 01:17:37,870
was always the same age
and they all dressed
a certain way.

1291
01:17:37,914 --> 01:17:39,698
They all wore white
and had smiles

1292
01:17:39,742 --> 01:17:43,354
and had flowers and were...

1293
01:17:43,397 --> 01:17:44,485
You know, they were...

1294
01:17:45,878 --> 01:17:47,227
"We love everybody."

1295
01:17:47,271 --> 01:17:50,100
You know, they were
real repressed anger, so...

1296
01:17:50,143 --> 01:17:52,189
Um...

1297
01:17:57,760 --> 01:18:00,240
This one night,
they were all there smiling,

1298
01:18:00,284 --> 01:18:02,939
and I was, uh... I assumed
everybody had had acid,

1299
01:18:02,982 --> 01:18:04,201
and we were all just...

1300
01:18:04,244 --> 01:18:06,464
I was talking far-out talk,
you know.

1301
01:18:06,507 --> 01:18:08,292
And there was a woman
sitting down at the front

1302
01:18:08,335 --> 01:18:10,207
who was about 70.

1303
01:18:10,250 --> 01:18:11,904
And she had a hat on

1304
01:18:11,948 --> 01:18:13,471
with oranges and cherries
and things.

1305
01:18:13,514 --> 01:18:17,083
And she had a black patent
leather bag and a print dress,

1306
01:18:17,127 --> 01:18:18,824
and responsible Oxfords.

1307
01:18:18,868 --> 01:18:21,958
I think I've conveyed
the type.

1308
01:18:22,001 --> 01:18:24,221
And she was sitting there and
I'd say these outrageous things

1309
01:18:24,264 --> 01:18:27,006
and she'd go like this,
you see.

1310
01:18:27,050 --> 01:18:28,965
And I think,
"How does she know?"

1311
01:18:29,008 --> 01:18:32,272
You know, this is
not an acid-head.

1312
01:18:32,316 --> 01:18:34,405
I mean, I just...
And I kept looking at her

1313
01:18:34,448 --> 01:18:36,233
and I'd say more
outrageous things and look,

1314
01:18:36,276 --> 01:18:38,409
and she'd go like this,
you know.

1315
01:18:40,106 --> 01:18:44,763
So, at the end of the lecture,
I kind of smiled her up.

1316
01:18:44,807 --> 01:18:46,330
She came up and she said,
"Oh, thank you."

1317
01:18:46,373 --> 01:18:48,941
She said, "Everything you said
just made perfect sense

1318
01:18:48,985 --> 01:18:50,377
"and was just so clear."

1319
01:18:51,552 --> 01:18:54,164
I said, "How do you
know all that?

1320
01:18:54,207 --> 01:18:56,427
"What do you do
that gets you

1321
01:18:56,470 --> 01:18:57,776
"into the position
of consciousness

1322
01:18:57,820 --> 01:18:59,256
"that you know all this?"

1323
01:18:59,299 --> 01:19:01,737
She leaned forth very
conspiratorially and she said,

1324
01:19:02,215 --> 01:19:03,434
"I crochet."

1325
01:19:26,849 --> 01:19:29,155
I am loving awareness.

1326
01:19:37,685 --> 01:19:40,166
I am loving awareness.

1327
01:19:46,390 --> 01:19:50,002
I am loving awareness.

1328
01:20:00,360 --> 01:20:01,797
Loving awareness

1329
01:20:03,189 --> 01:20:06,889
is a name for a soul

1330
01:20:08,934 --> 01:20:10,980
which you really are,

1331
01:20:18,770 --> 01:20:24,123
leads you to love everything

1332
01:20:24,167 --> 01:20:26,647
you are aware of.

1333
01:20:30,913 --> 01:20:32,218
The sky,

1334
01:20:34,481 --> 01:20:35,743
the room,

1335
01:20:38,355 --> 01:20:39,617
your body,

1336
01:20:44,317 --> 01:20:45,579
other people.

1337
01:20:47,103 --> 01:20:49,061
I am loving awareness.

1338
01:20:56,286 --> 01:20:58,375
I am loving awareness.

1339
01:21:07,166 --> 01:21:09,516
I am loving awareness.