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This is my best friend Léa.
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Léa speaks five languages,
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cannot stop eating Haribo candy peaches
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and has cystic fibrosis.
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Which means that she was born
with thick mucus trapped in her lungs
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and so is hyper susceptible to bacteria
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that could limit her ability to breathe.
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It means she takes upwards
of twenty digestive pills a day,
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means she will go to the hospital
every three months
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to test her lung function
for the rest of her life.
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And it means, according to
the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation
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that her life expectancy hovers around 37.
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On average,
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for most people.
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But Léa isn't really most people.
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She doesn't talk about cystic fibrosis.
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She refuses to take antibiotics.
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She almost never does
her breathing treatments.
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Léa smokes.
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But she's fine.
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She's more than fine, actually.
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She's more alive
than anyone I've ever met.
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Léa falls in love every three months,
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loses her phone every two weeks
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and works out doing flying trapeze.
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For my 21st birthday
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[people sing happy birthday]
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Léa handed me a cake with 21 joints on it.
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For my 22nd birthday
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-Léa made me jump off a bridge.
-[screams]
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And at 23,
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as we graduated,
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she convinced me to take a trip.
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One, she promised, would change my life.
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In three months, we traveled through
an indigenous village in rural Jalisco,
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a hippie beach town on the Mexican coast,
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the Peruvian Amazon,
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and the Atacama Desert in Chile.
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Léa was sure that in Latin America,
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there was another way to heal herself
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and she was ready to find it.
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And as always
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I was coming with her.
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[ambient buzz]
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The summer
after we graduated from college,
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Léa tested positive
for a dangerous bacteria in her lungs:
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Pseudomonas.
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[chattering]
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Five years before, according to Léa,
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a woman in Mexico City had cured her
of the same bacteria, using magnets.
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The only biomagnetist in California,
according to Yelp,
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was in a strip mall in Upland.
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[door knob clicks open]
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-Hello.
-Hi.
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-Hi.
-How are you?
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Magnets are so cheap
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and they have been around forever.
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And it's a shame that people don't know
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all the things that we can do
with magnets.
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-Do you know what cystic fibrosis is?
-Yes.
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-Right. So I have cystic fibrosis.
-Okay.
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One of the main dangers
of the sickness is that
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you can catch bad bacteria
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that normal people would eradicate.
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These are my most powerful magnets.
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We don't want to waste too much time
looking for a spot, right?
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Right. So, no, it's for sure in the lungs.
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With basic detox, we do lungs, kidney,
pancreas, bladder,
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ascending and descending colon.
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And the basic detox addresses
the Pseudomonas?
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Trust me, once you body returns
to a pH balance,
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it won't tolerate any toxins.
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We're going to give this until four,
which is more than one and a half hours.
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Okay, thank you.
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[whispering] Do you think this is
really going to work?
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I mean
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I don't know, you know...
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We flew to Mexico City
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and as we get there, this woman does this.
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But now this is like my life,
and then, she just says, like it's gone.
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I was like, "Are you sure it's okay?"
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"I know, I checked, it's gone."
And there's no more of it, you know.
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And then maybe my mom
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You know, you're just like...
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Yeah, we like walked out
and then came back to L.A.
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and then did the the test and then
it was gone, you know?
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And like, maybe it's the antibiotics,
but for me
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it was just such a...
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-It was just crazy, you know.
-[hums affirmatively]
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And no one, like no one knows about this
and like,
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in moments where you're like
close to death
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like something so important that you're...
you're down to just like
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throw away all your beliefs,
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there's things that are crazy
that happen
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if you're open to it,
but I've no idea if this is true, though.
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[chuckles lightly]
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Wow, I can really do feel different.
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-You do, huh?
-[laughs and giggles]
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A few days later, Léa's test came back
negative for Pseudomonas.
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[music starts playing]
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And even though we couldn't prove
it was the biomagnetism,
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it was all the evidence she needed.
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Léa felt like she had found
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an inexplicable alternative
to antibiotics.
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And by her logic, if that was possible,
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then the world was full
of inexplicable solutions.
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And she wanted to find one.
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Or a few.
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So she made a plan for us.
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We would start in Mexico City
and go south from there
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going wherever
and talking to whoever we needed.
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She was ready to try anything,
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essential oils, plant medicines,
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shamanic ceremonies,
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horse therapy,
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and frog poison.
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It's just that I really want frog poison.
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[family buzz in the background]
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Life was easy for me in L.A.
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I was born into an Iranian Jewish family
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with an elaborate web of on aunts, uncles,
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grandparents, sisters and cousins in L.A.
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who are all quite sure that
I did not need to go off to South America
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hunting a cure for an incurable disease
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I didn't even have.
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Actually, after hearing
a brief outline of our plan,
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my mother yelled
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that I would get kidnapped
somewhere in Mexico
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and then she would get my fingers
in the mail, demanding ransom money.
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[family spouts prayer]
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[indistinct French talk]
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[laughs]
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[chattering in the background]
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She was...
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fifteen months.
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I have a very bad memory in general,
but that moment
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is stuck in my mind forever.
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What were you thinking
was going to happen to her?
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I was thinking that I should...
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[in French] I don't want to speak
about this now.
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Okay, okay.
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I was thinking...
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[Dad speaks in French] You do it.
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[in French] Come already.
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[in French] I don't want to talk
about it now.
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I mean, we were expecting to see her
with more, more issues, you know.
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Um...
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But she's Léa, she's Léa and she...
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thought that... I can't really explain.
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[Léa's friend]
Especially because it seems like...
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I mean, she doesn't do
her treatments so well.
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-I know.
-Right now.
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I know she doesn't do it.
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Well, I don't.
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I think she's going a little too far.
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-You think so?
-Yeah.
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Because of you think... like, in what way?
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I think she's taking too much risk.
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Sometimes I think that she lives,
she acts like if she wasn't sick.
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That summer,
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when it was time for Léa's checkup
in Brussels
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-[ambulance siren]
-I went with her.
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[breathes heavily]
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[woman speaks in French] One, two, three.
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[breathes quietly]
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-[coughs]
-[woman speaks in French] There you go.
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[coughs]
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[woman speaks in French] That will do.
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[doctor] Okay.
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[coughs and cleans throat]
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[doctor chuckles]
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[coughs]
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[cleans throat]
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[doctor speaks in French] Do you smoke?
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[Léa in French] Sometimes.
Very rarely.
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[in French]
So you have a few smokes here and there.
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[in French] This last year, would you say
your symptoms have evolved?
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[in French ]
Yes, I've been coughing a bit more.
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-[in French] Have you taken antibiotics?
-[in French] No.
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[in French] I hesitated.
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[in French] I thought, since I'd be seeing
you full time... [chuckles]
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[in French]
You should have taken antibiotics.
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[in French] Sorry.
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[in French] Last time, I tried to make you
take antibiotics,
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[in French] just think about it
twice a day, morning and evening.
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[in French] You don't do it, and you don't
look bad, that's for sure.
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[in French] But what's also true is that,
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[in French] if you get worse,
you probably won't notice immediately.
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[in French] The problem I have with
antibiotics, it's not due to time, it's...
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-[in French] You're scared of them.
-[in French] Exactly,
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[in French] just the idea of antibiotics
killing bacteria, I just...
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[in French]
I know it kills good stuff too,
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[in French]
so I wouldn't mind them for a month,
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[in French]
but taking them non stop, I just can't.
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[in French] It might sound stupid,
but I just can't bring myself to doing it.
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[in French] No, it's not stupid.
You're in a much better state than others.
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[inhales and exhales heavily]
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[in French] You won't live forever,
but nothing ever does.
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[in French] No, that's right. [chuckles]
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[in French] Well, [laughs] lots of people
have died before you,
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[in French] but you are taking a risk.
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[in French] With chronic cough,
you never know when to expect it.
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[inhales and exhales heavily]
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[clicks inhaler]
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-Oh, it's him.
-[friend giggles]
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Dr. Lubeck warned me about the trip.
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Léa could lose her pills.
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She could contract another bacteria.
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He said cystic fibrosis is vicious.
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Even if she's fine now,
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she could suddenly get really sick
somewhere remote
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and there wouldn't be a hospital for me
to take her to.
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The whole thing you have to keep the...
you is, it's the...
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Only the right finger moves,
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the left one always stays here.
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And then your turn it.
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And you lick it.
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[match rubbing]
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You sit back.
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-[blows]
-[friend chuckles]
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[cleans throat] And when you blow
[light chuckle]
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[chuckling] you just put your head
a little bit...
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-I mean, you know that, but...
-[affirmative humming]
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[inhales]
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Like, your chin is up.
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[blow]
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A little bit, like, you know,
this is normal.
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-Right there, you know.
-[friend laughs]
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So you're like a little bit superior.
[chuckling]
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Yeah. And you're kind of normal.
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And you hold the cigarette
like you're bored with it.
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For bore, yeah, exactly.
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Bored and then...
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[friend laughs]
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[blows]
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[Léa] I know you so well, it's so funny.
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-[titters]
-[friend giggles]
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-You do?
-I do.
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The next day,
Léa's aunt told us a rumor
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about a guy from Brussels
with cystic fibrosis
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whose family flew in shamans from Peru
to help with his healing.
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Clearly, we needed to meet him
and after finding him on Facebook,
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Léa wrote him a message.
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[Léa] Hello Antoine, I'm Léa,
I also have cystic fibrosis.
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I would love to meet you
to talk about [chuckles]
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a project on which I'm working right now.
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So, if you have some time this week
or the next, let's go eat or get a drink.
251
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I hope to see you soon.
252
00:12:10,229 --> 00:12:11,605
He hasn't read it.
253
00:12:11,897 --> 00:12:13,649
[friend]
Well, it's been about five minutes.
254
00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:16,318
-[laughing] Should I put a question mark?
-[friend laughs]
255
00:12:16,902 --> 00:12:18,404
So why are you afraid to meet him?
256
00:12:19,238 --> 00:12:23,200
I just think if someone did that to me,
I might think is weird.
257
00:12:23,325 --> 00:12:26,454
"Hi also have [chuckles] cystic fibrosis,
258
00:12:26,537 --> 00:12:28,164
do you want to meet up and, like,
259
00:12:28,247 --> 00:12:29,498
-talk about it?"
-[laughs]
260
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You know, I find it a little bit weird.
261
00:12:33,586 --> 00:12:35,796
But maybe, maybe, maybe
it will be fine.
262
00:12:36,255 --> 00:12:37,923
Léa's doctor warned us.
263
00:12:38,007 --> 00:12:39,091
[music playing on the radio]
264
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Cystic fibrosis patients
are not supposed to meet.
265
00:12:41,761 --> 00:12:44,555
The risk of bacterial exchange
is too high.
266
00:12:45,139 --> 00:12:48,100
But sometimes,
there really is no stopping Léa.
267
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[laughs]
268
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So you guys are just...
269
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-[Antoine] Yeah, it's...
-Not gonna...
270
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[laughing]
271
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[friend giggles]
272
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[Antoine] Hello, welcome to my home.
273
00:13:00,362 --> 00:13:02,656
No, thank you so much.
So, do you mind if I'm filming this?
274
00:13:03,282 --> 00:13:04,116
Sure.
275
00:13:08,204 --> 00:13:10,915
[in French] When you get bad news,
how do you react?
276
00:13:12,124 --> 00:13:16,045
[in French] I generally say,
"Okay, what should we do?"
277
00:13:16,337 --> 00:13:18,881
-[in French] And we do it.
-[in French] Like, "Cool."
278
00:13:19,465 --> 00:13:20,633
[in French] What about you?
279
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-[in French] I say, "Cool."
-[in French] Really?
280
00:13:24,595 --> 00:13:30,643
[in French] Yeah. But it's been several
years now that I've been saying that
281
00:13:31,435 --> 00:13:34,522
[in French]
and people kept bringing me more bad news.
282
00:13:34,647 --> 00:13:37,858
[in French] When my body rejected
my second transplant,
283
00:13:37,942 --> 00:13:40,611
[in French] I started losing 10% breathing
capacity per week.
284
00:13:40,694 --> 00:13:42,029
[in French] My doctor told me,
285
00:13:42,488 --> 00:13:45,533
[in French] "At this rate,
in a couple of weeks, that's it.
286
00:13:45,991 --> 00:13:49,537
[in French] So we're hoping to find lungs
on time for you."
287
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[in French] And I told him, "Cool, sure."
288
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-[in French] Can't do anything about it.
-[light chuckles]
289
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[in French] You either accept it,
290
00:13:58,754 --> 00:14:02,716
[in French] or you don't, so you cry,
and you'll die faster.
291
00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:04,468
[cheering music plays]
292
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After meeting him, we went back
to see Antoine a few times that week.
293
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[engine starts]
294
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Eventually, he told us about the shamans,
295
00:14:14,770 --> 00:14:16,397
about Ayahuasca,
296
00:14:16,939 --> 00:14:20,484
this psychedelic plant
from the Amazon jungle that,
297
00:14:20,568 --> 00:14:25,406
supposedly, had the power to heal
illnesses, seen and unseen.
298
00:14:26,031 --> 00:14:28,117
I had this fear of death
I wanted to get rid of.
299
00:14:28,200 --> 00:14:29,034
Right.
300
00:14:29,118 --> 00:14:31,036
So I tried this Ayahuasca thing.
301
00:14:31,120 --> 00:14:32,246
Such a miracle.
302
00:14:32,329 --> 00:14:34,790
I had this feeling of serenity
303
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-peace, and calmness.
-[hums affirmatively]
304
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In like five.
305
00:14:41,005 --> 00:14:42,590
-[chuckles]
-[light chuckles]
306
00:14:42,673 --> 00:14:44,216
You're not ready to talk about it yet?
307
00:14:44,592 --> 00:14:47,636
[laughs]
308
00:14:47,720 --> 00:14:48,554
Okay.
309
00:14:48,804 --> 00:14:49,680
Don't worry about it.
310
00:14:51,265 --> 00:14:55,644
Antoine affected Léa in a way
I hadn't seen anyone affected before.
311
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He humbled her.
312
00:14:58,814 --> 00:15:01,901
And I knew, as soon as he mentioned it
313
00:15:02,610 --> 00:15:05,696
that Léa would find a way
to try Ayahuasca.
314
00:15:05,821 --> 00:15:08,949
[music continues]
315
00:15:17,458 --> 00:15:19,209
[screams in laughter]
316
00:15:24,048 --> 00:15:26,967
Do you trust me? [chuckles]
317
00:15:29,053 --> 00:15:29,970
[giggles]
318
00:15:43,275 --> 00:15:45,361
[laughing] Stay up.
319
00:15:48,155 --> 00:15:49,740
[hums]
320
00:15:50,407 --> 00:15:51,951
[laughs]
321
00:16:00,751 --> 00:16:02,920
The night we arrived in Mexico City
322
00:16:03,170 --> 00:16:05,839
we met a shaman in a taco restaurant.
323
00:16:06,423 --> 00:16:11,178
A friend of a friend, Michelle,
had been a DJ and a marketing executive
324
00:16:11,261 --> 00:16:13,722
before she dropped everything
to become a healer.
325
00:16:14,348 --> 00:16:16,558
Now she travels around Mexico,
326
00:16:16,642 --> 00:16:20,020
learning about different traditions
and leading healing ceremonies.
327
00:16:21,230 --> 00:16:24,191
The next morning she came to talk to us
in the apartment.
328
00:16:25,150 --> 00:16:29,863
I've seen complete transformations
for people have had breathing problems,
329
00:16:29,947 --> 00:16:32,741
heart problems, diabetes,
330
00:16:32,825 --> 00:16:36,662
you know, esclerosis múltiple,
all types of conditions.
331
00:16:36,745 --> 00:16:39,123
I have a hard time believing that I can,
like...
332
00:16:39,623 --> 00:16:42,960
free myself out of [chuckling]
this condition like intentionally,
333
00:16:43,043 --> 00:16:46,296
although I'm super obviously
[chuckles] attracted to the idea,
334
00:16:46,380 --> 00:16:47,631
-you know.
-[affirmative humming]
335
00:16:47,715 --> 00:16:50,718
Well, I mean, I tell people, you know,
"don't believe anything I say"
336
00:16:50,801 --> 00:16:52,928
you know, it's something
that you just feel
337
00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:54,722
that you're doing the right thing.
338
00:16:54,972 --> 00:16:57,016
You know, no matter what.
339
00:16:57,099 --> 00:17:00,644
You know, and those are the challenges
that our families, a lot of times
340
00:17:00,728 --> 00:17:03,564
I say that our families
are our greatest teachers.
341
00:17:04,314 --> 00:17:06,525
Because they're going to try
to do everything
342
00:17:06,608 --> 00:17:09,069
so we stay the same and we don't evolve.
343
00:17:09,445 --> 00:17:12,531
You know, and so we're here to break off,
344
00:17:12,823 --> 00:17:15,325
you know, that system and that pattern,
345
00:17:15,743 --> 00:17:17,745
-and if we listen to them...
-[gasps]
346
00:17:18,537 --> 00:17:20,247
I'm sure I was making sense a lot,
347
00:17:20,330 --> 00:17:22,041
you know,
because they're always telling us,
348
00:17:22,124 --> 00:17:24,418
"you need to do this,
and this and this is and this."
349
00:17:25,002 --> 00:17:26,837
But who says how things should be?
350
00:17:28,005 --> 00:17:31,133
[friend] So let's say we did want to come
see you. Do you think we could?
351
00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:32,092
Yeah, definitely.
352
00:17:32,176 --> 00:17:34,344
-Yeah?
-Sure, that would be really nice.
353
00:17:34,428 --> 00:17:35,387
[chattering]
354
00:17:35,471 --> 00:17:38,682
Around midday, Arturo,
a shaman in training,
355
00:17:38,766 --> 00:17:40,309
arrived with his coordinator,
356
00:17:40,392 --> 00:17:42,770
who had a different kind of plan for us.
357
00:17:48,984 --> 00:17:50,694
[in Spanish] Let's talk, let's talk.
358
00:17:50,778 --> 00:17:53,530
[in Spanish] The ceremony
I would have liked to do first,
359
00:17:53,614 --> 00:17:55,908
[in Spanish] I would have preferred it
to be with peyote.
360
00:17:55,991 --> 00:17:56,992
[in Spanish] The peyote?
361
00:17:57,076 --> 00:17:59,078
-[Léa cleans throat]
-[in Spanish] It's super lovely.
362
00:17:59,161 --> 00:18:00,788
[in Spanish] One thing is sure.
363
00:18:00,913 --> 00:18:02,831
[in Spanish]
He removes everything you don't need
364
00:18:02,915 --> 00:18:03,874
[drum beats]
365
00:18:03,957 --> 00:18:06,293
[in Spanish] and brings you closer
to what you really need.
366
00:18:06,627 --> 00:18:09,338
[in Spanish] I... so, it's...
367
00:18:09,922 --> 00:18:12,049
trip, inside your body
368
00:18:12,132 --> 00:18:14,843
and outside your body
with the Mother Earth
369
00:18:14,927 --> 00:18:17,471
-and you become part of everything.
-[man chuckles]
370
00:18:17,554 --> 00:18:18,972
[chuckles]
371
00:18:19,056 --> 00:18:19,932
[laughing] Okay.
372
00:18:21,183 --> 00:18:22,059
If you allow me
373
00:18:22,559 --> 00:18:24,436
I can take you to heal yourself.
374
00:18:25,062 --> 00:18:26,563
-[Léa laughs loud]
-Yeah.
375
00:18:27,022 --> 00:18:27,981
Yes, yes.
376
00:18:28,232 --> 00:18:29,608
[continues laughing]
377
00:18:29,691 --> 00:18:30,901
I can bet you
378
00:18:31,944 --> 00:18:33,487
as much money, if you want.
379
00:18:33,612 --> 00:18:34,738
It's genetic, though.
380
00:18:34,822 --> 00:18:36,031
But you will heal.
381
00:18:37,116 --> 00:18:38,033
You will be fine.
382
00:18:39,451 --> 00:18:41,036
You will be fine.
383
00:18:41,120 --> 00:18:44,039
So you're saying you would go
and say like your sickness is over?
384
00:18:44,123 --> 00:18:45,082
-Yes.
-Okay.
385
00:18:45,249 --> 00:18:46,083
Yes, yes.
386
00:18:46,166 --> 00:18:47,709
That's interesting. [chuckles]
387
00:18:47,793 --> 00:18:50,337
I give my word to you that in this case
388
00:18:50,420 --> 00:18:53,132
[in Spanish] you're going to be
with the best masters in the world.
389
00:18:53,423 --> 00:18:55,467
I'm working with this marakame.
390
00:18:55,551 --> 00:18:57,553
In his town, his community,
391
00:18:57,845 --> 00:19:00,097
the Wixárika people, the Huichol people,
392
00:19:00,180 --> 00:19:03,559
we have like these three important events
during the year
393
00:19:03,642 --> 00:19:06,436
and one of those events
is going to be this weekend.
394
00:19:06,854 --> 00:19:08,397
Is La Fiesta Del Maiz.
395
00:19:08,480 --> 00:19:12,025
-So if you want, you can, if you...
-We can.
396
00:19:12,442 --> 00:19:14,486
[speaks enthusiastically]
Yeah, we've got you in.
397
00:19:14,570 --> 00:19:16,655
So that is just like...
There's no ceremonies there.
398
00:19:16,738 --> 00:19:19,032
Yes, there will be.
There will be ceremony.
399
00:19:19,116 --> 00:19:20,701
-[giggles]
-The whole weekend!
400
00:19:21,451 --> 00:19:22,536
[in Spanish] Tomorrow.
401
00:19:22,619 --> 00:19:24,830
[in Spanish] Tomorrow
or the day after tomorrow.
402
00:19:24,913 --> 00:19:25,747
[Léa titters]
403
00:19:25,831 --> 00:19:27,791
[in Spanish]
Are you going to consider them in?
404
00:19:27,875 --> 00:19:30,127
[in Spanish] We'll then take them
to the mountains.
405
00:19:30,252 --> 00:19:31,128
[chortling] You ready?
406
00:19:33,630 --> 00:19:36,884
Western medicine has no cure
to cystic fibrosis.
407
00:19:37,676 --> 00:19:39,386
The illness is genetic.
408
00:19:39,720 --> 00:19:42,764
It would take a rewriting of Léa's DNA
409
00:19:42,848 --> 00:19:46,727
to actually get rid of the sickness
rather than just address its symptoms.
410
00:19:47,603 --> 00:19:48,729
[chattering]
411
00:19:48,812 --> 00:19:52,191
But Arturo told us he was learning
an ancient indigenous spiritual tradition
412
00:19:52,274 --> 00:19:55,444
from a shaman in a village called
San Andrés Cohamiata,
413
00:19:55,903 --> 00:19:57,905
two days drive from Mexico City.
414
00:19:58,614 --> 00:20:01,742
He promised that the Elder of the village
could cure Léa
415
00:20:01,825 --> 00:20:07,331
in a sacred ceremony around a fire
involving peyote, a psychedelic cactus.
416
00:20:08,332 --> 00:20:11,627
They say that when you eat peyote
and you are in the ceremony,
417
00:20:11,710 --> 00:20:13,670
you can see the blue deer in the fire.
418
00:20:13,837 --> 00:20:16,465
You shit in your pants when you see that.
419
00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:19,176
You shit on yourself when you see that.
Really.
420
00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:20,761
Don't be scared.
421
00:20:20,844 --> 00:20:21,887
I mean, I...
422
00:20:21,970 --> 00:20:23,639
[raising intonation] No, I'm not scared...
423
00:20:23,722 --> 00:20:25,682
-I don't take it like this, you know?
-Yeah.
424
00:20:25,766 --> 00:20:26,767
I think it's...
425
00:20:26,850 --> 00:20:27,893
[Arturo ]No, I...
426
00:20:27,976 --> 00:20:29,353
[Léa] I'm not against, you know...
427
00:20:29,436 --> 00:20:33,273
I'm sorry if I may give you
the impression that I am very like--
428
00:20:33,357 --> 00:20:34,441
[Léa raises intonation] No.
429
00:20:34,524 --> 00:20:36,235
You know. Come on, I will...
430
00:20:36,318 --> 00:20:38,570
Maybe it's because really I am like that,
431
00:20:38,654 --> 00:20:40,197
-[Léa] Yeah, you are, yeah.
-Yeah.
432
00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:42,699
[Arturo chuckles] Okay,
I'm going to tell you
433
00:20:42,783 --> 00:20:44,701
-as the way as it's going to be.
-Okay.
434
00:20:44,785 --> 00:20:47,287
I can assure you and I can bet you
435
00:20:48,872 --> 00:20:51,458
that that ceremony, those hours,
436
00:20:51,541 --> 00:20:52,918
that moment in your life,
437
00:20:53,919 --> 00:20:56,713
will be, probably...
438
00:20:58,215 --> 00:21:00,175
the best moment of your life.
439
00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:03,387
[traditional folk music plays]
440
00:21:30,163 --> 00:21:32,082
[woman sings in Spanish]
441
00:21:36,336 --> 00:21:37,212
Here we go.
442
00:21:37,504 --> 00:21:38,463
[chuckles]
443
00:21:38,547 --> 00:21:39,881
-Good night.
-Good night.
444
00:21:40,007 --> 00:21:41,174
[music continues]
445
00:21:44,094 --> 00:21:45,178
[yelps]
446
00:21:49,433 --> 00:21:50,642
[smacking lips]
447
00:21:51,601 --> 00:21:54,313
[in Spanish] Do you mind if we film you?
We're making a documentary.
448
00:21:54,396 --> 00:21:57,482
-[in Spanish] No.
-[in Spanish] No? Just one question?
449
00:21:57,566 --> 00:21:58,692
-[in Spanish] No.
-Okay.
450
00:22:06,199 --> 00:22:07,617
[Mexican music continues]
451
00:22:07,701 --> 00:22:12,372
Two days, three cars and 600 miles later,
452
00:22:12,706 --> 00:22:16,251
passed legitimate narcos
and miles of corn fields,
453
00:22:16,335 --> 00:22:18,962
we were in San Andrés Cohamiata.
454
00:22:20,005 --> 00:22:22,424
The Huicholes or Wixárika
455
00:22:22,507 --> 00:22:25,510
are indigenous people
that survived Spanish conquest
456
00:22:25,594 --> 00:22:29,181
and now preserve their culture
in the mountains of Jalisco,
457
00:22:29,264 --> 00:22:30,265
[music ends]
458
00:22:30,390 --> 00:22:31,767
where they speak their own language
459
00:22:31,850 --> 00:22:33,060
grow their own food
460
00:22:33,185 --> 00:22:35,187
and practice their own religion.
461
00:22:36,063 --> 00:22:41,360
Traditionally, the Huicholes
are the guardians of peyote, or hickory.
462
00:22:42,027 --> 00:22:44,029
They use the cactus for everything,
463
00:22:44,321 --> 00:22:45,822
from scrapes and bruises
464
00:22:46,156 --> 00:22:48,492
to connecting with their gods
through the fire.
465
00:22:49,117 --> 00:22:51,161
Peyote is actually one of their gods
466
00:22:51,745 --> 00:22:54,289
alongside corn and the blue deer.
467
00:22:55,457 --> 00:22:57,501
When we arrived we met Julian
468
00:22:58,001 --> 00:23:01,546
Arturo's marakame, a shaman of the village
469
00:23:01,630 --> 00:23:05,759
and he presented us and the camera
to the village and asked if we could film.
470
00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:09,888
The next day,
at the annual corn celebration
471
00:23:09,971 --> 00:23:13,100
Léa would be presented
to the Village Elder to be cured.
472
00:23:14,726 --> 00:23:19,940
The next morning, we woke up to discover
that Arturo had already gone to the party.
473
00:23:20,690 --> 00:23:24,361
-[chuckles quietly]
-[child crying loudly in the background]
474
00:23:27,864 --> 00:23:33,995
[speaking Huichol language]
475
00:23:55,016 --> 00:23:57,102
[speaks quietly]
Do you think we're gonna get there
476
00:23:57,185 --> 00:24:01,064
and Arturo is going to be
like, [chuckling] super fucked up?
477
00:24:03,859 --> 00:24:05,485
-[mocking] Sort of, yeah.
-[chuckles]
478
00:24:06,528 --> 00:24:08,530
[breathes heavily]
479
00:24:34,639 --> 00:24:35,932
[indistinct]
480
00:24:38,977 --> 00:24:40,353
I don't know what happened.
481
00:24:42,189 --> 00:24:44,649
[indistinct audio]
482
00:24:45,734 --> 00:24:50,614
[whinning]
483
00:24:51,823 --> 00:24:54,117
[whinning]
484
00:24:55,952 --> 00:24:57,329
[birds tweeting]
485
00:24:57,412 --> 00:25:02,000
The thing about spiritual healing
is that there's no schedule of events.
486
00:25:02,083 --> 00:25:03,084
[chattering]
487
00:25:03,168 --> 00:25:05,462
We weren't sure what time
we were meeting the healer
488
00:25:05,545 --> 00:25:08,340
where to go,
or who to talk to about it.
489
00:25:09,341 --> 00:25:12,594
As we wandered around we met
Toto and Chris,
490
00:25:13,094 --> 00:25:16,556
friends of Julian who are from
a beach town four hours west
491
00:25:16,973 --> 00:25:19,351
and have been visiting San Andrés
for years
492
00:25:19,434 --> 00:25:21,436
learning the Huichol traditions.
493
00:25:22,187 --> 00:25:27,067
They offered to show us the views
outside the village before the celebration
494
00:25:27,150 --> 00:25:29,194
and we very gratefully followed them.
495
00:25:30,612 --> 00:25:33,782
[in Spanish]
The Wixáritari culture woke me up.
496
00:25:34,991 --> 00:25:39,037
[in Spanish] The system prioritizes a lot
things that are very material, very banal
497
00:25:39,120 --> 00:25:40,830
[in Spanish] and we forget
about the Spirit.
498
00:25:41,289 --> 00:25:42,624
[in Spanish] And the Spirit...
499
00:25:42,916 --> 00:25:46,461
[in Spanish] is the most important
because the Spirit has been to many places
500
00:25:46,545 --> 00:25:48,046
[in Spanish] and it can...
501
00:25:48,338 --> 00:25:52,300
[in Spanish] guide the heart
in a way that makes more sense
502
00:25:52,926 --> 00:25:55,011
[in Spanish]
compared other material things.
503
00:25:57,347 --> 00:25:59,724
[water splashing]
504
00:26:12,529 --> 00:26:13,905
Without realizing it
505
00:26:13,989 --> 00:26:17,200
we had spent over two hours
at the waterfall.
506
00:26:17,701 --> 00:26:21,955
When we got back to the village,
Toto and Chris led us to the party.
507
00:26:22,038 --> 00:26:24,416
[traditional drum playing]
508
00:26:24,541 --> 00:26:27,002
There, we found Arturo again,
509
00:26:27,335 --> 00:26:28,795
who found Julian,
510
00:26:28,878 --> 00:26:31,172
who told us that
they had been looking for us.
511
00:26:31,548 --> 00:26:32,382
We were late.
512
00:26:33,133 --> 00:26:34,593
The Elder had left.
513
00:26:35,093 --> 00:26:37,304
He was old and tired
514
00:26:37,387 --> 00:26:38,805
and so he had gone to bed.
515
00:26:39,431 --> 00:26:42,976
Léa would not be healed
with peyote or anything else.
516
00:26:43,810 --> 00:26:45,020
Not in San Andrés.
517
00:26:45,103 --> 00:26:46,187
[playful rattling]
518
00:26:46,271 --> 00:26:48,440
Honestly, at that time,
519
00:26:48,857 --> 00:26:50,317
Léa didn't seem fazed.
520
00:26:51,443 --> 00:26:52,444
So neither was I.
521
00:26:54,696 --> 00:26:58,325
Instead, we watched the families,
played with the kids
522
00:26:58,408 --> 00:27:00,994
and ate homemade blue corn tortillas.
523
00:27:01,536 --> 00:27:05,415
At one point, a little bit drunk
on fermented corn drink
524
00:27:05,498 --> 00:27:08,209
Julian suggested I find a Huichol husband.
525
00:27:08,543 --> 00:27:10,962
[cheerful chattering]
526
00:27:12,756 --> 00:27:16,259
[traditional drum beats]
527
00:27:25,852 --> 00:27:28,438
[crickets chirping and hubbub]
528
00:27:28,521 --> 00:27:30,774
That night, we gathered around the fire
529
00:27:30,857 --> 00:27:33,276
and tried to see
the blue deer in the flames.
530
00:27:33,360 --> 00:27:36,821
[branch crackling]
531
00:27:37,947 --> 00:27:39,866
In the morning, we said goodbye.
532
00:27:39,949 --> 00:27:41,117
We said thank you.
533
00:27:41,368 --> 00:27:44,746
Toto and Chris invited us
to visit them at the beach one day
534
00:27:45,121 --> 00:27:48,667
and we made our way back
through the mountains to Mexico City.
535
00:27:50,251 --> 00:27:53,421
We left never knowing
if the Huicholos could heal Léa
536
00:27:53,922 --> 00:27:57,258
but we understood that
entering the world of the Huicholos
537
00:27:57,342 --> 00:28:00,762
was not as simple
as Arturo had made it out to be.
538
00:28:01,513 --> 00:28:02,597
Healing, it seems,
539
00:28:02,972 --> 00:28:04,474
demands commitment.
540
00:28:05,183 --> 00:28:07,644
Toto and Chris had spent nine years
541
00:28:07,727 --> 00:28:09,854
walking the path of the Huichol religion
542
00:28:09,938 --> 00:28:11,606
and still felt like newcomers.
543
00:28:12,273 --> 00:28:15,527
They said they would never
fully understand the tradition
544
00:28:15,610 --> 00:28:16,569
or its healing.
545
00:28:17,112 --> 00:28:19,197
Simply because they were not Huicholos.
546
00:28:20,740 --> 00:28:23,868
On the way back, Léa was very quiet.
547
00:28:30,166 --> 00:28:31,668
[coughs and cleans throat]
548
00:28:32,460 --> 00:28:34,546
I feel lost. I don't know where to...
549
00:28:35,130 --> 00:28:38,091
What I think
or what I'm supposed to think or...
550
00:28:39,759 --> 00:28:41,094
I am scared.
551
00:28:42,595 --> 00:28:44,597
And I'm confused by...
552
00:28:45,306 --> 00:28:47,308
I even went like, "what am I doing?"
553
00:28:47,392 --> 00:28:48,768
You know, like what we're doing.
554
00:28:49,436 --> 00:28:52,021
Like I know it all in my head
but I'm like...
555
00:28:54,441 --> 00:28:56,025
It's like... I don't know.
556
00:28:57,110 --> 00:28:58,903
Silence scares the shit out of me.
557
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:01,281
Silence and like...
558
00:29:01,698 --> 00:29:03,032
Nothingness and...
559
00:29:03,950 --> 00:29:04,868
and...
560
00:29:05,160 --> 00:29:08,204
not like a lack of action, you know.
561
00:29:22,635 --> 00:29:25,054
A few days later, we met Lourdes,
562
00:29:25,388 --> 00:29:29,517
the original biomagnetist
who had cured Léa five years ago,
563
00:29:29,893 --> 00:29:31,811
introduced her to alternative medicine
564
00:29:32,312 --> 00:29:35,106
and was a major part of the reason
we were in Mexico.
565
00:29:35,732 --> 00:29:36,566
[in Spanish] To me
566
00:29:36,816 --> 00:29:39,611
[in Spanish]
like, the idea that the biomagnetism
567
00:29:40,069 --> 00:29:41,571
[in Spanish] really works,
568
00:29:41,905 --> 00:29:42,781
[in Spanish] still
569
00:29:43,072 --> 00:29:44,532
[in Spanish] I can't bel--
570
00:29:44,616 --> 00:29:46,618
[in Spanish]
I mean, I believe it because I'm here
571
00:29:46,701 --> 00:29:49,120
[in Spanish] but it's crazy.
572
00:29:49,412 --> 00:29:53,166
[in Spanish] Regarding this,
I recall an homeopathic doctor
573
00:29:53,750 --> 00:29:56,377
[in Spanish]
who came to see me few years ago
574
00:29:57,170 --> 00:30:00,381
[in Spanish] and he told me,
"I'm not going to tell you what I have.
575
00:30:00,465 --> 00:30:02,801
-[in Spanish] You are going to tell me."
-[hums]
576
00:30:02,884 --> 00:30:05,303
-[in Spanish] To test?
-[in Spanish] Yes, to test. Exactly.
577
00:30:05,386 --> 00:30:08,556
[in Spanish] So, I started with the legs
578
00:30:09,182 --> 00:30:12,519
[in Spanish] but after two minutes
I told him, "you have herpes."
579
00:30:13,895 --> 00:30:16,314
[in Spanish]
He was... He couldn't believe it.
580
00:30:16,981 --> 00:30:19,359
[in Spanish] Then, I gave him a therapy
581
00:30:19,442 --> 00:30:20,610
[in Spanish] and he told me,
582
00:30:21,027 --> 00:30:23,112
[in Spanish] "Lourdes, but the magnets!"
583
00:30:23,196 --> 00:30:25,240
-[in Spanish] Yes.
-[in Spanish] "The magnets."
584
00:30:25,323 --> 00:30:28,785
[in Spanish] I told him, "Yes,"
I told him, "The magnets are the kings
585
00:30:28,868 --> 00:30:31,037
- [in Spanish] for viruses."
- [in Spanish] For viruses?
586
00:30:31,120 --> 00:30:32,539
[in Spanish] And bacteria as well?
587
00:30:32,956 --> 00:30:36,042
[in Spanish] Virus, bacteria,
fungus and parasite.
588
00:30:36,334 --> 00:30:41,297
[in Spanish] For instance,
if someone has AIDS,
589
00:30:41,381 --> 00:30:42,298
[hums]
590
00:30:42,382 --> 00:30:44,425
[in Spanish] not AIDS, before it,
the virus of AIDS,
591
00:30:44,509 --> 00:30:46,261
[in Spanish] because when you have AIDS
592
00:30:46,344 --> 00:30:47,595
[in Spanish] it already changed.
593
00:30:47,679 --> 00:30:50,181
[in Spanish]
Yeah, I had people with AIDS,
594
00:30:50,682 --> 00:30:54,227
[in Spanish] With AIDS.
And did they get rid of it?
595
00:30:54,310 --> 00:30:56,020
-[in Spanish] Yes.
-[in Spanish] All of them?
596
00:30:56,145 --> 00:30:56,980
[in Spanish] Yes.
597
00:30:57,105 --> 00:31:00,650
She said that every patient with AIDS
that has come here, she cured them.
598
00:31:01,693 --> 00:31:02,777
[Camille and Lourdes laugh]
599
00:31:02,861 --> 00:31:04,529
[laughing]
[in Spanish] She's like, "how?"
600
00:31:05,238 --> 00:31:06,072
[in Spanish] Yes.
601
00:31:23,548 --> 00:31:24,966
[in Spanish] I ask the permission,
602
00:31:25,592 --> 00:31:28,511
[in Spanish] if it gives me the permission
to search.
603
00:31:30,138 --> 00:31:31,347
[in Spanish] It told me yes.
604
00:31:32,849 --> 00:31:35,226
[in Spanish] Is there pseudomonas?
605
00:31:36,311 --> 00:31:37,478
[in Spanish] Pseudomonas...
606
00:31:40,899 --> 00:31:42,108
[in Spanish] Is there?
607
00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:44,193
-[in Spanish] No pseudomonas.
-[in Spanish] No?
608
00:31:44,736 --> 00:31:48,031
[in Spanish] I had pseudomonas
three weeks ago.
609
00:31:48,698 --> 00:31:50,491
[in Spanish] Let me ask.
610
00:31:50,909 --> 00:31:53,578
[in Spanish] Was there pseudomonas?
611
00:31:54,245 --> 00:31:56,247
[in Spanish]
It tells me yes, that you had it.
612
00:31:57,332 --> 00:32:01,336
[in Spanish] Now, in this moment,
do you have pseudomonas?
613
00:32:02,337 --> 00:32:04,964
[in Spanish] No? Why?
614
00:32:05,465 --> 00:32:06,883
[in Spanish] Because of the magnets.
615
00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:09,010
[in Spanish] Point out to me...
616
00:32:09,594 --> 00:32:10,720
[in Spanish] Some virus,
617
00:32:11,262 --> 00:32:12,096
[in Spanish] fungus,
618
00:32:12,931 --> 00:32:13,890
[in Spanish] parasite,
619
00:32:14,891 --> 00:32:15,850
[in Spanish] bacteria,
620
00:32:16,351 --> 00:32:17,310
[in Spanish] pathogens.
621
00:32:21,773 --> 00:32:24,150
[in Spanish]
But I can ask more, if you want to.
622
00:32:29,238 --> 00:32:30,281
[in Spanish] Emotions,
623
00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,368
[in Spanish] spiritual harmony,
624
00:32:34,410 --> 00:32:35,495
[in Spanish] depression,
625
00:32:36,371 --> 00:32:38,206
[in Spanish] emotional blocks,
626
00:32:38,289 --> 00:32:39,999
[in Spanish] spiritual blocks,
627
00:32:40,792 --> 00:32:41,626
[in Spanish] duda,
628
00:32:42,835 --> 00:32:43,670
[in Spanish] duda.
629
00:32:44,379 --> 00:32:45,546
[in Spanish] You have duda.
630
00:32:45,755 --> 00:32:47,423
-[chuckles]
-[in Spanish] What's duda?
631
00:32:47,548 --> 00:32:48,383
[in Spanish] Duda?
632
00:32:48,633 --> 00:32:49,467
Doubts.
633
00:32:49,550 --> 00:32:51,010
-Oh!
-[Camille giggles]
634
00:32:51,427 --> 00:32:53,680
[in Spanish]
What are your [chuckles] doubts about?
635
00:32:54,472 --> 00:32:55,598
[in Spanish] You don't know?
636
00:32:57,016 --> 00:32:57,850
[in Spanish] No.
637
00:32:58,059 --> 00:32:59,185
[chuckling] But it's like...
638
00:32:59,268 --> 00:33:00,353
[in Spanish] Yes, you know.
639
00:33:00,436 --> 00:33:02,397
[chuckles lightly]
640
00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:03,606
[in Spanish] You know.
641
00:33:04,107 --> 00:33:05,733
[in Spanish] An alumna of...
642
00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:09,028
The thing is, I was not convinced
that it was magnets
643
00:33:09,112 --> 00:33:12,240
that had gotten rid of Léa's bacteria
five years ago
644
00:33:12,323 --> 00:33:14,367
or in California a few weeks ago.
645
00:33:15,243 --> 00:33:17,370
I wasn't even sure Léa really believed it.
646
00:33:19,622 --> 00:33:20,581
What did you think?
647
00:33:22,625 --> 00:33:23,751
Did you think that you...
648
00:33:25,795 --> 00:33:27,422
Didn't have these bacteria?
649
00:33:27,714 --> 00:33:28,631
That I what?
650
00:33:28,715 --> 00:33:30,883
Like, she said, you know,
you didn't have them.
651
00:33:30,967 --> 00:33:32,635
I think she, like, took them out.
652
00:33:32,719 --> 00:33:34,303
You think she took them out.
653
00:33:34,554 --> 00:33:35,680
So you do believe her?
654
00:33:36,055 --> 00:33:38,433
Yeah, yeah. No, I always did believe her.
655
00:33:42,895 --> 00:33:45,940
I'm just tired, I'm like very...
I'm thinking of...
656
00:33:48,151 --> 00:33:50,236
The rest of the way back to the apartment
657
00:33:50,319 --> 00:33:51,904
Léa did not say one word.
658
00:33:52,822 --> 00:33:56,159
I figured she just needed space,
so I left her alone.
659
00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:04,500
[lid popping open]
660
00:34:29,025 --> 00:34:31,027
Um... [cleans throat]
661
00:34:32,737 --> 00:34:34,155
Well, first, like, I think
662
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:36,574
it's like super weird.
663
00:34:36,866 --> 00:34:39,786
So, like, I wanted to address that first.
664
00:34:39,869 --> 00:34:42,497
I mean, I sound the only one
picking it up.
665
00:34:43,122 --> 00:34:46,501
I've just been like feeling
a bit weird inside and I just...
666
00:34:47,418 --> 00:34:51,506
feel like you don't really care.
Whenever I noticed that you're...
667
00:34:51,839 --> 00:34:54,509
like, you seem to be like
in a different mood
668
00:34:54,592 --> 00:34:56,094
or you seem not to be completely in it,
669
00:34:56,177 --> 00:35:01,099
like I always try to come to you
and to ask you and I really fucking care
670
00:35:01,599 --> 00:35:06,062
and yeah, there are signs I need help,
you know, and it's like, it's just like...
671
00:35:06,562 --> 00:35:08,356
It just hurts me when, like...
672
00:35:08,689 --> 00:35:10,316
You don't ask if you can help.
673
00:35:10,399 --> 00:35:14,612
Sometimes I'm like, "I do really need
to explain this?", you know,
674
00:35:14,695 --> 00:35:17,990
Do I really need to explain to you like
why it's hard for me
675
00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:22,662
and like why I need support and like why
am I having some freak out sometimes and
676
00:35:22,829 --> 00:35:27,416
I know when you mean the questions
and I know when you don't, and like
677
00:35:27,500 --> 00:35:30,044
something like yesterday,
like if you're asking me, "how it was?"
678
00:35:30,169 --> 00:35:33,131
and like, if you see I react weirdly,
like, come to me,
679
00:35:33,214 --> 00:35:35,508
like, "Léa, what's wrong?"
You know, like...
680
00:35:44,308 --> 00:35:46,310
[guitar strumming playing]
681
00:35:47,937 --> 00:35:48,938
She was right.
682
00:35:49,897 --> 00:35:52,483
I just didn't know how to help her.
683
00:35:53,401 --> 00:35:57,155
Léa had never needed me like this before.
684
00:35:57,738 --> 00:36:02,743
This trip was forcing us to ask questions
of ourselves and each other
685
00:36:02,827 --> 00:36:05,288
that maybe we didn't need to ask.
686
00:36:05,705 --> 00:36:08,291
And there were things
I had never reckoned with
687
00:36:08,457 --> 00:36:10,418
and didn't want to.
688
00:36:11,002 --> 00:36:14,088
Léa was always pushing things,
pushing me
689
00:36:14,422 --> 00:36:17,675
and maybe I just wasn't equipped for this.
690
00:36:21,596 --> 00:36:24,307
The next day we decided
to leave Mexico City
691
00:36:24,390 --> 00:36:27,101
and visit Toto and Chris at the beach.
692
00:36:27,643 --> 00:36:29,645
[woman sings in Spanish]
693
00:36:32,899 --> 00:36:33,774
Can we?
694
00:36:36,652 --> 00:36:38,654
[music raises]
695
00:36:49,123 --> 00:36:52,293
We spent four days
following Toto and Chris,
696
00:36:52,376 --> 00:36:56,464
going back and forth between
the beach and Toto's chocolatería.
697
00:36:57,298 --> 00:36:59,133
Before settling in San Pancho,
698
00:36:59,634 --> 00:37:04,138
Chris had spent ten years traveling
through Mexico in a converted van,
699
00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:08,059
which is how he met Toto
and ended up on the path of the Huicholos.
700
00:37:09,101 --> 00:37:11,646
Actually, but extraordinary coincidence
701
00:37:12,146 --> 00:37:16,108
Julian and his family were also visiting
San Pancho the same time we were.
702
00:37:16,692 --> 00:37:17,944
Our last night with them
703
00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:21,280
we asked Chris about his experiences
with peyote.
704
00:37:21,739 --> 00:37:22,740
Usually medicines,
705
00:37:22,823 --> 00:37:26,494
what they do is they open your heart
and they accelerate process
706
00:37:26,953 --> 00:37:29,914
but it's always like looking within, and
707
00:37:29,997 --> 00:37:33,334
facing your fears
or the things you have to face
708
00:37:33,417 --> 00:37:35,378
and the medicine puts your fear
in front of you
709
00:37:35,461 --> 00:37:37,046
because that's what you have to work on.
710
00:37:37,463 --> 00:37:41,008
So sometimes I feel that a lot of people
are afraid of taking medicine
711
00:37:41,092 --> 00:37:44,470
because you don't want to face
your demons and your fears, you know,
712
00:37:45,263 --> 00:37:49,058
but that's what the medicine tells you,
it's facing, and when you face it,
713
00:37:49,725 --> 00:37:50,559
let go.
714
00:37:51,352 --> 00:37:53,062
[waves splashing lightly]
715
00:37:54,146 --> 00:37:56,148
[music continues]
716
00:38:06,701 --> 00:38:07,660
The next morning
717
00:38:08,452 --> 00:38:09,287
somehow
718
00:38:09,745 --> 00:38:13,291
there was Michelle,
the shaman we had met on our first day.
719
00:38:14,792 --> 00:38:18,087
She told us we were ready
to do a peyote ceremony with her.
720
00:38:18,170 --> 00:38:19,505
[music fades out]
721
00:38:19,588 --> 00:38:22,925
According to Michelle,
peyote was a gentle spirit,
722
00:38:23,426 --> 00:38:24,927
a grandfather, she said.
723
00:38:25,636 --> 00:38:27,138
And it was good for everyone
724
00:38:27,930 --> 00:38:29,098
and I should drink too.
725
00:38:31,892 --> 00:38:33,936
[in Spanish]
With the permission of Guardians,
726
00:38:34,937 --> 00:38:38,149
[in Spanish] With the permission
of the Great Spirit, with the permission
727
00:38:40,026 --> 00:38:41,360
[in Spanish] of Mother Earth,
728
00:38:47,616 --> 00:38:50,453
[in Spanish]
I present myself here, Great Spirit
729
00:38:52,830 --> 00:38:55,041
[in Spanish] In this sacred space
730
00:38:55,124 --> 00:38:57,543
[mystical music plays]
731
00:38:57,626 --> 00:39:00,129
[in Spanish]
that I can work here with my sisters...
732
00:39:00,212 --> 00:39:01,339
[Léa chuckles lightly]
733
00:39:01,839 --> 00:39:04,383
We spent the whole day
preparing for the ceremony
734
00:39:04,467 --> 00:39:05,926
that would last till morning.
735
00:39:06,302 --> 00:39:09,722
We made an altar and we wrote letters
to ourselves and our parents
736
00:39:09,805 --> 00:39:10,931
to give to the fire.
737
00:39:11,766 --> 00:39:14,060
[ratteling]
738
00:39:14,143 --> 00:39:17,480
The ritual felt foreign
and a little forced to me.
739
00:39:18,439 --> 00:39:20,191
Part of me found it hard to take it all
740
00:39:20,274 --> 00:39:22,568
as seriously as Léa
was suddenly taking it.
741
00:39:23,110 --> 00:39:28,074
But another part of me was bored
of analyzing and rationalizing mysticism.
742
00:39:28,908 --> 00:39:32,203
I wanted to turn off my brain
and for once, just be there.
743
00:39:33,913 --> 00:39:35,373
It was harder than I thought.
744
00:39:35,748 --> 00:39:38,584
[fire branches crackling]
745
00:39:38,667 --> 00:39:42,505
[cricket chirping lightly]
746
00:39:42,588 --> 00:39:46,300
[mystical music playing]
747
00:39:46,425 --> 00:39:47,593
[drum beating]
748
00:39:47,718 --> 00:39:50,721
[tribal chant]
749
00:40:04,151 --> 00:40:06,153
[fire branches crackling]
750
00:40:07,029 --> 00:40:08,489
Focus yourself on the fire,
751
00:40:09,115 --> 00:40:10,783
you can converse with the fire,
752
00:40:11,826 --> 00:40:15,287
everything that you want to share,
any questions.
753
00:40:16,872 --> 00:40:18,082
The fire is our teacher.
754
00:40:34,974 --> 00:40:36,684
[crackling continues in the background]
755
00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:38,769
[in French]
It's strange to look inside of you.
756
00:40:39,228 --> 00:40:42,690
[in French] I'm afraid of emptiness
if I detach myself from my own self.
757
00:40:43,524 --> 00:40:45,818
[in French] What if there's nothing after?
758
00:40:46,569 --> 00:40:49,989
[in French] I'm afraid of walking
towards an unknown place,
759
00:40:50,406 --> 00:40:53,617
[in French]
and end up in a desert on my own.
760
00:40:59,123 --> 00:40:59,999
I want to...
761
00:41:01,917 --> 00:41:03,335
release myself from...
762
00:41:04,420 --> 00:41:05,463
from feeling...
763
00:41:07,465 --> 00:41:08,382
so...
764
00:41:08,883 --> 00:41:10,718
distant and...
765
00:41:11,927 --> 00:41:13,637
far away from what's happening.
766
00:41:14,096 --> 00:41:15,264
I want to be...
767
00:41:16,015 --> 00:41:18,100
more present and more sincere.
768
00:41:26,317 --> 00:41:28,861
As the sun rose I felt different.
769
00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:30,154
Lighter.
770
00:41:31,780 --> 00:41:34,074
And I didn't know what happened to Léa,
771
00:41:34,158 --> 00:41:37,828
but she told me that the peyote ceremony
had opened a door for her.
772
00:41:38,704 --> 00:41:42,082
It was clear that plant medicines
held some kind of answers
773
00:41:42,541 --> 00:41:46,587
and she decided it was time to go to Peru
and find Ayahuasca.
774
00:41:47,254 --> 00:41:52,593
Antoine, Arturo, Chris and Michelle
had all talk to us about Ayahuasca,
775
00:41:53,135 --> 00:41:55,137
this plant that was supposed
to confront you
776
00:41:55,221 --> 00:41:57,056
with your worst fears and wounds,
777
00:41:57,473 --> 00:41:58,933
strip you of your ego
778
00:41:59,350 --> 00:42:00,726
and change you forever.
779
00:42:01,644 --> 00:42:04,188
And peyote had shown Léa
that she was ready.
780
00:42:05,231 --> 00:42:07,816
I didn't understand how or why
781
00:42:07,900 --> 00:42:09,360
but after the ceremony
782
00:42:09,443 --> 00:42:10,861
[cheering music plays]
783
00:42:10,986 --> 00:42:12,530
I felt close to Léa again.
784
00:42:24,750 --> 00:42:29,129
Peru's sacred Valley is
3,000 miles from Mexico City,
785
00:42:29,588 --> 00:42:31,715
4,500 miles from L.A.
786
00:42:32,550 --> 00:42:33,467
We felt it.
787
00:42:38,430 --> 00:42:39,974
Are you nervous? [chuckles]
788
00:42:40,057 --> 00:42:43,185
-You look a little bit nervous. [chuckles]
-No, not at all.
789
00:42:48,023 --> 00:42:50,609
[police siren and horn beeping]
790
00:42:54,238 --> 00:42:56,532
Antoine had pointed us to Pisac,
791
00:42:56,615 --> 00:43:00,119
a town known as
the alternative medicine capital of Peru.
792
00:43:06,250 --> 00:43:09,378
In our hostel,
we stumbled on Harry and Philip.
793
00:43:09,587 --> 00:43:12,423
Do you came to Peru especially
for ayahuasca
794
00:43:12,506 --> 00:43:13,841
or because of the trip in general?
795
00:43:13,924 --> 00:43:15,426
-It was just for Ayahuasca.
-Okay, wow.
796
00:43:15,509 --> 00:43:17,845
-We made no plans for anything else.
-Oh shit.
797
00:43:17,928 --> 00:43:19,513
And how long were you here for?
798
00:43:20,014 --> 00:43:23,058
It was an 11-day retreat, five ceremonies.
799
00:43:23,475 --> 00:43:26,228
Five ceremonies.
Okay, this is a good opportunity to...
800
00:43:26,312 --> 00:43:27,438
[girls laugh]
801
00:43:27,521 --> 00:43:29,773
I'm going to enjoy this and smoke
some cigarettes
802
00:43:29,857 --> 00:43:31,900
and just listen to the icaros, you know,
the songs.
803
00:43:32,901 --> 00:43:34,153
But if you get confident
804
00:43:34,236 --> 00:43:36,238
you will turn up the heat.
805
00:43:36,530 --> 00:43:37,823
[Léa cackles]
806
00:43:37,906 --> 00:43:39,450
That will come on over and think that...
807
00:43:39,533 --> 00:43:42,453
that will make your ego coming away
and what it's trying to tell you.
808
00:43:43,954 --> 00:43:47,291
Yeah, the purge was so violent, like it...
809
00:43:47,374 --> 00:43:48,626
You were throwing up?
810
00:43:48,709 --> 00:43:51,629
When I was throwing up
it was so violent that
811
00:43:52,296 --> 00:43:55,382
it was like, it was like the...
you know when you're throwing up
812
00:43:55,466 --> 00:43:57,468
and you can still feel it reaching
into the stomach.
813
00:43:57,551 --> 00:44:00,262
Well, this was reaching back
into my organs
814
00:44:00,346 --> 00:44:04,642
into my throat, my head, my legs, my guts,
just...
815
00:44:05,017 --> 00:44:09,647
and it was so like... like I was clenching
so hard just getting it all out
816
00:44:09,730 --> 00:44:12,483
and it was just, it was like throwing up
pure poison.
817
00:44:13,651 --> 00:44:15,653
The second ceremony was difficult.
818
00:44:16,153 --> 00:44:18,489
I actually got two cups
819
00:44:19,281 --> 00:44:21,241
and my mother and father died
820
00:44:21,325 --> 00:44:23,869
and I ended up in pain and suffering
from illness when I was young
821
00:44:23,952 --> 00:44:26,997
and it was making me feel that,
and I was just, like, tearing at my top
822
00:44:27,081 --> 00:44:29,792
trying to make it stop.
I was really uncomfortable.
823
00:44:30,417 --> 00:44:32,836
So yeah, I experienced that, but
824
00:44:33,170 --> 00:44:35,839
it really affected me physically
after the ceremony...
825
00:44:36,715 --> 00:44:38,467
I was blind for a day.
826
00:44:39,134 --> 00:44:41,178
It took me near enough a day
to get my eyesight back.
827
00:44:41,929 --> 00:44:44,640
And then that stopped
and I just started to shake...
828
00:44:45,140 --> 00:44:47,810
Like shake, the whole body rocking.
829
00:44:48,602 --> 00:44:49,561
For two hours.
830
00:44:49,770 --> 00:44:51,772
And I was shaking uncontrollably.
831
00:44:52,564 --> 00:44:53,774
I was shaking...
832
00:44:54,191 --> 00:44:57,069
-So now do you feel better?
-I feel great. I feel great.
833
00:44:57,194 --> 00:44:58,237
[girls laughing]
834
00:44:58,320 --> 00:45:01,281
For you, before you came here,
did you believe in it already, like...
835
00:45:01,365 --> 00:45:02,950
[thundering]
836
00:45:03,033 --> 00:45:05,994
Yeah, I was spiritual, yeah,
but I had no idea about the power of...
837
00:45:06,370 --> 00:45:07,413
[clicks tongue]
838
00:45:07,496 --> 00:45:08,330
Yeah.
839
00:45:08,414 --> 00:45:11,750
You know, you can't. You know. [chuckles]
840
00:45:12,042 --> 00:45:14,837
It transforms. It will give you a change
in some way.
841
00:45:15,212 --> 00:45:17,214
But it's not something to be afraid of.
842
00:45:17,297 --> 00:45:19,800
I have a genetic sickness that's called
cystic fibrosis,
843
00:45:19,883 --> 00:45:21,427
-I don't know if you heard of it.
-Yeah.
844
00:45:21,510 --> 00:45:24,596
It's kind of hard because I don't
really know, like...
845
00:45:25,347 --> 00:45:28,726
I don't really believe that it can cure me
physically in any way.
846
00:45:29,101 --> 00:45:30,561
It's nothing that she can't.
847
00:45:30,978 --> 00:45:32,980
There is nothing that she can't do?
Wow.
848
00:45:33,063 --> 00:45:34,148
[laughing]
849
00:45:34,231 --> 00:45:37,526
But I would say the most important thing
about the whole process is--
850
00:45:37,651 --> 00:45:41,655
-[loud thundering]
-[laughing]
851
00:45:42,823 --> 00:45:44,199
-Oh, it's hail!
-Oh, wow.
852
00:45:44,408 --> 00:45:45,451
[cackles]
853
00:45:47,286 --> 00:45:48,370
Holy shit.
854
00:45:48,495 --> 00:45:49,663
[laughs]
855
00:45:51,498 --> 00:45:55,836
In Pisac, everyone seems to be
on a healing journey of some kind.
856
00:45:56,170 --> 00:45:59,465
But it was hard to tell
what was genuine and what was an act,
857
00:45:59,757 --> 00:46:02,676
what was really healing
and what was a product to buy
858
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:04,845
or an excuse to get high with strangers.
859
00:46:07,431 --> 00:46:08,265
Before we left,
860
00:46:08,348 --> 00:46:12,561
I thought that I was here to like find out
about plants that could cure me
861
00:46:12,644 --> 00:46:14,104
and in the beginning we met Arturo
862
00:46:14,188 --> 00:46:15,647
who was like, "Oh, I'll cure you."
863
00:46:15,731 --> 00:46:18,484
And all my life,
when people were talking about healing
864
00:46:18,567 --> 00:46:20,277
it was always physical,
it was always like,
865
00:46:20,360 --> 00:46:22,780
"Okay, did you do this treatment?
Did you do that treatment?"
866
00:46:22,863 --> 00:46:24,823
It's always just like
mechanical and physical.
867
00:46:25,115 --> 00:46:27,367
I know that it has impacted me
868
00:46:27,451 --> 00:46:28,702
[soft music playing]
869
00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:31,163
like psychologically,
and like maybe spiritually,
870
00:46:31,246 --> 00:46:33,290
I don't know what that means, but...
871
00:46:33,373 --> 00:46:35,334
And yeah, to understand like what...
872
00:46:36,043 --> 00:46:38,837
what I really want
and not like what I think is like...
873
00:46:40,506 --> 00:46:41,507
Is like...
874
00:46:42,007 --> 00:46:45,052
I should want given circumstances,
you know.
875
00:46:47,012 --> 00:46:49,890
[Camille] Everyone keeps asking about
Ayahuasca, like everyone from home.
876
00:46:50,057 --> 00:46:51,558
Like there's a way where all the stuff
877
00:46:51,642 --> 00:46:55,437
is like, so commercialized and made
so touristy, like super weird.
878
00:46:55,854 --> 00:46:58,982
And also I don't know if I wanna do it,
like in general, which we've talked about
879
00:46:59,066 --> 00:47:00,067
but like I just...
880
00:47:01,527 --> 00:47:04,947
I'm afraid.
I'm like really pretty deeply afraid.
881
00:47:05,030 --> 00:47:06,949
-Do you want to talk of what I think?
-Yeah.
882
00:47:07,032 --> 00:47:08,033
[Léa laughs]
883
00:47:08,116 --> 00:47:09,076
Tell me what you think.
884
00:47:09,159 --> 00:47:11,662
The moments where, like, I see you happy,
885
00:47:11,745 --> 00:47:14,665
are the moments
where you follow your instinct.
886
00:47:14,748 --> 00:47:17,876
You know when you tell me like, "Oh, yeah,
like you changed me or whatever."
887
00:47:17,960 --> 00:47:21,255
I don't really think so, I just think
like you don't trust yourself enough
888
00:47:21,338 --> 00:47:23,423
that, like your instincts is like good.
889
00:47:23,507 --> 00:47:26,009
I personally, like saw a big change from
890
00:47:26,093 --> 00:47:28,720
-like in the first week, very honestly.
-[laughs]
891
00:47:29,137 --> 00:47:32,015
If you don't feel like something is right,
like don't do it,
892
00:47:32,099 --> 00:47:34,226
but not if it's someone else fears though.
893
00:47:34,309 --> 00:47:38,272
You know, if it's your actual own fears,
then maybe you shouldn't do it.
894
00:47:38,564 --> 00:47:41,859
You're like, "Ayahuasca, I feel
it's not right for me" then don't do it.
895
00:47:41,942 --> 00:47:45,237
If you feel like, "Oh, my mom wouldn't
want me to do it, then do it, you know...
896
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:47,739
-[Léa chuckles lightly]
-Oh man, but it's hard to tell.
897
00:47:47,823 --> 00:47:48,740
[chuckling] I know.
898
00:47:48,824 --> 00:47:50,075
Oh man.
899
00:47:50,158 --> 00:47:52,244
[laughing and humming]
900
00:47:52,327 --> 00:47:53,912
[raising intonation] I don't know.
901
00:47:54,830 --> 00:47:57,457
[in Spanish]...it's too commercial.
And we don't want it to...
902
00:47:57,583 --> 00:48:00,252
[in Spanish]
we don't want it to be an experience...
903
00:48:01,461 --> 00:48:03,463
[in Spanish]
a commercial experience, you know.
904
00:48:03,839 --> 00:48:06,842
[in Spanish]
Therefore, it's interesting to see
905
00:48:06,925 --> 00:48:12,472
[in Spanish]but I believe that we'd prefer
to go to an authentic place, you know...
906
00:48:12,556 --> 00:48:14,892
[woman speaks over the phone]
907
00:48:15,017 --> 00:48:16,852
-Oh!
-[hums]
908
00:48:17,311 --> 00:48:18,145
Okay.
909
00:48:20,063 --> 00:48:23,025
So basically she gave me the name
of these people that are in Pucallpa
910
00:48:23,108 --> 00:48:25,402
which is in the middle of the selva,
near Iquitos.
911
00:48:25,485 --> 00:48:27,529
And then I'm like,
"Oh, I mean, then like, where?"
912
00:48:27,613 --> 00:48:29,573
You know, they are in Pucallpa
and she said, "Yeah"
913
00:48:29,656 --> 00:48:31,366
and so I'm,
"Should we just go to Pucallpa?"
914
00:48:31,450 --> 00:48:34,119
And she said, "Yeah". So she's like,
"Tell them that you, like...
915
00:48:34,202 --> 00:48:36,330
that you did hikuri with Michelle Beton
916
00:48:36,413 --> 00:48:38,749
because they're, like, they know her
because they're like...
917
00:48:38,832 --> 00:48:42,586
-Yeah.
-As real as her, as like ancient as her...
918
00:48:42,669 --> 00:48:43,545
So I think...
919
00:48:44,671 --> 00:48:45,505
I mean...
920
00:48:45,797 --> 00:48:48,300
-We should go there like, three days.
-Are we going to meet her?
921
00:48:48,383 --> 00:48:49,468
[laughs]
922
00:48:49,593 --> 00:48:51,428
And she was like,
"You guys should stay a week."
923
00:48:51,511 --> 00:48:52,346
Okay.
924
00:48:52,429 --> 00:48:53,597
So that's what...
925
00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:55,807
-My mom is going to have a panic attack.
-Yeah.
926
00:48:55,933 --> 00:48:59,353
And... So she's like, [scoffing] "everyone
that I've talked to who went there
927
00:48:59,436 --> 00:49:02,522
and did this one, came back changed."
[sneering]
928
00:49:04,942 --> 00:49:06,944
So okay, let's go.
[girls laugh]
929
00:49:08,236 --> 00:49:09,571
It's so scary.
930
00:49:09,655 --> 00:49:10,697
[girls laughing loud]
931
00:49:13,116 --> 00:49:15,410
Pucallpa is where she's from.
Pucallpa is where, like
932
00:49:15,494 --> 00:49:17,287
you know, the Huicholos for hickory,
933
00:49:17,371 --> 00:49:19,623
like ...like the ones for Ayahuasca,
they come from there.
934
00:49:19,706 --> 00:49:20,582
Okay.
935
00:49:20,666 --> 00:49:22,626
You know, here,
they don't come from here at all.
936
00:49:24,336 --> 00:49:25,337
Ahi, ahi, ahi.
937
00:49:27,464 --> 00:49:29,216
[inhales nervously]
938
00:49:29,299 --> 00:49:31,176
Mosquitoes in the jungle.
939
00:49:33,095 --> 00:49:35,347
It says... Okay, it says that
940
00:49:35,847 --> 00:49:39,518
it's usually to address physical illness,
strengthen the immune system
941
00:49:39,601 --> 00:49:42,062
specific organs
or to connect the spirit of the plants.
942
00:49:42,521 --> 00:49:45,524
I wonder if they actually would claim
that they can heal you.
943
00:49:45,607 --> 00:49:49,486
It's just saying we're alone in our house,
for most of the time doing
944
00:49:49,569 --> 00:49:52,489
spiritual, mental and other works.
945
00:49:52,614 --> 00:49:53,907
[chuckles]
946
00:49:53,991 --> 00:49:56,118
And then it offers the chance
to reconnect to the forest
947
00:49:56,201 --> 00:49:58,704
and the spirit and spend time alone
with yourself and your fears.
948
00:49:58,787 --> 00:50:01,373
It can be used as a, quote,
"reset button on your life."
949
00:50:01,498 --> 00:50:03,458
If you're willing to step outside
your comfort zone
950
00:50:03,583 --> 00:50:05,502
and encounter the magic
that lies outside of it.
951
00:50:05,585 --> 00:50:09,965
[cackling laughter]
952
00:50:10,048 --> 00:50:13,301
[laughing] That's all fine
because I do have another meager lung.
953
00:50:14,094 --> 00:50:15,512
Do you think those people are good?
954
00:50:15,846 --> 00:50:17,597
Yeah, it seems really...
955
00:50:18,682 --> 00:50:19,558
what we need.
956
00:50:21,810 --> 00:50:23,061
Somewhere along the line
957
00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:26,106
I realized I was about to do ayahuasca,
958
00:50:26,940 --> 00:50:29,526
six times, in ten days.
959
00:50:30,318 --> 00:50:33,363
And for once,
it wasn't a calculated choice.
960
00:50:34,197 --> 00:50:35,615
It was just what was next.
961
00:50:36,241 --> 00:50:40,412
It was a step in the process
I had started a long time ago.
962
00:50:41,121 --> 00:50:44,166
I've started by stepping foot in Peru,
963
00:50:44,249 --> 00:50:45,709
by picking up the camera,
964
00:50:46,001 --> 00:50:47,461
by choosing Léa.
965
00:50:48,712 --> 00:50:50,380
I had brought myself here.
966
00:50:50,464 --> 00:50:51,757
[ambient music in the background]
967
00:50:51,840 --> 00:50:52,674
And of course
968
00:50:52,841 --> 00:50:56,261
as soon as I realized this,
I started freaking out.
969
00:50:56,803 --> 00:50:58,805
[phone ringing]
970
00:51:00,932 --> 00:51:02,476
[phone ringing]
971
00:51:05,062 --> 00:51:07,314
-[phone ringing]
-[indistinct chattering over the phone]
972
00:51:07,647 --> 00:51:09,649
[indistinct chattering over the phone]
973
00:51:10,650 --> 00:51:12,360
[indistinct chattering over the phone]
974
00:51:12,819 --> 00:51:14,696
[indistinct chattering over the phone]
975
00:51:15,030 --> 00:51:16,948
We're going to the Jungle tomorrow.
976
00:51:17,616 --> 00:51:18,658
What jungle?
977
00:51:18,742 --> 00:51:21,244
We're doing like a ten day retreat thing.
978
00:51:21,536 --> 00:51:23,080
What is this? What is this?
979
00:51:23,330 --> 00:51:25,165
It's like an Ayahuasca thing.
980
00:51:25,707 --> 00:51:26,792
How are you getting there?
981
00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:27,918
We're flying there
982
00:51:28,001 --> 00:51:30,879
-[Léa coughs in the background]
-and they pick us up from the airport.
983
00:51:32,005 --> 00:51:34,007
Flying? What was the name again?
984
00:51:34,091 --> 00:51:35,008
Iquitos.
985
00:51:35,842 --> 00:51:37,385
Iquitos. Okay.
986
00:51:37,928 --> 00:51:39,930
Ten days? I think this is a lot.
987
00:51:40,222 --> 00:51:42,015
Yeah, it's a long time, I know.
988
00:51:42,557 --> 00:51:44,392
So you are sure this place is safe?
989
00:51:44,601 --> 00:51:47,562
Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's safe.
It's like a known place.
990
00:51:47,646 --> 00:51:50,398
And there is a website,
I'll send you it now.
991
00:51:51,316 --> 00:51:52,651
-Yeah.
-Yeah.
992
00:51:55,112 --> 00:51:56,029
Be careful.
993
00:51:56,530 --> 00:51:59,866
Watch each other,
watch her, watch yourself.
994
00:52:00,450 --> 00:52:01,660
Don't eat anything bad.
995
00:52:01,743 --> 00:52:03,411
Don't do anything weird.
996
00:52:03,620 --> 00:52:04,788
[laughs]
997
00:52:06,248 --> 00:52:07,332
I'll try my best.
998
00:52:08,416 --> 00:52:10,418
-Okay.
-Okay. I love you.
999
00:52:10,919 --> 00:52:12,087
-Bye.
-Bye dad.
1000
00:52:13,547 --> 00:52:15,549
[adventurous music plays]
1001
00:53:03,221 --> 00:53:06,892
[in Spanish] Ayahuasca is a medicine
of our culture
1002
00:53:07,017 --> 00:53:08,185
[music ends]
1003
00:53:08,268 --> 00:53:12,314
[in Spanish] that in the past we used,
1004
00:53:13,023 --> 00:53:18,987
[in Spanish] when, in the past,
it was the scientific medicine...
1005
00:53:19,070 --> 00:53:20,697
[in Spanish] they were very far
1006
00:53:21,281 --> 00:53:25,160
[in Spanish] and they took Ayahuasca
and they would cure themselves with it,
1007
00:53:25,410 --> 00:53:30,457
[in Spanish] in the past,
the first men, women and kids.
1008
00:53:35,587 --> 00:53:38,840
[in Spanish] Ayahuasca is not something
to be afraid of.
1009
00:53:39,883 --> 00:53:41,259
[in Spanish] Because Ayahuasca
1010
00:53:42,427 --> 00:53:44,679
[in Spanish] cures all kinds of illnesses.
1011
00:53:45,680 --> 00:53:46,723
[in Spanish] In general,
1012
00:53:48,266 --> 00:53:49,100
[in Spanish] it cures
1013
00:53:49,684 --> 00:53:51,561
[in Spanish] our psychological traumas,
1014
00:53:53,313 --> 00:53:56,149
[in Spanish] traumas of our--
1015
00:53:56,650 --> 00:53:59,778
[in Spanish] of our dad, of our mom,
of our siblings.
1016
00:54:00,195 --> 00:54:01,571
[in Spanish] Suicides, traumas...
1017
00:54:02,572 --> 00:54:03,949
[in Spanish] it cures our body,
1018
00:54:04,950 --> 00:54:06,952
[in Spanish] our digestive organs,
1019
00:54:08,536 --> 00:54:11,665
[in Spanish] and our head. Diabetes,
1020
00:54:12,374 --> 00:54:13,291
[in Spanish] AIDS,
1021
00:54:13,833 --> 00:54:14,751
[in Spanish] prostate,
1022
00:54:15,043 --> 00:54:16,044
[in Spanish] migraine,
1023
00:54:16,336 --> 00:54:19,297
[in Spanish] body's pain, shoulder's pain,
1024
00:54:19,547 --> 00:54:20,924
[in Spanish] joints...
1025
00:54:22,592 --> 00:54:26,096
[in Spanish]
In general, right? General illnesses.
1026
00:54:27,138 --> 00:54:33,019
[in Spanish] Only two things happen
in the world since the humankind.
1027
00:54:33,103 --> 00:54:34,771
[in Spanish] They are blocks
1028
00:54:36,106 --> 00:54:39,276
[in Spanish] and psychological traumas.
1029
00:54:40,944 --> 00:54:42,737
[in Spanish] Right? Nothing more.
1030
00:54:44,155 --> 00:54:48,451
[in Spanish] When you take Ayahuasca,
you have to have in mind only one idea.
1031
00:54:49,077 --> 00:54:49,911
[in Spanish] Right?
1032
00:54:50,537 --> 00:54:52,872
[in Spanish] The idea of your intention:
1033
00:54:52,956 --> 00:54:55,250
[in Spanish] I will see my body.
1034
00:54:55,959 --> 00:54:58,461
[in Spanish] I want to to look at my body.
1035
00:54:58,712 --> 00:55:00,255
[in Spanish] I want to look at my body.
1036
00:55:00,380 --> 00:55:02,007
[in Spanish] I want to look at my stomach.
1037
00:55:02,090 --> 00:55:03,633
[in Spanish]I want to look at my trauma.
1038
00:55:03,717 --> 00:55:05,218
[in Spanish] I want, this way.
1039
00:55:07,012 --> 00:55:10,390
[in Spanish]
Many people say that Ayahuasca is a drug
1040
00:55:10,932 --> 00:55:12,267
[in Spanish] but it's not a drug.
1041
00:55:13,143 --> 00:55:14,394
[in Spanish] It's medicine.
1042
00:55:15,186 --> 00:55:16,521
[in Spanish] Pure medicine.
1043
00:55:18,398 --> 00:55:19,858
[in Spanish] Many times I say,
1044
00:55:20,108 --> 00:55:22,736
[in Spanish] if Ayahuasca was a drug,
1045
00:55:23,320 --> 00:55:26,156
[in Spanish] Ricardo would be crazy.
1046
00:55:26,614 --> 00:55:29,576
[in Spanish] Ricardo would have a trauma.
1047
00:55:29,868 --> 00:55:33,872
[in Spanish] Ricardo would be about
to fall to the ground.
1048
00:55:34,873 --> 00:55:36,875
[in Spanish] Right? It's killing himself.
1049
00:55:38,084 --> 00:55:38,918
[in Spanish] Right?
1050
00:55:39,711 --> 00:55:41,171
[in Spanish] Ricardo is going to die
1051
00:55:42,255 --> 00:55:44,382
[in Spanish]
because he takes a lot of Ayahuasca.
1052
00:55:45,133 --> 00:55:46,426
[in Spanish] Right? No.
1053
00:55:48,219 --> 00:55:51,431
[in Spanish]
Ricardo lives, Ricardo is strong.
1054
00:55:52,515 --> 00:55:55,518
-[people laugh lightly]
-[cackles]
1055
00:55:57,187 --> 00:55:58,355
[laughs]
1056
00:55:59,647 --> 00:56:02,192
So what we what are we doing right now?
I didn't understand.
1057
00:56:02,359 --> 00:56:04,319
-[pots banging]
-This is what we call the vomitivo.
1058
00:56:04,402 --> 00:56:06,404
-The vomitivo, okay.
-Yeah, the vomitive.
1059
00:56:06,488 --> 00:56:08,531
-Oh, to throw up, okay.
-Yeah, exactly.
1060
00:56:09,282 --> 00:56:11,868
So we're meant to--
we're meant to vomit right now.
1061
00:56:11,951 --> 00:56:13,953
-Yes, that's the purpose of it.
-[laughing loud]
1062
00:56:14,037 --> 00:56:15,955
-I'm just checking.
-[all laughing]
1063
00:56:16,039 --> 00:56:18,041
-...takes 20 minutes.
-[continues in the background]
1064
00:56:18,124 --> 00:56:22,128
If peyote is the Spirit of the Grandfather
than Ayahuasca is the Mother,
1065
00:56:22,462 --> 00:56:26,132
unconditionally loving
and unforgivably demanding.
1066
00:56:27,008 --> 00:56:31,221
Out of respect to her,
you're asked to adhere to a strict dieta.
1067
00:56:31,930 --> 00:56:34,140
Firstly, the vomitivo,
to cleanse your body.
1068
00:56:34,224 --> 00:56:35,517
[retching]
1069
00:56:35,600 --> 00:56:36,851
[laughter]
1070
00:56:36,935 --> 00:56:40,230
Then a strict diet of grilled whole fish,
plantains and quinoa.
1071
00:56:40,939 --> 00:56:44,275
No sugar, no dairy no meat and no salt.
1072
00:56:45,026 --> 00:56:47,278
And after that, a master plant
1073
00:56:47,946 --> 00:56:50,657
different for everyone
and chosen for you by the shaman
1074
00:56:50,949 --> 00:56:53,993
alongside Ayahuasca
to help you through the process.
1075
00:56:54,077 --> 00:56:56,538
[in Spanish] I don't know
if it's something
1076
00:56:56,621 --> 00:56:58,623
[in Spanish]
that could be done with this drink.
1077
00:56:58,748 --> 00:57:01,626
[in Spanish] And... there is no cure.
1078
00:57:01,709 --> 00:57:05,588
[in Spanish] To clean your illness...
1079
00:57:05,672 --> 00:57:09,759
[in Spanish]
To clean the block of your emotions
1080
00:57:10,718 --> 00:57:12,720
-[in Spanish] How many days?
-[in Spanish] Ten days.
1081
00:57:12,804 --> 00:57:13,763
[in Spanish] Ten days.
1082
00:57:16,307 --> 00:57:19,978
-[in Spanish] We can use Piñon Blanco.
-[in Spanish] Piñon Blanco?
1083
00:57:20,603 --> 00:57:21,604
[in Spanish] Thank you.
1084
00:57:22,105 --> 00:57:23,606
[in Spanish] We're going to help you.
1085
00:57:24,232 --> 00:57:26,192
-[in Spanish] It's certain.
-[in Spanish]Thank you.
1086
00:57:26,651 --> 00:57:27,694
[in Spanish] Thank you.
1087
00:57:28,361 --> 00:57:31,406
What's your experience,
like physically, emotionally
1088
00:57:31,739 --> 00:57:33,032
and structurally?
1089
00:57:33,616 --> 00:57:34,993
I'm a lot more...
1090
00:57:36,077 --> 00:57:37,662
negative than I want to be.
1091
00:57:37,745 --> 00:57:39,247
Like I find myself like...
1092
00:57:39,581 --> 00:57:44,127
always finding the dark side
of the situation rather than the nice one.
1093
00:57:44,210 --> 00:57:46,421
And I think that that is like
1094
00:57:46,504 --> 00:57:50,300
very linked to spiritually how I feel,
which is afraid all the time.
1095
00:57:50,800 --> 00:57:52,510
[in Spanish] The block of her faith,
1096
00:57:52,594 --> 00:57:54,679
[in Spanish] the block of her people...
1097
00:57:54,762 --> 00:57:56,139
[in Spanish] Piñon Blanco as well.
1098
00:57:56,222 --> 00:57:58,016
[in Spanish]
We're going to change it to her.
1099
00:57:58,099 --> 00:57:59,559
-[in Spanish] What's your name?
-Léa.
1100
00:57:59,642 --> 00:58:02,812
[in Spanish] Léa, we're going to change
your plant. Your case is a bit worse.
1101
00:58:02,896 --> 00:58:03,730
[in Spanish] Okay.
1102
00:58:03,813 --> 00:58:06,483
[in Spanish] She's going to have
Piñon Blanco because she's more...
1103
00:58:06,566 --> 00:58:09,152
-[in Spanish] She's healthier. [chuckles]
-[Léa chuckles] Okay.
1104
00:58:09,277 --> 00:58:11,362
-[in Spanish] Six Piñon Blanco?
-[affirmative humming]
1105
00:58:11,863 --> 00:58:16,117
[in Spanish]
Six times to get rid of this illness.
1106
00:58:16,201 --> 00:58:17,035
Okay.
1107
00:58:17,118 --> 00:58:19,078
You have to drink it every day
except tonight.
1108
00:58:19,162 --> 00:58:19,996
Okay.
1109
00:58:20,747 --> 00:58:23,374
[in Spanish]
There are things that doctors can't do.
1110
00:58:23,708 --> 00:58:26,544
[in Spanish] But the plants can.
1111
00:58:27,086 --> 00:58:28,546
Cheers. [scoffs]
1112
00:58:28,671 --> 00:58:30,673
[jungle buzzing in the background]
1113
00:58:37,931 --> 00:58:39,098
I'm so curious now.
1114
00:58:44,229 --> 00:58:46,147
-A bit scared.
-Yeah?
1115
00:58:51,402 --> 00:58:53,404
[silent room]
1116
00:59:09,963 --> 00:59:14,217
[audible footsteps in the background]
1117
00:59:32,068 --> 00:59:34,862
[audible footsteps]
1118
00:59:50,962 --> 00:59:54,882
[audible footsteps]
1119
00:59:59,971 --> 01:00:01,222
[grunts]
1120
01:00:03,224 --> 01:00:05,226
[tribal chanting]
1121
01:00:11,941 --> 01:00:13,735
-[coughs]
-[chanting ends]
1122
01:00:14,652 --> 01:00:18,823
[indistinct audio from recording]
1123
01:00:20,450 --> 01:00:21,909
[indistinct audio]
1124
01:00:21,993 --> 01:00:25,204
[distorted] Léa!
1125
01:00:25,288 --> 01:00:28,124
[man sings in the recording]
1126
01:00:28,207 --> 01:00:30,209
[tribal chant begins]
1127
01:00:37,467 --> 01:00:39,510
-[chanting ends]
-[singing playful song]
1128
01:00:40,887 --> 01:00:42,805
[tribal chant begins]
1129
01:00:44,015 --> 01:00:45,433
[distorted audio from footage]
1130
01:00:51,272 --> 01:00:52,231
[chant ends]
1131
01:00:55,860 --> 01:00:57,278
[chant begins]
1132
01:00:57,362 --> 01:00:58,529
-[baby laughs]
-[Léa laughs]
1133
01:00:58,613 --> 01:01:01,783
[laughing loudly]
1134
01:01:02,992 --> 01:01:04,994
[distorted] We were like, what about...
1135
01:01:11,376 --> 01:01:12,960
-[chant ends]
-[baby laughter]
1136
01:01:21,678 --> 01:01:22,970
[random audio captures]
1137
01:01:30,895 --> 01:01:31,771
Hello.
1138
01:01:37,026 --> 01:01:38,361
Good morning.
1139
01:01:38,444 --> 01:01:39,445
[confused grunts]
1140
01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:40,613
-Good morning.
-Good morning.
1141
01:01:40,738 --> 01:01:41,781
[door slams shut]
1142
01:01:41,864 --> 01:01:42,824
Happy birthday.
1143
01:01:42,907 --> 01:01:44,033
Oh, yeah.
1144
01:01:44,283 --> 01:01:45,827
-[chuckling]
-[grunts]
1145
01:01:47,495 --> 01:01:48,538
[Léa groans]
1146
01:01:49,414 --> 01:01:50,707
[indistinct]
1147
01:01:51,624 --> 01:01:54,127
[smacking lips]
1148
01:01:55,837 --> 01:01:57,880
We're going to miss breakfast though,
if we don't...
1149
01:01:58,005 --> 01:01:59,132
Okay, let's go.
1150
01:02:00,049 --> 01:02:03,094
Oh my God, this is so crazy.
1151
01:02:03,177 --> 01:02:05,179
-It was crazy, you know?
-Yeah.
1152
01:02:05,263 --> 01:02:09,809
It taught me
the biggest lesson in my life,
1153
01:02:09,892 --> 01:02:12,061
-What? Really?
-Yeah.
1154
01:02:12,145 --> 01:02:13,354
What lesson?
1155
01:02:13,521 --> 01:02:14,856
It taught me that, like...
1156
01:02:15,189 --> 01:02:18,317
At the edge of the edge of the edge
of the edge,
1157
01:02:18,401 --> 01:02:20,403
like the most drug thing you can do,
1158
01:02:20,737 --> 01:02:25,658
I have no idea of like,
why we're here, like what we're doing,
1159
01:02:25,992 --> 01:02:30,747
like what I'm supposed to do
and then I just felt like a kid.
1160
01:02:30,872 --> 01:02:32,874
Also I definitely talked to something.
1161
01:02:32,957 --> 01:02:34,250
-Really?
-Oh, for sure.
1162
01:02:34,542 --> 01:02:36,836
Really, [laughing] one hundred percent.
1163
01:02:37,003 --> 01:02:38,254
I was talking to...
1164
01:02:38,629 --> 01:02:41,132
to her, which was super crazy.
1165
01:02:41,215 --> 01:02:42,175
[man 1] To who?
1166
01:02:42,258 --> 01:02:44,343
To Mother [chuckling] Ayahuasca.
1167
01:02:44,427 --> 01:02:45,595
[man 1] Me too, I was saying--
1168
01:02:45,678 --> 01:02:46,804
-Right?
-[man 1] Yes, I was...
1169
01:02:47,388 --> 01:02:49,348
[man 1]
I was trying to be very respectful.
1170
01:02:49,432 --> 01:02:50,683
Yeah.
1171
01:02:50,767 --> 01:02:51,642
[man 1] Yeah.
1172
01:02:52,351 --> 01:02:53,770
-[man 2] Did you have visions?
-Yeah.
1173
01:02:53,853 --> 01:02:55,855
-[Léa] That's why I felt in control.
-[Camille] No.
1174
01:02:55,938 --> 01:02:57,732
-[Camille] I didn't have visions.
-[Léa] Not...
1175
01:02:57,815 --> 01:02:59,317
[Camille] I was just thinking about...
1176
01:02:59,400 --> 01:03:01,527
[Léa] trying to be in control, but...
very much aware...
1177
01:03:01,611 --> 01:03:03,696
[Camille] in the beginning
it was very confused to me,
1178
01:03:03,780 --> 01:03:06,866
-I can't really remember the beginning...
-[Léa] I though I was going to lose it.
1179
01:03:06,949 --> 01:03:08,785
I know it's the strongest part
but I was like...
1180
01:03:08,868 --> 01:03:09,702
[Léa]...awareness.
1181
01:03:09,827 --> 01:03:10,953
[Camille] I was really like.
1182
01:03:11,078 --> 01:03:12,789
[Léa] I felt like the most myself.
1183
01:03:12,872 --> 01:03:13,998
[Camille] Yeah, I don't know.
1184
01:03:14,081 --> 01:03:16,417
I was just kind of trying
to get a hold of what was going on.
1185
01:03:16,501 --> 01:03:18,586
-[rooster crowing]
-[Camille pants]
1186
01:03:20,421 --> 01:03:21,339
[chuckles]
1187
01:03:21,464 --> 01:03:23,466
[rooster crowing]
1188
01:03:23,674 --> 01:03:24,675
[weeping]
1189
01:03:24,759 --> 01:03:26,803
-You probably miss your family.
-[chuckling] Yeah.
1190
01:03:27,512 --> 01:03:29,889
I miss them too.
It's like hard, we're like...
1191
01:03:29,972 --> 01:03:31,974
[chuckles] we're so far.
1192
01:03:33,017 --> 01:03:35,102
Like in all sense of the term, you know.
1193
01:03:36,229 --> 01:03:38,314
-[sighs]
-Give it some time.
1194
01:03:38,439 --> 01:03:40,358
[crowing]
1195
01:03:40,441 --> 01:03:41,984
I will always be there for you.
1196
01:03:42,068 --> 01:03:43,611
[Léa and Camille laugh]
1197
01:03:44,362 --> 01:03:45,488
Like in a real way.
1198
01:03:45,988 --> 01:03:48,866
Whatever you do
and whatever happens to you and...
1199
01:03:50,868 --> 01:03:51,911
[sighs]
1200
01:04:05,007 --> 01:04:06,551
Some more?
1201
01:04:14,016 --> 01:04:15,226
It's good.
1202
01:04:28,322 --> 01:04:30,324
[tribal chant begins]
1203
01:04:40,501 --> 01:04:42,503
[chant continues]
1204
01:04:50,428 --> 01:04:52,305
[distorted]
It's just going to be fine, really.
1205
01:04:53,097 --> 01:04:55,016
[distorted conversation]
1206
01:04:55,975 --> 01:04:57,977
[chant continues]
1207
01:05:04,191 --> 01:05:05,234
[loud chuckle]
1208
01:05:18,414 --> 01:05:20,958
-[breathes heavily]
-[chuckles]
1209
01:05:30,468 --> 01:05:31,719
[chant ends]
1210
01:05:39,727 --> 01:05:43,564
I like, saw Mother [chuckles] Ayahuasca
for the first time
1211
01:05:43,981 --> 01:05:44,899
and it was like...
1212
01:05:44,982 --> 01:05:49,320
really [chuckling] overwhelming
and like really really beautiful.
1213
01:05:49,528 --> 01:05:54,283
And I was like flattened on the mat,
like in so much awe.
1214
01:05:54,784 --> 01:05:58,579
And like just felt so...
1215
01:05:59,038 --> 01:06:02,541
crazy and amazing and felt like
faith restored
1216
01:06:02,833 --> 01:06:05,127
pretty like directly and immediately.
1217
01:06:06,754 --> 01:06:07,588
[water splashing]
1218
01:06:07,672 --> 01:06:09,131
-[Camille screams]
-[Léa laughs]
1219
01:06:10,424 --> 01:06:11,676
[dripping water splash]
1220
01:06:15,930 --> 01:06:17,264
[laughter]
1221
01:06:17,640 --> 01:06:18,891
Okay, let's let it dry on us.
1222
01:06:24,647 --> 01:06:27,858
There's a part of me actually that,
when I'm in ceremony,
1223
01:06:27,942 --> 01:06:30,277
I'm convinced like it's real
1224
01:06:30,361 --> 01:06:34,073
like as real as the physical world
to something we can't tap into.
1225
01:06:34,740 --> 01:06:37,243
You know what I mean? Like that you know,
you see Mother Ayahuasca
1226
01:06:37,326 --> 01:06:38,744
and then the vision that she...
1227
01:06:39,120 --> 01:06:42,957
the jump of like she's actually there,
like it's not just a metaphor.
1228
01:06:43,249 --> 01:06:44,959
You know that your brain is conjuring up,
1229
01:06:45,042 --> 01:06:47,044
Like, I don't know,
what do you think of this?
1230
01:06:47,628 --> 01:06:51,007
For me, what I've come to for myself
is that it doesn't matter.
1231
01:06:51,090 --> 01:06:53,384
-Right.
-It doesn't matter if they're real or not.
1232
01:06:53,467 --> 01:06:55,553
-What matters is the results
-Yeah.
1233
01:06:55,636 --> 01:06:56,929
and the results are real.
1234
01:06:57,972 --> 01:06:58,931
[sighs]
1235
01:07:03,185 --> 01:07:05,312
The shamans are taking their awareness
1236
01:07:06,022 --> 01:07:08,858
and their consciousness
down to the molecular level
1237
01:07:09,942 --> 01:07:11,110
with their icaros.
1238
01:07:11,736 --> 01:07:14,030
They're working on the level of the DNA.
1239
01:07:14,447 --> 01:07:17,700
That's a great theory,
I'm not rejecting it, but...
1240
01:07:18,451 --> 01:07:21,328
-there's like, there's no case,
-Right.
1241
01:07:21,412 --> 01:07:23,914
you know, that just shows that
that has happened.
1242
01:07:23,998 --> 01:07:26,250
If I go back and I don't smoke
1243
01:07:26,333 --> 01:07:29,503
and I do the treatment
that I already have that exists
1244
01:07:29,587 --> 01:07:32,798
that already to me is, I mean,
it is a complete game changer.
1245
01:07:32,882 --> 01:07:34,884
[singing playfully in Spanish]
1246
01:07:43,476 --> 01:07:44,643
[female laughs]
1247
01:07:49,815 --> 01:07:51,317
-[singing ends]
-[cheering and clapping]
1248
01:07:54,070 --> 01:07:56,697
[laughing buzz]
1249
01:08:01,869 --> 01:08:04,872
[silence]
1250
01:08:29,355 --> 01:08:31,357
[tribal chant begins]
1251
01:08:38,447 --> 01:08:42,409
[distorted chant audio]
1252
01:08:43,119 --> 01:08:44,829
[chant continues normally
in the background]
1253
01:08:44,912 --> 01:08:46,580
During the last ceremony
1254
01:08:46,664 --> 01:08:48,165
I heard Léa crying in a way
1255
01:08:48,332 --> 01:08:49,583
I had never heard before.
1256
01:08:50,417 --> 01:08:52,711
I thought myself out of my own vision,
1257
01:08:52,795 --> 01:08:54,797
and I softly yelled across the room.
1258
01:08:55,673 --> 01:08:56,674
I love you Léa.
1259
01:08:57,716 --> 01:08:59,176
I just didn't hear an answer.
1260
01:09:01,011 --> 01:09:02,221
I collapsed onto my mind
1261
01:09:02,346 --> 01:09:05,599
and considered just retreating back
into the inside of my head
1262
01:09:06,225 --> 01:09:08,227
that I was so certain
she had to hear me.
1263
01:09:09,436 --> 01:09:10,437
So I got up again.
1264
01:09:10,938 --> 01:09:11,897
I love you Léa.
1265
01:09:12,940 --> 01:09:15,067
and then I heard, "I love you too."
1266
01:09:15,192 --> 01:09:17,194
[chant continues]
1267
01:09:18,863 --> 01:09:20,823
[thundering]
1268
01:09:20,906 --> 01:09:22,908
[mystical tribal chant continues]
1269
01:09:31,292 --> 01:09:32,251
[chant cuts]
1270
01:09:32,334 --> 01:09:33,627
[doorbell rings]
1271
01:09:35,379 --> 01:09:37,715
-[door knob clicks open]
-[distorted in French] Good morning!
1272
01:09:37,798 --> 01:09:39,800
[chant begins]
1273
01:09:50,686 --> 01:09:52,521
[indistinct audio from footage]
1274
01:09:52,605 --> 01:09:54,607
[chant continues]
1275
01:10:00,571 --> 01:10:02,781
[inhales and exhales heavily]
1276
01:10:08,871 --> 01:10:11,707
[distorted] It's a documentary
about dying young.
1277
01:10:16,337 --> 01:10:17,922
[weeping]
I can't really talk about it.
1278
01:10:21,884 --> 01:10:23,844
[distorted coughing]
1279
01:10:24,678 --> 01:10:29,475
-[distorted audio]
-[in French] Would you like tomorrow?
1280
01:10:30,059 --> 01:10:32,061
[chant continues]
1281
01:10:32,144 --> 01:10:33,646
-[distorted]
-[Camille] Second smoker.
1282
01:10:33,812 --> 01:10:35,522
[distorted] You like to film me,
don't you?
1283
01:10:36,232 --> 01:10:37,816
[distorted laughter]
1284
01:10:45,282 --> 01:10:47,076
[coughs]
1285
01:10:55,209 --> 01:10:57,628
[chant fades out]
1286
01:11:20,776 --> 01:11:21,902
I mean, yeah, I know, I...
1287
01:11:22,319 --> 01:11:24,405
I just like,
I just wanted it to be different
1288
01:11:24,488 --> 01:11:26,115
you know, than like what it was.
1289
01:11:26,198 --> 01:11:27,366
I was like, I just don't...
1290
01:11:27,950 --> 01:11:31,036
want to be there but it's so funny
saying you always learning.
1291
01:11:31,287 --> 01:11:33,414
The question I asked was, "Why am I here?"
1292
01:11:33,747 --> 01:11:36,166
And I really think I'm here to help you.
[chuckles]
1293
01:11:37,418 --> 01:11:39,295
-Like I really really think so.
-[chuckles]
1294
01:11:39,420 --> 01:11:40,796
That is so funny. [chuckles]
1295
01:11:41,130 --> 01:11:43,048
I really is like, "Oh!" like...
1296
01:11:43,132 --> 01:11:44,341
And so I wanted to tell you.
1297
01:11:44,425 --> 01:11:45,259
[weeps] Oh my God.
1298
01:11:45,342 --> 01:11:46,802
Basically, like, that...
1299
01:11:46,885 --> 01:11:48,095
That like you can,
1300
01:11:48,178 --> 01:11:49,888
-you can chill. [chuckles]
-[sobs]
1301
01:11:50,055 --> 01:11:52,057
[crying softly]
1302
01:11:52,141 --> 01:11:54,435
-[chuckles]
-You can relax. [chuckles]
1303
01:11:56,103 --> 01:11:58,314
That it's like you
1304
01:11:58,605 --> 01:12:00,607
and I really try to take care of you.
1305
01:12:00,691 --> 01:12:02,192
[sobbing]
1306
01:12:02,693 --> 01:12:04,695
[weeping]
1307
01:12:05,237 --> 01:12:06,488
What were you thinking about?
1308
01:12:06,739 --> 01:12:07,614
Sickness.
1309
01:12:09,700 --> 01:12:11,702
The sickness? In what way?
1310
01:12:12,369 --> 01:12:13,203
It's like the--
1311
01:12:13,454 --> 01:12:15,706
It's funny because the first night
I was like,
1312
01:12:16,749 --> 01:12:18,167
"Oh, I feel so normal."
1313
01:12:18,542 --> 01:12:20,085
You know? Like I just feel
1314
01:12:20,461 --> 01:12:23,505
normal like everything's fine like,
"What the fuck am I worrying."
1315
01:12:23,589 --> 01:12:24,923
And the second night I was like,
1316
01:12:25,466 --> 01:12:26,925
I'm not normal.
1317
01:12:27,217 --> 01:12:28,344
You know, and like...
1318
01:12:29,428 --> 01:12:30,721
And just like... [chuckles]
1319
01:12:39,146 --> 01:12:40,606
There's like a lot of the...
1320
01:12:41,815 --> 01:12:42,858
[pants]
1321
01:12:43,275 --> 01:12:44,693
[humming]
1322
01:12:44,818 --> 01:12:45,736
Over the...
1323
01:12:47,821 --> 01:12:51,992
I just brought back like a lot of like
[crying] childhood feelings, you know...
1324
01:12:54,328 --> 01:12:55,913
[whimpering] like, feeling this way...
1325
01:12:57,122 --> 01:12:58,165
[weeping]
1326
01:12:58,832 --> 01:12:59,666
Like just...
1327
01:13:00,626 --> 01:13:03,337
I keep feeling like different, you know,
and like...
1328
01:13:04,713 --> 01:13:06,215
[whimpering] I just realized that...
1329
01:13:06,465 --> 01:13:07,299
[sobbing]
1330
01:13:08,967 --> 01:13:10,010
[whimpering] it was hard.
1331
01:13:16,975 --> 01:13:19,228
[breathes heavily]
1332
01:13:19,812 --> 01:13:20,813
So that, like...
1333
01:13:21,313 --> 01:13:24,024
whatever, like whatever
this is going to do and like...
1334
01:13:24,775 --> 01:13:27,152
There's going to help or not,
like I don't know. [whimpering]
1335
01:13:28,695 --> 01:13:31,949
It's just like something [crying]
that I'm going to have to deal with.
1336
01:13:36,286 --> 01:13:37,871
[sobs]
1337
01:13:37,955 --> 01:13:39,331
And I do think, like...
1338
01:13:40,040 --> 01:13:41,583
the reason that I don't do it,
1339
01:13:41,667 --> 01:13:42,918
[weeping]
1340
01:13:43,001 --> 01:13:44,545
the treatments and...
1341
01:13:45,421 --> 01:13:47,047
I just feel that, like, you know
1342
01:13:47,506 --> 01:13:48,340
it's just, I...
1343
01:13:48,966 --> 01:13:50,551
It reminds me, you know.
1344
01:13:50,634 --> 01:13:52,636
[crying]
1345
01:13:57,599 --> 01:13:59,852
[crying]
1346
01:14:00,394 --> 01:14:01,603
And I just don't know.
1347
01:14:01,687 --> 01:14:02,938
[sobbing]
1348
01:14:04,440 --> 01:14:06,608
[sobbing]
1349
01:14:21,582 --> 01:14:23,584
[operating engine]
1350
01:14:34,595 --> 01:14:37,389
[traffic buzz]
1351
01:14:46,982 --> 01:14:47,983
[sighs]
1352
01:14:51,570 --> 01:14:52,404
No.
1353
01:14:52,821 --> 01:14:53,947
[weeping]
1354
01:14:58,035 --> 01:15:01,163
There wasn't a lot of time to deal
with what had happened.
1355
01:15:02,122 --> 01:15:03,665
We're in a kind of shock,
1356
01:15:04,208 --> 01:15:07,836
beginning to process this huge download
we had just received
1357
01:15:08,212 --> 01:15:12,883
but somehow we also had to get across
Peru and into Chile
1358
01:15:12,966 --> 01:15:14,968
to meet a friend
in the Atacama Desert,
1359
01:15:15,511 --> 01:15:17,012
the driest place in the world.
1360
01:15:36,365 --> 01:15:38,242
What did this make you think
about your illness?
1361
01:15:38,325 --> 01:15:39,952
I actually think that...
1362
01:15:41,119 --> 01:15:44,873
the sickness is not something
that I meant to get rid of.
1363
01:15:44,957 --> 01:15:47,626
I think the reason that,
like during Ayahuasca,
1364
01:15:47,709 --> 01:15:51,171
I didn't try and go and change it
is because
1365
01:15:51,588 --> 01:15:54,967
it just really to me feels like
something that I need to work with.
1366
01:15:55,217 --> 01:15:58,303
Do you feel like there is a problem though
or there was one when we started?
1367
01:15:58,387 --> 01:16:02,432
Definitely, definitely. I mean, I feel
the problem was that, like I didn't...
1368
01:16:02,766 --> 01:16:04,685
I didn't acknowledge that it existed.
1369
01:16:04,768 --> 01:16:06,645
It's something that I need to work on.
1370
01:16:06,728 --> 01:16:08,480
It's like something
I need to to take care of
1371
01:16:08,564 --> 01:16:11,024
Like I need to take care of myself
and take care of my body,
1372
01:16:11,149 --> 01:16:14,152
like treated with respect, with care
and be thankful.
1373
01:16:14,236 --> 01:16:16,238
Like that's enough for now.
1374
01:16:29,167 --> 01:16:30,919
[laughing]
1375
01:16:32,713 --> 01:16:35,132
[indistinct chattering]
1376
01:16:35,549 --> 01:16:38,552
Until he decides he's full and flies away.
1377
01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:42,097
I don't know how long will take.
1378
01:16:44,057 --> 01:16:46,518
But I want him to feel happy.
1379
01:16:47,060 --> 01:16:49,062
[cackling]
1380
01:16:50,022 --> 01:16:53,400
And to fly like freely,
"Oh, I'm full, finally."
1381
01:16:55,360 --> 01:16:57,362
[melancholic instrumental music plays]
1382
01:17:39,905 --> 01:17:41,907
[music continues]
1383
01:19:01,862 --> 01:19:03,864
[music ends]
1384
01:19:17,753 --> 01:19:20,756
[in French] It's not easy, but try
breathing slowly and that should work.
1385
01:19:20,839 --> 01:19:22,048
[exhales heavily]
1386
01:19:22,299 --> 01:19:23,842
[clicks inhaler]
1387
01:19:31,141 --> 01:19:33,059
[in French] See this? We've bought
five of them--
1388
01:19:33,143 --> 01:19:34,352
[in French] Really?
1389
01:19:34,436 --> 01:19:37,063
[in French]
The only thing my mom needs to know
1390
01:19:37,481 --> 01:19:40,567
[in French] is if it's above 100,
it's okay, and she's happy.
1391
01:19:40,650 --> 01:19:41,610
[laughs]
1392
01:19:42,360 --> 01:19:44,112
She still had cystic fibrosis,
1393
01:19:44,696 --> 01:19:45,947
but she was fine.
1394
01:19:46,448 --> 01:19:49,785
No bacteria
and an above average lung capacity.
1395
01:19:50,410 --> 01:19:52,037
Maybe even better than mine.
1396
01:19:52,454 --> 01:19:54,080
[in French] One, two, three.
1397
01:19:54,331 --> 01:19:58,084
[exhales heavily]
1398
01:20:05,050 --> 01:20:07,761
[breathes heavily]
1399
01:20:12,516 --> 01:20:16,311
They say that the real ceremony
begins when you leave Ayahuasca.
1400
01:20:17,145 --> 01:20:21,483
You come back to your life and
everything is actually exactly the same.
1401
01:20:22,359 --> 01:20:23,652
You are just different.
1402
01:20:24,694 --> 01:20:26,029
And I was different.
1403
01:20:26,738 --> 01:20:29,574
There was no way
I was staying in Los Angeles.
1404
01:20:30,325 --> 01:20:34,329
Things change when you realize that
under the right circumstances,
1405
01:20:34,412 --> 01:20:36,081
you can talk to a plant.
1406
01:20:37,749 --> 01:20:39,209
Léa is also different.
1407
01:20:40,126 --> 01:20:41,670
She hasn't lost her phone yet.
1408
01:20:42,212 --> 01:20:43,839
She's been in love with one guy.
1409
01:20:44,464 --> 01:20:46,424
And she does her breathing treatments.
1410
01:20:48,927 --> 01:20:51,012
And even though she doesn't smoke anymore
1411
01:20:51,513 --> 01:20:54,766
every once in a while,
she steals a drag of my cigarette.